Ffedinthehead - Untitled

you know a fic is good when it has this

queer as in gay but also queer as in unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe

thank you archive of our own for being the sole reason I don't kill myself

No to be a slut but i need a middle aged woman to tell me they’re proud of me and that I’m doing good and kiss my forehead

Glowing Goldfish at Dusk

And that's on self-sabatoge 👍😭

Thinking about the destruction of Phantom and Christine’s relationship, growing up I thought it was Christine not being interested in the Phantom romantically/sexually and the Phantom imagining things between them.

But now, after re-watching Poto 25 and seeing it on Broadway again, their fall out is literally on the Phantom. Every time.

Like, Christine is evidently interested in him and seems psyched that he’s a real guy vs an “angel” (the lyrics even mention she knew that he could be a man and wished for it). But Erik’s (understandable) lack of self esteem make this fly right over his head, thinking he still has to put on theatrics to get her interest. He doesn’t think he’ll be accepted as he is, even with the mask.

And then when she takes off his mask (out of curiosity and wanting to get to know him better), there’s the clear breach of trust, obviously. But Erik is so afraid to apologize for his outburst and show his vulnerability, and come to an understanding with Christine, that he cops out and just takes her back upstairs without even wondering if she wanted to figure something out.

After this it’s all the threats and theatrics against the theatre leading to Bouquet’s death, which is (rightfully) Christine’s breaking point and puts her in the arms of Raoul. Raoul didn’t even seem on her mind as an option until shit goes left. And once again the Phantom can’t seem to recognize how he caused this drift.

The Phantom could’ve already been Christine’s choice, but his inferiority-superiority complex has him unable to trust her or himself. And it causes their split. He causes his own downfall and he doesn’t even know it. Or maybe he does, and it’s on purpose because he always expects himself to be the monster.

they may be doomed by the narrative but atleast they had gay sex

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