…I Almost Killed Myself

…I almost killed myself

I put on my sunglasses, to hide my swollen eyes, over my tears. I cried all my makeup off. Went inside to have a milkshake. I don’t know why. I wanted something to drink as I figured out what I would do. I got a soda and a milkshake. Medium. The cashier looked at me and with a line around the corner of the counter he rushed away from the counter “Hold on “ he yelled to a coworker.

I filled my soda and went back and saw him looking all over. I go up and he gets close and says “I made it a large”.

That was seriously enough for me not to do it. His kindness. Someone went out of their way and as I went back in my car to cry I realized I could muster through a few other days. A few more weeks. Then I came down from that panicky high of anxiety, depression, and pain. I finished my shake. And it was enough time to let me feel better. I… I’m alive. I’ll make it through.

Try and be nice today. Tomorrow. Something as much as a smile. It helped so much.

Thank you man at McDonalds.

The milkshake saved my life

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JANUARY •flying lessons and other stories by ellen oh | jan 3 | diverse middle grade anthology •the cursed queen (the imposter queen #2) by sarah fine | jan 3 | wlw ya fantasy •wing jones by katherine webber | jan 5 | ya sports contemporary, unknown lgbtqia+ element •history is all you left me by adam silvera | jan 17 | mlm ya contemporary •dreadnought by april daniels | jan 24 | ya superhero ft. trans mc •the you i’ve never known by ellen hopkins | jan 24 | wlw ya contemporary •our own private universe by robin talley | jan 31 | bi mc, ya contemporary •ida by alison evans | jan ? | bi mc+trans and non binary characters, sci fi/fantasy •flowers of luna by jennifer linsky | jan ? | wlw sci fi •warrior: a collection of short stories by antonica jones | jan ? | multiple lgbtqia+ protagonists, sci fi/fantasy ya anthology

FEBRUARY •at the edge of the universe by shaun david hutchinson | feb 7 | mlm ya contemporary •love is love by mette bach | feb 14 | trans love interest, ya contemporary •same love by tony correria | feb 14 | mlm ya contemporary •we are okay by nina lacour | feb 14 | wlw ya contemporary •10 things i can see from here by carrie mac| feb 28 | wlw ya contemporary

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APRIL •ashes to asheville by sarah dooley | apr 4 | wlw parents, ya contemporary •the upside of unrequited by becky albertalli | apr 11 | wlw ya contemporary •meg & linus by hanna nowinski | apr 18 | wlw+mlm ya contemporary romance •the edge of the abyss (the abyss surrounds us #2) by emily skrutskie | apr 18 | wlw ya sci fi/fantasy •lumberjanes vol 6: sink or swim by noelle stevenson | apr 20 | wlw+trans characters, ya fantasy comic •looking for group by rory harrison | apr 25 | mlm+trans character, ya contemporary

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