Gap-tooth - 🧶

A little rat with some Klimt-inspired doodles.

this is literally what large blocks of text look like to my poor adhd brain

Every "online autism test" is like

Question n: Do you struggle with answering ambiguous or unclear questions?

Yes

No

Question n+1: Are sounds good?

Yes

No

"Mozart was autistic because he was a child prodigy who wrote whole pieces in a day" no Mozart was autistic because he used echolalia and always spoke the truth even though it got him violently ejected from his workplace and had no interest in marriage and had a childish personality and sense of humor and was routine-oriented and had a low frustration tolerance. the prodigy thing has almost nothing to do with it. I would like to see one scholar within my lifetime consider the posthumous diagnosis for ANY reason other than "little boy played music well." I take personal offense to the fact that despite his utter genius he's been considered immature by academics because of his mannerisms. where have I heard THAT one before?

its so sweet to me whenever a reconstruction of a neanderthal's face shows up on social media and people are like "oh they would have loved minecraft" "they would have loved weed brownies" it's so sweet. i hope that continues on to the next stage of human evolution. i want whoever comes next to dig me up, reconstruct my face, and for the girlbloggers of this far-flung civilization to go "duuuude she would have loved churfing back a freefing zarbee"

ADHD and autism spectrum is funny in a way that isn't funny. Like hello, welcome to society, your brain is hardwired to function the most efficiently within certain parameters you'll almost never end up in. You're either so good at switching subjects that other people don't enjoy talking with you, or you're so good at sticking to the same subject that other people don't enjoy talking with you. Fuck you and good luck.

I actually hate that I can’t learn shit.

 I’ve been tested for everything from autism to ADHD, for every learning disability that exists and is out there, and I have none of them, none. I got tested, I’m cognitively above average in everything except for math, where I scored the exact average. I pick up patterns and gain info from context clues instinctively. There’s literally no reason for me to be unable to learn anything.

 I’m also 26 and can’t read an analogue clock. I know that when all the pointers are pointing to 12 then it’s 12, and if one pointer points at 12 and the other one points to a different hour, then it’s probably that hour, but other than that, it’s all white noise to me. I literally can’t learn valuable skills or information purely because they’re valuable. It’s IMPORTANT and USEFUL to know what time it is, and therefore I can’t learn it.

 There is literally no cognitive reason for me to be like this.

Both!!

curiosity for science

reblog for more answers!

"Not everything is about your autism."

Actually it is. My autism effects:

How I see the world, including light sensitivity

How I interact with the world, including difficulties with social interaction, speech difficulties and processing disorders

How I feel the world around me, including hyposensitivity or hypersensitivity to temperature, pain, or stimuli as well as proprioception which can make it difficult for me to physically navigate the world

How I feel my body, including interoception which can lead to missed meals, dehydration, and even urinary urgency (which is a problem just by itself) because I don't notice the signals my body gives

How I relate to those around me, due to my alexithymia, so often I feel nothing or can not work through the bodily sensations that indicate emotions.

How I cope with the world, including needing to stim, escape noises others may not hear, or requiring accommodations to help me survive an "average" day

How I rest after a normal day, including delayed sleep onset, reduced melatonin and increased cortisol, making getting to sleep a 2 hour long endeavour and staying asleep a task unto itself

So yes.

This is all about my autism.