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"I Loved You", Alexander Pushkin (translated by Antony Wood)

THE HUNGER GAMES APPRECIATION WEEK day 02: favourite quotes/lyrics

THE HUNGER GAMES (2012) dir Gary Ross THE HUNGER GAMES (2008) written by Suzanne Collins Lawrence (pg. 297) THE HUNGER GAMES: CATCHING FIRE (2013) dir. Francis CATCHING FIRE (2009) written by Suzanne Collins (pg. 352)

on undying friendships for @fightingdragonswithwho​ <3

graceland too - phoebe bridgers / daisy jones and the six / leonard cohen - boygenius / a league of their own (2022) / a little life - hanya yanagihara / ladybird (2017) / the seven husbands of evelyn hugo - taylor jenkins reid

i would like to share my rock playlists with you all so here they are :)

black people created rock btw

my magnum opus. a playlist full of rock songs, or rock inspired songs, by black artists only. various rock genres and artists from different time periods have been added. pop punk, metal, post - hardcore, rock  rap, etc.

black g!rl pvnk !

similar to the playlist above, this is a playlist full of rock, or rock inspired songs, by black women. featuring both rock and rock sub genres as well as a heavy influence of rock in rap music as well.

𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖙 ﹗﹗﹗

women in rock and it’s sub genres ONLY! focusing on women of color, and particularly vocalists. playlist inspired after listening to sonic youth and starting kim gordon’s book! example artists:  paramore, meet me @ the altar, tonight alive, and more.

early 00s melancholy

a combination playlist of shoegaze, grunge, japanese rock, experimental rock, post - punk, and more. it’s all about the gloom and doom… laying on the floor type of music. also features some dream pop and indie music.  example artists: slowdive, mazzy star, cocteau twins, deftones

i just wanna feel something

a random mix of really good songs, particularly metal and post - hardcore, that’ll make you feel something. the lyrics can be kinda emotional, but fun!  example artists: nine inch nails, ladybaby, johnny goth, poppy, babymetal

#%  ⚠️💢  !!

another big master playlist. throwing entire rock albums from various artists and genres. goth, pop punk, post - hardcore, metal, screamo, emo, etc. music ranges from the 80s to now. on shuffle you can hear anyone from the cure to my chemical romance to kittie, so on and forth.

༻ ☆ ༺

remember watching emo sims 2 music videos on youtube when you were like 8? to songs like my immortal and all around me? that’s just this playlist.

at least in this lifetime

japanese rock, progressive rock, and indie. short and simple. inspired by the movies all about lily chou chou and blue spring.

i’ll devour you; bones and all!

this is kind of niche but i love when the pop girls dip their toes into the rock genre and either: 1.) completely go from making pop to rock, 2.) make full on rock songs, 3.) make rock remixes to their pop songs, or 3.) make a pop / rock fusion song. this playlist is me trying to find as many as those as i can, as well as mixing in a few straight up rock songs [& its sub genres] that i can find. this playlist is a work in progress and a little experimental.

on tragedy, fate, and inevitability.

oresteia, robert icke // theatre of the oppressed, augusto boal // song of achilles, madeline miller // the book thief, markus zusak // antigone, jean anouilh // revisiting mockingjay ahead of the hunger games prequel, entertainment weekly // romeo and juliet, shakespeare // h of h playbook, anne carson // war of the foxes, richard siken // the road to hell (reprise), hadestown // planet of love, richard siken // they both die at the end, adam silvera

on being someone's ghost

fleetwood mac - silver springs / emily bronte - wuthering heights / olivia rodrigo - cant catch me now

Panem's Guide to Troubled Birds (insp.)

i love when a character is a ghost but in a tragic way instead of a scary way. i love when a character has been dead from the beginning but is still holding on to stay in the narrative. i love when a character could choose to resent the living but ends up loving them instead. i love when a character drives the story but isn’t quite there enough to be at the center of it. i love when the ghosts are the protectors instead of the ones causing the harm. i love when a character is at the heart of the story because depending on where you began it, no matter how you told it, the story is about the ghost who struggled to keep their humanity

TRAVIS MARTINEZ in Yellowjackets (2021-) [insp]

its a quality of the gods to see a creature with its back broken and be unmoved.

Yellowjackets x Ash by Tracy K. Smith

The world is an oyster, and I am the grit. These are the boots my brother died in. ━ Andrew Kozma

i can't casually listen to music. unfortunately everything i like makes me want to drop to my knees.

when hozier said “the likes of a darkness so deep that god at the start couldn’t bear” and when hozier said “i’d still know you not being shown you i only need the working of my hands” and when hozier said “some part of me must have died the first time that you called me baby” and when hozier said “i would still be surprised i could find you darling in any life” and when hozier said “heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i” and when hozier said “but if we fall i only pray don’t fall away from me” and when hozier said “you were steering my heart like a wheel in your hands and darling i haven’t felt it since then” and when hozier said “if there was anyone to ever get through this life with their heart still intact they didn’t do it right” and when hozier said “if i was a riptide i wouldn’t take you out” and when hozier said “darling there’s a part of me i’m afraid will always be trapped within an abstract from a moment of my life” and when hozier said “do you know i could break beneath the weight of the goodness love i still carry for you” and when hozier said “darkness always finds you either way it creeps into the corners as the moment fades” and when

In a special place in my home I keep only memories, keepsakes from the cordillera: photos of many of those who died, objects from the plane, things I collected from everyone who died and who we did not expect to stay alive. So I save them in this altar, which is my most sacred and beloved piece of furniture. I carried back a lot of objects in a bag, but there were some things that we didn’t know which dead boy they belonged to, nor did any survivor recognise it as his own. [...] I have dozens of things from ’72. But the thing I value most, because I feel that it symbolises everything we lived through, is a silver cross that is missing its left arm. It is a cross that somebody had hanging over his heart, although I found it lying in the snow. It is about 4cm long, and the whole arm that’s left measures less than 2cm. It suffered some sort of violent impact in the centre – whoever had it received a severe blow to the middle of his chest. But what moves me most about it is that despite being dented, despite the fact that it’s missing an arm, with the metal all jagged and torn, all the same it keeps being, unmistakably, a cross. That was what happened to us. We were dented and bruised, beaten down and terribly abused, but we kept on being whole men.

society of the snow (2023).

on love and sacrifice.

society of the snow (2023).

on burden and death.

Sigan cuidándose unos a otros. Y cuéntenles a todos lo que hicimos en la montaña. Keep taking care of each other. And tell everyone what we did on the mountain.

LA SOCIEDAD DE LA NIEVE (2023), Dir J.A Bayona // Heather Christle, "Then We Are In Agreement" // Matthew 25:35-40 // Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides // Lucy Keating, Dreamology // Ross Gay, The Book of Delights: Essays // Olga Tokarczuk, "The Tender Narrator", Translated by Jennifer Croft and Antonia Lloyd-Jones

DETECTIVE RUST COHLE, from TRUE DETECTIVE 1.01 “The Long Bright Dark”

DETECTIVE RUST COHLE, from TRUE DETECTIVE 1.03 “The Locked Room”

the moment of true detective that stuck with me the most was the scene where they find the two kids and have to carry them to the road, and rust decides to carry the dead one. he has a dead child in his arm and a dead daughter in his heart. he will always carry the heavier burden so others don't have to. litterally insane.

it makes sense to me that maggie is the one capable of saying something cutting to rust, if only by being the only woman in his life who isn't dead. the whole crux of the conflict, in terms of the state of the soul of true detective, is rust and marty's denial that all men's weakness, sadism, beliefs, mistakes disproportionately destroys the lives of women and children, and the men who do it get to just keep truckin, sometimes with guilt heaped on. they just get away with it over and over and it kills women and girls. I think of rust's, "she sounds sad, marty, like a person on their last legs" about dora after visiting the bunny ranch. how dora was predated on by her father ("why wouldn't a father bathe his child?"), ended up with charlie lang, and was then marked as a target because charlie showed her naked pictures to his cellmate who he hated.

marty's whole hang up is just a classic cop one. he's the good guy and he hunts the bad guys. rust doesn't think he's the good guy, he's just another bad guy hunting bad guys, but that's still denial. when he passes a tide of hallow rationalizations to maggie, they suddenly sound like exactly what they are. normally rust has been monologuing to male audiences -- papania, marty -- who balk and seem defensive or quietly suspicious, but when maggie is the audience you realize rust actually sounds exactly like marty giving his stupid "you gotta decompress" schtick. she's not hung up on any of his actual ideas, doesn't take a single one seriously, because it turns out they're a baby blanket. in rust's phrasing, they're just the encouragement of illusion so he can get through his reality. that scene coming so soon after rust saying, "when I think of my daughter, what she was spared." he just can't do it yet. despite all his efforts, he just can't look at anything head on, not until the end, when he's in that syrupy blackness experiencing his loved ones. he only edges up to the truth, keeping himself mostly at arms length. he gets right on top of it in that same monologue, "she spared me the sin of being a father." the death of women in girls in this season are redemptive; the childress' seem to use them as some kind of baptism. when they're not around to destroy, the men who destroy them are spared of being the men who destroy them.

marty is always under the impression his intentions are good. "was that a down payment?" and marty chews him out for "joking" about his moment of decency, but it was absolutely a down payment. rust clocked it correctly, most of the reason marty was mad was because he was attracted to beth, and he started blustering some rhetoric and then gives beth a twenty, hissing out a white hot, "do something else," like an accusation. but marty goes through all the motions of a hero, so to beth he looks like one. he slaps his daughter and calls her a slut for doing the kinds of things he does with women. he beats on the men she was with so he can feel like a Father and a Hero then vomits in front of his car because it was all just clumsy violence and cowardice. rust knows he isn't doing any good, but he still wants some of that redemption; he tells maggie his little screed about man-woman drama because he wants her to accept it. he knows the women and girls pay more to live in the same world, they don't get away with just existing while men get away with it all, but knowing that doesn't bring him any closer to looking at it head on. he's still asking maggie for something: accept it, get on the same page, spare me, and maggie says no, at least right then. eventually she does, then ultimately she doesn't.

anyway, I think it's interesting how different it feels to hear rust say what he says in that scene. you suddenly realize exactly how his words fall on the ears of reality. "at the end of the day you duck behind rationalizations just like the rest of them."

okay so true detective season 1 has been my hyperfixation for years now and it has left a giant void in my life like… nothing will ever be this good ever again. so in case any of you feel the same way I made a list of media that helped me with getting into a mindset that at least somewhat resembles the true detective s1 experience:

- Memories Of Murder (2003)

- Sicario (2015)

- Arrival (2016)

- The Conspiracy Against the Human Race by Thomas Ligotti

- Better Never To Have Been by David Benatar

- Saint Maud (2019)

- The Florida Project (2017)

- both Galveston and Between Here and the Yellow Sea by Nic Pizzolatto

- books on the show itself: Time Is A Flat Circle by Melissa Milazzo and True Detective And Philosophy (Blackwell)

- anything by Lovecraft tbh

- also anything by Zapffe :)

- The Devil All The Time (2020)

- Negative Space by Yeager

feel free to add onto my list please I am begging you

there was nothing but love waiting for rust in the dark. he thought it'd be cold and apathetic, he thought time was a flat circle and he'd have to grieve his daughter again and again. but he pulled the knife out of his stomach and laid there to die. and in the darkness, there was nothing but love. and then he woke up.

rust cohle is The character that i’ve seen called a sociopath (in the shallow, “this is a flawed person who does things i don’t understand” prestige tv fan way) who obviously, like, cares the most. he forms his entire life in response to people. he’s in louisiana because of his daughter. he leaves louisiana because his relationship with marty and maggie is ruined. he spends his time away on fishing boats, marty’s hobby. he needs to save every child he can (or force himself to bear witness if he can’t) because he couldn’t do anything about his daughters death. he carves little visages of men out of empty beer cans while he’s talking. he loves humanity so much it eats at him. don’t know how people can get any other idea in their head, watching that show

.°˖✧ ✞ ꩜ ✞ .°˖✧

I still hope that someday I will find the strength to draw more of Gosling

Matthew McConaughey as ʀᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴏʜʟᴇ ⸽⸽T⸽⸽r⸽⸽u⸽⸽e⸽⸽ ⸽⸽D⸽⸽e⸽⸽t⸽⸽e⸽⸽c⸽⸽t⸽⸽i⸽⸽v⸽⸽e⸽⸽ ⸽⸽ ₛₑₐₛₒₙ ₁ ᴅɪʀ. ᴄᴀʀy ᴊᴏᴊɪ ꜰᴜᴋᴜɴᴀɢᴀ

you have completely talked me into watching true detective bahaha..and i love it. do you have any other good rust fics👀

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this makes me so happy haha!! there seems to be a severe lack of rust fics on here :(

although a03 always saves the day!

shades of black and blue (this is an actual masterpiece btw) (rust x f!reader)

the creeping woods (rust x f!reader)

you'll kill me before the cigarettes do (rust x maggie)

True Detective 4.04 "Part 4"