Gemeiki - Gem

Photo studies with geto and toji

there is such a trauma to daughterhood. it comes from the lack of agency - not only from being born as a woman but existing in the world as a child. an oppression on top of an oppression. people make jokes about girls with daddy issues but nothing compares to the kind of trauma you recieve from having a complicated relationship with your mother. people talk about it so often. and it's one thing to have a mother who hates you which is always awful, but often it feels worse to have a mother who doesn't. to have a mother who is simply exhausted by the fact you were born. a mother who doesn't hate you, but loves her men more. a mother who maybe wanted to be a mom, once, and then came to realize what a thankless job it was. and she didn't want to hate you, but it was hard to love you and even harder to like you. a mother who doesn't hate you exactly, but never outgrows her desire to be attractive and beautiful and makes you her enemy in that way. or a mother who has nothing more to her than being a mother and clings to coddling you in a way thats suffocating. so many daughters develop deep empathy for the mothers because they were women, daughters, girls once. everyone deals with it differently. but at the end of it, you still need a mother and that is the most horrible and wretched part of all. the trauma of being alive, of being a woman, and of having a mother but still needing one. such a uniquely miserable feeling

red string of fate

a new character (or not really, they kinda got recycled) for a new pathfinder mini campagne !

they are called Lucien, they are a nephilim fleshwarp cleric!

Writing is so much fun! You can be like "I should process this" and just go nuh-huh, see, I'm going to make up a guy and have them process it for me. Not me! It's the guy I made!

One day, I am hopeful, people will look back at the “State” of Israel with the same horror they do apartheid South Africa or Nazi Germany. If we are lucky, it is with the genocide in Gaza left unfinished.

To those continuing to defend Israel, the eyes of history will eviscerate your character without mercy. Any “justice” you claim to have stood for will be disregarded as a charade because, during a fascist state’s cruel, decades-long steamrolling of a population, you held sympathy for the oppressor. You will be melted down to two words: “supported genocide.” If only such a consequence could be dealt within our lifetimes.

- on childhood loneliness

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