♡ 18y/o♡ 162cm♡ cw46!!♡ gw45♡ ugw40♡ i dont think im that talkative
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Didn’t think my blog would get nuked, but here we are.
Do people seriously think we just disappear when they report us? We’re mentally ill, not clueless. We come back. We always come back.
This space was in NO WAY about promoting an 3d. This was about surviving one.
3@ting d1s0rd3rs are psychiatric illnesses. Some of the most deadly ones out there. And yet, when we talk about it, when we vent, when we post memes to cope, when we build friendships and even talk about healing, we get shut down.
I get it. 3d content can be triggering. But that’s what the block button is for.
Let us have our space. Please. We’re not glorifying this. We’re living through it. Sometimes even just barely.
This is where we process. This is where we find people who get it. This is where we make plans to recover, even if we’re not there yet.
I’m back. I’ll be venting. I’ll be posting shit in ways that help me cope. There will be memes. There will be pain. There will be hope.
And I still wouldn’t wish this hell on anyone.
Tw scary
Gaining weight
Reblog if you cried
Today i fucked up by eating my maintenance kcals. The issue is not just that i ate my maintenance kcals, the issue is also that half of the calories i ate came from fucking bread and butter. Im gonna fast for atleast 24h, till i feel more like me and less like a bloated fucking balloon
I actually really respect the ed folks who started at a high weight. Like wym you lost 50-100lbs?! That's insane. You must push yourself really hard.
I'm sorry for the way people treat you. If doctor's don't take you seriously. Family and friends don't realize you're suffering. I see you. I respect you.
We got ice cream together today:')
Its ok tho cause i didnt go over my kcal limit for the day and had a nice time with the guy i love the most! :D
I kinda feel lucky both me and my bf are broke af cause that prevents me from gaining the couple weight. Like we would prob go out and eat ice cream every single day if we could afford it
I kinda feel lucky both me and my bf are broke af cause that prevents me from gaining the couple weight. Like we would prob go out and eat ice cream every single day if we could afford it
perfect! 😩
Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs
never related to smth harder.
“BMI 16 jail” “get me out of BMI 15 jail” BITCH FYM GET ME INNNNNN
MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE
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Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week
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Reblog to weight less than yesterday
I wanna starve for him but then again I feel bad because he'd probably didn't want his girl to starve herself but then again who wants a fat gf
Fucking rollercoaster
tbh it IS for attention I want everyone to be concerned about me for once
"u have to eat" stop peer pressuring me bro
i hate that eggs are so expensive now cause how am i supposed to get my low cal protein (that’s a lie i just like eggs)
they were right, fat DOES last longer than flavor…
The only reason my outfits aren’t eating is because I AM
you guys will never catch me posting f@t5p0 because the people in those images are real people with real feelings just because i am feeling bad about my body doesn’t give me the right to make someone else feel bad about themselves
This is the fucking reason for my disorder
˚₊‧⁺⋆♱ Cure Fasting Boredom ⋆⁺‧₊˚
“Oh, I’m fasting, but I’m incredibly bored!!“ — so what I’m hearing is that you have nothing to do except eat? Or you eat when you’re bored..? Well, that needs to be fixed, but fear not, that will come with time. Keep fasting by the way, you’re doing great! So well in fact that I’ve actually compiled a list of things that you can do to keep yourself occupied!!
1. Make a playlist
2. Find some new music
3. Listen to music!
4. Take a shower
5. wash your hair
6. cut your hair?
7. dye your hair, even?
8. paint your nails
9. put on a perfume you barely wear
10. brush your teeth
11. put on some makeup
12. make a pinterest board of makeup looks and try them out!
13. wash your clothes
14. lay outfits on your bed and take photos/write them down
15. make some “for when i’m skinny outfits” and take photos/write them down
16. meditate
17. compile things that trigger you (YouTube Playlists, Pinterest boards, Screenshots of tumblr posts etc!!!)
18. Go for a walk
19. Walk to the supermarket and look at food (maybe i just like doing this)
20. walk to ur local train station and go to the mall OR!! walk to the mall (sorry if you live in buttfuck no where 😓)
21. journal!! prompts vvv
22. write down everything that’s keeping you going
23. write down all the things you want to eat when ur at ur ugw
24. write down your safe foods
25. write down your fear foods
26. write some triggers
27. write some thinspo quotes
28. reflect on yourself
29. get to know yourself
30. look at journalling prompts on pinterest
31. vent
32. brain dump
33. put lipstick on and cover a page in kisses
34. draw thinspo
35. draw an oc
36. try finding your art style if you don’t draw often
37. draw a scene you remember from your childhood
38. do a jigsaw puzzle
39. find a deck of cards and order them
40. study!!!
41. practice an instrument
42. look for jobs if your unemployed
43. go out with friends
44. talk to online friends
45. text ur irl friends
46. play minecraft
47. clean your room
48. de clutter draws & desks
49. make a thinspo board on pinterest
50. Make a pinterest board with all those facebook mom weight loss motivation quotes and things (they have a special place in my heart, okay?)
51. watch media that has characters w/ EDs in them. i recommend To The Bone (ofc), Skins (Cassie), Gossip Girls (Blair), Heathers (Heather Duke), Heartstopper (Charlie Spring)!!
52. find low calorie recipes
53. practice an instrument
54. contour your bones
55. write down rewards for when you reach another gw (eg, perfumes, new scales, new clothes, safe foods)
56. listen to some ED podcasts (i rlly like SciGuys Ep #201 and DRAMA MAMA Ep #32)
57. sometimes i watch swan liyah on YT
58. Make yourself some ice cold water
59. Fill up the ice cube tray (this is personal, i usually do this when i’m bored)
60. Commentary YouTubers 🙏
61. ED short films on YT
62. ED documentaries on YT
63. Quora ED stuff can be triggering too!!
64. Have a bath
65. De-clutter your phone
66. Get out there and reblog a whole bunch of stuff!
67. Duolingo
68. paint
69. haha 69… uh, read a book!
70. Stalk my ED Pinterest Account: https://pin.it/6IDHsH7jh
(it’s very cool i promise)
71. watch ED WIEIAD videos on youtube
72. look for different diets
73. watch cooking videos and save recipes for when your skinny
74. Make a playlist of workouts to try (reminder, you don’t have to work out when ur fasting<3)
75. write a letter to someone
76. practice your handwriting
77. Walk all the way to your local supermarket, get some gum and/or sugar free soda and walk back
78. hold a little fashion show for yourself
79. Listen to those songs you never got around to
80. Get into that artist you’ve never had time to get into
81. watch that show you’ve never started
82. Look into poetry
83. Write a poem
84. make a bookmark
85. draw one of your friends to give to them (no matter how poorly, it’s funnier when it’s bad)
86. Have a dance party, why tf not?
87. put beads on some of your shoelaces
88. Headphones up, eyes closed, laying on your bed blasting your favourite song. Just let yourself be surrounded by the music for a moment. It really helps your mood
89. Mess with spotify equalisers
90. Try some hairstyles out
91. straighten/curl your hair
92. watch a tim burton film
93. Watch a Studio Ghibili film (it helps to have an activity to do at the same time, like literally anything else on the list)
94. look at halloween costumes you can wear next halloween when your skinny
95. heal your inner child and watch a childhood show!!
96. sew something!
97. learn to sew? :)
98. make some jewellery
99. FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS!!
100. research a random topic (band backstories and mythology are my favourite!!!)
101. Look into the biology of a human digestive system (there’s a video of digestion we had to watch in school once that you can find on YT and it’s so gross and triggering)
102. look at mouldy pictures of food
103. watch time lapse videos of food decomposing
104. count loose change
105. burn your favourite candle because if not now the when?
will add more when i think of them! stay safe and do what feels right for you, don’t push yourself just stay disciplined
Take care <3
For the past 2 weeks i had been eating A LOT and i was scared to weigh myself but today i actually did it and I only gained 0.5kgs!!!!! I expected something like +1 or +1.5kgs so im not sad about it at all
How my bf discrib me vs how i feel
Why can my parents skip meals because they're not hungry but when I do the exact same thing, it's this huge issue?? Make it make sense omg.
Don’t forget, Coca Cola snitched on their OWN EMPLOYEES to I.C.E.
Ik y’all live off Diet Coke so here’s some good low cal/no cal alternatives:
Poppi
• surprisingly super good for a low cal soda
• no sugar
• prebiotic (good for you)
La Croix
• 0 cal
• barely there taste but good carbonation
Canada Dry
• very good taste
• ginger is good for your digestive system and bloating
• comes in different flavors
Ice
• lots of flavors
Green Tea
• no cal
• good for weight l0ss
Black Teas
• 0 cal
• fills you up
• delish
Lemon water
• good for gut health
• helps weight l0ss
• helps with bloating
Fuck Trump and his racism. If you fuck w ICE gtfo my page and block me fr
Happy that i don’t crave candy bars and sweets.
Depressed that i crave pasta and chips.
reminder to set your likes and following to private! if they aren't it's easy to mass t-word our accounts by going right down the lists ^^
why do I keep going over my cal limit
like I ate my maintenance cals for like 4 days now :(((