Always Here For The Polaroid Vibes

I get paid $21 an hour to sit and watch a green pool with no people in it for an 8 hours. I love it

Everyday I’m between blowing my brains out or blowing my brains out

My vibe

It’s 12 am and I am now rethinking every life choice that led me here

I used to be very dedicated to art and every year, during Christmas time, my mom would hang up all my drawings on the walls. Every single wall in the house covered with my artwork. But, I turned 14 and got very embarrassed and uninspired and asked her to throw it all out. I miss it very much. I wish I didn’t used to be an ungrateful teenager.

A picture I took a while ago that rlly tickles my aestheticals

I haven’t written in my diary for months because I’m scared my hand won’t be able to write as fast as my mind is going to process all my thoughts and I’ll just go blurry from tears welling and the pages will be soaked. Know this situation from experience.

I want to be loved so bad. I want to be held in someone's arms as I cry, and vice versa. I want to compliment them, and have them get flustered. I want to get butterflies whenever I hear them speak. I want pure teenage love, but I know I'll never get it.