“When you know better, you do better.”
— Maya Angelou
the biggest lesson im learning is that nothing is as extreme or as permanent as our emotions convince us they are. nothing is certain and things are always fluctuating and there are always exceptions and there are always mistakes. there is always pain and there is always love. everything is a delicate touch away from changing
jury’s out
The worst part, about being a drug addict, is that you know you’re a drug addict. You know, all your excuses are bullshit. You know, when it’s your addiction talking, not you. You know, you’re hurting those around you. You know, you need help. You know, you’re lost. You know, you’re lying to yourself.
Nobody, sets out to be an addict. You just, wake up on day, as an addict.
I usually say that, the first time I used Meth, I was addicted. That’s not true. The first time I used, I knew, I’d do it again. I wasn’t addicted though. I became an addict, when I used to forget, my problems, my pain, my anguish. I became an addict, when I gave my addiction priority, over the important things, in my life. I became an addict, when I lost almost everything I had, stopped using for a while, then picked up again. Thinking, “It’s been long enough. I’ll be able to stop this time. I don’t have a problem. I was just in a bad place, at that time in my life.” I became an addict, when the strength, of my addiction, out weighed the shame I felt, when I looked at pictures of my kids. At problems, my addiction has caused. At people, who I have hurt. At what I could have done, with my time. My money. My family. . . I became an addict, when I looked in the mirror, asked myself to stop. Then put the piece to my lips, took another hit, and left myself behind…
worst trend of 2020 is instagram influencers with a large audience starting an onlyfans for bikini pics or whatever, making 10-20k their first week, and then posting about how easy it is to an audience that includes tens of thousands of young girls, who are going to start one at 18, end up having to do much more hardcore stuff to make any money, still not make nearly as much as those people do because they aren’t famous to begin with, and then be stuck with nudes of them online for the rest of their lives. i’m not anti sex work but people talking about it like it’s a quick and easy way to make money with no negative impact on you at all is... deeply irresponsible
I want to do better I want to change I want a way out it’s time I find what I’m looking for or be stuck in the cycle FOREVER fuck
Re-re-re RELAPSE
These hoes smoke foil..or whatever Chris brown said