Having An Ed And Not Even Being Skinny Is So Fuvkin Embarrassing

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

*sighs dreamily* what is Wrong with him

holy fuck why does it always feel like i’m asking for too much, always asking too much.

:/

self harming by trying to make your symptoms worse on purpose

romance ??? AND disgusting sex ????

Honestly, I sometimes contemplate on my actions to an unnecessary point.

What if I never said 'yes'? Maybe I should've just waited longer.

It's normal, though. Everyone does that. They, too, want to end the pain by drowning in their own blood rather than in guilt. They'll feel like the most miserable person in the whole world and regret it the next day. They were just caught up in the moment.

They'll regret throwing away old things, cutting their wrists open, macrodosing those pills, chugging down that bottle of bitterness that taste sweeter than their suffering.

They'll only end up as addicts. Adding up to their pain with every pill they take, with every slit from that cutter, and with every drop of body fluids they excrete in whatever way.

I am merely another one of them. I am not in any way better or worse. I am just another number in the statistics.

Planets in the houses II

═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ══ Jupiter in the houses ═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ═

1st house || 2nd house || 3rd house || 4th house || 5th house || 6th house || 7th house || 8th house || 9th house || 10th house || 11th house || 12th house

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═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ═ Saturn in the houses ═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ═

1st house || 2nd house || 3rd house || 4th house || 5th house || 6th house || 7th house || 8th house || 9th house || 10th house || 11th house || 12th house

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═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ══ Uranus in the houses ══ ∘◦❁◦∘ ═

1st house || 2nd house || 3rd house || 4th house || 5th house || 6th house || 7th house || 8th house || 9th house || 10th house || 11th house || 12th house

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═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ══ Neptune in the houses ═ ∘◦❁◦∘

1st house || 2nd house || 3rd house || 4th house || 5th house || 6th house || 7th house || 8th house || 9th house || 10th house || 11th house || 12th house

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═ ∘◦❁◦∘ ══ Pluto in the houses ══ ∘◦❁◦∘ ═

1st house || 2nd house || 3rd house || 4th house || 5th house || 6th house || 7th house || 8th house || 9th house || 10th house || 11th house || 12th house

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