Me: :(

I'm yearning my s/o so much... like i want him to hold me, cuddle me, and say sweet nothings to me. let's shift tonight!

why I love the rain:

the pitter patter against a window

you get to wear raincoats

the smell of rain 

snails come out

cloudy skies and thunderstorms

the air smells fresh

the feeling of being alive

i like the concept of soulmates—not a “you’re destined to meet me, and love me” kind of soulmate, but a “i’d pick you, every time.” kind of soulmate. a “no matter what happens, and what has happened, i want to go through it with you.” kind of soulmate. a “i love you by choice, and you’re a blessing, and i’m going to continue thinking about you this way not because i have to but because i want to.” kind of soulmate. a “you help me rest easy when everything is difficult” kind of soulmate. a “in every possible outcome, i want you there, to share it with me.” kind of soulmate.

Helion Week: Day 4

Dadcanons

Helion: When does a joke turn into a dad joke?

Lucien: I’m not doing this.

Helion: …

Lucien: FINE. When does a joke turn into a dad joke.

Helion: When it becomes apparent 😆😆😆

Lucien: BYE

-Helion loves embarrassing his adult son. He missed the childhood milestones, but he’ll be damned if he misses out on the joy of upsetting his child just by existing.

-They bicker constantly, about the dumbest shit imaginable. Lucien is fastidious about absolutely everything and Helion is freewheeling. They argue about “quiet hours.” They argue about the dress code of the Day Court, which Helion argues is intended to keep everyone from passing out in the sweltering heat, an argument that Lucien eventually loses when he swoons in the middle of the street while wearing approximately five layers of clothing. And they bicker about Eris, who gives Helion the creeps and who Lucien disingenuously calls “a harmless teddy bear” for the purposes of trying to get his dad to let his guard down and get the full Eris Vanserra obnoxious villain treatment. Helion has yet to fall for this. Lucien will keep trying.

-Despite their arguing, Helion and Lucien form an unbreakable bond. They are similar in more ways than people think, and they are passionate about many of the same things. They both love books and learning. They are both devoted to their people and doing right by them. And they both deeply love the Lady of Autumn.

-When Helion makes a big production about fighting Beron, Lucien quietly asks him not to fight. When Helion jokes that Lucien would get a crack at being High Lord, Lucien doesn’t laugh and tells him that he will take a father who loves him over a crown any day.

-Lucien and Helion have dinner with the Inner Circle of the Night Court. The wine is flowing and Helion is being Helion and Lucien finally gets exasperated and asks if there’s anyone at the table that his dad hasn’t fucked. Only Amren raises her hand, but then puts it down when Helion reminds her of Summer Solstice two centuries back. Lucien is mortified.

-Despite all of this, father and son are inseparable. Helion consults Lucien constantly, using his intelligence and insight to help make the Day Court better. Lucien relies on his father’s wisdom and faith in him to help him regain his own self-confidence. And they both rely on each other to combat the loneliness that they had to live with for so long before they found each other.

as a girl who is literally just a girl i am always yearning. always longing always missing always wearing my heart on my sleeve. always feeling like my heart is on the verge of exploding. the sight of the sun makes me cry. anyway

Imagine if everything had gone alright... Baby Lucien with the pegasuses 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

to be around exquisite flowers.♡

the feminine urge to collect daggers

What can you show me

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