Jiří Menzel In Ferat Vampire (Upír Z Feratu) 1982, Dir. Juraj Herz IMDB

"«Ich habe alles längst bedacht», erwiderte ich, wie im Fieber glühend, «Ich kann nicht sein, nicht leben ohne dich; ich sterbe, wenn du mir die Freiheit gibst, laß mich dein Sklave sein, töte mich, aber stoße mich nicht von dir.»"

Venus im Pelz von Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

Tetris effect from work <<<<<<<

If you've ever felt good when you did something, that's because youre an addict. You are a fucking junkie and you need to stop right now

Is it seasonal depression or is the ever earlier sunset forcing me to reflect on how I haven't experienced anything fun or new or just "summery" this summer and I will only get a next chance in a whole year

I wish I had someone to do this for me

was talking to my gf about my fear of dying young for being trans and my mom putting my deadname on my gravestone, and she said "i hope that never happens, but if it does, i will carve your name into your grave myself if i have to." and i think theres something extremely raw about that sentiment and trans community in general. you can kill only our bodies, but you cant kill transsexuality

I'm only signing myself into the digital school system and I already feel the anarchoprimitivism entering my body

Can I complain about something? The Masoch café in Lviv and it's stupid statue makes me so mad. It is the sensationalization and dehumanization of his person materialised into a physical object. They are so thirsty for tourist money they made a statue of a dead person where you can feel it's genitals. He would have fucking HATED this, why are they so selfish. Imagine if they did this with any other person, I don't think that would be recieved quite well. He is not a person in the eyes of society, just a freak show to gawk at. Before I discovered Masoch there was still this false hope in me that believed in humanity but learning stuff about him was the final nail in the coffin for it. How he was trying to better this world but society who on one hand judged him for his fetish also didn't want to hear about ANYTHING else. How he naively believed that hatred comes from a lack of education, how he supported rural education and worked against antisemitism and all that stuff and nobody gave a f. He probably couldn't even have imagined the atrocities that happened only a few decades after his death. What he could not prevent despite his efforts. Because people are by nature rotten. I witness the future he didn't live to see and think, what unimaginable horrors are in the future from now? Humanity cannot be saved if it doesn't want to save itself. All I feel is disgust and misanthropy.

I'm not really having fun rn

quote from Venus in furs obviously

Same exact problem

so who else gets irrationally afraid and embarrassed about their interests being known to people in real life

hey, tumblypoos! do you like books about bisexuals? do you like books about bisexual polycules? do you like books about bisexual polycules doing crimes? well, in the works of the marquis de sade,