Let's Kill All The Clocks...

Ever wondered what it feels like to breathe under the ocean; to taste the water from the grey cloud; to touch the seven colours of rainbow?

Ever wondered how it feels to live in a world where days start with shadows or exist in a void to that makes you practically weightless?

The cage I live in

I'm tired of holding it together,

All these threads that bind me as whole.

I'm tired of pretending I'm fine,

being an imposter in my own skin,

Smiling when I feel like crying.

While my insides are screaming,

To ask for help? To be left alone?

I don't know....

But I muffle it with the silence.

Not wanting others to know.

When all I want is to let go,

Let it break apart and shatter.

Why must I be trapped in this charade?

Can i be free?

Or is it just the price of being born?

The gift of life as you call it,

Is it a penance I must endure?

What if I can't take it anymore?

Like a volcano before eruptions,

It wobbles my sanity with those tremors,

Threatening to crack the surface.

But how long can I repress it?

One day the surface will break,

Bleeding me with a colourless blood

Flaming me from the inside

Untill what's left is only ash.

I wish it'll come sooner,

freeing me from the cage I live in.

In the crowds

I've never found a place of my own

Yet yearn to loose myself in them.

The path is now lost.

And all of us wanderers have nowhere to go.

Innocent bystander

Close your eyes

Cover your ears

Shut your mouth

What’s happening isn’t happening.

Come on, throw away your conscience;

It’s not going to win you a lottery.

It wasn’t you who commited the crime,

Then Why should you feel guilty?

Convince yourself it’s not your fault,

You are not to blame.

Just an innocent bystander, right?

You just happened to be there;

You watched the scene unfold.

Even though you could have stopped it,

you just stood there and let it go on,

shook your head and said, “what a terrible fate!”

And went on with your day,

Thinking you’re not in the wrong.

But let me tell you one thing,

By closing your eyes,

when you see something evil,

By covering your ears,

When you hear something wrong,

By shutting your mouth,

When you could have spoken up,

You are not being wise but selfish.

You’re as much guilty for not stopping it

as the hands of the person for doing it.

So don’t think you’re not in the wrong,

‘cause innocent bystander is just an oxymoron.

The moments that we lost in time,

Still reverberate in my mind.

Your radiant smile, eyes dancing with mirth,

I still see it like an image in a hologram.

The warmth of your embrace,

I can still feel it like the soft evening breeze.

And like I promised you millions of time,

I still keep your essence inside the walls of my heart.

-Yours forever

Dear Bestfriend,

It’s not true..

That I don’t miss you anymore

I know I don’t call that often

And we don’t share the same town anymore

I know it’s been years since you moved

And we don’t see each other anymore

But it’s still not true

That I don’t miss you anymore

You’re the first person whom I called a friend

And not because it was convenient

We are as different as we can be

But somehow we make it work

We have little interest in common

But we still talk for hours

You don’t relate to my struggles and pain

But you’re still with me at every bend

-----

Dear Bestfriend,

I know you miss me too but you won't say it out loud. But I'm not a coward like you. So there it is.

एक सवाल आपने किया

एक हम भी करते हैं

वो राम जी हैं

जिन्हें सब आदर्श मानते हैं;

छोड कर अपने राज़ मुकूट

उन्होंने पीता का वचन निभाया

बिना भोग वीलास के

चौदा वर्ष वन में विताया;

आपने प्रेम का वंधन

जोड़ा सिर्फ़ माता सीता के साथ

मगर जब लांछन लगा उनके

चरित्र पे, छोड़ दिया उनका हाथ;

कहते हैं प्राण से बढकर

वचन है रघुवंशियों का

विवाह के सात वचनों में एक

रक्षा अपने पत्नि के सम्मान का;

क्या पत्नि से किया

वचन का कोई मान नहीं होता?

आखिर क्यों सिर्फ़ एक अच्छे

पुत्र बन ने से वो आदर्श है कहलाता?

आखिर क्यों ?

आज भी,

रामायण और महाभारत देखने पर

कुछ सवाल आते हैं

और मन को विचलित कर देते है।

क्यो माँ सीता के चरित्र पर सवाल उठाए गए ?

क्यो उन्हें अपवित्र कहा ?

भगवान राम के सामने उन्होंने अग्नी परीक्षा दी थी,

वह सब जानते थे,

फिर ऐसा क्यों हुआ ?

क्यो पाङव और कोरवो के खेल में

द्रौपदी का सौदा हुआ ?

क्यो भरी सभा में

सभी के सामने चीरहरण हुआ ?

क्यों किसी ने कुछ नहीं कहा ?

क्यो सब मौन रहे ?

वहाँ तो कृष्ण ने आकर

द्रौपदी का चीर बढा दिया था,

पर क्यो हुआ ऐसा ?

न ही सीता और द्रौपदी

त्रेता युग में और द्वापर युग में

सुरक्षित थी

और न ही आज कलयुग में सुरक्षित है ।

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-writingsbypb

( मैं भगवान के विरुद्ध नहीं हूँ, बस इतनी सी बात है कि क्यों ऐसा हुआ और क्या कभी इन सवालों के जवाब मिलेंगे ? )

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Mirror, mirror on the wall;

Save your breath, save your words;

What makes you my judge and jury;

You see an image, not my beauty.

Whoever says mirrors don't lie,

When your very reflection is inverted.