Being Someone With Brown Eyes Comes With Great Responsibility

another list of romantic things i devastatingly yearn for

- painting together (or having a paint fight with one another) - sitting on the back while riding a motorcycle together  - sitting in the back of a pickup truck together while enjoying the breeze - shy little glimpses and smiles, talks after school/work in the empty office/classroom or getting engrossed in one another even though everyone is around - texting til you fall asleep - saying goodnight its been a long time since the last proper post, haven’t been that well mentally ig, but i hope you liked it :)! for all the new people seeing this post, check out the other list which you can find on my tumblr :) *shameless promotion* until next time Amimi

movies (for when you want to cry)

believe it or not, my blog was supposed to be all about movies and film (thus the name filminah, innovative i know) i don't know if i enjoy torturing myself or what but here are some movies that made me cry. when marnie was there (anime 2014) - follows teen anna sasaki through a journey of self exploration that takes place due to a mysterious girl she meets named marnie. now, this is definitely not the best ghibli film ever, a little awkward at times especially in the dub but yonebayashi hiromasa does not know how to make a bad movie. the twist was kinda expected but it's ghibli and it's so damn charming you can't help but get attached to anna and marnie and feel everything the way they do. i want to eat your pancreas (anime 2018) - the title is weird, i know. an introverted boy, haruki finds out the secret of his very popular, bubbly polar-opposite-of-him classmate named sakura. she is affected with a severe pancreatic disease. the way they build the connection between the main two characters is so so good to watch, fulfilling what you know will happen in the most unexpected way and showing the aftermath of the movies major events. a silent voice (anime 2016)- this was the first movie i ever found sad enough to make me cry actual tears. ishida shoyo bullied a nishimiya shouko in middle school. shouko is deaf. now a highschooler, after being unable to commit s**c*d* he finds himself becoming friends with shouko, helping her get better and maybe himself along the way. imo this film is one of the best representations of a lead with struggling mental health and they show that incredibly well in both visuals and dialogue, kyoto animation always impresses with their work and the sound work is impeccably done with the way they establish an atmosphere or put you in a characters shoes, embodying them. link to pt 2 (to be added)

🌹 a flower for everyone not feeling their best today

its already been 2 months of being 16 what

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Warm Bodies (7 Days 7 Movies)

because sometimes watching a movie about the undead can make life feel worth living again. Warm Bodies (2013) takes place in an apocalyptic world filled with your typical brain-eating walking dead. Starring Nicholas Hoult and Teresa Palmer as R and Julie, ) the horror/romance (a combination of genres that sounded quite odd to me at first but works so well within the movie) takes on a love story in a comedic, dark way I haven't seen before. I first took interest in this movie simply because of Nicholas Hoult after seeing him in Skins as Tony Stonem but I ended up really liking this movie for a lot more than just the casting. If you haven't already caught on by the obvious character naming, the story is loosely based off of Romeo and Juliet and does well in referencing Shakespeares' tragedy here and there, within not only the obvious obstacles of love between zombies and humans but the persona of Julies' father and more significantly, the balcony scene - which was by far my favourite although I won't describe too much as I'd like you to watch it for yourself. In terms of writing, the dialogue and narration are witty and fun, R's inner monologue was one of the most enjoyable parts of the film, and I loved the contrast between his thoughts and physical actions. I also liked the added background, the reason as to why the undead act how they do, eat what they do, and so on. Subtle details across the board are so well done (To give an example or two: R not blinking until the water scene, colors becoming more saturated the more he becomes human) and the visuals are so damn pleasing. The soundtrack too, makes the movie what it is, after watching I was listening to Midnight City on repeat. Although not as typical, it's one of the best romances I've seen.

I hope you liked this post! be sure to let me know your thoughts and i'll be sure to take your feedback into account when writing next time! I thought I'd post this one a bit earlier than the others, and depending on the response I'll adjust my writing. until next time! Amina

26/12/2021

study/diary post

general - motivation is something i’m really lacking, mock exams for sociology and french are in jan starting the week of jan 17th - i’m also expected to prepare myself and write applications and such for mock interviews with real employers. it’s weird because i don’t feel old enough to be doing these things, i’m not sure if that’s because of covid or if it’s due to other reasons. times passing awfully fast but slow at the same time?

english - i need to start going through macbeth which has already proven to be a challenge, shakespeare really isn’t my forte - language is something i’m really struggling on too - when it comes to timing and reading questions properly and not panicking - a christmas carol, lord of the flies and macbeth are the three books that will be covered in the literature exam - i hope i’ll be able to go through macbeth and completely memorise all three by march

wish me luck!

au revoir pour le moment ~Amimi

I post for the bitches who stutter, misspeak, mumble, and speak with an incoherent flow that only makes sense if you are in my brain

my god. i dug through the jungle in my room and found reminders of all the trips and memories from the past and now i wanna scream and laugh and cry and smile all at the same fucking time and its overwhelming

why is lightning constantly striking outside my window? gives me flashbacks of bangladeshi storm and having the entire building shake while huddled in a corner and my aunts just shrugging like we won't be possibly crushed to death by the house concaving