actually now that i've rewatched td1 it's a bit funny that rust's philosophical musings ended up the most quotable because like. rust is wrong. it's kind of the point of the show that he's wrong
like no, time is not a flat circle, that's something that a deeply sad person is telling himself because 1. the big good thing he'd thought he did turned out to be a failure 2. doing 4d mental gymnastics to imagine the world as completely static where nothing ever changes saves him the hurt of hoping (and when he has his revelation at the end it's that the world is a story, which implies a dynamic and a direction)
(and incidentally, hey, this show sure loves them some spirals. wonder if a spiral is a popular schematic for something that incorporates both repetition and linearity, like time or history perhaps)
like....... td1 is a story about men who lie! to others and themselves! marty has his whole masculinity shtick, and whenever that doesn't do any good he doubles down and goes to argue that it's someone else's fault or Just How Things Are so he doesn't have to face sad truths about himself. rust's philosophy is, at least to some extent, an attempt to reason his way out of grieving ("my daughter dying was good for her And me actually!"), out of hoping and being heartbroken ("romance? that's not even supposed to work, everyone is just delusional"), out of internalising the horrible things he's seen/done/been through ("those murder victims were glad to die actually, everyone is a pre-programmed puppet anyway actually")
it's a story about men who are absolutely convinced that sincerity will ruin them, and construct elaborate lies to defend against it, and in the end they both break down and reach out (marty), confess (rust), connect and (begin to) heal through it because their previous belief was wrong and hurtful!
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Intergenerational trauma / mental illness
The Sopranos (6x17) / Esquire Hereditary review / Moonlight / My Grandmother’s Hands by Resmaa Menakem / Pachinko (1x01) / I Love You, Honeybear (Father John Misty) / Russian Doll (2x04) / Doctor Sleep / Bojack Horseman (2x01)
Sigan cuidándose unos a otros. Y cuéntenles a todos lo que hicimos en la montaña. Keep taking care of each other. And tell everyone what we did on the mountain.
LA SOCIEDAD DE LA NIEVE (2023), Dir J.A Bayona // Heather Christle, "Then We Are In Agreement" // Matthew 25:35-40 // Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides // Lucy Keating, Dreamology // Ross Gay, The Book of Delights: Essays // Olga Tokarczuk, "The Tender Narrator", Translated by Jennifer Croft and Antonia Lloyd-Jones
KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER // ON THE LONELINESS AFTER ABANDONMENT
S.A. Khanum "Rome Falls," Kingdoms in the Wild // boygenius Not Strong Enough // Fleurie Love and War // unknown // Sleeping At Last Mother // Catherynne M. Valente Deathless // @heavensghost // pinterest // Mitski I Don't Smoke
sometimes i think about “this place wants us dead” and how it’s such an obvious example of foreshadowing, but it still ends up subverted in some way. like really think about it. the place doesn’t kill them, not really. they bring the diseases and the sickness with them. the lead is already in the cans before they leave. the food was already rotten. even tuunbaq is a man-made creature, not a bear like they originally think. it’s just. it’s not the place not really. the tragedy is that they were already doomed. they were doomed before stepping on their ships and they were doomed before they even reached the arctic and they were doomed before they even got stuck in the ice. she’s been dead since the beginning etc etc. i also think it’s so interesting that it’s also the remnants of colonialism that kills them. obviously james’ bullet wound is the obvious one but also the act of hubris in of itself. the fact that they think that they can last with their supplies. maybe the land does want them dead. maybe they were already dead. idk
Rustin Cohle and his cigarette (a love story)
there was nothing but love waiting for rust in the dark. he thought it'd be cold and apathetic, he thought time was a flat circle and he'd have to grieve his daughter again and again. but he pulled the knife out of his stomach and laid there to die. and in the darkness, there was nothing but love. and then he woke up.
thinking about jeff buckley being asked, "how do you want to be remembered?" and answering with, "as a good friend."