I accidentally hit the send button before I finished typing, but how are you?
hi! I know it's been a long while, just, um. My life's been a little messy for the past few months. I was mostly on here because of fanfic stuff, but got a ton of anon stuff in my inbox about how pathetic my writing was, so kinda was pulling out of that, then things with family and school kind of all blew up at the same time, and my best (and only irl) friend who, well we'd talked about dating at some point, but we kind of broke things off and stopped talking to each other, so. yeah. this a kind of me just taking a quick look around for old times' sake. everything's just a mess right now. if I haven't posted by september, i'm probably off for good, one way or another. thanks for messaging me. i don't really have friends. he was the only one i've really had for the past 5 years. it's... nice. sorry for dumping this on you. i'm just not in a great place right now.
--elizabeth
There’s something about Roy’s specific kind of abandonment issues. A lot of other characters, they’ll distance themselves, they’ll stop themselves from getting attached, they’ll put up a wall and push people away. Roy? Generally speaking, he’s always open. He loves so easily, he’ll get attached to people so quickly. He puts himself out there, he gives his whole heart, and every time he’s hoping that this time he’ll be good enough for someone to stay, but every time he’s so scared that he won’t be good enough, that eventually they’ll leave. And every time he’s proven right. It’s Roy Harper’s tragedy. He’ll always lose the ones he loves, no matter how hard he tries. He’ll try and try and try, he’ll let people back into his life the second they ask, but they’ll always leave again. And in his mind, he’ll never be enough.
the worst is wanting to create and create and create but being trapped in a body that is so so so so tired
Clone Wars AU where instead of chips, the clones are actually raised to be undercover as loyal soldiers knowing they'd betray the jedi ("traitors") on the order, and are all ready to complete their mission—
But uh. The jedi are really nice?? And kinda dumb??? And they reaaaally don't know how they survived this long when they are just so dumb and trusting and oh no they're attached.
There are many unfortunate realizations. The clones form a support group to rant about their stupid jetii because "—guys you don't understand he loses his lightsaber every two seconds and then smiles at me when I give it back and has decided since I have it so much I should know how to use it and this week he ordered chocolate for everyone what do I do—"
Bly be sitting in the corner, rocking because "Oh no she's hot"
Wolffe is sitting there holding in manly tears because Plo is a buir but he's a traitor but Plo is such a buir can he be my buir
Rex is like "listen I know Skywalker is supposed to be the one non-traitor of the bunch but like. He's crazy???? And the Commander is also crazy???? How am I supposed to keep up with them???? How much worse would they be without Kenobi????????? And I think Skywalker might actually murder us all if anyone touches the commander or Kenobi???????????"
And meanwhile Fox is all "I keep pulling this one weird jedi out of the dumpster and I can't get rid of him. How do I get rid of him, he's growing on me like mold and I hate it."
Meanwhile I cant decide if the Jedi know that somethings up with the clones and are keeping them close or if they just are genuinely like "man those guys are so great ❤️❤️❤️ I'd trust my life with them ❤️❤️❤️ if they don't tell me smth they def have a good reason ❤️❤️❤️"
Thinking about time travel, as one does, and more specifically, what the funniest/worst point possible it would be for ol’ mr infinte sadness to time travel from. And honestly, I think the best/worst point, in terms of ‘angst and confusion for your buck’ point, would be approximately 0.5 seconds after order 66 goes out. He’s just killed Grievous. The war isn’t over, but it’s, y’know, at a turning point! Dooku is dead! Grievous is now dead! we’re at the clean up point, a few more months of mop up, and then the republic is SAVED. And then his men fire on him, every Jedi in existence is suddenly dying, and Obi-wan has no fucking idea what just happened. Yeeting him back through time at that point? hilarious. Pure comedy.
The information he does have, at that point, is mostly either hyper specific – the war, etc – or completely fucking useless – the war, etc – given the whole time travel change the future etc trope, he is traumatized as fuck from three years of said war and also the wave of inexplicable death, and also, for some reason, all the clones tried to kill him????
many questions to ask, zero answers available, all he knows is there’s Some Number Of Sith out there in the galaxy, but crucially, he only knows where one (1) of them is at any given time, and there’s a good few decades where he doesn’t know where any of them are!!
He knows who the supreme chancellor will eventually be if palp’s is not already elected, but he does not know the dude is a Sith; he knows maul exists but unless he drops back in the, like, week that TPM happens he has no clue where maul is; and Dooku is either part of the order, or fucking about as a count, which is not actually illegal.
Kamino exists and Obi-wan knows where that is, but the clones are either Not Yet Made, or they’re, like, Babies. Babies who grow up to shoot him off a cliff for ??????????? reasons. Even Anakin! Anakin is either born, and……maybe on tatoonie, or already part of the order, but at that point, Obi-wan does not yet know that Anakin went Full Baby Murder Breakdown Stagename!! He doesn’t know about the twins! he is about as clueless as it is possible for a time traveler to be and still be a main character! anyway I just think it would be fucking hilarious for him to be shot off the cliffside on utapau, land in the council room circa TPM or even earlier, and then have to be like “terrible things are going to happen also I cannot explain literally any of the reasons, I just lived it and have no idea why anything happens, trust me anyway!”
“also there are sith. sith are real. again.”
My friend’s little brother (non-verbal) used to hide people’s shoes if he liked the person, because it meant they had to stay longer. The more difficult it was to find your shoes, the more he liked you.
One day my cousin came over, and she was a bitch. When it was time to leave, my friend’s brother handed her shoes directly to her and she went on and on about how he must have a crush on her because he only “helped” her.
Jason likes to be in Roy's workshop with him. They don't have to talk. But Jason will just rest his head on Roy's thigh and read.
Jason steals broken/old pieces of Bat-tech for Roy to experiment with.
The boyfriend tax. It is abused because they have a one inch height difference (canon. Jason: 6'0, and Roy: 5'11).
Jason isn't very touchy, but he is a sleep cuddler. So Roy had a reason to try to get Jason to sleep with him (wholesome only).
Roy is not allowed to cut his hair. Jason has forbid it.
Roy goes on rants about his experiments, or whatever he's hyperfixating on. Jason goes on rants about his books. And they both listen and ask genuine questions.
*muttering under breath* misunderstandings, slow burn, friends to lovers, period typical homophobia, mutual pining, cultural differences, smack talk as a love language
I hate them
Arla Fett is rescued from a Death Watch transport by a tiny Padawan Kenobi and adopts him on the spot, unilaterally deciding that she will be accompanying her boi on all missions in order to loom ominously behind him during negotiations and eliminate any perceived threats to his safety (and happiness) with prejudice
she ignores Qui-Gon Jinn's existence entirely