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I have no desire to be out partying 24/7 i really just want to secure my future and become a better me. That’s the most important thing

My favorite piece I broke it in a few days :(

I know how to be a drug addict, self destruction is familiar so in a fucked up way it’s comforting to me. Recovery and sobritey are new, a whole new way of living and honestly it fucking terrfies me because I’m afraid i wont be able to maintain it.. What if i fuck everything up again?

Excerpt from my journal 6-11-19

me when i see me: thats not me

Where can I get a good quality silicon bong?thats isnt fucking expensive either¿//

Tumblr is the place where I get to cry and be a bitch so with that being said I am in SO MUCH fucking pain I hate my hep c I’m crying everyday it’s killing me and I’m throwing up everyday it’s torture and I’m only 20 years old. I can barely do my shifts at work. I’m so weak I can’t barely eat I can’t keep anything down. I have been throwing up everyday for over a year now and man it’s wearing on me now. I can’t take this I feel another relapse I don’t want to I know it will make it worse but I’m doing all of the right things but still sick everyday. I am skin and bones and it’s effevtnmy me mentally so bad as well. I just feel so empty literally... I know drugs put me here but I still want them. I want to inform people on harm reduction and safe use so someone else won’t go through the pain I’m going through. Maybe if this doesn’t kill me I’ll start a blog about that... any ways bye now. No one is going to read this lol