actually, i love you, so you cannot be ugly to me. sometimes i think i have no idea what you actually look like. i know we've been friends for like a while but if someone asked oh who's that i'd talk about how funny you are, how charming. about how i have watched you grow as a person, about how you often choose kindness where i would honestly choose a feral violence. i know you keep a tally of your mistakes and they run around your brain - but in mine? i think they never even make it past the front gate. when i think of you my heart swells up with all the weird shit we've done together and how you've talked me through heartbreak and how i've held your hair back and how we both are like, in therapy, and totally above gossiping, but also like, are going to spill the work tea.
i know! i know you feel ugly. i know you hate that you show symptoms, that you're not normal. you said once - i'm afraid to show others the real me. but i see the other things - about these little quirks that are so, so endearing to me. how you are gentle to strangers. how you stand by your friends. how comfortable you make everybody. how you say hey, did you get home safe? even when it's like 6 feet i'm walking.
i love you. yesterday you spent an hour liveblogging the episode of owl house that you're on and i was like - this person is so fucking amazing. last night you said sorry for infodumping. as if you have anything to apologize for. as if part of the reason we're friends is because i love it when you do this, i love listening. i love you, idiot. i love you so fucking much. i want to stick you in a cage so you stop getting random injuries. i want to throw you into a garbage disposal every time you send me that one specific meme. i love you, i love you, i love you. you mean absolutely everything to me.
That made it even funnier!
*sees a person once in my notes and they instantly followed me*
That’s the post that made you follow me? (Incredibly judgemental of both the person, and me)
looking through childhood pics in the home I grew up in so agonising sometimes I just can’t help but imagine how different life could be
So about Fyodor's ability we've only ever seen him use it on people and the only info we have on it is that it can like blow their brains up (since that's all we've seen it do iirc) and that it's named Crime and Punshiment.
As we all know Fyodor has a weird type of a god complex i guess you could say?? Basically he has decided he has the power to pick who should and shouldn't existed and picked ability users as the ones that shouldn't. Except himself. (from what i can understand)
He believes he has the right to pass judgment on such a thing as someone's very existence and punishes people based on whether he perceives them to have a committed a crime or not.
You getting what i mean??
From its name and what we've seen of it so far i think Fyodor's ability works in a way similar to court except he's judge, jury and executioner.
He is the judge of whether someone's life has been a sin or not, in this case ability users, and then executes them accordingly.
So in short how i perceive Fyodor's ability is that it only works on people Fyodor sees as criminals according to his own morals and ideals. Thus he can use it on any ability user and on only those non ability users who he sees as wrong and "evil" to put it in a very very very simplified way.
It's definitely more complicated than whether he sees the person as "evil" or not but yeah basically this is what I think it is.
Which also ties into my theory that Fyodor CAN'T use his ability to break out of the water tank area thing because the walls themselves are not something Fyodor does or CAN ever perceive as criminals and thus cannot blow them up. Even if he blames Dazai or hell even the guards for losing so easily he would only be able to attack them and not the gates.
Therefore, Fyodor is gonna die.
boyfriend asked what i was doing, told him i was editing a picture, boyfriend asked "is it something like house stretched out with the words 'menstrual blood' on it or some shit?", boyfriend was wrong, boyfriend was also onto something this goes hard
SMOL
Akutagawaism Cult members rise, I found a tiny Aku in the wild
It's fucking me up that no one knows Kaladin still lives. Everyone thinks he's dead. Bridge Four can't hold out hope that he lives because Szeth and Masha buried his corpse. Lirin and Hesina lost their eldest son again. And none of them know that Kaladin is a Herald, because all Szeth knew was that he was killed by a Shardblade and Ishar is gone. The only people who know are the Wind and maybe Wit, and I doubt that either of them are going to spill that secret. Crying over Kaladin again.
@jesperisamfbicon
I’ve been silent for too long and can no longer bear to keep this inside: @jesperisamfbicon is a good person and deserves many good things.
I think, so far, the most shocking part to me in those 1300 pages was the sentence "My husband Szeth." Me