Wolfstar Hits Harder If Remus Isn't Conventionally Attractive.

how did Richard casually mention doing cocaine in a burger king parking lot and then ONE LINE LATER call Judy a 'senseless cokehead'

my dude drop the superiority complex

Interestingly, in the first class Richard attended, Julian asks about the one desire we all have. And Camilla says it's the desire to live. And Bunny adds:

"To live forever"

After all, he is the one who will be killed. And because of this, he will always live in the memory of others. Always young and never old

judy poovey's party fight story and camilla's country house accident were windows to what really went on between charles, henry, and camilla.

i love these hints and foreshadowing because camilla was almost always made pure by richard's narration, but who again was in the center of both occurrences? that's right. our girl milly.

The aesthetics of my insomnia:

crying over TikToks because you love women (/pos)

googling fake Shakespeare quotes (it turned out to be a quote from Tumblr)

writing down an idea for a drawing that you dreamed of in your half-sleep

learn by heart a poem by Lermontov or Pushkin

changing three pillows (one of the pillows is a sweater with a scarf), eventually just falling asleep on a mattress

doing 20 push-ups at five in the morning, because it's better than scratching your skin and quieter than hitting a pillow

looking up the translation of a word (from the language you're learning) that came to mind and you're not 100% sure what it means

My existence is a scandal ✎

nerd

no i dont think richard was "not smart enough" for the greek class. but lets not pretend his monetary status is what kept him from fitting in. Bunny was not rich, despite his illusion of wealth/big rich guy persona and his 'friends' knew this. Even the twins weren't well off, lol. Only Francis and Henry were wealthy.

The reason richard never became a core part of the group (unless absolutely necessary) was simply this: he was boring. he was a voyeur whose sole purpose was bearing witness to something greater than himself (nnnot really. all these guys were kind of pathetic and swept up in the tides of their delusions.)

that is part of the tragedy of richard and his entire story: he wanted, so badly, to be a part of this group, this other-worldly phenomenon that could never really accept him. he got swallowed whole and spit right back out by the very people he had built up to be these divine beings of perfection. He becomes doomed to forever feel the grief of a rejection so in-his-face and the only closure he gets is some fantasy he forces in a foggy dream.

the three genders:

the purpose of friends is to have people who unconditionally hate your shitty exes & relatives. like maybe YOU have a complex relationship with your father but i sure don't. i'm outside his house with a gun. he's not the unforgivable asshole who raised me he's just an unforgivable asshole

my theory for what henry whispered to camilla is "kitten, i'll be honest. daddy's about to kill himself"