She wondered how do you truly know when you're done? Are you ever fully ready to never get high again? Does the feeling of having enough, wanting desperately to quit ever stay, or is it always fleeting?
Excerpt from my journal
My favorite piece I broke it in a few days :(
Kyle Montgomery Crystal Mary
When you ask someone why they stayed when they could have left the heartache, the pain, remember, there are days when even you have chosen the hell you know than the hell you don’t.
In case you guys wanted to know what a brick of that Jersey Fire looks like, here ya go. 50 bags of the country’s finest fire, acquired from my amazing hookup for $150. The stamp is “NO LIMIT”, and honestly its the second best stamp I’ve ever had in my life. Probably be back for more before the week ends :D
•making yourself sleep deprived •making yourself cold (not wearing warm clothes in the winter, sleeping without a blanket etc) •not eating •not drinking •eating too much •not looking before crossing the street •scratching •letting your skin be dry & break easily •picking at skin •over-exercising •substance abuse •over-working yourself •making yourself go out and do things even though you’re exhausted •putting yourself in anxiety-inducing situations (even if you have a choice to stay out of them) •triggering yourself •purposefully angering someone who you know will yell at you •entering relationships you don’t want to be in/being around people you don’t want to be around •having sex when you don’t want to •setting yourself punishments •not giving yourself time •not letting yourself spend time with the people you love & know will be good to you •yelling at yourself inside your head •pinching or bruising yourself instead of cutting •cutting •holding everything in even when you have the option of venting •over stressing •over thinking •staying in abusive relationships (friend wise or romantically)
STOP assuming that self-harm is visible and easy to notice. It’s NOT. Self harm isn’t always physical, it can be emotional, and mental as well
i said a swear once and next thing you know i was doing meth