let's recap what we've learned about the United States in the last few days.
things that are terrorism:
allegedly shooting a healthcare CEO whose company generated more pure profit (not revenue, profit) in a year than the GDP of 94 countries, exclusively by denying coverage to people who pay for it
a 42-year-old mother of 2 using the wrong combination of 7 words during a heated conversation with a call center employee at a health insurance company who was in the process of denying her health coverage.
things that are not terrorism:
mass shooting in a Black church to incite a race war
going to a BLM protest specifically to kill protestors
a neo-nazi running over a crowd of people, killing a woman
targeting and killing 23 latinos in an el paso, texas walmart
killing 12 people in a theatre, shooting 58 others, rigging your apartment with explosives
a QAnon groyper killing 7 and shooting ~50 at a 4th of July parade
killing 3 people and shooting several others at a Planned Parenthood in defense of the unborn
stalking someone relentlessly and then killing them and their child despite months of the victim making police reports
any one of the 1,200 murders committed by US police yearly, the vast majority being minorities
tightening your border while ~100 immigrants (including children) drown every year in the Rio Grande
United Healthcare killing an unnknowable number of elderly people by using faulty AI to deny medically necessary coverage
Aetna killing a woman by refusing to cover her cancer care
Blue Cross killing a 6-year-old by denying her appendicitis surgery
Cigna killing a 17-year-old child by denying her liver transplant
the pharmaceutical industry killing half a million people with opioids in the name of producing revenues in 2023 that rivaled the GDPs of countries like Spain, Mexico, and Australia.
the United States killing 45,000 people a year because they can't access health coverage
make sure you keep this guide handy the next time you find yourself interacting with your insurance company or any other millionaire, billionaire, or an individual who is part of a protected class such as a CEO or president of a corporation.
Jjk fic masterpost
THESE ARE NOT MY POSTS THIS IS JUST A WAY FOR ME TO NOT HAVE TO SCROLL A BAJILLION MILES TO FIND STUFF
Updated July 29th 2024
Screampied Masterlist
Bad Boy College AU Sukuna x Reader
Toji x Reader, heavy breeding kink (Megumi exists)
JJK men seeing u nude on accident
Punk Band!Choso x Reader
Tender-Rosiey Masterlist
Nanaslutt Masterlist 1
Nanami x Reader, Sex life boring spices up
Gojo x Reader BODY SWAP (my fav)
Pseudowho masterlist (use to get to updated one)
Fighter Sukuna x Reader
JJk Period Sex (my fav)
Professor Sukuna x Reader
Virgin Choso x Reader (go to yujis for sleepover end up with choso)
Sukuna x Reader Best friends older brother (my fav)
Nanami x Reader naturally
Single mom Reader x Next door neighbor Sukuna
Actor toji x actor reader
Spideyyeet Masterlist
Rinhaler Masterlist
Omegaverse Gojo and Geto
SUKUNA PERIOD SEX LETS GO
Yakuza Boss Gojo
Mult Jjk Men Kinks
Best Friend Choso (WHOLE FAMILY TREE)
Accidentally texting them ur đŻđŠ”
[AO3] Sukuna period sex
Best Friends brother choso
[AO3] Gojo x Geto
Boy next door Sukuna
Hybrid Gojo and Geto x Reader
Pleasing Choso after a long day
Dads best friend toji
Father Sukuna
Loser GF x Sukuna
MMA Toji x Sukuna x Reader
Velvetcrimsonkissesâ Masterlist
Edging Choso
3am w/ Dad Sukuna
Choso and Yuki full Nelson w/ Reader
Fuck her till sheâs sore multi
Sukuna and Clingy Concubine
Toji x Pregnant Reader
Yakuza Gojo x Yazuka Geto x Reader
Gojo needs Getos help to make you O
Academic Rivals Choso x Reader
Hybrid Geto Masterlist
Enemies to Lovers Choso
Sukuna Fics
Dad Sukuna fics
Vamp Choso Period Sex
Uncle Sukuna x Reader
College Gojo x Reader
[AO3] Sukunas Roommate
Messy Sex Multi
Wolf Sukuna x Bunny Reader Mlist
Dumb Dick Gojo
Gojo, Namami, Geto x Reader, fucking a piece of ur clothes
Toji, Gojo, Sukuna fav position
Fuck boy gojo
Cocky men
Toji being soft with pregnant wife
Gojo, Nanami, Geto, being freaks
Doggy with Choso
Office AU Dom!Choso x Reader
Sukuna Shutting up up blurb
Plug Sukuna x Reader
Sukuna x Reader Fairytale AU
Men in uniform fuck better
Chubby Chaser Sukuna
Being Sukunas Secretary
Jjk Men as Exes
Low Sex Drive Toji
Wolf Hybrid Gojo
Sukuna x Reader Period Sex
Clothed Sex with JJK Men
Loser Choso x Cam Girl Part 2
JJK Men 420 fics
Dom JJK Men x Sub Reader
JJK Men affected by Sex Technique
Shoko x Fem!Reader
Sending the JJK Men NSFW videos
Hockey Sukuna x Reader ML
Twt links
Mha links
FIRST masterlist! This masterlist has all my writing from 06/02/24 up until 01/10/24 â for my recent works click on my SECOND MASTERLIST <3
Men In Uniform Do It Best!
Dirty Lil' Secrets
A Picture Lasts Long (But Not As Long As That D*ck)
I'm Addicted, I Admit It!
Give Me Tough Love
Never Ever Seen This Before!
We Don't Have No Babies!
Like A Fever
Bad Things (To You)
Prettier When Messy!
Care For You!
Green-eyed Monster
So Lonely In My Mansion!
Kiss Me More!
Girl, I Do This Often
Cause, I Love Freaks!
Sl*t Me Out!
Match My Freak!
WAP!
R U Mine?
Hot To Go!
Girl, You Earned It!
I'm A BIG Stepper!
BODY-ODY!
SOOO ANXIOUS
Long Overdue!
THIS P*SSY DEPRESSED!
The Family Matter?!
I-T G-I-R-L!
I Lasted Ten Rounds!
BRAT!
She's My Vitals!
ONE-SHOTS
Three's a Crowd (But Four...) â âSo, are they like holograms? Or can you really touch them?â âWhy? Trynna cop a feel, sweetheart?â In which you and your boyfriend find very unconventional uses for his powers.
Why Can't I Keep My Fingers Off You? [Part 1] [Part 2] â There were two things missing in the scene in front of you: 1. The aphrodisiac chocolate your friends had given as a gag gift last Christmas that had been hidden away in the back of your refrigerator. 2. Your dear fiancĂ©.
Dream A Little Dream â For the strongest, it was a privilege to dream. Especially when his dream is you.Â
Initiation! â âJust a small initiation, nothing too serious.â Couldnât be too hard, right? So why are you - the all-new frat sweetheart - being pinned to the bed and stuffed full from all ends by your frat brothers?
One More? Please? â A kiss always solves everything! But when a kiss turns into something moreâŠwell, itâs only a desperate attempt to unseal yourselves from this damned prison realm, right? Right?
Everybody Knows That I'm a Good Girl, Officers... â You donât know whatâs faster - how fast you were speeding down the highway, or how fast youâre on your knees for the hot officers that just so happen to pull you over.
Hope They Catch Us â When youâre on-screen, itâs always a rivalry to see whoâs best - you just never thought that it would be the same struggle in bed.
Unmistakably Yours â In which the strongest bends space and time - literally - after coming back from deatឣ, to do what heâs always wanted to do - you.
Madam Gojo â Gojo Satoru, the strongest clan leader in all of Japan - and the most dangerous, too. You, rejected by the elders, and totally not his future bride, right? Right?
Can't Touch Me (Like Gojo) â In which intentionally making your frĂend-with-benefĂts jealous ends up with more benefits than youâd think.
The Heir â No, your clan leader husband wonât stop until he gives you an heir. No, you donât think youâll make it out alive.
LONGFICS
The Call â After an explosive fight with your boyfriend, you really should feel sorry about being swept up by the blue-eyed stranger at the club - but itâs so hard when he kisses you like that.
Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy â He knows that you would be one of his favorite stories from his travels. And you know that you want nothing more than to stay by his side. After meeting an alluring cowboy at Olâ Rustcliffe Saloon, both of you are sure of one thing - this must be fate.
Go For It, Gojo! [Part 1] [Part 2] â You wouldnât fuck Gojo Satoru even if you were paidâŠis what you thought exactly five minutes before you were shoved against the wall of this cramped closet, his face stuffed in your soaked panties.
Unhoneymooners!? â The universe was surely playing a joke on you. Here you were, trapped on a luxury getaway with your - dangerously handsome, extremely obnoxious - ex. Either you were going to kill each other or end up pinned beneath him, split apart on his cĂłck. You just didnât know what would come first.
AITA For F*cking My Sugar Daddy's Son?! â When your sugar daddy just isnât paying attention to you, can you really be blamed for fĂșcking his son? Especially when his son is absolutely obsessed with you.
Bad Boys Bring Roses â Youâve never dealt with the yakuza - not once. So why is the future head of the Gojo clan suddenly coming up to you, demanding that you marry him for 30 days?
The Way You Kiss Me â The four times Satoru tries really hard not to kiss you - his best friendâs pretty younger sister. And the one time he doesnât.
Isn't That Sweet? (I Guess So) â Oh no! Why do your pantĂes keep disappearing? Well, maybe your hot roommate knows the answerâŠ
Haunting You â A bIoody trail of vampire attĂĄcks, a political marriage, and four suitors youâre forced to choose from - all haunting you. But none as much as the mysterious stranger that makes everything in you scream that you might just be fated for the very thing your kingdom is trying to escape from.
You'll Taste Me Too! â How do you last three days on a work trip with the man you hate the most in the office? You donât - you end up pinned underneath him, instead.
We Neva Play! â Turns out, the ârâ in rivals stands for âreally good sĂ©xâ when a mission becomes a little too hot to handle.
Something Stupid â Five times the strongest would rather dĂe than tell you he loves you, and the one time he almost does. Almost.
ONE-SHOTS
Initiation! â âJust a small initiation, nothing too serious.â Couldnât be too hard, right? So why are you - the all-new frat sweetheart - being pinned to the bed and stuffed full from all ends by your frat brothers?
Like An Animal â Of course Toji doesnât want any more kids. Of course heâs lying as he stuffs your pretty cĂșnt full of his cĂșm for the third time tonight.
Whiskey, Neat, With a Side of You â When your date stands you up, youâre lucky that the hot bartender is more than happy to keep you company!Â
Everybody Knows That I'm a Good Girl, Officers... â You donât know whatâs faster - how fast you were speeding down the highway, or how fast youâre on your knees for the hot officers that just so happen to pull you over.
F*ck You! (Literally) â Of course, you hated your ex-husband. Of course, you found yourself in bed with him on your wedding anniversary.
LONGFICS
Government Hooker â With the fame and glory of being an international popstar comes the inevitable threat of an overzealous stalker. You just didnât think that it would also come with a very sexy, buff bodyguard behind your every move.
Madam Zenin â Thereâs nothing that rouses Toji, the infamous head of the Zenin clan, nothing that will make him lose control - until they take whatâs most important to him. You.
ONE-SHOTS
Brooklyn Baby â Everybody wanted to fuck Suguru Geto, lead bassist of Tokyo Special Grades. Said Suguru doesnât want to fuck anyone else but you. He couldnât give less of a fuck if anyone walked in right now. In fact, a small part of him wishes someone would.
Initiation! â âJust a small initiation, nothing too serious.â Couldnât be too hard, right? So why are you - the all-new frat sweetheart - being pinned to the bed and stuffed full from all ends by your frat brothers?
Golden Boy â Falling right back in love with the cult leader youâre supposed to kĂll? Happens more often than youâd think.
LONGFICS
ONE-SHOTS
Initiation! â âJust a small initiation, nothing too serious.â Couldnât be too hard, right? So why are you - the all-new frat sweetheart - being pinned to the bed and stuffed full from all ends by your frat brothers?
A Million Dollar Baby! â Turns out, rent can be paid in much more than one way.
LONGFICS
ONE-SHOTS
Welcome To The Itadori's! â Three times Choso really, really wanted to hold you without his family barging in, and the one time he actually does.Â
FIVE! â Five hours - itâs all it takes for Chosoâs baby fever to take over. After all, youâd look so pretty with his kid - five of them, in fact.
LONGFICS
Great With Kids? (You Can Have Mine) â When your younger brother gets a new babysitter, only two questions linger on your mind: 1. How come your parents didnât trust you in charge? 2. How dare the sexy babysitter be so perfect - it made you want some attention too.
Freak On The Cam! â Choso always loved watching you - his pretty lilâ camgĂrl - from behind the screen. Who knew heâd love being on-screen with you even more?
ONE-SHOTS
Can't Touch Me (Like Gojo) â In which intentionally making your frĂend-with-benefĂts jealous ends up with more benefits than youâd think.
LONGFICS
Exes who...
Love Is Blind
âShe My Best Friend, Yeah We Not a Couple.â
Wanna Do Bad Things To You
I Wanna Get Freaky On Camera
Lemme Ride, Baby!
Can I Fill You Up, Baby?
"Pull On It. Harder."
Little Heaven
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Haikyuu!! Kisses pt. 2
(pt. 1)
(Iâm bushed Uw U *dies* Anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!)
(NOTE: Not replying to requests, Iâm stopping at 17)
Going from âcelebrations on the streets of Rafah as Hamas accepts ceasefire dealâ to âIsrael chooses to continue offensive in Rafah and is currently carrying out targeted attacksâ within the span of an hour is the most viscerally heartbroken Iâve been throughout the past months
"creature of myth."
pairing: vampire!gojo x fem!human!reader summary: when you receive an offer of marriage from a mysterious wealthy lord, itâs too good a deal for your family to turn down. but nothing could be so perfect... right? content: MDNI (18+Â ONLY), dark content, nsfw, gets dubcon/noncon in some spots, yandere behavior from gojo, implied death/k*lling of a character (not reader or gojo), arranged marriage, victorian au, plot that ends with porn lmao, spooky dooky vibes, blood, blood sucking/eating, praise, biting, unprotected sex, creampie, virgin!reader, discussion of virginity, cherry popping, pain, pet names (princess/love), reader is highkey clueless about sex, discussion of masturbation, ideas of masturbation as âsinfulâ, very minor religious themes, fated âmatesâ, gojo is highkey insane, coercion and manipulation, like SO much neck kissing, ooc gojo??? (had to alter his character to match a victorian vampire lord LMAO). a/n: PLEASE READ THE CONTENT WARNINGS. THERE IS DARK CONTENT AHEAD. is this a gojo fic or a twilight fic?? Going back to my roots fr fr. straight down to the âSAY IT, SAY ITâ. this fic is also way too long my apologies bbs. i hope you like a hefty side of plot with your porn. parts of this fic feel way too cheesy to me but sometimes i eat that up, yk?? this fic was inspired by this amazing work by @rice5x ! and, finally, thank you all for the support on my most recent fics. i'm just getting back into being active on this blog and it's been amazing reading each and every comment/reblog/ask. they genuinely fill me with so much joy. keep them coming hehe. anyway, i hope you enjoy and remember, ALL AGELESS BLOGS WILL BE BLOCKED. credits: dividers by @cafekitsune. banner art by @ndsoda on twitter. wc: 11.6k (sowwy)
You remember perfectly the way your motherâs jaw dropped when Satoru Gojo proposed to you. Youâd never seen the man, and you still hadnât. Heâd asked to marry you via messenger, a simple letter delivered by hand with a list of all the things heâd be willing to pay for your hand. Offers of money, land, protection, connection- anything so long as he got you. Youâd thought it was a joke. Your father nearly took a shovel to the head of the poor messenger, thinking the letter was some kind of cruel prank, some sort of targeted disrespect. Youâd only started to believe when you really looked- saw the Gojo crest embroidered on the manâs suit, the fine leather of his boots. If it was a prank, somebody had spent a great deal of money and effort to pull it off.Â
Youâd asked for proof nonetheless, and youâd gotten it. Documents signed and sealed with a well-known waxen crest, gifts that could only have been purchased by a wealthy lord. The one thing you never got was the lord himself. He refused to see you, to come down from his mysterious castle on the hill. It didnât surprise you. He rarely deemed town worthy of his presence. He had a reputation as a recluse, as a man who only ever liked to see and never be seen. What little glimpses people got of him were usually through the dark window of his carriage. Still, his appearance preceded him. White hair, light eyes⊠âhauntingâ said those who had the luck to see him. Those who went to work for the lord tended to return⊠changedâ if they returned at all.Â
You accepted, of course. How could you not? You were a peasant family with no status or wealth to your name. The promises Lord Gojo had made would make your parents into aristocrats all on their own. But that left you wondering⊠why did he want you? You offered him no benefit. If anything, you sullied his bloodline. The question scratched at the back of your mind. It came to you while you ate breakfast, while you washed your clothes, while you weeded in the garden. Some part of you told you that you needed the answer before you ever stepped foot in that castle. You needed that answer, but youâd never get it.Â
Your wedding wasnât even a wedding- just a piece of paper that had already been signed and witnessed, once again delivered by a familiar messenger. You signed at your dining room table and⊠that was that. You were married.Â
Later that night the carriages arrive. Men flood your home, all dressed in blue velvet, the Gojo crest embroidered on their chests. They seem puzzled when you tell them youâve packed all your belongings into a measly three bags.Â
You say a quick goodbye to your parents, drawing them into stiff embraces. You love them, and they love you, but you canât bear to see their faces as they send you away to a man who couldnât even show his face for your wedding.Â
The carriage ride is somehow longer than youâd thought it would be- apparently, the castleâs size makes it seem deceptively close. The trip is rocky and twisty and altogether unpleasant as you steadily make your way toward the castle gates. By the time you reach them you think youâve probably dozed in and out of consciousness at least half a dozen times.Â
The castle is even more intimidating up close. Spires that swirl into the clouds, sculptures that stare, doors that look more suited to being locked than opened. Itâs⊠terrifying.Â
When you finally roll to a stop, you move for the door. When you swing it open you get your fair share of strange looks from your attendants and remember that you should have waited for the footman. Your face heats as you climb out anyway, unwilling to subject yourself to the further humiliation of waiting for assistance.Â
Your feet hit gravel and all you can do is stare- up, up, up, to where the castleâs peaks disappear into the fog. When your eye flashes to a window on the east side of the manor you think you see a swaying curtain. You tuck your arms around yourself and shiver, but itâs not from the cold.Â
You nearly stumble over your feet on your first step inside. The entrance hall is larger than your former house, with ceilings that stretch so high you can hardly make out the figures on the frescoes that adorn it. Silver and blue drape everywhere, the Gojo family colors. You swallow when you see a chair that is most definitely worth more than your familyâs annual income.Â
The floors are marble and when your worn heels clack against it, you only feel reminded that you donât belong here. That question pricks in your mind again as you pass portraits of every Gojo heir to have lived in the last three hundred years. Why me? Why me? Why me?Â
Your footman deposits you in your room, a place more lavish than youâve ever seen. You have a four poster bed with a canopy of blue velvet, a window that overlooks a sprawling estate, and more square footage than youâve ever dreamed of.Â
âPull this if you need any sort of assistance, maâam.âÂ
You turn to see your footman referencing a silver cord at your bedside. You assume itâs one of those contraptions that rings a bell in the servantsâ quarters. You try to hide your amazement- youâve never seen one in real life before.Â
You clear your throat and give your most ladylike nod. âThank you, um-â you pause, your brow furrowing. âIâm sorry, I donât think I asked your name.âÂ
Your footman appears stunned to silence, like heâd never expected you to care about his existence, much less his name. He recovers quickly, though, and forces a small smile. âThomas, maâam.â
You smile and itâs genuine. âThank you, Thomas.âHe bows and makes a beeline for the door, but you have one more question. âOh, um, Thomas-â He freezes, turning slowly on his heel to face you.Â
âYes, my lady?âÂ
You cringe at the title. The sound of it creeps across your skin, foreign and⊠wrong. Why me? Why me? Why me?
You clear your throat again. âDo you know, um, well-â You shift, trying to word your question properly. âDo you know when I might see the Lord?âÂ
There is a pause, a moment of tension and silence, and then an answer. âNo, my lady.â
Thomas does not stick around for more questioning. The door clicks shut behind him and then you're left with only the sound of retreating footsteps.Â
Youâre stunned to say the least, mouth still halfway open, more questions on the tip of your tongue. Should you seek him out? Was that proper? Would he come to you? Would he meet you for dinner, perhaps? Surely he would come to your room tonight to⊠consummate. Would that be the first time you lay eyes on him? When heâs over you?Â
You sigh. Thereâs nothing much to be done about it now. You find your way to the bed and sit down hesitantly. It feels like a crime to rumple such primped and polished cotton. You do it anyway- itâs going to happen sometime, right? You fall back against the mattress and donât fail to notice how utterly comfortable it is. The silvery patterns on your canopy swirl and bend together. Youâre tired. You didnât sleep much last night, anxious for the morning⊠and itâs only mid-afternoon now. You had time for a nap, right? Your eyes are closing before you can convince yourself itâs a bad idea and then youâre swept away into a world of warm darkness.Â
You wake with a start. Your first thought is that itâs dark now. Your room is pitch black except for the stream of moonlight passing through your stupidly large window. Your mouth feels dry and your skin is cold, like youâve just woken from a nightmare. If you have, you donât remember it. Perhaps thatâs a blessing.Â
You sit up, combing a finger through your hair and laughing pitifully when you realize that you left your shoes on as you slept. You hope Thomas didnât walk in to find you in yet another unladylike position. A glance at the foot of the bed reveals he might have. Your bags have arrived- all three of them. You eye them with a combination of longing and contempt. They don't match this place. Theyâre worn and used- everything here is shiny and new. Still, theyâre all you have, and all you have left of your life before. All you have left of home.Â
You stretch your arms above your head, nearly groaning at the burn in your muscles. The carriage ride did your body no favors and you suspect youâll be sore for many days to come.Â
You rise, no longer content to lie in bed. Youâve had your rest and, from the state of darkness outside, you suspect your new husband might be joining you soon. The thought twists a certain tightness into your gut, but you push it aside. If that was the price you paid for all he gave your family⊠then youâd pay it gladly.Â
You start with candles, finding a box of matches at your bedside. You light every candelabra you can find. The room, the castle, seems so perpetually⊠black- like it soaks up every ray of light it touches. Even when youâve finished it doesnât feel like enough. You make a note to ask Thomas for more in the morning.Â
You find a meal, carefully prepared and preserved, on a table near your dresser. Judging by the fact that itâs still warm, you conclude that it canât be much past mid-evening. You originally intend to pick at the food as you unpack, but one bite has your mouth watering. It is the most delicious thing to ever touch your lips, complete with dessert waiting on the side. You clean your plate before moving onto your bags.Â
You lay your clothes out on the bed. A few dresses, riding pants, undergarments, an assortment of ribbons and bows. At one time these items had been the finest things you owned- now you owned a castle.Â
You find an armoire that looks like a master sculptor carved its edges and grab a dress, intending to hang it. Instead, your dress hits the floor when you part the doors to find the hangers already full. Your lips part. Luxury dresses of silk and satin line the rack, fading into some that appear more casual outfits of cotton and linen. You stretch a hand out, curious and utterly⊠amazed. To think your new husband had gone to all the effort⊠Your hand brushes purple silk and-Â
âDo you like them?âÂ
You screech, jumping to face the voice at your back. It takes a moment for your eyes to find him, leaning casually against one post of your bed. Your breath is stolen for a second time. Snow white hair, piercingly blue eyes, pale soft skin⊠you know who he is even without looking at his dress, at the air of authority he claims. Heâs your husband⊠and he is the most devastatingly beautiful thing youâve ever seen.Â
He laughs, then, and itâs a warmer sound than youâd thought it would be- rich and full. A sound that seeps into your bones and settles in your soul.Â
âSorry. Didnât mean to scare you,â he says, but the twinkle in his eyes makes you think that perhaps thatâs a lie.Â
Your heart pounds and your eyes flash to the door. Itâs shut. You didnât hear it open, nor did you hear it close behind him. You also didnât hear footsteps, didnât hear breaths, didnât hear him.Â
He follows your gaze and laughs again, though it sounds a bit⊠strained?Â
âI have a habit of being unintentionally lightfooted. I apologize.âÂ
Your heart is still pounding but you find it in yourself to have some decorum. You snap your jaw shut and bow your head slightly in respect. âYou must be Lord Gojo. Forgive me for my insolence.âÂ
Thereâs a beat, and then footstepsâ ones you actually hear this time. You clench your jaw when he stops before you and then nearly gasp when he takes your hand and brings it to his lips.Â
âSatoru, please,â he winks and you think you might stop breathing. âI am your husband after all.âÂ
You force yourself to nod, to swallow, to act normal. But how can you in the presence of a man that looks like⊠that? Thereâs something too unreal about him, too perfect. Itâs almost⊠unsettling.Â
âOf course⊠Satoru.âÂ
He straightens and shows you a close-lipped smile that digs a dimple into his left cheek. You have to look away to avoid stumbling over your own feet.Â
âSo, do you like them?â Your brows furrow- âThe dresses,â he clarifies.Â
âO-oh.â Your features relax into an easy smile. You turn back to your armoire, running a hand along another gown. You donât think youâve ever touched something so⊠finely made. âI like them very much. I donât know how to thank you.âÂ
Thereâs a little chuckle as you turn to face him again and you have to steel yourself before you meet his eyes. Heâs mesmerizing, too mesmerizing. You think you could probably lose yourself in those eyes foreverâŠÂ
âNo need to thank me. If they donât fit, weâll call for the seamstress in the morning.âÂ
You nod softly, still lost to the situation. Thereâs a beat of silence in which your husband does nothing but⊠look at you. His eyes roam freely and the hair on your arms stands under his gaze. He traces the lines of your nose and jaw and lingers on your pulse. Can he see just how fast your heart is pounding?
âDid you⊠get dinner?â Itâs a stupid question, you know, but you donât think you can bear another second of that look heâs giving you. âI fell asleep and found a plate. I hope I didnât prevent a proper mealâŠâ You trail off. Perhaps you shouldnât have pointed out your own shortcoming?Â
He gives you another smile and you swear he inches just a little closer. âYou did no such thing. Iâm⊠perfectly satisfied.âÂ
You nod, glad that he doesnât seem upset at the very least. Your lips press together, unsure of what to do or say. Youâve never had a husband before. Wasnât he supposed to just sort of⊠put you on the bed and⊠do it?
Your eyes flit to said bed and your husband must see because he hurries to continue.Â
âWell, Iâll see you in the morning then, hm?â His eyes flit to your armoire and back again. âWear the blue dress with the lace to breakfast, yeah? Been dying to see it on you.â He chuckles like heâs just told some sort of amusing joke.
Your brows furrow. That was⊠not the topic youâd been expecting. âYouâre notâŠâ You feel your cheeks heat and tighten your jaw. âNot staying the night?âÂ
His lashes lower a fraction and those eyes pierce you again. You donât think you could move even if you wanted to, even with him prowling closer, each step eating up the space between you. He doesnât stop until youâre nose to nose and you can feel his breath fanning over your cheeks. Itâs cold somehow, chilling, and you shiver. He smirks.Â
âNot tonight.âÂ
His head dips and for a moment you think heâs going to kiss you, but then heâs bypassing your mouth altogether and- his lips connect to your pulse. His mouth is cool, just like his breath, and you shiver uncontrollably under his touch.Â
His touch is just a fleeting moment, just a wrinkle in time, and then heâs gone. His footsteps are quiet brushes on the hardwood and the creak of the door even seems tamed in his presence.Â
âGoodnight,â is all he says, and then heâs gone.Â
You climb into your bed an hour later wondering what in the world just happened.Â
~Â Â
You do wear the blue dress to breakfast and you can only gape in the mirror when you realize that it fits perfectly. It has you second-guessing yourself. Had you sent your measurements in advance and forgotten about it? No, youâd only sent a handful of pieces of information to the Lord prior to your marriage and you remembered all of them very clearly. Everything had gone through a messenger, everything had been clear and directâ you would have remembered sending your measurementsâ you didnât. So had he just⊠guessed?Â
That seemed impossible with how everything fit you like a glove, but it was the only explanation you had. The only one that made sense.Â
When you join Satoru for breakfast itâs in a sitting room as lavishly decorated as the rest of the castle, but perhaps organized to be a bit more⊠liveable. He has no plate in front of him, only a tin cup that hides the contents of whatever heâs drinking. You assume coffee or juice. Perhaps heâs just not a breakfast person.Â
âIt fits!â he says. His hands clasp together in front of him and he smiles again, dimples and all.Â
You nod and fight the heat that bubbles beneath your cheeks as you take your seat. âYes, perfectly.â
A plate is set before you and a glance up reveals itâs Thomas serving your breakfast. You smile, hoping for some acknowledgement from him, for a small piece of comfort. Instead, you get his averted gaze and quick retreat. Your brows furrow, but before you can say anything, Satoru is back to speaking.Â
âI hope Thomas treated you well yesterday?âÂ
You glance up, but Satoruâs eyes arenât on you, theyâre on your footman. His smile is bright, but itâs anything but friendly. You fight a shiver.Â
You glance at Thomas. Heâs perfectly still, perfectly straight, but you think you see a muscle clench in his jaw. You clear your throat. âY-Yes. Thomas was very helpful.â When Satoru keeps staring the boy down you add, â-and very respectful.âÂ
That seems to satisfy. Satoru breaks his stare and some of the tension in the air instantly eases. He shoots you another dimpled smile, this one with a little more warmth. âPerfect.âÂ
Thereâs a beat and then heâs standing, draining whatever he has in his cup and then straightening his jacket. âWell, I have some work to do. Iâll see you for dinner?â Heâs grinning again, like itâs so normal for a man to abandon his bride on their wedding night and then again the morning after. All you can do is nod. He chuckles. âSee you then, princess.â And then heâs gone.
~
If this is to be your life you don't know how you will survive it. You spend the day milling about. Through the gardens, through the castle, through the stables. Thomas is never far behind, but any attempt at conversation is nipped in the bud by hit shortness. Itâs like he fears coming too close. Heâs never closer than a couple paces except when he has to bring you something, only to retreat again as soon as possible. The other servants barely pay you any mind apart from giving you a respectful greeting and then immediately averting their eyes. There is no work to be done, no guests to be had, no parties to plan⊠and no Satoru. You donât see your husband once on tour around the grounds. You ask Thomas where his office is only for him to vaguely point out a window in the east tower. You donât see so much as a ripple in the curtains.Â
Dinner comes around at the pace of a snail. When itâs finally time to get dressed a ladyâs maid whose name you donât even catch arrives to help you lace your dress. As soon as your corset is deemed tight enough sheâs back out the door with a curtsy. Thomas leads you to the dining room and your eyes roam the whole way. Even after having spent the whole day exploring, there are halls and corridors that youâve yet to step foot in.Â
The dining room is just as gorgeous as the rest of the placeâ filled with singular items that could feed entire families for years. Somehow, you think youâve already grown accustomed to such things, since the only thing you truly care to look at is your husband. Satoruâs already seated, but he stands when you enter, looping around the table to pull a chair out for you.Â
You give him your most genuine smile, accepting a kiss to your knuckles in greeting before you settle. âHow was your day?â you ask as he takes his seat again.Â
He chuckles. âPerfectly fine. And how was yours, princess?â Your nose crinkles. Thatâs the second time heâs called you that. Something about it feels wrong. Youâre still getting used to being a lady. Princess feels even worse.Â
âIt was⊠good.â
You watch a perfect white brow arch in the candlelight. âOh? Just good?â You donât miss the way his eyes flicker to the cornerâ to Thomas.Â
You hurry to elaborate. âWell, I justâ I canât help but feel as if thereâs not much⊠use for me.â Servants flood in, some carrying wine, others carrying trays that hold more food than the both of you could ever possibly consume.Â
That brow arches impossibly higher. âUse?â His lips crack into that smile again, but itâs tight this time. Too tight. âYou have no use. You only enjoy yourself. Surely Thomas has told you that.âÂ
A plate of steaming food plops in front of you. Even its heavenly smell canât quell the sudden dread in your gut. âOf course! Of course he did.â Your stomach twists and you decide that perhaps now is not the time to press the subject. âIâll just⊠Iâll try riding tomorrow.â You hate riding, but itâs the first thing that comes to mind.Â
Satoruâs smile thaws into something less menacing. âIâm sure youâll enjoy that.âÂ
You nod eagerly. âIâm sure I will.âÂ
You grab your fork, eager for a new subject. From what you can tell, dinner is roast chicken and vegetables, though itâs the luxury version as everything seems to be. The spices are intoxicating and the green beans are even arranged in a pretty little pattern that makes them look too good to eat. You do anyway. The first bite nearly makes you moan, but you chew slowly, delicately, trying not to let your upbringing show.
Itâs not until several bites later that you realize youâre the only one eating. A quick glance reveals your husband has no platter, no chicken or green beans. Heâs only⊠watching you. You clear your throat, dabbing at your lips with a napkin.Â
âYouâre not⊠eating?â
That permanent smile grows a little wider and you canât help but feel as if thereâs something⊠menacing about it. âAte before I came.âÂ
Your brows furrow. âOh. Were you on the road?âÂ
You think you see something wild flash in his eyes. âNo.âÂ
The rest of dinner passes slowly, almost painfully. Satoru doesnât eat a bite, doesnât even look enticed. You wonder how thatâs possible when it smells like a spice bomb went off in the dining room.Â
By the time youâve cleared your plate youâve discussed everything from the number of horses in the stables to kinds of crops grown on the estate. Itâs comforting to know a little more about your new home, but itâs not enough.Â
âIs there a library?â you ask. Youâre on dessert now. Itâs the best chocolate cake youâve ever had and it takes everything in you to hold back a moan each time it touches your tongue.Â
âOf course.â Your husbandâs eyes flicker to Thomas again and youâre honestly starting to fear for the poor footmanâs life. Everytime you ask a question itâs like Satoru is angry it hasnât already been answered. âItâs yours to use as you please.âÂ
You smile lightly. âPerfect. Thank you.âÂ
He softens a bit at that. âIs there anything specific you wanted to read about?âÂ
You shrug. âThe estate, I suppose. I should know my homeâs history, no?â
His eyes get that wild look again, that sparkle that you know speaks to nothing good. âOh, absolutely. I have some personal favorites to recommend. Iâll leave them aside for you?âÂ
You swallow and give him a shallow nod. âThat would be perfect. Thank you.âÂ
He chuckles. âMy pleasure.âÂ
When dessert is finally over, you stand slowly. Satoruâs not far behind you, saying heâll walk you to your room. Your heart leaps at his words. Will he stay with you tonight?Â
He offers you his arm in the hall and your mouth runs dry when you feel the corded muscle beneath his jacket. By the time you reach your room, youâre thinking of tugging him in behind you. His denial to stay with you last night was not only confusing, but⊠off putting. Nearly offensive. Did he not like how you looked? Did he think something was wrong with you?Â
You muster all the courage you possess and force your lips apart. âWill you stay with me tonight?âÂ
His eyes spark again and you hold your breath. He presses closer. This is it, you think. His lips hover over yours, eyes glimmering in the candlelight. And then he dips his head, his mouth pressing to your pulse.Â
âNot tonight,â he whispersâ and then heâs gone.Â
~
You wake suddenly. Itâs the middle of the night, you gather. The light streaming through the window is weak enough to only be that of the moon.Â
Your heart is pounding and your skin is slick with sweat despite the chill in your bones. A nightmare, you think. It must have been a nightmare.Â
As you settle back into your sheets you swear you see a ripple in the darkness. You close your eyes. If your nightmare is real, youâd rather not see it coming.
~
The library is huge. Itâs sprawling and smells of paper and leather and everytime Thomas lights a candle you flinch at the idea that one misplaced spark could end thousands of years of knowledge.Â
The books Satoru left you are⊠perfect. Just what you were looking for. Theyâre all comprehensive volumes of the history of the estate, many of which reference each other. Youâre stunned to see that several are written by very well-known authors of both the past and the present. You knew the Gojo familyâs influence reached far, but not that far. You peruse the titles. The Gojos: A History, A History of the Gojo Crest, History of the Gojo Castle, Revisiting the Gojo Family: A Comprehensive History. Altogether you have well over a few thousand pages of informationâ but thereâs one book that doesnât fit with the rest. Itâs relatively unassuming. A black cover with some sort of gold rune etched onto its front. When you flip to the title page it reads âCreatures of Myth and Where To Find Themâ. Your brows furrow. You slide it to the sideâ must have gotten mixed in with the others, you think.
~
You ask Thomas to bring the books to your room. He does. Very respectfully. He sets them on your bedside table and then retreats like a kicked puppy with only a polite goodbye. You sigh. His behavior has only gotten stranger in the past few days. You think the servantsâ coldness must have something to do with Satoru, but you canât figure out why. Had he ordered them to stay away? Why would he?Â
You decide itâs a question for another day and dive into your books. You spend hours, days, reading every chapter, page, and word. The pure amount of information is dizzying. Apparently this specific estate had been in the hands of the Gojo family since the eighth century (with several razings and consequential rebuilds). You also learn that Satoru was not only the most wealthy lord on the continent, but the most wealthy man. Even wealthier than the king apparently, though that fact was kept fairly under wraps to protect the crownâs ego. The estimates of your husbandâs net worth made your head spin.
Satoru joins you for breakfast and dinner every day. You never see him eat a morsel. Itâs⊠unsettling to say the least. Itâs always just that tin cup, filled with something you could never quite see. You develop a pattern of waking in the night, too, with the overwhelming sense that something is watching you. Sometimes you could swear you feel the bed shift as you jerk awake. Each time you simply close your eyes and try your best to slow your heart, convinced your mind is playing tricks on you.Â
Your days feel a little more productive with a book in your hands, but youâve read them all three times over by the time a fortnight has passed. You find yourself packing them up to return to Thomas when a certain black cover catches your attention. You grab it from the pile and settle back into your seat. Youâve nothing better to do, right?Â
You flip back the cover, revealing a familiar title. âCreatures of Myth and Where to Find Themâ. You donât recognize the authorâs name. A quick scroll through the table of contents reveals nothing particularly interesting, but you pick a random chapter on ghouls and decide to start there.Â
Itâs fascinating. Nothing about the style is boring and the words fly by. Your silly little myth book is a page turner. By the time you notice the light has started dying youâve read about ghosts, fairies, werewolves, and goblinsâ all of which have been a delightful little read. A glance at the clock reveals you have a half hour before dinner. One more chapter, you think. Your eyes skim the title. âVampires [Vampyr]â.Â
You skim the first paragraphs until your eyes settle on a line that catches your eye.Â
âContrary to popular belief, vampires are not always crazed blood-hungry monsters. Many live among humans quite comfortably and are able to avoid detection with a little well-placed effort.âÂ
You purse your lips. What a⊠terrifying thought. You skim a little further.Â
âA vampireâs key characteristic is, of course, their desire and need to drink human blood as sustenance. However, a vampire can be spotted sooner if one is able to recognize their subtler traits. Vampires often have skin lacking any sort of flush. The lack of blood in their veins results in a sickly pallor, even after the most rigorous exercise. Their skin is also noticeably cold to the touch. At best, a vampireâs body will reach room temperature. Vampires can also be noted for their preternatural beauty. They will stand out as the most attractive person in any crowd. Finally, a vampire will have fangs. If one wishes to identify a vampire, one only needs a good look at their teethâ.
A chill settles over your skin. You flip ahead a few pages.Â
âVampires are unable to consume typical human food. Should they attempt to, their bodies will immediately reject any and all foreign substances.âÂ
Your stomach drops. You donât want to think about why. You skip the rest of the paragraph.Â
âVampires possess several supernatural abilities that set them apart as a humanâs predator rather than their equal. Vampires are known to move unnaturally fast and are notably light footed. If a vampire does not wish to be heard, they will not be. A vampireâs strength is inhuman, well over ten times that of the average man. They also have a penchant for darkness, an ability to hide away in the shadows that cannot be explained. Oftentimes they will seem to appear from thin air.â
You skip ahead again.
âVampires have been known to take mates. Mates usually come in the form of another vampire, but in some cases a human has been chosen. Vampires are fiercely protective of their mates, bordering on obsession. Any person deemed a threat to their bond or their mateâs safety is usually disposed of quickly. Oftentimes, vampires make these decisions with haste, with little regard for whether or not the threat was real. A vampire will do everything in their power to please their mate, but have been known to forcibly restrain their mates in situations of unrequited feelings. Above all else, vampires wish to possess their mates. Two bonded vampires will sometimes spiral into gloriously destructive fits in their endless desire to protect and possess one another. A vampire bonded to a human will show an increasingly protective nature, often isolating their mate from others.â
Your heart pounds. A bead of sweat rolls down your back. You flip the pages, desperateâ desperate for a piece of information that will save you from the thoughts spilling in your mind, from the thoughts you will do anything not to believe. You reach the âWhere to Find Themâ subsection and nearly gasp with relief. Surely, vampires do not pose as wealthy lords of Europe?Â
âVampires can be found everywhere. They do not exist in only one country or continent, but all over the world. Odds are that you have faced at least one vampire in your life, unknowingly or not. Some vampires choose to live solitary lives, surviving in the wilderness where human society will not attempt to tame their wild nature. Others choose to live among humans, some even existing in positions of very high authority.âÂ
No, no, no. This canât be happening to you. It canât be real. Youâre dreaming, youâre having one of those nightmares again. Youâre going to wake up any second.Â
âOne tale recounts a razing of the Gojo estate in the 12th century.âÂ
Youâre panting, hyperventilating. This isnât happening.Â
âSoldiers of the enemy force recounted a singular man, the son and heir of the then Lord Gojo, taking out a minimum of 800 men. He was described as having his familyâs characteristic white hair as well as blue eyes. Eyewitness accounts depict the Gojo heir as covered in blood and killing savagely and with inhuman strength.âÂ
No, no, no.Â
â(See next page for only existing portrait)â
Your fingers tremble but you canât stop them. Thereâs no way. Itâs not possible.Â
You flip the page and Satoru stares back at you.Â
Knock! Knock! Knock!
You nearly scream. Your door rattles angrily, but youâre not sure you can answer it, not with the knowledge flooding your mind. The knocking continues. You run your hand over your face and smooth down your hair. You feel frazzled, dirty, despite not having moved from your chair all day. Another knock prompts you to set your book aside and stand. You do your best to compose yourself, to put on a straight face. You fail instantly when you pull back the door not to reveal your faithful attendant, not Thomas, but Satoru.Â
You bite back a shriek and instead force a smile. Youâre suddenly very aware of the blood pounding in you veins and of the fact that he most likely knows.Â
âHello,â he says, but his voice is lower than usually, more intense.Â
You force a breath into your lungs. âHello,â you answer, but it sounds more like a squeak than a greeting.Â
Something flashes in his eyes, something familiar, something that is no longer interesting but rather terrifying. âAre you alright? You seem a little⊠flushed.â The concern on his face feels anything but genuine.Â
âIâm fine,â you answer, but even you can tell that reply too quickly, too eagerly. You rush to cover it up. âIs it time for dinner? Whereâs Thomas?âÂ
His lip twitches and you see a muscle in his jaw flex. âThomas has⊠left us.âÂ
No. This wasnât happening to you. There was no way this was happening to you.Â
âHe⊠what?â Thereâs an unmistakable wobble in your voice that only causes Satoruâs face to fall further.Â
âItâs no matter. Heâs gone. Now itâs just you and me, hm?â He chuckles and the sound rattles your bones. âIn fact, I was thinking Iâd cut down on the number of servants we have entirelyâŠâÂ
You mind races with the memory of knowledge you wish you didnât have. âVampires are fiercely protective of their mates, bordering on obsession. Any person deemed a threat to their bond or their mateâs safety is usually disposed of quickly.â
You nearly stumble, but lean against the doorframe just in time. Your husband had disposed of a man, all because he brought you meals and books?
âWhat have you been up to today, princess?â The question breaks your trance just in time for you to see your husbandâs eyes flicker behind you.Â
You wet your lips. âJust some reading.â You plead that he doesnât ask anything further. He does.Â
âAbout the estate?â he asks.Â
You nod and try to swallow the lump in your throat. âYes.â
His smile returns and this time itâs not forced. âYou got my books, then?âÂ
You try smiling back, but youâre fairly sure it looks more like a grimace. âYes.â
âAnything interesting?â he presses.
This isnât happening. This canât be happening. Does he know? Does he know that you know? âYes, of course. Lots.âÂ
He pauses and you see the debate and then the decision in his eyes. You think itâs the first time youâve felt true terror when he meets your gaze again. âI think we should skip dinner tonight. It seems we have so much to discuss.â
You donât even have the wherewithal to scream when he steps into you, forcing you back until heâs shutting your door behind him. He doesnât stop there, though. He keeps pressing, keeps pushing until your knees hit the bed and youâre falling to the mattress. He crawls right after you.
âWho knew my little wife was such a reader? All those books in such a short time⊠You must be simply spilling with information.âÂ
You retreat across the mattress, squeaking when your back hits the headboard and his arms cage your waist. Youâre trapped.
His hands find your hips and youâre all too aware of how cool his touch is. Even more so when he pulls you right into his lap.
âSatoru-â your voice is pitiful, breathless, and youâre ashamed to say itâs not just from the fear in your gut. Heâs never been this close before, never touched you, held you like this. âThomas-âÂ
âDonât speak his name.â His face pulls into the first scowl youâve ever seen and the sight is enough to root you to the spot. Never have you seen anything more frightening. A creature so beautiful, so perfectly angelic, filled with an insurmountable rage. Itâs wrong. âHeâs gone. Heâll never bother you again.â Heâs closer now, his breath skating over your skin. Itâs cool and now you know the reason why.Â
You shake and tremble and you knowâ Thomas is dead. Your husband killed himâ killed him for getting too close when all he did was stay at a distance. Satoru killed him. Killed him.Â
He buries himself in your neck, his voice a near whine. âThought I could put up with it, just so youâd have someone to take care of youâŠâ He groans. âI was so wrong, princess. Couldnât stand it. Couldnât stand the way you smelled more like him than meâŠâÂ
You feel him melt against you then, relief washing over his body in a wave. âBut heâs gone. And now itâs just you and me, hm? Just you and meâŠâ He hums, like remembering that fact is all heâs ever needed.
Heâs kissing your pulse again, now, and your heart is racing faster than ever. Your fingers curl into his shoulders. You should push him away, away, away. Heâs a killer, of thousands no doubt. Youâve never felt at home here, never felt like you belonged. This is why. Youâre not even the same species. Heâs something else, something your hands were never meant to touch.Â
Your mind screams at you to do go, to shove and kick at him and leave this place behind. Go, go, go your gut says⊠but you donât. You canât. Itâs too⊠good. The feeling of his cool lips against your skin, of what youâre sure is his tongue prodding at your pulse⊠itâs intoxicating. He is intoxicating. How could anyone blame you for wanting more of someone, something, so divine?Â
âHave you figured it out yet, love?â Your breath hitches and he chuckles, licking a long stripe up your neck, before he settles back at your pulse. Always your pulse. âI can feel those little gears turning. Tell me, what have they discovered?âÂ
He knows you know. But heâs going to make you say it. You swallow and feel his grip on you tighten. âYouâreâŠâ Your breaths come faster. You canât. Not aloud. Aloud makes it too⊠real.Â
âYessss?â he prods. Heâs licking at you again, all the way across your throat to find your other pulse-point.Â
âYouâre notâŠâ Something sharps nicks at your skin and you bite your lip to hold back a whimper.Â
âGo on, princess.â You think heâs just smelling you now, just burying his face as close to you as possible and taking you in.Â
You close your eyes tightly, holding back tears. âNot human,â you breathe. A piece of you breaks with the admission.
He huffs a little laugh against your skin and pulls back to look you in the eye. âThatâs good,â he purrs. âBut I think you can be a little more specific, no?â His lips press to your chin, then the corner of your mouth, then down to your jaw⊠âTell me.âÂ
Your lips wobble, muscles clenching tighter with each passing moment. You donât want to say it, donât want to speak it into existence, but you also donât dare to disobey him.Â
âYouâre aâŠâ You shake and tremble. He draws a line up your neck with the tip of his nose.
âMhm?âÂ
You open your eyes, thinking this might be the last time you see. âVampire.âÂ
He chuckles and you feel his teeth press to the skin of your neck. âThatâs right, princess. So smart.âÂ
He smiles and you suddenly realize youâve never seen his teeth before. Everytime he smiles at you itâs close-lipped and dimpled. But this⊠this is the smile of a predatorâ all white and pointy and fitted with a set of menacingly long fangs. You sob at the sight.Â
âShhhhh,â he coos. He has your chin in his hand, forcing you to truly look at him, to see him for what he is. âI wonât hurt you, love.â You want to believe him so badly it burns, but his laugh washes away any fire and turns it to ice. âNot unless you want me to.â He wiggles a brow like itâs just a little joke, like heâs not an actual fucking vampire that had his fangs over your neck just moments ago.Â
âSatoru,â you beg. Youâre not sure what youâre begging for. Release maybe? But, no, thatâs not right. You donât want him to let you go, not when you finally have him close after all this time. âWhy did you pick me?âÂ
The question slips out. You hadnât even been thinking about it, hadnât even noticed it scratching at the walls of your mind, but it made its way out nonetheless.
His brow creases, but not in confusion. Moreso in⊠thoughtfulness. âDo you think about that a lot, princess?âÂ
You nod and you suddenly want him closer, want him to touch you everywhere, hold you like his life depends on it. You want him, no matter how horrible it might be.Â
He nods and hums, kissing the tip of your nose lightly. âWellâŠâ he says. His thumb swipes over your lips when he leans in to whisper in your ear. âAt first I wanted you for this.â His head dips to your neck again and you feel the familiar brush of his lips against your throat. âYou smellâŠâ he chuckles. âLike heaven. Which is a place Iâll never get to on my own, so I had to bring my own little slice home, no?â He laughs again, a little louder this time, genuinely amused. âWent into town one day and caught your scent on the street. At first I thought I must be walking past the bakery, but, lo and behold, there was no baker in sight.â Heâs still kissing at your pulse, worshiping it. âWent crazy, princess. Didnât think I was going to be able to contain myself when I found you. Thought it might be quite the scene.â He huffs a laugh and you shiver, somehow both terrified and intoxicated. âBut then I saw youââ he groans and something clenches deep at your center. âAnd I knew I needed more than just your blood. Needed you.â Heâs rocking into you now, and your breath catches when you feel something firm against your backside. âWent to you in that little room you slept in every night. Watched you. Couldnât stay away. Knew I had to have you.â You feel him smile against your skin. âAfter a week I couldnât take it anymore. Sent you that letter, married you. Made you mine.â He groans again. âThen I met you and you were so pretty, princess. Already knew it, but hearinâ you talk to me, look at me.â Teeth graze your pulse. âNeeded you more than ever. Almost took you right on the fucking floor in here while you were lookinâ at those dresses.â You whine when his hips roll into you again. âOh, but I knew I couldnât. Youâre so fragile, love. Had to wait, had to make you feel safe, yeah? Spent all this time forcing myself to stay away, âfraid of what I might too if I was in your presence too long. Had to control myself. Had to make you realize you could trust me.â He panting, like heâs so pent up he can hardly sit still. âDo you trust me, princess?âÂ
Your brows scrunch. Say no, say no, say no a part of you screams. Run, run, run. You canât. âYes,â you breathe.Â
You feel him smile again, feel the pleasure of submission. âGood girl.âÂ
Youâre on your back. It happens so fast your eyes donât even have time to gasp. You donât see Satoru, but you feel him. Everywhere. His hands are roaming your body softly, sliding under buttons and laces and popping them off. Your dress loosens with every passing moment until Satoru reappears above you, diving straight for your neck again. âSo good, princess. Letâs get you out of this dress, yeah?âÂ
You nod wordlessly, entranced. He finds your mouth as he rids you of your clothes. His tongue presses in and you flail against him, unsure of what to do, of how to handle the intrusion. The kiss is heavy, too heavy, but Satoru canât seem to stop. He devours you as he gives up on laces and buttons and simply shreds your dress down the back. You tremble when the cold air hits your skin, when his cool fingers dust your collarbone.Â
âI always forget how many damn layers they make you ladies wear,â he chuckles. His hands run beneath your shift, up across your bare thigh. You gasp at the touch. No one has even been so close to you before. You feel the threads of your corset snapping away, feel your breaths growing deeper. You tremble when he pulls your sleeve down past your shoulder and runs his mouth along the newly exposed skin.Â
âSatoru,â you gasp, and your hand pulls at his flowing white shirt.Â
He chuckles, pulling back just enough to see your face. âYou wanna see me too?â You nod, lips parted and eyes glassy, and he laughs again. He lips dust over the corner of your mouth. âAlright.âÂ
His hands shift from you to himself, working at the laces on his chest. His movements are speedy, practiced, like heâs been lacing and unlacing shirts for hundreds of years. Your throat tightens when you realize that he has.Â
You gasp when he reveals himself, when his shirt slides away to reveal an expanse of pale skin and carved muscle. Youâve never seen a man like this and seeing one this close up for the first time is nearly blinding. Heâs art, you think- nothing less.Â
âTouch me, princess,â he says. You canât. You shouldnât. Heâs too beautiful, too perfect to be beneath your insignificant hands. âNeed a little help?â he asks, and thereâs a lilt in his voice that makes you sure heâs grinning.Â
His hands find yours and bring them to his chest, running your palms over his collarbones, his pecs, down, down, down across his abs that you can feel each and every one⊠You whimper, watching your own fingers grope his skin. He pulls you lower, lower, lower, and you gasp when your fingertips brush the waistband of his pants. But then heâs laughing again and heâs throwing your arms over his shoulders and pulling you closer, kissing your neck like it pained him to be parted from your pulse for so long.Â
âNot so fast,â he says, like he wasnât the one nearly stuffing your hands down his pants. His hands are on your corset again. You can feel it dangling onto you by a thread, literally. All he needs is a couple more pulls and youâll be bare. By the look he gives you, you can tell heâsÂ
thinking the same thing. âYou touch me, now I touch you, yeah?â Thereâs a tug and a tear and then so much⊠cold. Youâve never realized how cold this castle is, not until youâre exposed to its elements fully. Youâre naked.Â
Satoru sits back on his knees and just watches. His gaze is searing, burning, despite the iciness of his being. Itâs too much. Your hands move to cover yourself, to maintain some modicum of your dignity-Â
âNo.â Strong hands find your wrists and pry them apart. âLet me see you,â he says. His tongue darts out to lick his lips.Â
Your jaw clenches and your frame shakes, but you do as he asks, letting your hands fall limply at your sides. Thereâs silence for many more moments and it seems to go on so long that you can only squeeze your eyes shut under his gaze. Surely he will turn you away now, get up and leave, tell you this was a mistake, tell you that youâreâÂ
âBeautiful,â he breathes. Your eyes snap open to find him already staring at you. âBeautiful,â he says again, and then heâs on you, lips at your pulse, hands on your skin. His touch is cool and you squeak at the chill that runs up your spine. Youâre not sure itâs entirely from his temperature.Â
His mouth seeks yours and he devours you. You feel as if heâs sucking your soul out through your lips. âTell me youâve never done this before,â he begs. âTell me Iâm the first to touch you.âÂ
You whine against his mouth, both aching for more and overwhelmed by what heâs already giving you. âY-Youâre the first,â you whisper.Â
His groan is deep, primal. It rattles through your chest and you whimper when his hands dig into your waist hard enough to bruise. âYes,â he breathes, and you shiver again. âLie back, princess.â Your eyes widen, with anticipation or fear youâre not sure. Probably both. He chuckles. âDonât worry. Iâll be gentle.âÂ
You pray he means that. âJust relax, love. Here, hold my hand.â His fingers find yours, twining them together. When you swallow, his eyes follow the bob of your throat. He leans back again and your body twitches when his free hand skims the skin of your thighs. His tongue darts out to wet his lips as he finds your knees and you gasp when he parts your legs, revealing you so completely to his gaze. The way he stares, like heâs committing you to memory, itâs nearly enough to make you snap your thighs shut, but a squeeze from his hand reminds you to relax, to trust.Â
His palm skates up your thigh and settles near your hip, his fingertips inching closer to where you can feel an embarrassing throb.Â
âTell me, love. Have you ever touched yourself here?â His fingers dust low on your tummy- just low enough for you to catch his meaning, but not low enough to give you any relief. Your face heats and your teeth dig into the flesh of your cheek. You have, you have touched yourself there, but itâs the last thing you want to admit to your new husband. Itâs shameful, itâs dirty, itâs- âDonât think Iâll judge you, princess. Just wanna know.âÂ
You gulp down a breath. You should come clean. âY-yes,â you stutter, and the sound of your voice so weak and helpless only makes you flush further.Â
He chuckles and squeezes your hand again. âOn the outside or the inside?âÂ
Your eyes widen. I-inside? Youâd never considered that⊠âJ-just the outside,â you answer.Â
Your eyes grow even wider when his head rolls back and he moans straight up to the ceiling like your answer is heaven-sent. When he looks back to you his fangs are on full display. âWell, I think you and I are in for a little treat today, hm?âÂ
Your brow furrows and your lips part to ask him what he meansâ his fingers travel those last few inches down your tummy and find your clit. You squeak and jolt so violently that he presses a hand to your hip, holding you to the mattress. âSomebodyâs sensitive,â he chuckles. He holds you still for a moment and then lets your hips go free. âTry to stay still. I promise itâll feel good.â
You nod hopelessly, but this time youâre prepared for when he touches you again. Your muscles clench at the first touch, at the foreign sensation of a touch down there that wasnât your own. But then itâs more. Itâs languid, slow circles around a spot that youâve never been able to pinpoint so well on your own. Itâs heat building in your tummy that seeps through every vein and into every pore. Itâs relaxation that youâve never known, that has you melting into the mattress despite the chill of the touch.Â
Thereâs a little huff of a laugh and then his voice. âGood girl. Feels nice, yeah?â You nod hesitantly and squeeze desperately at his hand, searching for an anchor. His head cocks to the side and you watch the smile slide across his lips. âItâs about to feel even nicer.âÂ
By the time you realize what heâs doing itâs far too late to stop him. His mouth closes around your cunt and you yelp, trying to wiggle away from the overwhelming sensation- but heâs got his freehand on your hip again and his grip is bruising, punishing, as he holds you in place. He licks a stripe through your folds and you find yourself jolting again, uselessly so against the pressure of his palm on your hip. âStop that, princess.â Your heart drops at the admonishment until you feel his guiding touch. âRock into me like this.â His hand rocks your hips into his mouth and the pressure of his tongue against your clit is so delicious that you whimper. âGood girl,â he says and your heart rises right back up. âKeep doing that, now.â You donât dare defy him. You rock like he showed you, a little jerkily at first, and then you find a rhythm that has you seeing stars. âThatâs it, love,â he says, and the sound is muffled against your cunt. âHere, put your hand in my hair.â He finds your wrist and guides you forward until your fingers are tangling in those snowy locks. Theyâre even softer than youâd imagined. âGood girl,â he whispers and suddenly heâs taking one last long lick and lifting his head to meet your eyes. ââM gonna put my fingers in you now, princess.â Your chin wobbles. âIt might hurt a little bit, but stay still, okay?â You canât do anything but nod.Â
His eyes return to your cunt and you can feel him prodding at your entrance, circling the hole as you clench in anticipation. âRelaaaaaax, love,â he says and you nod. A deep breath in through your nose and out through your mouthâÂ
You feel the exact moment he pushes into you and a whine of pain rips from your throat. Your walls clamp down like a vice, angry at the intrusionâ but itâs already too late. Thereâs a beat of silence, of anticipation, and then heâsâ laughing?Â
Your brows furrow when you hear it, your head lifting to a sight that locks your limbs in shock. Satoruâs hand is lifted in front of his face, his pointer finger coated inâ blood, you realize. Your blood. And heâs a fucking vampire.Â
âOh princess,â he coos, and the manic look in his eyes makes you tremble. âYou really are perfect.âÂ
Things seem to slow as you watch him take his blood covered finger into his mouth. Youâre sure youâve never seen an expression more blissful, more lost to sensation. His eyes roll back and his body shivers, like heâs ascending to some higher plane. Maybe he is.Â
When he pulls his finger from his mouth itâs completely licked clean. You hold your breath. Heâs going to go for your neck now, right? Heâs had a taste and now heâll want more of it, all of it?
âFuck,â is all he says. His mouth is back on your cunt so fast you donât even see him move.Â
Your mouth falls wide. It hurts, the way he is so desperately licking at you. You feel his finger again, pressing in, in, in, only to pull back and suddenly be joined by another. The stretch tears at you. You thrash and jolt, but Satoru doesnât bother telling you to stop this time. His arm wraps over your hips, holding you in place. He seems immune to how hard your legs squeeze at his head or your hands pull at his hair. Heâs lost. You can feel him licking, lapping, and prodding at you like youâre a fucking gold mine. Heâs lost to desperation, to the need for more, more, more. Every so often he lifts his chin and you see his mouth smudged with a mixture of your wetness and your blood. He laps at his lips like an animal, dragging his thumb across his chin and sliding it into his mouth to make sure he gets every last drop.Â
Youâre not quite sure when the ravenous pain turns to a ravenous pleasure, when it turns from terrifying to downright delicious. You donât notice your moans filling the air until Satoru joins you, groaning and whining into your cunt and telling you to keep going, to keep making those sounds. The hand you have buried in his hair doesnât fight to push him away any longer, only to pull him into those now practiced rocks of your hips. His fingers thrust deep, curling into a spot that makes you feel so good and his mouth has found your clit again. He sucks your nerves lightly between his lips, tongue swirling in little circles. Your thighs start to shake.Â
âYes. Yes. Give it to me.âÂ
âS-Satoruââ you breathe. Warmth and tightness pool in your tummy, and you recognize it as your approaching orgasm, though you know this one will be far different than any youâve ever managed to give yourself. Your body shakes and your breaths tremble and thenâ you fall over the edge, rocking your hips senselessly, losing all form of rhythm. Warmth tingles in your spine and seeps all the way down to your toes. You think you cry out, cry for your husband, cry for more, cry for less, but if you do you donât hear it. All you hear is the pounding of your pulse, of pleasure throbbing in your veins until the world slowly seeps back in through the corners of your vision.Â
Satoru is grinning. A speck of your blood clings to his chin and his fangs peek out from behind his lips. The sight makes your blood run a little colder. If any part of you doubted what he was before⊠well, there was no doubt any longer.Â
Thereâs a shift between your legs, his hips slotting between them, and youâre suddenly snapped back to reality. From the look in his eyes, youâre not done.Â
Frantic hands find his pants and he undoes each button with a quickness that is almost inhuman. You wonder if he could go even faster, if heâs holding back so as not to scare you. If he is, it isnât working very well. Fear surges in your veins right alongside anticipation.Â
âS-Satoruââ
âItâs alright, love.â His hand finds yours without his eyes ever looking up. His grip is just a little too firm, a little too cold. âJust stay still.âÂ
You whimper, but you donât think heâs paying attention to that, and soon enough, neither are you. His pants slide down just past his hips, just enough. You gasp.Â
Youâve never seen a man in the nude, never even dared to think about what it might look like, though it seemed you no longer had to guess. His hand wrapped around his shaft, giving one long and slow stroke that made his breath hiss through his fangs. The tip was flushed, angry, and leaking something that looked clear and sticky. You couldnât help but notice it was a lot thicker than a finger, or even two. If his fingers had hurtâŠ
He moves with that alarming quickness again, leaning down to hover over you, chests nearly pressed together. âGonna take you now, princess. Gonna make you mine.â His eyes bore into yours, blue and shimmering with something wild. His hand presses into the mattress beside your head. âStay still, now.â
Itâs all the warning he gives you. You feel like youâre splittingâ straight up the middle. You wail, hands flying out to claw at his back. It hurts. It hurts.Â
âSatoru, p-please! ItâsââÂ
Lips catch yoursâ hungry, feral. The kiss is not gentle, not soothing. It shuts you up, it keeps you quiet, it keeps you still as you feel him sinking further, deeper into you. Itâs too much, you try to say, but the poke of sharp teeth against your lips keeps you silent. Your hips jolt and wiggle trying desperately to escape the stretch but itâs no use. By the time heâs fully inside you, tears are streaking down your cheeks, fat and heavy. His lips break away and his eyes reappear. You shake when you see that none of the wildness has been tamed, that youâve only just begun.
âGood girl,â he coos, and a cool finger traces a line across your jaw. âTook me so well.â You hold back a sob when his hips shift a little, testing, prodding. He must see the pinch of your eyes, the twist of your mouth, because heâs quick to comfort. âJust hold my hand, princess.â His hips rock in earnest this time and you whimper, squeezing down on his hand with all your might. Youâre panting as he chuckles. âBreathe, love. Breathe. Soon youâll be begging for more,â he laughs. Itâs not long before heâs rocking into you sincerely, setting a pace that stretches you to the brink of breaking. At first itâs all you can do to grasp onto him, to bite your lips through the whimpers and hold his hand. And then itâs⊠more. Itâs heat and warmth despite the coolness of his body on yours. Itâs sensation and⊠pleasure. He laughs when the first moan slides past your lips, burying his face in your neck once again. You hear him at your ear, panting his hot breath across your skin.Â
âFeel good, princess?â You nod, letting your hips rock against his as he showed you before. It feels goodâ it feels right. He chuckles, but thereâs nothing light about the sound. âWanna feel even better?â Something sharp pokes at the skin of your neck, hard enough to make you squeak, to make you freeze at what you know he wants.Â
He pulls himself back, pressing his forehead to yours, searching your eyes with his. Something like a cruel smile dances on his mouth. âJust a taste, love. I promise it wonâ hurt.â His tongue darts out and licks across your lips, his thrusts rocking just a bit faster. âYouâll feel sâ good anâ Iâll only take a little.â He laughs again and it sends a chill through your bones. âPromise.â He sounds breathless, like heâs struggling to restrain himself. The increase of his pace makes you whine and you squeeze his hand again. He buries himself back in your neck, panting. âCome on, love. Say yes. Say yes fâ me.â Your eyes glaze over. Your body justles with each new thrust. Heâs desperate now, seeking a release that you donât think is any kind youâre familiar with. âYes, yes, yes,â he chants in your ear. Youâre not sure when his words twist in your mind, when they settle on your tongue and push past your lips, but you know it feels so right when they do.Â
âYes,â you whisper.Â
His fangs clamp around your pulse. You scream when the sting rips through you, violent and savageâ but it only lasts a moment. Pain fades to⊠ecstasy. You feel his throat bobbing with each swallow, feel your blood seeping from your skin and onto his tongue. Youâd thought it would feel slicing, draining, like the life was being sucked from you. It doesnât. It feels wonderful. Heat spreads under your skin, emanating from your neck and down to your toes. It feels like breathing for the first time, like sugar being pumped into your veins. It feels like heaven. Your hand tangles in his hair, holding him close. You donât want it to stop, not ever. You could die like this, have him suck every last drop of blood from your veins and thank him for it with your dying breath.Â
Heâs moaning now, hands curling into your hips while he fucks into you relentlessly. The pace is grueling and brutal. You know it should hurt but only feels perfect. Anything less would not be enough. Anything else would leave you wanting. You feel it building, feel that familiar twinge at your core. The ecstasy flooding through your veins has it coming faster, has you teetering on the edge in moments.Â
âSatoruâŠâ You hadnât noticed how dizzy you felt until you tried to speak. You wonder why⊠ââM gonnaâŠâÂ
He fucks you harder, something menacing and deep rumbling in his chest. The sound makes you shiver, makes you whine, makes you come.Â
Your body shakes and a cry rips from your throat, cunt clenching like a vice around him. Your eyes roll back, hands scraping trails down his back. Your thighs quake with the intensity, with the overwhelming senses of pleasure that erupt throughout your body. Every nerve is firing, every hair rising. Itâs an unstoppable current, one that sweeps you away, helpless to its pull.Â
His thrusts grow sloppy and untimed. His grip on your hips tightens, holding you in place while he makes you his. His teeth break from your neck and when you look up through blurry eyes you see his head thrown back, your blood streaming down his chin in thick little globs. You feel it when he cums, feel the thick ropes of it seeping into your womb, feel the way he keeps fucking you, pushing it deeper and deeper inside. Heâs moaning, chanting your name like a prayer at the heavens.Â
When the moment ends he slumps over you, eyes half lidded and tired. Thereâs a familiar grin on his lips, one that inspires both comfort and uneasiness in your gut. You canât help but stare at him, at the blood that stains his chin and cheeks, that reddens his lips so beautifully. You want to reach out and touch him, touch his blood-soaked skin and see what it feels like, what it tastes like. What you taste like.Â
His eyes slide to the side, finding your pulse again. You groan. Yes, you think. Please, yes. More. You donât think youâll ever get enough of that. Of his teeth in your flesh, of the euphoria flooding your veins. More, more, more, your mind chants.Â
He chuckles lightly and shakes his head. âNo, princess.â He raises a finger to trace the curve of your neck. âI took more than I should haveâŠâ His expression doesnât tense with worry. His cheeks pull into a smile, those little dimples shining through. âBut what can I say? You just taste so good.â Like he needs to emphasize his point, his tongue darts out to trace his lips, lapping up some of the remaining blood on his chin. âYou taste like mine.â
You whine. More, more, more. Itâs all you can think about. You lift an arm weakly. You want to pull him to your neck, to make him drink, to make him fill you with the heaven you had just moments ago.Â
He catches your wrist and brings it to his lips, inhaling deeply. His lips split into another grin and you see his eyes spark again with the wildness you crave.Â
âNot yet, princess.â he coos. âBut soon.â His smile grows even wider, until those fangs are on full display, until youâre trembling again. âForever,â he whispers.
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âwhen are you gonna join me in bed princess? i'm tired 'n i want cuddles.â atsumu whines as you change into your sleepwear, fresh out of the shower. you look over and smile fondly at him; he lay on the bed, his arms and legs splayed out on the white sheets, his head thrown back on the pillows as he turns to look at you with those hooded chocolate eyes.
âpatience sweetheart, i gotta do my skincare first.â you waved a hand at him as you padded back into the still steamy bathroom, and the smile on your lips only grew as you heard a familiar small huff from behind you.
you splash water in your face and reach for the face cleanser, right where you always leave it. going through the motions, you revel in the small moment you have for yourself, even if its just simply washing your face. as you pat your face dry, you hear atsumuâs familiar footsteps approaching. taking your time to properly dry your face and neck, you glance over to see your lover leaning on the doorway, observing you with a smile- not one of his usual knee-weakening smirks, but a rarer, more intimate smile of adoration.
âyou wanna do it for me? not being much help just staring, and plus, it's creepy.â you raise an eyebrow at him, a tug in your lips as he drops his jaw in horror at your comment.
â'scuse me, âm not creepy at all!â he exclaims, reaching over to the sink counter, thumbing the various products before settling on one. âthis one right?â
you nod your head and close your eyes, waiting to feel his touch on your skin. but instead, his hands gripped your waist, and your eyes fly open with a small yelp as he lifts you to sit on the counter, and moves himself to be standing in between your legs.
âgotta have my princess comfortable.â atsumu mumbles, almost to himself as he concentrates on putting the right amount of product on his palm. he puts his hands together before placing his calloused hands on your cheeks, softly patting the serum into your skin.
you don't speak and neither does he. you both just take this small instant in time to appreciate each other, how you both are so blessed to have the other, so lucky that youâve found someone that intertwines with your soul so perfectly.
as he goes to find the next product, your eyes roam over atsumu and you drink in everything you can. the mole that rests just below his collarbone, right above where his heart would be. the small cupidâs bow of his pink lips. the faint stretch marks where his arms meet his shoulders. the way his forearm ever so slightly flexes as he opens the small tub of moisturiser.
atsumu scoops out a small amount, and his fingertips smooth the white cream over your forehead, sloping down to your nose, and along your cheeks. he does so with such a tenderness, it was as if he feared that if he pressed just a little too hard, you would shatter under his touch like glass. as he gently massages the cream into your skin, you hum blissfully and your eyes flutter to a close.
he goes through each step so effortlessly after seeing you do this so many times, and you had no fear of him doing something wrong, especially after so many nights of him eagerly asking questions as you went through your routine.
atsumu signals that heâs done with a gentle kiss to the crown of your head, and you shake yourself out of your drowsy stupor, opening your eyes to be met with an atsumu whoâs smiling at you with a rare gentleness, a respite from his usual wildness and energy.
âso are we finally going to go to bed or will i have to carry you there myself? atsumu cocks his head at you, resting his large hands on your thighs.
you merely reply by pulling him close and wrapping your arms and legs around him. he chuckles lightly, and a warmth spreads through you as you feel the slight rumble in his chest against yours. his hands grip the bottom of your thighs and he lifts you up, making his way over to your shared bed before switching off the light in the bathroom. carefully, he sets you down on the soft sheets and he climbs over you to get comfortable on his side. you turn to look at him, and he turns to look at you, reaching out to brush his thumb over your dewy cheek.
âi wonât ever find someone else like you.â he breathes after what feels like an eternity of silence, his voice so soft even you- mere centimetres away- had to strain to listen.
you place your hands onto his cheeks, and bring yourself close to press a kiss to his forehead. âand you wonât ever need to.â
⊠biker!ryomen sukuna x biker!f!reader [non-curse au]
⊠oneshot
â you're beginning to lose hope of ever fixing your bike as the moon rises over the horizon when a man built like a brick wall and covered in tattoos stops to help you out. he's standoffish and his words are cold - but as it turns out the version of him you see is soft. who knew this man could ever become your best friend, let alone something more? â
⊠cw ; 18+ only. contains explicit content. friends to lovers. fluff. hurt/comfort. p in v. fingering. oral (f! and m! receiving). degradation (slut). choking. pet names (princess, brat, woman, girl). size kink. rough sex. unprotected. biting. hair pulling. manhandling. toxic relationship (not sukuna). manipulation (not sukuna). reckless driving. use of alcohol and cigarettes. reader is implied to be short/small mostly in comparison to sukuna but he's huge so. ooc warning for sukuna given that this is modern and i want him to be more realistically human. i probably got some of the bike information wrong.
⊠words ; 24.2k.
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A cool evening wind chills your skin as you hunch over your bike on the side of the road. Youâre thankful for your thick leather jacket to protect you from the brisk winds, but it doesnât make it easy to work when your thoughts continue to stray to the fast-approaching night.
Your Kawasaki motorcycle puttered to a stop an hour ago and youâve been on the side of the road ever since. Of course it would happen today of all days, where your patience runs thin and you want nothing more than to be curled up in bed.
Your small array of tools that you keep for times like these are finally proving useful, but you can hardly bring yourself to care as you run out of things to check. Youâre almost certain the issue is a clogged fuel line at this point but without the necessary tools to check, youâre fresh out of ideas on what to do aside from calling a tow truck.
The sound of another passing motorbike is grating on your ears as someone speeds by on a bright red Ducati and you want to curse them out just for having a working bike, but to your surprise, they circle back a minute later and pull up next to you.
A broad-shouldered figure steps off the bike, pulling a dark helmet off and giving his head a shake, running a hand through his pink hair to give it a naturally windswept look. Tattoos line his sharp jaw and scars litter his right eye. Deep near-crimson eyes lock on you, a mildly cold expression spread over the tall manâs features. Heâs just about the textbook definition of what you would think of as a âbad boyâ.
He looks you over before taking in the state of your bike. The sight of you covered in grease and oil sitting in defeat on the ground is amusing to him to say the least- you donât much look the part of a biker between your small figure and approachable stature but one look at your bike and attire tells him not to judge a book by its cover.
âNeed a hand?â
Unfortunately for the tattooed man, heâs caught you in a bad mood.
âNo,â you grumble, picking up your wrench and dipping back into a rhythm of checking everything.
âIâve got more tools than just a wrench,â he offers. Your intense gaze looks him over again, surveying the black leather hanging off his shoulders and red helmet that matches his bike tucked under his elbow.
âI can handle myself,â you insist, not keen on accepting a strangerâs help, especially given his cold expression.
âDidnât say you couldnât,â he retorts with a click of his tongue. âJust askinâ if you want a spanner or pliers.â His eyes flicker to the moon rising in the sky. âOr a flashlight.â
You follow his gaze out to the rising moon, its light not offering enough of a look at your bike to be all that helpful as night begins to fall.
You sigh, wiping perspiration from your forehead with the back of your hand. The manâs lips quirk upwards in a minute smirk at the sight of the grease you accidentally wipe on your head. He thinks itâs cute.
âA spanner would be helpful,â you give in, pulling a pair of pliers from where youâd set them down beneath your knee to show you did at least have a couple of tools handy.
Pulling his hands from his pockets, the tall man turns to the backpack heâd set on the ground behind him. He sets his helmet on the seat of his bike and pulls out a spanner, handing it to you in place of the torque wrench youâve set at your side.
Heâs silent as you thank him and begin adjusting the spannerâs size to detach the fuel line. Standing in silence, he does little more than watch given that you donât seem to want his help.
When the fuel line finally detaches, you groan as you realize youâd been right about the problem the entire time and the line is blocked. Without an air compressor, there isnât much you can do to get your bike running again and your shoulders slump in defeat.
âNow dâyou need a hand?â He asks with a raised brow and a small smirk.
The look you shoot him is fiery and heâd be a liar to say he doesnât think your attitude is cute. It suits the strange vibes he gets from you in the best of ways.
âIâll just call for a tow,â you insist, still refusing the help of the stranger you know nothing about, aside from the fact that he has just about the most high-end street legal sports bike in pristine condition and you find it to be pretentious.
âSuit yourself. I can fix it for free, though.â
You press your lips into a thin line, brow furrowed as you look over his features. The man practically towers over you, heâs built like a tank and dwarfs you in every sense. His expression is aloof, giving away very little about him. You have no reason to believe heâs lying though, so with a sigh, you give in and hand him the spanner heâd lent you.
The man lowers himself beside you, disconnecting the other side of the fuel line entirely as he begins pulling apart the carburetor. You sit back, watching your bike attentively as though he might do damage to it, but his fingers move deftly as if this is all muscle memory to him.
âWhatâs your name?â You ask as the silence stretches on. Itâs a surprisingly comfortable silence, as he grabs a rag and water bottle from his backpack. He glances at you as he wets the rag and begins cleaning the carburetor.
âSukuna.â
âYou know your way around a bike.â
âBeen riding for a while.â
You nod. Despite his kind actions, his words are distant and frigid, so you decide not to push the subject.
Itâs silent for a while as you sit with your hands splayed on the asphalt behind you, watching his actions. Your eyes survey the man hunched over your bike, admiring the smooth lines of the tattoos that line his jaw, more ink just barely visible along his neck from beneath his jacket. His hair looks freshly dyed and his right eye is dotted in long scars that have you wondering what happened.
If the situation were any different, you might be hesitant to accept his help, but in truth youâre too tired to complain.
Itâs not much longer before your bike is back together. Wiping his hands with the rag, he nods to the bike.
âGive âer.â
Pushing yourself to your feet, you turn the key. The engine flips once, twice, three times, before finally sputtering to life.
âOh my god, thank you so much,â you sigh in relief, shaking your head. âI thought the issue was the fuel line,â you groan over the sound of the engine.
âIt is. You need to replace it, this should get you a few miles away though.â
You nod affirmatively, reaching down to hand back his tools. Sukuna dumps them in his bag and throws it over his shoulder.
âYouâre a lifesaver, I donât know how to thank you,â you tell him, your mood no longer sour as your bike continues to roar, thankfully not dead on the side of the road anymore.
âDonât worry âbout it.â He simply shrugs.
âLet me buy you a drink, or something,â you insist in spite of your exhaustion, though his cold demeanor doesnât give you much hope that heâll accept anyway, so you figure youâll be able to get some rest regardless of the offer.
As he turns to grab his helmet, you half expect him to start his bike and drive off without another word, ignoring your offer entirely. Itâs just the impression he gives you, but he surprises you.
âKeep up, then.â
Your brow raises and before you have a chance to complain that youâre covered in a layer of sweat and grease and youâd meant at a later date, his bike is roaring to life.
You scramble onto your own bike and follow him closely. Sukuna is half-shocked when you actually pull up into the parking lot of a small bar right behind him, pulling your helmet off and shaking your head in an effort to fix your hair.
He would be lying if he said he didnât find everything about you intriguing. From your bike to the way you ride and your feisty disposition all packaged in such a tiny figure compared to him, he thinks itâs cute. Maybe even something more than that.
He leads the way to the bar wordlessly as you complain about the grease coating your body, but he barely notices the oil marking your skin. Heâs used to it, if anything, from working on his own bike.
You arenât even sure if heâs listening given his flippant attitude and lack of response, but you drone on regardless. Itâs better than silence.
Choosing to ignore your frustrated rambles, he orders a whiskey and glances in your direction.
âIâll have what heâs having,â you tell the bartender with a sweet smile, waving your hand in the air like you donât much mind what exactly youâre drinking. Itâs your turn to surprise Sukuna.
âDonât think I caught your name,â Sukuna says as you lean over the bar beside him.
You tell him your name with a sweet smile, your mood clearly improved as you take the whiskey and damn-near down it in one swift movement.
When your eyes land on Sukuna again, heâs smirking. Heâs not really sure what to make of you nor you of him, but he certainly likes it.
Though you both elect not to have any more alcohol in favor of driving home later, conversation comes easily for the rest of the hour. At least, as easily as it comes for Sukuna.
âWhereâd you get your bike?â You ask decidedly, trying to make conversation with the stoic individual.
âA shop up north.â
âLooks like it cost a pretty penny.â
He hums in approval.
Thatâs about how most conversations with him go, so when you throw your jacket on and insist you should get home, youâre admittedly surprised when he pauses and holds his hand out expectantly.
You stare up at him curiously. Not once had you gotten the impression he was interested in any of your conversations, yet now he wants something from you? You canât decide what to make of this, what to make of him.
âSorry, um,â you stare down in confusion at his expectant hand, mouth opening and closing as you try to decide what to say.
âYour phone,â he instructs and your pretty eyes widen as you stare up at him, the difference in stature between you both now incredibly apparent as he dwarfs you when standing over you.
âOh!â You stare at him with pursed lips and pull your phone out, opening it to your texts. He sends himself a text and hands your phone back wordlessly, before turning his shoulder as he walks out abruptly, leaving you further confused.
Chasing after him, you just barely catch him as he kicks his bikeâs stand up and throws his helmet on.
âThanks again!â You call after him. He glances over his shoulder and though you canât see his expression behind the dark visor of his helmet, he smirks back at you before driving off.
As you just barely make it back home on your sputtering bike, you manage to replace the fuel line and shoot him a text.
11:53 PM You || fixed the fuel line. thanks again, youre a lifesaver
11:55 PM Sukuna || thanks for the drink.
In all honesty, you figure thatâs the last youâll ever hear from him, but you quickly find out that the cold disposition he gives off isnât really all there is to him when he asks if you want to go to a bike show a week later.
He fails to mention that his youngest brother Yuji would be joining you for the show, but as you walk the show floor with him and his younger sibling, you realize his brother likely just got all the conversation genes.
Sukuna is still aloof, he doesn't say much to you outside of comments about the bikes and even though heâs the one that invited you, you still can't tell if he enjoys your company. Although heâs quiet, his presence is surprisingly alluring and you're grateful to have someone to listen to your ramblings, even if he doesn't seem interested.
As you walk the length of the convention hall, weaving between crowds of people that seem to part at Sukunaâs menacing figure, Sukuna pauses to look at gorgeous black Yamaha. You barely catch the way he silently stops, managing to point out the pause to Yuji just in time to keep you all from getting separated.
âDonât think Iâve heard him talk this much in ages,â Yuji comments with a raised brow. You tilt your head towards him, following his gaze to Sukuna.
âReally?â
âYeah,â the younger man scratches the back of his head. âI donât have my license yet but I like lookinâ around. Heâs usually pretty snippy about which bikes I should be looking at,â he shrugs. âYou guys must have a lot in common for him to be so chatty.â
Chatty, you practically scoff to yourself. The man barely said ten sentences to you.
You do notice the way he shoots Yuji a glare or groans about his chatting on occasion, though. Not once does he direct that at you.
Even still, you don't expect him to keep inviting you out. Ten sentences isnât exactly something to form a friendship on.
Continuing to surprise you, you still hear from him. Next thing you know, youâre invited to ride with him and his brother Choso, invited out to dinner with a group of his friends and he even accepts your invite to see a horror movie with a couple of your friends.
Youâre quick to learn that Sukuna is just like that.
Sukunaâs mild and somewhat haughty disposition is something you grow accustomed to as you learn how to talk to him. Though you find yourself talking mostly at him, you realize thatâs just how he likes things. He pays a surprising amount of attention to your words, though you donât tend to notice until he shows it through actions later.
He shows up to your work with takeout on his lunch break when you mention you forgot your lunch. He goes shopping with you despite his distaste for malls when you tell him you need some new clothes. Heâs more agreeable when youâre around and his friends are quick to point it out, insisting you need to be there at all times to make him more tolerable, though theyâre mostly joking.
He does treat you differently from the rest of his friends. You figure itâs just because your friendship is new, though.
After being invited along on a ride down the highway to a neighboring small town with Sukunaâs friend Uraume and his brother Choso, you eye up Sukunaâs plate. Youâd ordered no side with your meal but god his fries look good. You shoot him a curious glance, met with his typical aloof expression, if not one of mild irritation. Glancing again at his fries, you reach over to steal one, pleased when you pop it in your mouth.
Sukuna rolls his eyes at you, muttering under his breath about you âbeing a bratâ and how âyou should have ordered a sideâ, but itâs all a show as he lets you steal another one when you smile sweetly at him.
When Choso follows your act, wanting to try the fries as well, Sukuna swats his hand away with a hiss. âMy plate isnât a buffet,â he growls contemptibly. Choso wrinkles his nose, shaking his hand of the harsh slap.
When Sukuna gets up to use the washroom, Choso waits until heâs out of earshot to comment.
âHow the hell did you get away with getting some of that assholeâs fries?â
You shrug. âDunno. He just let me.â
âGrumpy bastardâŠâ
Again, you insist you just donât know him well and heâs being kind so the action is brushed off.
A week later, Sukuna insists you tag along with his buddy Toji to get drinks, but when you arrive at the meeting spot and pull your helmet off, Sukuna is haughtily arguing with the raven-haired man.
âCâmon, itâs cheap. Their foodâs fine.â Toji insists with little more than a raised eyebrow and an unamused sigh.
âWhat food?â You ask with a smile as you saunter over to the two much taller men.
âRedâs,â Toji responds gruffly, his unamused expression turning to one of intrigue as he realizes you must be Sukunaâs friend. âYou must be y/n.â
You grin at him as he smirks.
âToji,â he introduces himself. âNow can ya tell this asshole that Redâs is cheap?â
Sukunaâs arms are crossed over his chest. âWe can do better for cheap.â He all but hisses, his eyes fixed in the distance.
âIâve never been,â you glance between the two with pursed lips, mentally chuckling to yourself at how much you have to look up to both men. âI think it sounds good.â
Sukunaâs arms fall to his side as his fiery eyes lock on you. He pauses for a moment, sparing a glance at Toji, but those deep eyes return to you with a begrudging sigh as he grumbles something under his breath.
âFine.â
Tojiâs eyes widen as he dangles his keys from his hands, his expression thoughtful. After a moment, he fists the keys as he gets ready to get in his car and head to the bar. He pauses before opening the door, a shit-eating grin spread over his scarred lips.
âThink I need ya to tag along more often, y/n.â He catches the tilt of your head and chuckles. âThink ya tame this shithead a bit.â
Sukuna roars something at Toji as he tries to catch him before the door slams and the car speeds off, leaving you giggling at the interaction.
Tojiâs not the last to point it out, either.
You donât think much of it, though. Sukuna just shows he cares through his actions and thatâs how you come to know him as your best friend.
Sukuna is, of course, smitten with you. He adores how perfectly you seem to understand him. He loves the way you invite him along to everything with your friends despite his tendencies to scare others off. He loves that in spite of the trouble he gets himself into, your opinion of him never changes. He loves that you text him about stupid things, and that even when his response is inhospitable, you continue to text him like you would any other friend.
Because youâre his best friend. And he wonât admit it to anyone, but you know. He knows you know.
You get him.Â
So of course when you excitedly text him about your date, you have no way of knowing that his naturally cold responses are no longer his usual tone. Theyâre frigid, maybe even mildly snarky, but over text you donât see the way his brow is knit tightly in contempt.
When he meets your boyfriend for the first time, you notice the strange tension between your best friend and partner. Your boyfriend brings it up but you had warned him in advance that Sukuna comes across that way, so you brush it off as little more than Sukuna being himself.
Yet, you notice the little things. Youâve known Sukuna for a long time now. You notice the way his jaw tightens when he sees your boyfriend lean down to kiss you at a dinner for your birthday a year into your relationship. You tilt your head questioningly at him from across the table, a silent query, but he doesnât give you a response, that mild expression never once leaving his eyes as he leans back in his seat.
âKuna?â Your sweet voice pulls his attention down to you when you pull him aside as everyone is saying goodnight outside the restaurant. âWhatâs wrong?â
âNothinâ.â
You cock your brow at his flippant response, dismissing you with a wave of his hand. âI know you well enough to know youâre lying,â you insist with an expectant look.
God, that look makes his hardened expression falter. Sukuna is well aware that heâs unapproachable, scary even. His form is built and he towers over most everyone, not to mention his constant disinterested expression and the tattoos he sports.
You often tease him for his âresting bitch faceâ.
Yet here you are, hand on your hip, so small and sweet, a fire lit behind those gorgeous eyes of yours. Cute.
âItâs just been a long day, donât worry âbout it.â He knows you donât believe him, but itâs the best youâre getting and you know that as well as he does. Hurt flashes through your eyes and he does feel a pang of guilt, but he keeps it locked away as he sighs and pulls something from the pocket of his leather jacket. âHappy birthday, by the way.â
Your wide eyes look up at him in shock. Youâd insisted no one should get you a gift, but when you texted him this morning and told him your boyfriend, so cheerily talking to your friends behind the two of you, had forgotten your birthday, he couldnât leave you empty-handed in that way.
You gingerly reach out and take the box from him. You know what it is instantly and the way your cheeks redden, the way it shocks you to silence has him smirking, mostly to himself. His hands remain in his pockets, his unamused expression locked on your hands that hesitate as you slowly open the velveteen box.
Lying so beautifully strewn in the box is a necklace you pointed out to him when youâd gone shopping together what must have been years ago now. A gorgeous silver chain lays delicately holding a dainty bejeweled star with your birthstone in the center. Of course heâd been paying attention. He always does.
âYou didnât,â itâs all you can manage as you stare at it in disbelief. To your surprise, Sukuna is smiling softly down at you, a rare sight that you want to burn into your retinas.
âYou deserve a good birthday.â
You know itâs a dig at your boyfriend, but you canât bring yourself to care. Maybe that should be a sign, but youâre too caught up in the moment as tears brim your eyes.
âThis was so expensive though, I- I- canât-â
âYou can and you will.â
You know when Sukuna demands something, he means it. This is one of those times.
Tears threatening to spill, you wrap your arms tightly around his toned middle. If he werenât a giant in comparison to you, you might have bowled him over with the force you hug him with.
Sukuna relishes in the moment, memorizing the feeling of your body in his arms, the way you bury your head into his chest, hiding your tears in his hug as they inevitably stain his white V-neck, but he doesnât care. His arms wrap tightly around you, one of the rare times he returns one of your affections.
When you part from him, using your free hand to wipe your eyes, Sukuna takes the box from you, moving to put the necklace on with ease. He moves like every action he takes is practiced as he confidently clasps the necklace around your neck.
âItâs beautiful,â you hum as you look down at it, running a delicate finger over the pendant.
The salmon-haired man hums mildly. ââCourse. You chose it.â
You examine his eyes, your expression unreadable as you contemplate Sukunaâs actions.
He may be agreeable around you, he may be willing to make compromises with you that he wonât for others, but this is new for him. This is sweet, and he knows youâre thinking such a thing too when he meets those pretty eyes staring up at him. He doesnât care anymore, though.
He wants you to be happy.
When your boyfriend confronts you about the necklace later that night, you tell him the truth. Maybe you hope heâll realize he fucked up. Maybe you hope heâll right his wrongs.
Instead, you end up in an argument as your boyfriend insists that his mistake in forgetting the date was honest but that Sukuna overstepped boundaries.
Maybe your best friend did, in truth.
And so as your boyfriend snaps when you defend your best friend and the argument takes a turn for the worse, maybe it shouldnât be that same best friend that you turn to. Maybe that will just make things worse.
But the phone only rings twice before he picks up.
He sounds tired, his voice coated in sluggish exhaustion as he mumbles a âhelloâ on the other line. You hear the rustling of sheets on the other end, a pang of guilt clawing at your throat as you know youâve woken him up.
âKuna?â The tone of your voice is foreign to him. Meek, strained. Even earlier in the night when you had confronted him about his cold disposition, your tone still held that unwavering strength and fire that he loves about you, so this wakes him up.
Leaning up on his elbow in bed, he squints at his phone.
âItâs three in the morning, y/n.â
âI know.â You pause and Sukuna waits for you to explain. He doesnât need to say anything for you to know that heâs listening. âWe got into a fight.â
Sukuna sighs, full of disdain, though not towards you. Never towards you.
âYou safe?â His voice is surprisingly soft, though you chalk it up to him being tired.
You nod, before realizing he canât see you. â... yeah.â
He hears you sniffle on the other end of the line and has to physically resist the urge to say things heâll regret about your boyfriend. âRight. âM on my way. Stay put.â
He hangs up, wasting no time in throwing on a pair of gray sweatpants and a plain black V-neck. He runs a hand through his disheveled hair, although it doesnât do him any favors and he isnât about to waste time styling it. As it stands, youâve seen him in a worse state after some particularly wild nights that had ended with one of you on the otherâs couch.
His bike roars to life outside his apartment and heâs off into the cold night air, barely grazing his skin as his leather jacket and helmet protect him from the bite. He pushes the limits of his bike and of the road as he speeds past any cars he comes across on the short drive to your house, and heâs glad he did when he spots you on your front doorstep, head in your hands in little more than pajama shorts and a tank top.
Heâs off his bike in an instant, shaking his head as he takes his helmet off in an effort to fix his hair before he kneels in front of you.
Youâre relieved at the sight of him, clearly fresh out of bed and having hurried right over. Your knight in shining armor. Or at least a shiny red helmet.
His brow furrows as he looks you over, spotting the goosebumps that litter your bare legs and arms.Â
âShit,â he mutters as he rolls his shoulders and shrugs his leather jacket off, wrapping it around you. It engulfs your figure almost entirely, draping over you like a dress. If the situation was any different he would think itâs adorable.
You look up at him between long, wet lashes, fresh tears streaking down your makeup-stained cheeks. Your eyes are red and puffy from crying and youâre sure your exhaustion and defeat are written across your face in bright bold lettering by the way he frowns.
âDid he kick you out?â
âItâs a long story,â you mutter, just barely audible.
âI got time.â
Thereâs a note of contempt that floats between his words and you know just as well as he does that heâs resisting the urge to beat down your door and knock some sense into your boyfriend.
Your mouth opens then closes enough times that Sukuna grows impatient, muscles in his jaw clenching as he grows closer and closer to busting down your door when you finally find words.
âWeâve been fighting on and off since we got home,â you admit. Sukuna raises a brow. That was four hours ago. âHe was pissed about- about-â you stammer over your words, biting your lip as you fiddle with the necklace that sits beautifully around your neck. Beautiful like you.
âMe,â Sukuna dryly finishes your sentence.
You frown and he knows heâs right. Of course. Maybe the necklace was overstepping this time, but heâd watched your shitty boyfriend step on you more times than he could count and hadnât once said a word. He respected you and your fiery demeanor entirely too much to ever want to see you upset.
Yet no matter what path he chose, it seemed you would be upset regardless.
âHe took my phone and went through everything,â you clear your throat as your voice cracks mid-sentence, staring down at the phone in your hands. The screen is cracked and Sukuna isnât sure if he wants to know whether it was shattered before today or not.
Your words set him ablaze in anger. It burns like an itch on his skin and it takes every last ounce of self control that he has to hold himself back and just listen. The contrasting cold air is nice on his skin, soothing what little fury it's able to with its brisk touch.
âDo you remember that photo we took together on Halloween?â
Sukuna nods slowly. He knows exactly where this is going. It was well over a year ago, before youâd started dating your boyfriend, when you had convinced Sukuna to dress as a king and you his queen. Heâd had a surprising amount of fun with it and with enough alcohol flowing through his veins, his words had grown more frivolous. Heâd spent all night calling you his queen or his princess, pretty much until the moment heâd thrown up, the words ejecting from his dialect along with the alcohol. Regardless, the proof was in the texts between you from that night.
At some point in the night, youâd gotten a photo taken clinging to his shoulders, a calm smile on Sukunaâs lips as heâd carried you with ease. It made him smirk the following morning recalling the memory, glad it hadnât disappeared with the words or alcohol.
Regardless, heâd missed his chance to shoot his shot, growing too accustomed to having you around to consider you didnât see his change in attitude around you as anything more than friendly, so heâd retreated to his usual detached self.
Clearly that detachment wasnât enough for your boyfriend as you flip him your phone screen. So it is newly broken.
God give Sukuna the strength to sit still.
âAnd youâre outside now, why?â
âI felt sick, I needed air.â You shrug, fiddling with your phone in your lap. âHe got mad that I walked away and we ended up fighting again, then he slammed the door in my face.â
âHe kicked you out,â Sukuna states matter of factly, venom dripping from each and every word.
âHe locked me out,â you shrug again, but Sukuna doesnât care for the details. You have no keys, not to your bike or your house, no jacket, youâre in shorts and a tank top⊠jesus.
âWhat a fucking prick.â With that, heâs on his feet and you know heâs about to slam his fist on your door. Or through it. Sukuna may be kind with you but the bad boy persona he sports isnât a persona at all- Sukuna would not hesitate to knock your boyfriend clean out. Heâd been to jail before, one more time wasnât a big deal if it meant keeping you safe.
âKuna.â He pauses at the plain tone you say his name in. Itâs not a warning, itâs not scolding. He doesnât know what to make of it. âNot now.â
He huffs and clicks his tongue. His jaw clenches as his shrunken, furious pupils stare down at you, but when he notices your legs are shaking from the cold, he relents.
âFine.â The word is grumbled as his hands reach for your waist and lift you to your feet with little more than a hum when youâre standing at your full height, barely reaching his broad shoulders. He leaves a hand on the small of your back, setting his helmet over your head and zipping his jacket up over your small frame in an effort to keep you safe when you climb onto the back of his bike.
Sukuna glances back at you as you cling to his toned abdomen, his bike pulling away quickly. Riding with Sukuna is familiar. Though you normally follow him, his quick riding pace and not-entirely-legal maneuvers donât scare you the way they once did, because everything Sukuna does feels practiced, rehearsed.
Pulling into his apartment building, he pulls the bike into a parking spot and lets you hand him the helmet as you follow him up to his apartment.
Itâs a bit of a mess, dishes sit in the sink, empty bottles and cans littering the counter and a garbage bag sits at the door, but it doesnât matter because youâre warm and youâre safe and itâs not like heâd let you take the couch anyway given the current situation.
Sukuna moves to at least tidy the couch, fully expecting you to make yourself at home like you always do, but when he turns to see youâre staring at the ground in the entrance, his jacket wrapped around you like a blanket, he frowns. Thatâs not like you.
In fact, in all the years you two have known one another, Sukunaâs never seen you so spaced out.
âDid he hurt you?â
Itâs his best guess as to why youâre so out of it, but when you shake your head, heâs simply at a loss.
Sukuna doesnât do comfort. Heâll watch your favorite movies with you and make you food, but he doesnât do words of comfort. Heâs a man of action, and although the most beautiful woman heâs ever laid eyes on is standing in his apartment, he doesnât dare to act on the stray thoughts running through his mind, even though he knows you deserve to be treated right.
Coming to stand in front of you, he sighs.
âWhaddya want me to do?â
Anyone else would assume heâs irritated with your presence, but you know itâs a genuine question. Your friend doesnât know what you need and heâs trying his best to figure it out. Heâs trying to help.
âCan I have a blanket?â You ask him, shoulders hunched in exhaustion.
Thereâs silence in the apartment as Sukuna moves to his bedroom to grab a blanket.
âThe red one please!â You call after him as though that isnât the one heâs already grabbing. He knows your favorite.
Returning to you, he drops the red blanket in your arms, his heart twisting as you pull his jacket off and hand it to him in exchange.
âCan I, um, come in?â
Sukuna raises an eyebrow questioningly, subconsciously fiddling with the tongue piercing in his mouth. Not once have you ever asked him to come in. You always, always, made yourself at home, even though it was much to his dismay the first few times youâd let yourself into his apartment in spite of his grumbles and irritated huffs.
Sukunaâs reaction is all the permission you need as you realize he must find the whole situation strange, but everything feels foreign to you. Itâs not like you havenât stayed at Sukunaâs before, itâs not like the couch isnât your second bed, itâs that you feel like youâre betraying your boyfriend by being here.
Not that Sukuna would do anything anyway, you know he doesnât see you in such a way. You may be his closest friend but heâs never once shown any sort of other interest towards you. Even if he did see you that way, heâs just not that kind of person.
Still, you gingerly sit at the edge of the couch, pulling your knees to your chest and wrapping yourself in the massive blanket. Sukuna moves to sit beside you, kicking his feet up on the coffee table. He looks at you expectantly, waiting to see what you want to do, if you want to talk.
But you donât answer, and Sukuna is at a loss of what to do. A contemplative silence settles over you as he leans his head back against the couch, eyeing you and hoping youâll say something.
âCan I ask you something, Ryo?â
The use of the nickname he lets only you call him quirks his brow as he realizes youâre serious.
âDo you think Iâm pretty?â
Thatâs⊠not what the gruff man was expecting to hear.
His jaw tightens as his piercing eyes stare down at you. He rubs a hand over his face as he tries to make sense of the question, too tired to be thinking this deeply over something. He stares at you pensively as though the world rests on this one response.
âYeah. Youâre pretty.â
Your eyes fall to your knees and the way Sukunaâs head tilts, youâre sure he thinks heâs made a mistake.
âThanks, Kuna.â
âThe fuck did that prick say to you that has ya askinâ?â
You hesitate, avoiding his discerning eyes as Sukunaâs chest surges with anger. Your best friendâs fist clenches in his lap as he leans forward, examining your expression.
âWhat the fuck did he say?â Sukunaâs voice is monstrous, but you could never fear his anger knowing heâs never once directed it your way. You know heâs irritated you havenât answered yet, but even between his irritation and the gruff tone he uses, he could never scare you.
âHe told me I couldnât do better than him.â
âAnd?â Sukuna pushes demandingly, his fingers clasping the back of his couch so hard you wonder if he has the strength to crush it.
âThat heâs way out of my league and should have chosenâŠâ you trail off, not oblivious to the way Sukuna quirks a brow for you to continue. When you meekly whisper your friendâs name, Sukunaâs seething.
Fury practically drifts from his body like smoke and to your surprise you do hear the couch creak beneath his hand.
Youâve only ever seen Sukuna this angry once before.
Sukunaâs closest friend aside from you, Uraume, often accompanied you on your trips to the bar with Sukuna and would join in on your rides with their own bike. The two of them were two peas in a pod, similar in all the ways you werenât, but if anything it made you closer to Uraume for having an understanding of Sukuna.
For that exact reason, youâd spotted Uraumeâs discomfort a mile away when someone began hitting on them. Uraume could handle themself, so you didnât think much of it until the manâs hand was tightly gripping Uraumeâs arm.
Alarmed, you pointed out Uraumeâs discomfort to your drunk best friend and he didnât hesitate to clock the man hitting on them.
So when Sukuna is on his feet with a familiar rage brewing and doesnât seem to know what to do with himself, you know you have to calm him down before youâre bailing him out of jail again. Itâs not something you want to make a habit of.
âKuna, itâs okay.â
âNo!â He hisses, swinging his hand through the air as he stares at the door.
âPlease, Iâll be okay, I promise,â you try to insist, wrapping your arms around yourself.
âItâs not okay for him to say shit like that to you,â he growls, glowering from where he stands over you, eyes on the door. He wants to leave, you know he does.
âItâs not, I know, but itâs not your problem.â
âNot my- What the fuck donât you get?â
Your eyes widen at Sukunaâs question. His voice is frigid as ever, but for once you feel the shards of ice pricking your skin.
âWhat?â Your dumbfounded and hurt question hangs in the air momentarily as you try to process this outburst.
Sukunaâs scarred eye twitches as he runs his tongue over his teeth. He huffs out a breath as he sees your expression, forcing himself to calm down so as not to make this about him. He doesnât want to say something he regrets, and he certainly doesnât want that icy tone to be directed at you, ever again.
âHe doesnât fucking deserve you.â
Your shoulders fall at his words, his chest heaving as he stares at you with an unidentifiable emotion.
âWhereâs this coming from?â Your brow knits tightly over the bridge of your nose. As you subconsciously chew on your lower lip, Sukuna has to do everything in his power not to stare at your lips.
âLook, I just care, alright? Or somethinâ.â
You barely know how to react to your best friendâs admission of care for you. Not once has he ever shown an ounce of his care through words. Sure, heâs shown it in other ways, but this is a first for him.
His gaze is fixed on the kitchen, so he barely notices when you stand up and set your hand on his arm, your thumb comfortingly rubbing his arm.
âI appreciate it, Kuna.â You tell him with a tired smile, doing your best to reassure him that youâre okay in spite of the situation. âJust⊠can we please just watch a movie or something?â Youâre too tired, too worn out to handle everything going on right now and youâre afraid the buildup of emotions in your chest will overflow if you donât distract yourself soon.
Sukunaâs focus fixes on your hand on his arm, the way it seems to burn into him in a way heâd long grown painfully familiar with. It wasnât uncommon for you to grab his arm and drag him somewhere, or hug him each time you said hello. Hell, the Halloween youâd both gotten entirely too drunk, youâd been on Sukunaâs back half of the night giggling and telling him, your King, where to take you.
Yet this time, the burn hurts. It hurts him to see you here with dried tears on your cheeks. It angers him to know your boyfriend had gotten away with treating you in such a way for so long.
He lets out a breath through his nose and takes a seat on the couch again at your insistence, watching as you drape the big blanket over the both of you. And god is it cute when you do, making sure heâs completely covered from the waist down like youâre tucking him in.
When you lean back against the arm of the couch, slinking comfortably back into the cushions and grab the remote, Sukuna feels his body begin to relax too, allowing himself to focus on your wellbeing here and now rather than the fact that he wants to pummel your boyfriend.
Heâs not shocked when you flip through options and eventually settle on a Studio Ghibli movie he knows youâve seen a million times because heâs seen it one too many times.
You know he doesnât mind although he isnât the biggest fan of the movie. Either way, itâs nearly five in the morning and you both know youâll be asleep before you know it.
â
The next morning as cool air pours through a window and birdsong decorates each blow of the breeze, the pounding of your head is a rude awakening. Itâs too early for you to be up given that you were awake so late, but your phone seems to think otherwise.
Your eyes flicker open blearily, and you lean up in bed with a yawn, realizing suddenly that youâre in Sukunaâs room and heâs nowhere to be found. Sitting up fully, you bring a hand up to your temple, pressing on it in an effort to ease the pain as you search for your phone, finding it eventually on the floor a small distance away.
Hopping down from the tall mattress, you yawn as you stare at the screen, your heart clenching at the sight of the contact photo on-screen as your phone rings. Your boyfriend has his arms wrapped around your middle, his chin resting on your shoulder as you both grin. With the way your screen is now shattered, it looks almost like a scene from a movie in the way itâs practically screaming a warning at you.
Youâd spent far too much time alone with your thoughts the previous night. Hell, even with Sukunaâs comfort, his disdain for your boyfriend had been a bit of a wakeup call. Still, your thumb hovers over the green button.
âHello?â Your voice is broken as you answer the phone.
âThank god baby, I was so worried about you. Iâm so sorry, I shouldnât have left you outside last night, I wasnât thinking clearly.â
You take a couple of steps forward, walking towards the living room as your eyes lock onto the tall man draped over the couch, his limbs entirely too long for the cushions. He must have carried you to his bed at some point and taken the couch.
Your stomach twists as you realize your boyfriendâs words are all lost on you, you didnât hear a single one. Youâre not sure when you tuned him out, or how long youâve been staring at Sukuna when your boyfriendâs words pull you from your thoughts.
âY/n? Did you hear me?â
âSorry, Iâm a bit out of it. What did you say?â
He sighs in frustration on the other side of the line and you wince as his tone gains a familiar edge. âWhere are you? Iâm coming to get you so we can talk.â
âI- um-â you pause, brow furrowing as you stare at your best friend, who begins to shuffle from his uncomfortable position on the couch as your soft voice awakens him from slumber.
âY/n?â Your boyfriendâs voice cuts through the haze again, but youâre at a loss for words as Sukuna lifts his head, irritation written across his face at being awake, but when he flips over on the couch and spots you, his demeanor softens.
âYeah. Youâre pretty.â
Sukunaâs words ring in your head over and over and you bite your lip. He pushes himself up on the couch, moving to stand a small distance in front of you in three long strides.
Sukuna may not have a way with words, but you never had a hard time telling what he was thinking just by the way he looks at you. As he stares down at you with a tilt of his head, you know exactly whatâs going through his mind.
Like that, it all clicks. Of course he hated your boyfriend. The signs were always there, you just didnât pay them any mind. The reason he was colder than usual towards your boyfriend is as obvious as the sun in the sky.
Sukuna thinks youâre pretty. He wasnât trying to comfort you when he said that. Thatâs not who Sukuna is. That may as well be an admission that he would move mountains for you.
âY/n, baby? Whatâs going on? I want you home, now.â
Your chest twists at his tone and as your eyes meet Sukunaâs, you wonder if your phone is loud enough for him to hear when his lip twitches.
You clear your throat, your eyes never once leaving Sukunaâs from where he stands with tousled hair, wrinkled sweatpants and a bare chest. Itâs not unfamiliar to you, you know Sukuna is beyond hot. You know Sukuna could take anyone he wants home and you know he has a streak of doing so, but now that you think about it, itâs been a long time since youâve seen Sukuna with anyone, and you know why now.
âYou left me outside all night in the cold.â Your voice is meek, still mindlessly chewing on your lip as you stare at the tattooed manâs eyes, now lit ablaze with a fire that hadnât been there earlier. âYou know what- I should go.â
âWhat? Baby, come on we need to talk-â
âI have nothing to talk to you about. Weâre-â You pause, your stomach stirring uncomfortably as all of your emotions seem to collide and collapse within you. You feel the tears that threaten to spill, your composure that threatens to break as you ball your hand into a fist at your side.
Sukunaâs hand twitches beside him as he does everything in his power not to lean down and kiss you then and there. He wants you. He wants all of you. He wants to show your boyfriend everything heâs about to lose.
He wants to make you his. He wants you to make him yours.
Yet, all he can reasonably do is set a hand on your upper arm. He canât be selfish. Not when youâve come to him in your time of need.
âWeâre done.â
âNonono, we are not done, hold on-â
âIâll come grab my bike and my things soon-â
â-letâs talk about this, I just made a mistake, okay-â
â-goodbye.â
âDonât hang up, baby, hold on, fuck-â
Your hand falls to your side as you stare up at the taller man.
He doesnât say a word as a tear runs down your cheek, shortly followed by a sob wracking your body. Sukunaâs hand moves from your arm to the back of your head as he pulls you into his chest, holding you there as you cry against his bare skin, tears wetting his toned pecs.
Itâs not his ideal morning, but at least he can shamelessly say now that he wants to rearrange your boyfriendâs face with his fist.
He wonât say it anyway, though. He knows better.
Your best friend doesnât say anything but his actions speak volumes as he holds you to him protectively, unmoving as he envelops you into his form. He exhales deeply as he holds you tightly to his body, his fingers gripping you tightly. Itâs reassuring to know you have him in your time of need and eventually your tears begin to subside.
You blink your wet lashes against his skin as your warm breath fans his chest and abdomen. He shoots you a disgruntled look as your lashes tickle his skin and he jolts at the feeling.
âDonât be a brat,â he warns through gritted teeth, but it holds no malice.
You chuckle through tears. âSorry, Ryo.â
He rolls his shoulders and holds you again, letting your face fall against his chest once more. This time, youâre careful to keep your eyes closed to avoid tickling him.
Heâs surprisingly patient with you as he lets you stand there, only moving to take and silence your phone when he grows frustrated with the vibration.
When you finally settle, he leads you back to the couch, tossing his shirt and the blanket off the couch and onto the floor.
âDid you move me to the bed?â
He hums affirmatively, his chest warming as you smile at him. âThanks, I could have taken the couch though. It looked a bit too small for y-â
âNo.â
You breathe out through your nose in a half-hearted laugh. Thereâs never any use arguing with him when heâs made up his mind, so you give it up. Oh well.
âCan I stay here for a bit?â
You figure Sukuna will huff and puff and make a show out of it but he nods easily.
âThanks,â you sigh, sinking back into the couch.
You stare at the ceiling. What a morning. Youâve barely been awake for ten minutes and your heart is pounding in your chest just from sitting beside your best friend, someone youâve known for years.
Someone youâd long pushed any attraction for down into the depths of your heart in an effort to save yourself the heartbreak of being with someone who seemed to have no interest in you. Hell, youâd once thought he was emotionally unavailable, and yetâŠ?
You canât help but stare.
Heâs exhausted, youâre not sure how much longer heâll be able to stay awake as his head bobs down onto the back of the couch, mouth slightly ajar as sleep settles over his form. You smile softly at the sight, swallowing at the yearning feeling of wanting to settle into his warmth, though you know you shouldnât.
Youâre a mess. Youâve heard your boyfriend- ex- say things you arenât ready to admit to yourself that leave fresh stinging wounds. Hell, thatâs an entire can of worms you donât want to touch right now. Your belongings, your bike, your entire life is all trapped in his house, in the house of someone that-
God why had you let him step all over you like that? It leaves you frowning as your heart twists and clenches uncomfortably. You loved him. Deep down, you know itâs the reason. You convinced yourself he loved you too.
You curse yourself for overlooking your feelings for Sukuna, for pushing them down. Heâd always cared deeply for you, the signs had always been there, yet you never paid them any mind.
Chewing on your lower lip again, you get to your feet and grab the blanket off the floor, draping it over him. Your thumb brushes over the faded black lines that race over his shoulders and down his collar bones as you tuck the blanket over his shoulders.
He hums subconsciously, a serene smile pulling at his lips.
You smile back, turning to get some rest yourself. When Sukuna kicks his foot out suddenly and damn-near trips you, you let out a surprised yelp, spinning around to confront him.
âWhat the hell, Kuna?â You harshly snarl at him.
His lidded eyes just barely open, your reaction earning a smirk from him. Thereâs his feisty best friend.
âCâmere, itâs cold.â
Itâs not cold, and Ryomen Sukuna is not sly, but your stomach flutters and your heart jumps to your throat anyway. Your shoulders fall to your sides in surprise, unable to be frustrated with him.
He flips the blanket up, his arm extended over the back of the couch. His expression is mild as usual but when you take him up on his offer and plop down next to him, his racing heart tells you everything you need to know.
Pulling your knees up onto the couch, you let him pull you against is chest, your head resting on his broad shoulder as he barely lasts a minute before the rhythm of his breathing steadies and his head falls back on the couch again.
Youâre not long for the world of the waking either as you succumb to the temptation of sleep on his warm chest.
When your eyes flicker open again, your head has fallen into Sukunaâs lap and heâs splayed in what looks like an uncomfortable position with his arm and leg hanging off the couch. His head is still leaned back against the back of the couch with his mouth hanging open as soft snores part his lips.
Itâs not the first time youâve seen him asleep. Youâve spent many hungover mornings at his apartment and vice versa but now in the gentle morning light with the distant sound of birdsong as the only noise disturbing his snores, he looks peaceful.
You shuffle on his lap in an effort to get a better look at his serene expression, but his strained groan suggests that you may have awoken him earlier than he would have liked.
âCan ya cut that out?â He grumbles without opening his eyes as he reaches down and adjusts your head to lay more on his abdomen.
The irritation in his voice doesnât hold a candle to the sincerity in which his arm now cradles you against him and you giggle, to which he opens an eye to observe you.
âSorry,â you hum. He exhales as he closes his eyes again, sliding further down on the couch.
You lay in bliss on his toned and horribly attractive bare chest for what only feels like a few minutes before his eyes peel open and heâs drinking in the sight of you, his gorgeous best friend, smiling at him from his chest.
And oh my god, Ryomen Sukuna is blushing.
Would you really be his best friend if you didnât point it out?
âKuna?â
âHm?â
âYou a lil flustered?â
Sukunaâs brow furrows deeply. âI am not.â
âYouâre blushing.â
âItâs warm in here, youâre laying on top of me and we have a blanket,â he refutes with an edge to his voice that tells you that youâre poking a nerve.
You also know him well enough to know itâs faux anger, playful if anything.
âFunny, I was told it was cold a couple of hours ago.â
His lip curls, chest rising and falling beneath you as he huffs. âYou push my buttons.â You can see from the way a muscle in his jaw works that heâs fiddling with his tongue piercing.
âI could push more than just your buttons,â your voice drips with confidence, lowering an octave at the implication. You pull a hand out from beneath your chin, running a dainty finger across the length of his collar bone.
Sukunaâs pupils dilate in an instant, his attention drawn to your finger. He swallows hard, the corners of his lips pulling up into a smirk. All signs of his contempt forgotten, warmth swirls in those gorgeous eyes of his, but the smirk on his lips is devilish.
âCareful, princess,â he warns in a gruff voice that has you clenching your thighs together with wide eyes. Sukunaâs brow twitches as he feels your legs shuffle, entirely too happy with himself at getting such a reaction from you all from two words. He chuckles, his chest rumbling beneath you as you hide your face in his chest, heat radiating from your cheeks.
Tension is ripe in the air between you both when you finally meet Sukunaâs intense gaze and it makes a question pop into your mind.
âHow long?â The words are blurted out and Sukuna shifts beneath you to get a better view.
âWhat are you on about?â
âHow long have you liked me?â
Sukunaâs scoff hits the air before he can even register heâs made the noise. âGo get ready or whatever so we can pick up your shit.â His brow is pulled into a tight scowl as he all but shoves you to the ground.
You barely manage to catch yourself before falling on your ass, rolling your eyes as you steady yourself.
âKuuuna!â You coo with a grin, but before you have a chance to tease him any further, Sukuna lunges at you. âWait, wait-â
You shriek in protest as he barrels into your legs, effortlessly lifting you over his shoulder. He pays no mind to any of your protests, nor your kicking and squirming against him as he dumps you with little grace on his bed.
âWhat-â
âStop complaininâ and go change or shower or whatever yâ gotta do. I want your bike back.â
Sitting up as you attempt to reorient yourself, you blink a couple of times and manage to call his name out just before heâs turning away.
âI donât have anything to wear,â you tell him, staring down at your pajamas.
âYouâve been leaving shit here for years, find something in my closet.â
âHave I?â You wonder aloud, suddenly realizing your hungover mornings passed in his apartment are likely the culprit for many missing outfits. âWait, why do you want my bike back?â You realize suddenly, but heâs already shutting the door to his room and leaving you in tranquility.
Standing in the silence broken only by distant birdsong and the muffled sounds of traffic, you find your gaze lingering on the door where he once stood.
How long? You wonder to yourself. How many signs, how many signals had you missed or brushed off all these years under the assumption that your grumpy best friend was just that- your best friend?
You set a hand over your fast-beating heart, trying to steady the pace itâs beating at as emotions run rampant through you. Between the shock of realization of Sukunaâs feelings and the shitty night youâd had- your birthday, by the way- you canât help the shaky exhale that parts your lips.
Itâs a lot to take in.
You take your time showering, enjoying the way the warm water rinses away all signs of the prior night. Itâs a warm respite from the days that are beginning to grow frosty as winter approaches. Most importantly, the white noise of the water falling drowns out the steady stream of jumbled thoughts flowing like a river through your mind.
Perusing Sukunaâs closet, you do manage to find more of your clothes than you had expected.
âMy nice leggings were here the whole time?â You mutter to yourself as you pull them from a pile of pants. Along with them, you manage to find a pair of jeans, more shirts than youâd care to admit, an old jacket and a hoodie.
Pulling on a form-fitting black low-cut shirt and a red leather jacket, you poke your head out of the bedroom door.
âWhyâd you never give any of this back?â
Sukunaâs leaning out the window with a cigarette held between two fingers. He blows a puff of smoke out into the cool fall air before turning to you. Heâs still in his sweatpants but has pulled his shirt on.
âI used to bring âem back to your place when I visited but they always ended up back on my couch,â he shrugs simply. âWasnât worth the time.â
âI didnât know it was this much clothing.â
âYour memoryâs shit.â
âOuch,â you hold a hand to your heart, feigning being hurt.
He stubs out the cigarette, waving the smoke out the window with his arm before shutting it. âDone in there?â
You nod and exchange places with Sukuna as he showers. He takes less than a quarter of the time you did and is out with the most effortlessly cool style that you canât help but be jealous of him.
His typical black leather jacket hangs off his shoulders with a vintage Harley Davidson shirt beneath. He sports ripped jeans on his lower half and blackout shades sit atop his spiked pink hair.
âSee something you like?â
You barely manage to utter out a pathetic âuhâ before Sukunaâs chuckling at you as he catches you eyeing him from your place on the couch. He makes his way around the couch, patting your shoulder encouragingly.
âLetâs go.â
Shaking your head to clear your mind, you get to your feet and follow Sukuna to the door, stopping him before he can leave.
âHey. Can you stay on the sidewalk while I talk to him?â
The tall man pauses at your serious tone, examining your expression. âWhy?â
You know why heâs asking.
âIâm serious, Ryo. I donât want you two fighting.â
âHe treated you like shit, y/n.â
âI- I know.â
His jaw clenches. âThe piece of shit deserves-â
âI know, okay? Please, this is what Iâm trying to prevent. Besides, if you get into trouble, Iâll leave your ass in jail this time.â
His head falls back, eyes closed as he comes to terms with just how serious you are. He rolls his shoulders backwards once before nodding. âWhatever, fine.â His tone drips with exasperation and anger and you can only hope at this point that he means what he says.
âThank you,â you sigh in relief, falling into place beside him as he leads the way down to his bike.
Though you rode behind him less than twelve hours ago, somehow it feels different today as he places his helmet on you and pulls you tight to his broad form. His feisty little backpack, so cute in his helmet. Heâs not oblivious to the way your hands roam his abs either as a smirk pulls at his features. Itâs a sweet momentary distraction from his searing anger.
It takes every ounce of self control that Sukuna has to stay at his bike as he watches you ring the doorbell of your own house. Thank god for the cold air keeping his anger from simmering through his skin. Heâs sure heâd be a pile of molten anger otherwise.
You shuffle uncomfortably at the doorstep, knowing entirely too well that this is going to go poorly. You were practically asking for a fight by showing up with Sukuna but what better option do you have? Your wallet and keys are still sitting soundly on the nightstand of the bed youâd spent the last several months sleeping in. At least, thatâs where they should be.
It takes a moment before the door creaks open, your exâs surprised wide eyes staring back at you.
âShit, thank god youâre home-â
You barely manage to duck from his grasp as he attempts to pull you into his embrace. Your heart pounds hard in your chest as you face your ex, whose face contorts to one of pain when you duck away from him.
âI told you-â You mentally curse yourself as your voice breaks. Closing your eyes, you readjust and face your ex with confidence. âWeâre done.â
âWe need to talk,â he insists, his voice sickeningly sweet, and it almost makes you want to gag the way he swings between sweet nothings and manipulative cords that twist your heart.
âWe talked for four hours last night. Thereâs nothing left to talk about!â You swing a hand through the air for emphasis as your voice rises, staring at him in disbelief. âJust let me in, I need my keys and-â
His arm swings out to block the door, knuckles white as he grips the frame of the door. His brow curls upwards in⊠frustration? Irritation? Anger? Pain? Youâre not sure. âThis is your home. You belong with me.â
You swallow the bile in your throat like a stone straight to the pit of your stomach. Once words like that would have made you swoon, now you feel as though youâre a deer in the headlights staring at a man you donât recognize. A man who holds the barrel of a metaphorical gun.
You spare a glance behind you for reassurance, spotting Sukuna sitting at his bike. If itâs possible for a man to have smoke spewing from his ears, Sukuna is the spitting image of such a thing. His face is red with anger, hands clenched at either side of his body as he tries desperately to hold himself back.
He still remembers the way you excitedly told him about your new boyfriend. About how sweet he was, how kind he was. Although it pained him to know it was someone else making you happy, he was just glad you were happy. But when you had invited him to meet your boyfriend, Sukuna couldnât help but feel as though the man didnât match your description.
Heâd tried to convince himself he was just being jealous, but the more time he spent around you, the more he noticed.
The last straw for Sukuna was when you had invited him, your boyfriend, and some of your closest friends along to see the latest installment in the Predator franchise. Youâd stopped for dinner first and your boyfriend had insisted on ordering for you.
Sukuna hadnât thought much of it at the time, but he had found it strange when a salad had been set in front of you. Not once had Sukuna ever seen you order a salad. Well, he had, but as a side. Never as the entire meal.
Heâd tried to brush it off but when youâd decided on popcorn at the movie and your boyfriend had insisted you didnât need it, Sukuna made a point of ordering a large one and sharing it with you.
Now as you look back at him uncertainly, every bone in Sukunaâs body screams to move. Yet his brain tells him to listen to you. He takes a breath in an effort to stay calm, deciding to respect your wishes.
âYou brought him here?â Your ex pales as he follows your line of sight.
That seems to give you the confidence to face him again as anger sears through your blood. âYou left me outside alone! He came to get me!â You search his face for any sign of remorse. When you donât find it, tears prick at your eyes. Over a year spent together and he canât even show you an ounce of kindness.
âI told you baby, it was a mistake!â
âNo- No. No, a mistake is forgetting to turn off the sink, not leaving me outside in the cold with nothing but a broken phone.â Your voice drips with venom as the cold of the previous night envelops you in its memory, a reminder that this is for the best.
âYour phone isnât broken, get over it y/n.â You glance down at his fist as it balls at his side.
âYou shattered it.â You deadpan.
âCan we forget about the phone? For fuckâs sake.â He lifts his fist in the air to bring it up to his forehead as he attempts to calm himself down. âLook-â he shoots Sukuna a glance before smiling, his voice growing honeyed. âWeâll figure things out, okay? Why donât you come in?â
You hesitate. You see the red flags as clear as day now that the fog has lifted, and you know Sukuna is grateful when you pleadingly look at him. His signal to come beat the shit out of your ex. Well, no, it isnât. But he wishes it was.
Regardless, heâs up the front lawn to the door of the small house in an instant, standing behind you with all the self-control he can physically muster.
âWeâre having a private conversation, would you mind-â
âWhatever you can say in front of me, you can say in front of him.â You insist, backing into Sukuna as your ex reaches for your arm. Youâre thankful in this moment that your closest friend is nearly seven feet and built like a brick wall as it could never really matter who heâs up against, heâll always be the scariest one in the room.
Your exâs mouth curls into a snarl, eyeing Sukunaâs hands that rest easily on your upper arms.
âYouâve gotta be-â he grumbles to himself, rubbing the bridge of his nose with his hand that isnât blocking you from entering the house. âCome on baby, you know you belong with me and not-â he cuts himself off as he shoots Sukuna an icy glance.
You shift uncomfortably at the tone he uses as he says that you belong with him, growing uneasy the longer youâre in his presence. Steeling your resolve, you straighten yourself and muster as much confidence as you can.
âThis isnât about Sukuna. You left me outside in the cold last night and I called my best friend to get me,â you tell him without missing a beat. Sukuna is practically grinning behind you as your exâs jaw clenches but you donât see the exchange between the two men. âOh, and I donât belong with or to anyone.â
Sukuna squeezes your arm in reassurance.
âI need my keys and wallet. Iâm taking my bike and some clothes.â
Your ex mulls over your words before relenting finally, just as youâre beginning to think youâll be without belongings. âFine, but he stays outside.â
You glance up at Sukuna, whose expression is unreadable. âFine,â you agree, slipping from Sukunaâs grasp and into the house. Your ex goes to close the door in Sukunaâs face, but a steady hand stops him just as you dash out of sight into your old bedroom.
âLet go of the door, man.â
âLeave the door open, man,â Sukuna warns mockingly in a sneer.
âSheâs my-â
âSheâs not. Sheâs not yours. She doesnât belong to you.â
âGo fuck yourself, Sukuna.â He rolls his eyes, pressing more of his weight against the door, but itâs nothing compared to the bulk Sukuna packs.
âConsider yourself lucky Iâm not rearranging your face right now,â his deep eyes blaze as he leans closer to your ex, his words dangerously low. If ever Sukuna is thankful that he knows heâs a scary person, itâs right now as your ex flinches back and relents, leaving the door open and leaving Sukuna at the door.
Your ex disappears from Sukunaâs sight and he stands up straight, turning to the side as he stares at your bike. He knows you can handle yourself, but he still doesnât love the prospect of you being alone with your ex for any period of time.
Sukuna especially hates how long it takes. Heâs not sure how much you need to pack and he canât make out whatever youâre talking about with your ex but each passing moment he grows less patient and less willing to wait outside.
Just as heâs thinking of stepping inside, he sees your tiny figure with a backpack and a suitcase, keys dangling from your fingers and your wallet held firmly in your hand. The relief on your face when you lock eyes with Sukuna is somewhat heartwarming, but what isnât is the way your ex tries to grab your wrist as you make your way to the door.
You pull against him but his grip fastens.
Sukuna sees red. He sees red and he doesnât think twice about stepping into what was once your house.
âDonât touch her.â
Your eyes widen at the sight of Sukuna making his way towards you with gritted teeth. âNo, no, no! Sukuna! Itâs fine, I can handle this!â Your hand with your wallet and keys flies up as you maneuver yourself between him and your ex.
Your exâs hand doesnât loosen even when your arm physically blocks Sukuna from laying a beating on him.
You take a breath, looking between the two men. âIâm leaving. Please let go,â you say softly, so calmly it almost breaks Sukunaâs heart that your exâs actions seem so normal to you.
âWe arenât done talking-â
âWe are. Iâll be back for the rest of my things later.â You tug your wrist again, sending a pleading look to your ex, but his grip only tightens. âPlease let go.â
âY/n, please. Please, we can work this out.â
âLet go,â you tell him firmly, ignoring his words.
âPlease-â
âI donât know if youâre incapable of listening or if you just want your head bashed in, but Iâd listen to her.â Sukunaâs voice is a warning, dripping with malevolence youâve never heard from him before. His chest is pressed hard against your free hand and you arenât sure you can hold him back much longer.
âRyo,â you plead, looking between the two men as you try to pull your wrist again. Your exâs hand twitches at Sukunaâs words before loosening and falling to his side. You breathe out a sigh of relief, glancing down at the bruising markings his fingers left behind.
âSo heâs Ryo now, huh?â
You glare pointedly at your ex, knowing that one wrong word will have him with his face caved in.
Sukunaâs intense stare never once leaves your ex, but he does allow you to hand him your suitcase and gently tug his forearm to follow you out the door.
Your ex watches from the door as Sukuna follows you to your bike. His intent gaze has your hair standing on end but you choose to ignore the feeling in favor of hopping on your bike.
The sound of your bike roaring to life puts both you and Sukuna at ease and you ride down the driveway, stopping next to his bike. He jogs after you with your suitcase still in-hand.
Sukuna is quiet, which isnât unusual for him but you can practically feel the anger coming off of him in droves like smoke. Kicking your bikeâs stand out, you hop off and flip his Ducatiâs storage compartment open, pulling out a couple of straps to secure your suitcase to the back of your bike.
âReady?â
You pull your friendâs attention from your ex finally as your hand comes to rest on his bicep. His eyes travel from your face to your arm that rests on him, where he can see the way your wrist is reddened and sure to bruise.
Realizing the sight of your reddened arm has his jaw clenching with anger, you move it behind your back and out of sight.
âKuna, please.â
His intense gaze examines yours as the breeze faintly ruffles his spiked hair. Heâs completely still apart from the muscle working in his jaw as he thinks over his options at this moment, but his chest heaves as he sighs in exasperation and gives in.
âWhatever,â he growls, shooting a poisonous look back at the door that your ex hasnât moved from. Sukuna haughtily pulls his helmet on over his head, flipping his visor down before getting on his bike and accelerating quickly.
Based on the way Sukuna weaves through traffic and carelessly speeds through lights, you know heâs furious. You pull your bike into the parking spot next to him a couple of minutes after he pulls in, finding him pacing in the parking garage.
Shutting off your bike and pulling off your helmet, you approach him with angled brows, trying to reassure him. âThanks for coming with me, I appreciate it.â Heâs blinded by rage and youâre not even sure if he hears you. âKuna, Iâm okay,â you insist, reaching out to put a hand on his arm but he still brushes past you.
Sighing, you unload your suitcase from the back of your bike and return the bungee cables to the storage compartment of the Ducati as you let Sukuna blow off some steam.
Once everything is ready to go up to Sukunaâs apartment, you turn your attention back to him.
âCan we go up to your place?â
âHe hurt you,â Sukuna hisses with pupils the size of pinpricks. It would be intimidating if you didnât know that anger was directed elsewhere.
âItâs nothing really, it doesnât hurt.â
âFucking asshole, I should have-â
âNope, weâre not going into that. I donât want to know what you think you should have done.â
You grab your suitcase and begin rolling it through the parkade to the elevator, relieved when you hear a frustrated grunt behind you and a pair of keys clinking. The ride up to his apartment is silent, shrouded in anger.
Really, you should be the angry one but if anything, you're more relieved. Relieved that you have someone like Sukuna to stay with, someone whoâs so willing to come get you at three in the morning when you need him most.
Sukuna swings the door to his apartment open, slamming against the doorstop loudly before creaking shut. His hand flies to his pocket as he trudges across the apartment, tossing his leather jacket on the couch and leaning out the window as he lights a cigarette.
A puff of smoke leaves his mouth as he swings his head back with closed eyes.
Shaking your head, you decide not to give him a hard time for his bad habit and give him space as you busy yourself with setting the couch up nicely for yourself to sleep on given that you were now homeless, among other things.
Sukuna takes his time at the window, stubbing out his cigarette when itâs barely an inch long and finally approaching you from where you sit on the floor looking through your bag, taking inventory of what you have and what youâll need to pick up eventually.
Your pretty face smiles up at him when his shadow blocks your view and he finds himself relaxing more from the sight of you than he had from the nicotine.
âAre you okay?â You tilt your head, noting that he seems more calm now and he nods.
âShould be askinâ you that.â
âIâm okay. I mean it,â you insist.
His eyes flicker down to your wrist again but he knows better than to doubt you and he knows you can handle the pain. Sitting down on the couch behind you, he leans back and watches you quietly.
âI got the things that were most important, but hopefully I can go back and grab everything else eventually,â you note, more to yourself than him. He still hums in acknowledgement. âWhyâd you want my bike back so bad, by the way?â
Your friend leans forward on his knees. âSo I can still go for rides with you.â
âWhat, do I make a bad backpack?â You tease with a grin that has Sukunaâs shoulders falling to his sides as his anger subsides completely.
âHard to drive when youâre feelinâ me up, princess.â
Your lips purse as your cheeks redden, caught off-guard by his nonchalant smirk. Youâd felt up his abs a bit during the ride to your old place, sure, but being called out still had the tips of your ears heating up.
You stubbornly avoid his gaze, going back to figuring out if youâd forgotten anything. Deep chuckles resonate from behind you as your new roommate ruffles your hair and gets to his feet.
âBy the way weâre goinâ out tonight.â
You tilt your head, eyes following Sukuna as he saunters over to the fridge and pulls out an energy drink.
âWhereâd you have in mind?â You ask curiously, not entirely sure youâre in the mood to go out.
âThat new rom com movie or whatever that you wanted to see is showing tonight. I got tickets.â He reaches back into the fridge and pulls out your favorite beverage, tossing it to you.
You barely manage to catch it, mumbling a thank you. âI donât really know if Iâm up for it,â you admit, staring at the drink in your hands.
âI already bought the tickets,â he shrugs, laying back on the couch again. âSuck it up.â
Your nose wrinkles in distaste but you know itâs likely for the best that youâre out of the house so you do, in fact, suck it up.
It quickly becomes time for the movie and you find yourself back in the parking garage a couple of hours before sunset.
âCan you drive?â
âYou gonna feel me up again?â Sukuna raises a brow at you, but a hint of a smirk pulls at his lips.
â... Can I?â
Your confidence catches him off-guard and he blanches, his lips parting as he stares at you. His eyes flicker to your lips and that single action has your heart beating fast and hard in your chest. The fluttering in your stomach as you wait for him to react is enough to make you wretch and you consider yourself lucky that he seems to pull himself together as his lips tug upwards into a sly grin.
He takes a step forward, dipping his head down to whisper in your ear. âDonât stray too low while Iâm drivinâ.â
Youâre left choking on air as Sukunaâs tone sends a jolt of electricity straight up your spine, setting your entire body ablaze. Your eyes trail the length of his body, pausing as you watch him pull his leather jacket over his thin white shirt. The way his muscles ripple and tense with each movement has you swallowing hard as you realize just how built and toned he really is.
Youâre thankful you arenât caught and are spared from Sukunaâs teasing as you hop onto the back of his bike, purposefully making a show of feeling up his abs. Moving from his pecs, across the peaks and valleys of each set of muscles, down until you take pause as you feel the waist of his pants connect with the tips of your fingers.
Sukuna groans, looking over his shoulder before he puts on his helmet. âNot while Iâm driving, got it?â
You nod at him, batting your eyelashes sweetly. He huffs, adjusting the crotch of his pants before pulling his helmet on. He waits for you to follow suit before pulling out of the parking garage and heading to the theater.
Sukunaâs warmth is both a beacon of hope and a searing flame to your skin. A comfort and an exciting new idea to explore. You hold onto him tightly, your body melting into his heat as he drives much more carefully with you hooked onto him than he had earlier in the day.
Sukuna pulls into a spot by the front door of the theater and waits for you to let go before hopping off of the bike himself.
âPopcorn?â He asks you mildly, hands in his pockets.
âUm, thatâs alright.â
Sukunaâs eyes narrow. âWhy?â
âI donât need popcorn.â
âDonât need or donât want?â
You pause, your brow knit as you silently question what he means, but Sukunaâs seen this play out before with your ex and he wants to break this habit.
âDo you want popcorn, y/n?â
You run a hand through your hair, exhaling quietly. âYeah, itâd be nice.â
Sukuna nods, surprising you as he grabs not your forearm or bicep as he usually does, but your hand. His much larger, veiny hand folds over yours, his fingers tangling with yours. Your hand is so small in his and even the feeling of your hand against him feels like a reminder of just how cute you are to him.
Your cheeks are surely dusted in a red glow, but you donât mind given the surprisingly pleasant eagerness in your chest.
With popcorn in-hand, Sukuna leads you into the theater, taking you to your seat and relaxing into the reclining chair. He lifts the arm rest between you, not once disconnecting your hands like itâs the most natural action in the world.
And in all honesty, it is. Everything with Sukuna is easy. It feels right. It feels right in a way youâre not familiar with and itâs exhilarating.
Given the cheesy scenario he set up for, you half-expect Sukuna to make a move during the movie, but his thumb simply continues to rub soothing lines over your knuckles.
Itâs after the movie that he surprises you.
Bounding down the stairs ahead of Sukuna as you tug him along with you, youâre practically gushing about the movie that youâre positive he barely paid attention to. It isnât his style of film but he doesnât mind either way.
â-I mean come on, how can you not love Owen Wilson in that role?â
âMm.â
â-and itâs so charming watching him start to learn and care about her world-â
âMhmm.â
â-oh my god and when she realizes she loves him and she shows up at the tournament-â
âIâm glad you liked it.â Despite how little he has to say about the movie, heâs just happy you enjoyed it.
â-and when he gets her flooowers?-â
Sukuna chuckles as you continue to gush over the movie at him. Still hand-in-hand, he tugs you along, quietly listening to your rambles as he makes his way to his bike. His chest swirls with anticipation as you pay his actions no mind when he turns towards the storage compartment of his bike as you continue rambling on.
It takes only a moment for his hand to reach the delicate item heâs in search of, deftly wrapping two fingers around the dainty object. Keeping his hand behind him, he turns to you with a soft smile. Lidded eyes stare at you with mirth, an expression that isnât typical for Sukuna, so your rambles begin to fade into silence as you tilt your head curiously at him.
âFlowers, hm?â He asks, pulling a beautiful, blooming red rose out from behind him. He holds it out to you, pulling you closer by the hand thatâs still intertwined with his as you purse your lips in disbelief.
âI- I-â You stammer over your words as your mouth goes dry, eyes fixed on the gorgeous flower held in Sukunaâs fingers.
Itâs almost a strange sight to behold- the same man youâd seen passed out on your couch dozens of times, the man youâd had to bail out of jail on more than one occasion, the same man who grumbled and complained every single time you went to Redâs Bar- now holding a dainty little rose for you.
âW- when did you even have time to get this?â You shake your head, it doesnât matter. âSukuna, this is so much I-â
His brows raise as your rambles begin again and although heâs flustered you more times than he can count over the years, heâs never seen you genuinely nervous like this.
â-you really didnât have to do anything like this for me-â
âY/n.â
â-taking me to the movies is already a big deal and I know the last day has been a hassle for you-â
âY/n,â Sukuna chuckles this time, his grip on your hand tightening as he squeezes it in an effort to get your attention.
â-I didnât get you anything, I donât-â
âY/n,â Sukuna leans down, capturing your lips against his. His lips are soft and the kiss is uncharacteristically sweet. His hand slides out of your grasp, sliding up your arm and coming to rest on your waist as he pulls you closer to him. He parts from your lips with a smirk. âShut up, princess.â
You stare breathlessly at him, eyes flickering wildly between his eyes, his lips, before resting down on the rose again.
âTake the damn flower.â
âR-right!â You gingerly reach out, holding the stem as you bring it up to your nose. âYou didnât have to do all this, you know.â
âWell, someone had to,â it comes out as more of a grumble as his brow furrows, but his fingers curl into the skin of your waist as he speaks, betraying the meaning behind his words.
âMhmm, someone.â You agree teasingly, smiling up at him. âThank you, Kuna.â You rise up onto your tiptoes, resting a hand on his chest as you lean up to kiss him, just barely able to reach his jaw.
His chest vibrates in a content hum. âSo short,â he mocks, tilting his head to meet your lips again. Pulling his other hand from his pocket, he pulls the flower from your fingers, setting it in the storage behind him and finding your waist to bring you flush against him.
Your hands slide up the length of his hard musculature until you find his neck. Your fingers tangle in the short hair at his nape and another hum slips from his lips, swallowed by your kiss.
He leans down to meet your height better as the kiss gains urgency, years of pent up emotions flooding from Sukunaâs every movement. His fingers curl into your skin, pulling you impossibly closer.
âKuna?â
He grunts into the kiss, smirking against your lips when he slides a hand from your waist down to your hips.
âCan we-â you breathe out between kisses, â-go home?â
Sukuna parts from your lips, examining your expression with blown pupils, so wide you can barely see the deep color of his irises. He swallows hard, his chest rising and falling fast as he nods silently.
You let out a surprised squeal when he grabs you by the hips and effortlessly lifts you onto his bike.
â-can do it myself,â you insist but Sukuna doesnât register your words, too caught up in the intoxication of your smell, your feel, your taste. He wants more.
Hopping on the bike in front of you, he waits for your helmet to be on before he starts his Ducati and throws his helmet on. Your hands take their place around his toned abdomen, sliding down without a momentâs thought.
âBehave,â Sukuna hisses loud enough that you hear him even over the sound of his bikeâs engine. He doesnât need your visor up to know youâre smiling innocently at him.
He clicks his tongue and speeds out of the parking lot back towards his apartment. Though heâs still more careful driving with his sweet little backpack clinging to him, youâre not oblivious to the fact that he is driving quicker than usual.
Relaxing against Sukunaâs toned back brings with it a comfort you havenât felt in a long time. Itâs strange, despite him speeding through traffic and the sparking tension between you both, itâs easy to close your eyes and relax against him.
Itâs not a feeling youâve had with your ex for a long time. Although you ignored the flags throughout your relationship and defended him when he didnât deserve it, it wasnât always that way, but Sukuna has always been a safe and worry-free escape from the world for you. Since the first day he drove into your life, since you first realized that Sukuna enjoyed your company as much as you enjoyed his.
Heâs a hard book to read and an easy presence to be in.
Your eyes flicker open, not realizing youâd grown so relaxed holding onto him that heâd already pulled into his parking spot, parking beside your Kawasaki.
Sukuna instinctively moves to get off his bike, expecting you to follow him, but pauses when you move rather sluggishly behind him. Pulling his helmet off, he shakes his head in an effort to fix his hair before he eyes you over his shoulder.
âYou gonna get off?â
To anyone else, it might come across as aggressive, but his tone is mild as ever.
âSorry, Kuna.â
You exhale and push off the bike with a hand resting on Sukunaâs shoulder blade. He watches you curiously, tucking you under his shoulder and leading the way back up to his apartment.
Pulling out his keys in the elevator, he ducks his head to get a good look at your expression.
âTired?â
âNo! ⊠Well, yeah, but I was just relaxing,â you tell him and he hums, his eyes swirling with mirth. You cross an arm over your chest, your breast pressing against your arm. His eyes flicker to the sight, pupils dilating as he swallows hard. âSee something you like, Sukuna?â
Your lidded eyes and purring voice has the taller man teetering on the edge of self control. His mind reels with thoughts that arenât appropriate for the elevator and the moment the door opens, heâs making his way to his apartment like a man on a mission.
Desire pools between your thighs at his eagerness, made more apparent in the way he fumbles at the door with his keys.
Itâs not even a second after the door is closed and he maneuvers you against the door, helmets on the ground as his fingers move to flip the lock behind you before they travel up the side of your body, admiring your curves before he cups your face.
He captures your lips, hungry to taste you again. He wants to devour you, he wants to mark you and make you his. Your lips move in tandem with his, matching his fervor with equal eagerness.
Your fingers rake his chest, thumbs sliding over the length of his collarbones. The feeling of his broad chest beneath your hands drives you crazy and you press back against him, your breasts pressing against the expanse of his chest.
âKuna, wait,â you breathe, chest heaving as you part from him. Vermillion irises lock on you as he pulls back, his fingers gripping your waist almost bruisingly. âThis isn'tâŠâ You pause, your mouth opening and closing hesitantly.
âOut with it,â Sukuna encourages hoarsely.
You shoot him a wry smile at his blunt impatience. âThis isnât just a hookup for me, you know.â
He raises a brow at you. âYou think thatâs what this is for me?â You might even assume he sounds offended.
âNo! No,â you clarify, shaking your head as your pretty eyes go wide. He rolls his shoulders, leaning his face closer to yours as he intently watches you. âI just⊠I-â you pause again, avoiding his intense gaze.
âItâs not a one night stand, y/n.â Sukunaâs pupils shrink as he speaks solemnly. He feels you relax in his grip, your eyes coming up to meet his. âRelax nâ let me take care of you.â
Your cheeks redden at your best friendâs boldness and you shuffle as you press your thighs together.
âI better not be your rebound, yâknow.â Thereâs a teasing lilt to his voice now, the elbow holding him up against the door sliding down as his face grows closer to you. God, heâs tall. Heâs tall and built like a monster, and between the size of his hands, his muscles, not to mention his height⊠Your wide, almost timid eyes flicker down to his crotch. He catches the action and smirks. âDonât get nervous now,â he leers.
âIâm not!â You squeak, the blush spreading to the tips of your ears. âAnd⊠youâre not a rebound.â You grab his shirt collar as you pull him in for a kiss, much sweeter than the covetous one youâd shared a minute ago.
Sukunaâs eyes flutter shut as he finds himself relaxing into your touch when you slide your hands up his neck and into his dark, undyed undercut.
âI like you, Ryo.â You admit when you pull back just enough for the words to reach his ears. His smirk can be felt against your lips.
âFuck, youâre hot.â In true Sukuna fashion, thatâs his way of reciprocating your admission, because he doesnât do feelings. But you know. You know exactly what he means.
You grin against his lips, giggling like a giddy school girl whoâs just seen her crush smile. Sukunaâs chest rumbles at your sudden timid delight.
âYouâre such a loser,â he chuckles, his hand moving from your waist to hold your chin. He kisses you softly, your giggles persisting against his lips. Your fingers curl gleefully in his hair when he pulls back with impishly narrowed eyes. âYouâre makinâ it hard to kiss you.â
âSorry,â you chirp, your eyes crinkling in the corners. âItâs just cute- youâre cute.â
âMe?â He pulls back, standing at his full height and making a point of showing off his broad shouldered stance. âCute?â He tilts his head quizzically as if to prove a point but if anything, you find the strands of hair falling out of place over his forehead cute.
âYeah, you.â
âIâll show you cute,â he grumbles, and suddenly youâre lifted off the ground effortlessly. You shriek in surprise in his ear as you grasp at the back of his leather jacket. He mumbles something about you being a brat before dumping you on the couch and crawling over your body.
His form looms over you and youâre both suddenly very aware of the immense size difference between you both, something which might be one of Sukunaâs favorite things. He loves how tiny you are, how easily he can handle you.
Sukuna takes pause, his usually dour gaze filled with longing, admiring what heâd wanted for so long as you stare back at him with wide eyes. He loves the fiery attitude you always sport, but this flustered side of you is new to him and he drinks it in like a drug.
Your chest rises and falls quickly, eyes darting from his arms that cage you in, down the expanse of his chest that peeks through his V-neck, back up to that alluring tattooed face. His sharp jaw, his ever-present smirk, his intense stare, itâs all so goddamn sexy and youâre flustered to silence like a deer in the headlights being hunted by a wolf.
âFunny, you seem to have lost your bark,â he comments tantalizingly, dipping down to kiss your jaw. Now with your body trapped beneath him, he feels the way your hips twitch. âWhat happened to the brat from earlier?â
You swallow down a moan as his voice sets you ablaze. Your hands find purchase on his biceps, fingers gripping him tightly. You take a breath to readjust and bat your lashes up at him as you push through the sudden nerves that seem to chase you. âBrat? I donât know what youâre talking about, Kuna.â
Sukuna grins, a devilish gleam in his eyes. âThere she is,â he hums, bringing himself down to his elbows to kiss you wholly. His lips move urgently against yours, tongue swiping your lower lip almost immediately. He groans when you grant him access by parting your lips, drinking in your taste. You gasp in surprise as his tongue piercing grazes your tongue, a strangely pleasurable new feeling.
Your hands slide from his biceps up his neck, keeping him close, pulling him closer as you deepen the kiss. When you shift beneath him to clench your thighs as heat pools in your lower abdomen, he groans.
âFuck,â he hisses into your mouth, catching you by surprise when he nips your lower lip. He pulls back for only a moment but in that split second the look on your best friendâs face tells you everything you need to know. Youâre his prey, and heâs about to devour you.
âKuna-!â You gasp in surprise when kisses down the side of your neck, leaving behind purple bruises as he sucks and nips at the side of your neck. Reaching the sensitive spot at the base of your neck, his teeth graze your skin before gently sinking in, testing the waters with a glance at your face.
You whine, squirming beneath him.
Sukuna withdraws with a smirk, running his tongue soothingly over the reddened skin. âKinky little thing, arenât you?â He purrs, rolling his hips against you so roughly you whimper. âShit,â he mumbles and returns to his ministrations, his hips rolling against yours like a dog in heat.
âSh-shut up, KunaâŠâ you groan, rutting your hips up into him. His movement stutters with pleasure and he nips your skin again in response. âDarlinâ, hold onto me,â his husky voice commands against the skin of your ear.
âHm? Ah-!â
Sukuna slides a muscular arm beneath the small of your back, pressing you to him and urging your arms to cling to his shoulders. You wrap your legs around his waist as he picks you up, holding your small frame to him in one arm.
He carries you to his bedroom, shutting the door behind him as you press kisses to his collarbone, leaving behind marks of your own. He hums, plopping you down onto the bed and standing to shrug his jacket off and unbuckle his belt, letting it and his jeans drop to the floor.
Youâre sure your face is red as a tomato, pupils dilated as you admire his body, your gaze landing on the boner thatâs pulling the fabric of his black Calvin Klein boxers taut. You swipe your tongue out over your lips, bringing your lower lip between your teeth.
Your best friend grins, pulling you to the edge of the bed by your ankles. You let out a surprised gasp, gripping at the sheets at either side of you.
âGânna take my time nâ treat her right,â he purrs, falling over you as your legs wrap around his waist to pull him closer. He could be talking about you or your pussy, it doesnât matter either way.
He lifts your shirt up over your head and you arch your back to make it easier. Youâre so pliant for him and he adores your obedience, adores the desperate, lustful look in your eyes.
âShit, girl,â he mumbles, his eyes eating you alive on the spot as he admires your body. Youâre so small in comparison to the way his figure looms over you.
Catching your gaze, he squeezes one of your breasts, slipping the other from the fabric of your lace bra to press the warm flat of his tongue to your nipple. You jolt as pleasure buzzes through your body, moaning when he sucks the hardened bud between his lips. The cool metal of his piercing intensifies the pleasure when it grazes your skin and causes goosebumps to raise on your arms.
Your hands find his hair, tugging enough that Sukuna smirks against the plush of your skin.
âSo needy,â he hums. Your thighs clench around his waist as the vibration of his voice against your skin rocks through you.
Your lidded eyes stare down at him and you take the opportunity to tug his shirt off. He complies, tossing it across the room. His heavily tattooed chest, abdomen, arms- heâs gorgeous and you can barely believe heâs standing over you right now, eyes for only you.
âKuna,â you mumble between moans, jerking as he flicks your nipple with a smug grin.
He mutters out a âwhatâ before sinking his teeth into your breast. You gasp, eyes widening and bucking your hips against him as your head swings back into the mattress. As you arch your back for him, Sukuna deftly slips your bra off.
âStop being a tease,â you plead, the hard length of his cock twitching against your core as you tighten your legs.
âA tease? What do you want then, hm?â His voice is cocky, knowing. He wants you on your knees begging.
âKunaaaa,â you groan, laying the back of your arm across your eyes, suddenly timid.
Sukuna clicks his tongue, pulling your arm away from your face. He grabs your other arm and holds them both down above you with one large hand. âWhat do you want, brat?â His face is inches away from yours now and he rolls his hips against your core teasingly despite the ache he feels.
âI-â you pant, pausing to look at his intense stare. âWanâ you to eat me out.â
âYeah?â He hums, lowering his head so that his lips brush yours. âThought you had manners?â
âPlease, Kuna,â you beg in a whiny voice. Sukuna smirks, getting to his knees at the edge of the bed and draping his arm over your hips to hold them down as he sprawls your legs out before him.
âFuckinâ soaked for me,â he groans, his breath warm against the fabric of your panties. He wastes no time hooking his fingers through the fabric to pull them aside. His digits brush your folds as you buck your hips in a desperate attempt at friction.
Chuckling softly, Sukuna languidly licks up your cunt, savoring your taste with the slow movement. You squirm beneath him, raking your fingers through his hair as you try to buck your hips towards his tongue.
âPatience,â Sukuna hums and flicks his tongue out to circle your clit. His piercing grazes the sensitive bundle of nerves and your eyes go wide with pleasure.
âSuch a- hah- asshole- ah-!â Sukuna doesnât give you the satisfaction of teasing him as he pushes his long tongue into your dripping chasm, your walls clenching around the muscle in ecstasy.
Sukuna groans as your fingers tug his hair. He lets you buck your hips into his mouth and ride his face, relishing in the sound of your moans and pants.
The feeling of his tongue inside you is already so intense that when he brings a thumb up to flick your clit, the sudden desire that pulses through your body straight to the knot tightening in your core has you bucking your hips in surprise. His grip on your hips fastens as he holds you down again, keeping you from squirming out of his grasp.
The desire and heat pooling in your core quickly grow in intensity as Sukunaâs experienced tongue plunges through your folds, drinking up your arousal.
âK-Kuna- I- Iâm gonna-â your words are mere babbles as you try to speak through the bliss, your orgasm steadily approaching.
âLet me taste it, princess.â
The feeling of his voice with his tongue within you, the way his piercing suddenly flicks your gummy walls, his thumb on your clit, the way he calls you princess, itâs so much that your orgasm crashes over you in a wave, causing your body to jolt and jerk against the mattress.
Sukunaâs thumb leaves your clit as he holds down one of your thighs to keep you from crushing his head as you moan and pant out his name while your body spasms. He slows his ministrations to drink every last drop of your orgasm before flicking your clit with his tongue one last time, pleased when you jolt.
He pushes himself up, wiping your slick from his chin with the back of his hand.
âShit, youâre hot,â he mutters. You barely have a moment to come down from your high before heâs pulling you to the floor by your waist, dropping you on your knees. His hungry expression and throbbing cock tell you everything you need to know as you look up at him through your lashes.
Your fingers curl around the waist of his boxers as you pull them down his thighs. His rock-hard erection slaps against his abs as you free it from the confines of the fabric. Sure, Sukuna is a monster of a man at nearly seven feet tall of solid muscle mass and youâd felt him grinding against you, but your eyes still widen at the sight of his cock.
You feel your mouth water as you stare at the angry red tip, veins protruding and pulsing with desire on either side.
âThink you can take it?â He asks and although itâs a teasing and husky tone he uses with you, he is genuinely asking as well. You nod eagerly and he grins. âGood girl,â he purrs.
Bringing a hand up to his cock, you wrap your fingers daintily around the thick base, looking up at those glimmering vermillion eyes as you run your tongue from base to tip, eliciting a heavy groan from the man.
âChrist,â he groans, his head flying back in pleasure. You smirk and take the tip of his cock into your mouth, swirling your tongue over the leaking slit before teasingly pulling back with a pop!
His hips shudder as he does everything in his power to stop himself from using your mouth, to stop himself from shoving his cock down your throat with no warning.
âNeedy, Ryo?â
You donât expect the way that sets him off, lights his desire ablaze anew as he fists your hair and leans down with a clenched jaw to look you in the eyes.
You whimper in surprise, closing your thighs from where you sit on your knees as your cunt pulses from the way he handles you so roughly.
âLetâs get it straight right now which of us is needy,â he growls with a smirk, eyeing the way you shift your thighs. âYou gonna be a good little slut for me?â
You nod up at him, pupils dilating as he tugs your hair. He grins, narrowing his eyes. âWords, woman.â
âYes, Kuna,â you purr back at him. The wild look in his eyes intensifies as he receives your consent and pushes the tip of his cock past your lips. His jaw goes slack in pleasure as you swirl your tongue around the head, lapping up his precum.
âShit,â he groans out, watching as you take his cock without breaking eye contact while he thrusts further into your mouth. You gag when he reaches the back of your throat, tears pricking in the corners of your eyes and you shut them as you take his length. âAh ah, look at me. Takinâ me so well.â
Sukuna knows you canât take his entire cock in your mouth, he knows thereâs a fairly large size difference between the both of you. It doesnât stop the way he pushes your head down on his cock watching the way tears run down your cheeks as you so obediently let him handle you.
Saliva runs down the length of his cock and you bring a hand up to the base, pumping what you canât fit in your throat. His hand pulls your mouth off his cock, adjusting his hand to hold your head back against the bed so that he can relentlessly fuck into you, massive cock hitting the back of your throat and gagging you with each thrust.
He throws his head back as you pump the base of his shaft while he fucks you, being his perfect little doll. His abs flex and twitch when your muscles tense as you swallow around him.
âSuch a nasty fuckinâ throat.â He barely gives you any time to breathe as his pace increases, along with the pace of your hand to match. His chest heaves as he moans, letting you dig your nails into his thigh for purchase while he uses your throat.
His cock twitches as you moan when he hits the back of your throat and his eyes shut tight with pleasure, jaw going slack. When he jolts again with the next thrust, you know heâs close so you hum contentedly, sending vibrations up his shaft and causing his hips to jerk erratically as he chases his high.
âF-fuck,â he groans out before his hips stutter and your eyes widen when his cum unloads down your throat, thick ropes of salty sweet arousal swallowed as he keeps himself warm within your mouth. You move your lips slowly around his girth, milking every last drop of his orgasm. You pull back after a moment to allow yourself a chance to breathe, panting as you stare up at him.
His chest heaves and his cock twitches every few seconds, telling of the orgasm heâs just had. Still, his eyes burn with desire when he finally opens them.
He reaches down to pick you up and sets you at the edge of the bed on all fours roughly.
He squeezes your ass before slapping it once. Your body jolts in surprise as you gasp.
âPrincess, you on any birth control?â
âMhmm, you can go raw.â
You hear him mumble a curse beneath his breath. âYou tell me if itâs too much,â he tells you, catching the way you glance over your shoulder at him and nod.
In spite of the rough way he uses and handles you, heâs still very attentive to your pleasure and comfort.
He pays no mind to the fact that you actually liked the panties youâre wearing as he physically tears them off of your body, tossing the ripped fabric aside. You whine in complaint, shooting him a look from over your shoulder.
âIâll buy ya new ones,â he huffs, returning his attention to your body.
Squeezing your ass in both palms, he leans down and buries his face in your pussy, licking a stripe from your clit to your dripping entrance. He hums at how wet you still are, moving a hand up your spine to hold you down and keep you arched for him.
His teeth sink into the plump of your ass and you squeak at the sudden burst of pain that quickly twists to pleasure when he soothingly laps over the mark heâs left.
He slides his hand down from squeezing your plump ass to glide a finger through your lubricated folds. You lean into his touch, gasping when he suddenly plunges one long finger into your lubricated pussy.
Your walls are tight as they pulse around his long finger. He eases another digit in, pumping them slowly as he realizes just how tight you are.
âRelax, darlinâ,â he hums soothingly, curling his fingers against your walls a couple of times before he finds your g spot. His voice is such a stark contrast to his rough tendencies, but itâs soothing to have him so worried for your comfort.
âRyo, f-fuck-â you moan out as his fingers languidly curl against your gummy walls which gradually relax against his long fingers. With a couple more pumps of his fingers, he pulls them out, leaving you pulsing around nothing and craving his touch as you shift your hips in search of friction with a whine.
Sukuna grunts when he lines himself up with your plump cunt, pumping himself a couple of times before he slowly eases his tip into you. Your eyes widen at the delicious burn of the stretch, fingers curling in the sheets as you adjust to his massive size. And god this is only the tip.
You cry out, the feeling of his girthy cock filling you up blurring your vision as the pain transitions to pleasure before the process begins all over again with each movement he makes. His cock throbs, making you feel impossibly full.
Sukuna wants to ruin you, he wants to tear you apart on his cock, but he doesnât want to hurt his sweet little best friend, so he watches the way your face contorts in mild pain, waiting for your expression to relax as he slowly feeds you his cock, inch by inch.
âDoinâ so good for me, darlinâ,â Sukuna purrs, his thumb stroking your back in contrast to the fact that heâs still holding you down and keeping you arched for him.
His cock head brushes your cervix, pressing against it as he bottoms out, fingers curling against your back at how tight youâre squeezing him as he waits for you to adjust.
Your shoulders relax beneath his touch and you whimper as he slides his cock out to the tip, setting a moderate pace so as not to shock you. The feeling of his thick, veiny cock is like nothing youâve ever experienced, his size just so much to take that you moan and whine with each thrust of his cock into your tight hole.
You grip at the sheets beneath you, gasping as Sukuna speeds up his thrusts and presses you hard into the mattress, muffling your moans.
âKuna- mmph,â you let out a muffled whimper, jolting when he slaps your ass roughly, no longer holding back.
âF-fuckinâ- shit-â he groans, his fingers gripping your skin bruisingly as he holds you in place. He leans forward, sliding his hand from your back to your neck, restricting your airflow subtly. Pleasure tears through your spine as he leans forward and pushes in deeper with each thrust, pulling moans and screams of his name from deep in your throat.
âK-Kuna, Iâm- hah- close,â you whimper, words muffled by the sheets beneath you. He loosens his fingers from your neck, grabbing your waist with both hands as he pulls your ass closer to him, pounding into you faster as he chases his own high.
âShit, yâr such a good lil slut for me,â he groans, feeling your walls tighten around his thick length with each thrust.
Pleasure tightens deep within your core, knotting and curling as he fucks you so deliciously that your juices are already dripping from your cunt around his hilt. His eyes lock on the sight and he throws his head back in pleasure, his own high not far behind.
With one last hit against your cervix, your orgasm hits you like a goddamn truck, like nothing youâve ever experienced before as your entire body shakes and jolts, your knees and legs giving out.
If Sukuna wasnât holding you up, you surely would have collapsed as stars cloud your vision and you moan his name like a mantra. Your eyes are glossy and your mind delirious as he continues to fuck you through your high, your walls milking him in a way that has him quickly climbing towards his release.
With only a few more erratic thrusts that have you whining under him in overstimulation, his cock twitches suddenly as his entire load fills you up, mixing with your juices and dripping out of your swollen lips down your thighs that Sukuna is still holding up.
He moans as he slowly lets your body go and you sink to the mattress, panting beneath him as his cock slips from between your thighs. His eyes flicker to your pretty pussy, his cum leaking out with each pulse of your walls. His chest heaves as well as he slowly gets to his feet and walks to the side of the bed, sliding up against the headboard.
Sukuna pulls your body up from where youâve collapsed, wrapping his arms around you as his sweat-slicked skin sticks to yours. Heâs much gentler now, looking you over for any signs that he might have hurt you accidentally, but when you finally open your eyes, theyâre glossy with pleasure and filled with adoration.
He canât help the way he genuinely smiles, not a common thing for the tepid biker, but when you grin and giggle in return, it makes his heart jump.
He practically turns to putty in your hands and as you silently bask in the afterglow of the best sex of your life and lean into Sukunaâs embrace.
âWasnât too rough with you, was I?â He asks after a moment and youâre surprised by the way his fingers softly graze your skin.
âYou were great Kuna, donât worry,â you answer, yawning afterwards.
He hums in relief, leaning his head back for a moment before taking it upon himself to get you cleaned up before you pass out. Grabbing a towel, he wipes your thighs and tosses the towel in a hamper at the edge of the room before pulling the covers over your figure and crawling in behind you.
âRyo?â
Sukuna hums quizzically.
âDo I get to know how long now?â
âYouâre a brat,â he growls in your ear as he pulls you flush against his chest, his arms folded around your middle.
âYeah yeah, just answer the question,â you grouse, rolling your eyes. You have an inkling of a feeling that you know when he realized his feelings for you, but youâre curious nonetheless.
He sighs, knowing youâll never let him live this down. âDunno. Itâs been a while,â he avoids the question.
You flip in his arms to face him with raised brows. He groans, avoiding your gaze.
âI guess around the time you got with your ex,â he admits, his eyes locked on the wall behind you as he tucks your head under his chin to avoid your intent gaze.
âIs that why you stopped seeing people?â
âYou noticed?â
âKuna, you had a new girl under your arm every time I saw you for a while.â
He grunts, pulling you tighter to his body.
Giggling, you kiss his collar bone. âThatâs sweet.â
Sukunaâs chest rises and falls heavily as he lets out a long sigh. You can practically feel the way his cheeks are heating up as you tease him, something that youâd only managed a handful of times in all the years youâve known him.
âSorry, am I embarrassing the big bad motorcycling bad boy?â You push, squeaking in protest as Sukuna wastes no time in shoving you away from him in an attempt to push you off the bed. âWait, wait, wait! Iâm sorry!â You insist, looking to him for mercy as you cling to his arms, clutching desperately at the flexed muscles.
âAnd?â
âAndâŠâ you search for the words heâs looking to hear in his eyes, gripping his arms tighter. âI wonât do it again?â
âAnd?â
âIâm sorry I ate the rest of your leftovers this morning?â
His brow furrows. Oh shit.
âI mean⊠no I didnât. Theyâre still there,â you mumble, avoiding his judgemental gaze guiltily.
Sukunaâs hold on your shoulder begins to lax as you teeter at the edge of the bed, threatening to drop you to the floor. You scramble to try to grip him tighter.
âIâll buy you new food!â
Sukuna sighs and drags you back to him. You let out a relieved puff of air against his chest, snuggling back into his warmth. âJusâ wanted you to say when it was for you.â
You tilt your head up at him, only able to see his chin. âWhen what was?â
âYou know. When you realized what you think of me or whatever.â Sukunaâs gruff tone is telling that he isnât used to such sincere conversations. Although youâve known him a long time and heâd told you about damn near every sexual encounter heâs had, Sukunaâs most record-breaking relationship was a shocking three months.
Of course, Sukuna isnât a romantic, and she didnât know him well enough to know that he was putting in effort, so it didnât last long.
âOh. When I realized I like you?â
He grunts.
You hum in thought, moments throughout your friendship scrolling through your mind like a slideshow.
Of course, your forefront thought is when Sukuna first stepped off that stupidly well taken care of Ducati and surprised you when he managed to not only get you home on a running bike, but let you buy him a drink. Heâs always been ridiculously attractive, but no, those werenât feelings.
You think of all the times you hung out with friends and they would point out his change in behavior. Youâd always think on the statement, watch the way that aloof look of his turns mild when he faces you, but you didnât want to think about it too much.
You ponder on the time youâd called him on a whim early in your friendship when your date had bailed on you. Sukuna did not want to see the cheesy romance movie you had tickets for, but heâd sucked it up and shown up. Youâd offered to buy him dinner as a thank you, but he paid regardless. It was the kind of thing a real date would do, but heâd complained so much you brushed the thought away.
When you were entirely too obsessed with Game of Thrones and insisted he be your king in a big fur cloak for Halloween, maybe then something had changed.
âYou want me to be some guy from the show you like?â Heâd grumbled and guffawed over having to dress up at all, insisting heâd been planning to put in minimal effort.
âPleaaase, Kuna?â You were practically on your knees by the time heâd agreed with a roll of his eyes. âYouâd make a good Robb Stark,â you insist before second-guessing yourself. âWell, if he was grumpy and kind of a dick.â You shrug, grinning up at him as he shoots you a begrudging look through narrowed eyes.
It only takes you a few days to put together the costume given the abundance of medieval king and knight costumes around.
His arms cross over his rugged chest, the fabric of his shirt pulled taut by the movement. âYou canât be serious.â He stares at the tight faux leather coat you hand him with a scowl.
âHe wears something similar!â
âIâm not wearing this.â
âPlease, you said you would!â You pout at him as you sport your best puppy dog eyes.
âNo.â
You jut your bottom lip out, taking a step towards him as you shove the leather top to his chest. His eyes narrow, gears turning in his head until he shuts his eyes, giving in.
Your eyes light up as he pulls the top from you, groaning as he pulls it on over his shirt. Itâs tight on him, which you expected given Sukunaâs sheer size, but itâs a strangely hot look on your rugged best friend. Even more so when he lets you drape the cape over his shoulders and set a cute little crown on his head.
âNo, absolutely not,â he hisses, slapping your hand away when you try to clip the crown in place with a bobby pin.
âYouâre such a pain,â you tease as you try again, holding an extra pin between your teeth.
Standing back, you admire your work as you receive a very unamused look in return. Sukunaâs build makes for a very kingly stature in spite of the contrasting tattoos and it makes him hot. In fact, youâre half afraid someone will whisk him away at the Halloween party given how nicely heâs cleaned up.
Your lips twitch downwards at the thought. You donât want him to be whisked away. You want your king by your side.
âSo?â
Snapping you from your thoughts, your eyes light up again. âYou look great,â you tell him with a grin. His eyes flicker with something you donât recognize.
He hums, examining your expression. âWell, go get ready then. Gonna sweat through all this leather nâ shit.â
âOh like you arenât used to leather,â you roll your eyes, but you oblige, getting your matching Talisa Stark outfit on.
When you return to Sukuna sitting on his couch, you muster your best impression of your character. âMy king?â
Your best friendâs attention turns to you, eyes widening as you approach him in a floor-length queenâs gown with a matching gray cloak and a crown pinned into your hair. âShit, yâ look good,â he breathes out.
Your cheeks heat up and you scratch at the back of your neck. âThanks, Kuna.â You clear your throat and your mind to the best of your ability as you offer him a hand. âReady?â
He hums, taking your hand before grabbing his keys and offering you his arm. âMy queen?â
Youâd be lying if you said that wasnât the first spark. The first real spark. As he loosened up throughout the night and repetitively called you his princess, you knew you were spent. Each and every time he used the name had you giggling up a storm and while youâd brushed it off as intoxication at the time, you knew the truth deep down.
So when heâd returned to his aloof self the following morning, you swallowed down your feelings.
You couldnât bear the thought of losing your best friend and he didnât have a good track record with relationships. Youâd be lying if you said you werenât scared, even now.
âHalloween,â you utter finally, unsure of just how long youâve been silently contemplating an answer in his arms.
âFigures,â his chest rumbles in brief laughter.
âYou knew?â
âNah, thought it was the alcohol.â
âYeah, I thought so too. Thatâs why I started dating other people.â
Sukuna doesnât respond but he buries his face into the crown of your head, drinking in your warmth, your intoxicating scent, and your soft skin against his as he closes his eyes.
No more other people, youâre his.
âWas it me callinâ you my princess?â He asks of the night you realized youâd caught feelings.
âThat, and you make a good Robb Stark.â
He snorts. âI remember being told I was a dick.â
You shrug, smiling against the warm skin of his chest. âI donât retract that statement.â
He presses a kiss to the top of your head and warmth spreads through your body as you relax against him, eyes closing as exhaustion spreads across you like a warm blanket. You know the kiss is a sassy retort, but it shamelessly works on you.
âFine. I retract my statement.â
âThatâs my princess.â
â
âCan you stop moving so much?â
Unsurprisingly, Sukunaâs got an attitude today and he absolutely plans on making it your problem as he huffs.
Your gloved hands work carefully to thoroughly cover every last strand of his short hair with dye. You know very well the only reason heâs being such a menace today is because youâd suggested a change in color and heâs afraid itâll look bad.
In all your years of knowing him, heâs always had the same pink hair, so you were thrilled he was allowing you the honor of dying it back to its original color, black. Youâd actually insisted on orange or red, but black was the only thing he was willing to compromise on.
You make your way back around him and find his scowling face looking up at you. Covering the last few strands of hair over his forehead, you boldly sit on his lap.
His demeanor changes in an instant as you straddle him and his hands eagerly find your hips and begin roaming up your waist and back down to your thighs. You shoot him a warning glance as you accidentally smudge some black dye on his forehead, but he pays you no mind as he continues his ministrations.
âKuna,â you warn sternly, trying to wipe off the black marking before it leaves a stain, but itâs too late. You sigh and look over your work.
âJust a quickie, câmon,â he insists with a grin.
âI donât want to be covered in black dye,â you retort and Sukuna groans, throwing his head back dramatically. âHow long do I gotta wait?â
âThirty minutes.â
He frowns, eyes following your movements as you pull off your gloves and throw them in the trash of your shared apartment. He canât for the life of him tear his eyes from you as you proceed to wash your hands before grabbing a damp towelette to wipe at his forehead.
Suddenly feeling like a child as you take care of the marking on his forehead, he swats at your hand.
âYouâre a menace,â you mutter, avoiding his hand with practiced precision as you wipe away any traces of hair dye from his face.
He smirks, he likes the way you tease him and if anything it only makes him want to bend you over the table more.
Still, when you pull back to inspect his face and leave a gentle peck on his lips, he knows you donât mind his attitude.
You know itâs all a ruse of sorts. Not around others, but around you it is.
Dating him for so many years came with its fair share of complications, especially given that Sukunaâs communication skills were about as good as those of a rock. He often didnât pick up on small signs that you were bothered by things and vice versa, as heâs a tough book to read.
Regardless of any small arguments, nothing ever got out of hand surprisingly. You canât imagine your life if Sukuna hadnât shown up to get you the night your ex kicked you out. What Sukuna lacked in the department of emotional understanding, he made up for with his actions.
Although he very rarely says it, you know Sukuna loves you.
Each and every âI love youâ is met with a kiss, a squeeze of your arm, a tug towards him.
Sukuna has his own way of showing you he loves you.
He picks you up from work with flowers, shocking those around you when the grumpy-looking tattooed man hands you flowers that surely wonât make it home in great condition on his bike, but it doesnât matter.
He runs you a bath when he fucks you into oblivion and your legs give out. It may be his own hand that inflicted your weakness, but it doesnât matter because he shows you just how much he cares for you through his aftercare routine.
He makes your coffee with far too much milk and sugar for his own taste and complains about it the whole time, but it doesnât matter because he still does it every morning for you.
Sukuna loves you, and he knows that youâre aware of it.
When it comes time to wash his hair, he closes his eyes when you help him wash it in the sink. Your fingers move so delicately, taking care to wash out all the dye.
When he dries his hair with a towel and sees the way you delight at the sight of his freshly jet-black hair, he chuckles.
âWhy do you never grow your hair out?â You ask, running your hands through his spiked hair. The color suits him and brings out his eyes in the most stunning way, youâre sure you have stars in your eyes from the way youâre staring at him.
âDunno. The other color looks good,â he shrugs.
âIt does!â You agree with a grin, âbut so does this!â You insist. âItâs hot.â
He hums, looking himself over in the mirror. In truth, he doesnât mind it. He only really indulged you because youâd insisted, but it worked out given what he had in mind for the night. It would look good in photos.
âWhen is Shiu getting here?â You ask curiously, interrupting Sukunaâs thoughts as your short arms wrap around his middle from behind.
âHour from now.â
You gasp suddenly. âI need to clean up.â
âI can clean you up,â Sukuna smirks, lifting his arms in an attempt to see your face from where you stand behind him.
âKunaaa,â you whine. âI need time to get ready.â
He groans dramatically. âFine,â he grumbles, watching as you prance away happily to get ready.
You, Sukuna, Choso, Toji, Shiu, and Uraume were all going out in celebration of Tojiâs newest addition to his family, a young boy. It was surprising that he was the first to settle down, but when youâd met his wife, you could see that she was his world, the way he relaxed at her touch and his own edge calmed in the same way Sukunaâs does around you.
Sukuna lays on his bed, watching as you choose a gorgeous black dress that hugs your curves so delectably that he wants to tear it off of you then and there. The whole time, he fumbles with something in his pocket, grateful when you donât notice the small box accidentally fall from his grasp and onto the bed.
You chat with him about your work the whole time. Sukunaâs mind is elsewhere but given that heâs never all that chatty, you donât notice. Looking yourself over in the mirror, you let out a relieved breath when you manage to be ready with only a couple of minutes to spare.
âYâ look gorgeous.â Sultry words are whispered in your ear, followed up by a kiss to your neck as your boyfriend comes up behind you. His hands rest softly on your waist as he rests his chin on your shoulder, bending down to your height.
You watch his actions from the mirror, the way his lidded eyes look over the curves of your figure, the way he slides his arms so delicately around your middle to envelop you in a tight hug, itâs these moments that you treasure the most.
The quiet moments where you simply enjoy one anotherâs presence.
Your lives are so busy that you donât always get time to yourselves, so melting into his arms in that moment, you wish it would last forever.
Of course forever is a long time, and Shiu certainly doesnât have the patience to wait in his car that long for you both. Youâre not entirely sure why Sukuna doesnât want to take your bikes, but you donât push the subject. Your boyfriendâs mind is a mysterious place.
Your group gathers at a restaurant thatâs a bit fancy for everyoneâs tastes, but Uraume had insisted on it given the occasion. The real surprise was that Sukuna had dressed up a bit as well, sporting a sleek black pair of slacks, a black long sleeve button-up, and a red tie. His ensemble went well with your black dress.
Over the years, Sukunaâs friends had become your friends, long before you started dating, even.
Choso and Yuji were like your little brothers, and Uraume and Toji your closest drinking buddies. They got along surprisingly well with your friends too, especially Choso and Yuji who, unlike Sukuna, seemed to have a talent for getting along with everyone. Shiu generally only tagged along when Toji was around, but their banter was always welcome.
As Toji shows off photos of his son Megumi alongside his daughter Tsumiki, you notice Sukuna whispering something to Choso, casting oddly uneasy glances in your direction. Frowning, you glance over yourself once as though thereâs something wrong with your outfit. No⊠it looks fine. So whatâs Sukuna being so secretive about?
You brush it off as nothing, sure youâre overthinking things⊠until he pulls Toji aside after the man finishes showing off photos of his son.
You tilt your head quizzically to Uraume as you lean over towards them, ensuring Sukuna canât hear you.
âIs Kuna acting weird to you?â
âYes,â Uraume follows your gaze, narrowing their eyes. âPerhaps he misses Toji?â
âAre we talking about the same person?â A small smirk quirks up the corners of your lips.
Uraume laughs lightly with you. âYouâre right,â they agree, but the thought doesnât leave your mind.
Itâs not like Sukuna doesnât have off days like everyone else, but this is a strange change of demeanor for him. He seems strangely fidgety, as though he canât sit still. His leg had bounced under the table throughout most of dinner and he was strangely eager to get the bill.
He had been horny all day, the best guess you have is that maybe itâs that and he wants to get home.
Still, it doesnât explain him being so secretive throughout the night. In fact, heâd barely spoken a lick to you. Which isnât entirely uncommon, but in place of words he would normally find comfort in your touch. Yet tonight it felt as though youâd hardly seen him despite sitting next to him most of the night.
You resort to asking him about it later, though an uneasy feeling tugs at you the more you notice it.
Youâre almost grateful the dinner is over when it is as you intertwine your fingers with Sukuna like nothing is wrong. Shiu leads the way across the expanse of grass by the restaurant to his car one lot over, chatting with Toji as you and your boyfriend trail behind.
With Choso and Uraume a short distance behind you, you figure now is as good of a time to ask as any.
âIs everything alright, baby?â You tilt your head to look at your boyfriend.
Something glimmers in his eyes, an emotion you donât recognize. Thatâs odd.
ââCourse.â
Well, thatâs not reassuring.
âOkay⊠Nothingâs wrong?â
He shoots you a small smirk, kissing the top of your head.
âNothinâs wrong, princess. Donât worry your pretty little head.â
You sigh, unable to help the feeling that he has something up his sleeve, but also able to recognize that whatever heâs plotting, he clearly has no intention of telling you. Regardless, youâre relieved that his nonchalant attitude seems to have returned. Maybe itâs nothing to worry about after all.
You miss the way he glances between the two groups, nodding to both as you sigh and give in.
âAlright, Kuna. I love you.â
Sukuna stops to face you and you blink at him perplexedly. Time seems to stand still as his chest rises and falls so quickly, heâs sure you can hear his heart beating out of his chest as he fumbles in his pocket for a moment.
You open your mouth to question him but your words die on your tongue when your boyfriend swallows hard before making a quick movement down onto one knee and your eyes go wide, your heart pounding in tandem with his.
Itâs just the two of you in that moment, all sounds drowned out by beating hearts, lights and movement a blur behind you both. Everything is just Sukuna. Just you.
âY/n,â he begins hoarsely. His voice shakes slightly and he curses himself for it but he doesnât dare look away from your gorgeous wide eyes.
Your lips part, a lump forming in your throat. It feels as though it could choke you and you swallow hard but it only seems to encourage the tears you had yet to notice welling in your eyes.
âI had this whole speech planned,â he chuckles breathlessly. âPracticed nâ everything.â
You nod slowly, your hands trembling as you bring one up to your mouth to suppress your shock and awe when he pulls out a small red velvet box.
âBut I donât think that shit's for me. So I decided to keep it simple.â
Nestled delicately within the box is a gorgeous silver ring with a beautiful diamond held delicately in the center. The ring splits into three separate parts just before the gem that all twist with smaller jewels around the metal.
âMarry me?â
Although he very rarely says it, you know Sukuna loves you.
From the way he holds you to the way he listens and kisses you between words. From the way he brings you lunch at work when you forget to the way he drives more carefully when youâre cuddled behind him on his bike.
Sukuna loves you, and he knows that youâre aware of it.
And you love him too.
âYes!â
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