S1 Of Fleabag Exploring How Sex Isn't Always Beautiful How It Can Be Used To Hurt And Control Others

*main character becomes a villain* oh my GOD… oh MY GOd do that again

The fact that Victor Vale agreed to kill himself without hesitation so he might get superpowers tells you everything you need to know about the state of higher education.

CASTIEL'S LEGACY SHOULD NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

and no I'm not elaborating idc idc

It's funny - the scene with Marisol and Eddie playing happy family over ice cream was less believable to me than Eddie meeting Shannon's twin and sleeping with her. He's just decided that they don't know each other well enough to live together - but he's letting her get close to Christopher? What? But it paralleled the flashback scene where Eddie and Shannon were in bed (sex having always been their escape from reality), romanticizing what putting their family back together was going to be like ("Santa says mommy can come home!" Is the Easter Bunny going to comfort Chris when she leaves again?).

In both cases, Eddie is pulling these women closer in order to pull this picture perfect family back together. And this becomes especially apparent when the flashback to Shannon cuts and Eddie and Marisol are left sitting alone in this small, dark space, the vibe wildly different without Christopher there. They still have nothing to say to each other- this fact of their relationship hasn't changed since 7x05. Marisol is Kim - Eddie is playing out his dead relationship with Shannon with both women and he's going to be in for a rude awakening when reality hits - twice!

Old dreams die hard, specifically dreams that you come up with when you're young and naive and the world is full of possibility, dreams that you carry to war and that keep you going in brutal circumstances. More than Shannon herself, Eddie can't give up on what they were supposed to have.

Which makes it SO painfully ironic that Eddie's dream family is actually RIGHT THERE in front of him if he just reaches for it. The warm family scene in Buck's loft was such a deliberate contrast to both the flashback scene with Shannon and the second scene with Marisol. Shannon is dead and Eddie is just wasting time with his current gf - that's the cold, hard truth he's going to have to face soon. But it's also true that Eddie and Chris know Buck well enough to have pizza on the way when Buck's experimenting in the kitchen. And maybe that's how Eddie's dreams might still come true.

lazerprincess

this is a collection of her photos, drawings and her suicide note, 

this is so even if her mom deletes her blog, everything is saved, 

LGBT+ Fantasy/Fiction Books and TWs

1. Carry On by Rainbow Rowell-

(Fantasy, Witches, Vampires, kind of Harry Potter-y, Romance, TW for mention of suicidal ideation/self-destructiveness, abandonment, foster care, neglect, murder/violence, gun violence and relationship issues in the second book. It has some heavy topics but is written in a pretty light tone.)

2. Red White and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston-

(enemies to lovers, about the son of the President and the Prince of England getting into a fight, they have to fake a friendship to fix their PR situation, TW for being publicly outed and semi-graphic sex scenes, also often politically charged discussions)

3. Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller-

(Ancient Greece, demigods, exile, TW for war/violence and tragedy, homophobia, bad parenting)

4. The Foxhole Court by Nora Sakavic-

(It’s about the mafia/college sports and happens to have a compelling queer storyline in the process. Demisexual main character and other gay characters. (slow burn, it’s a trilogy and the romance doesn’t happen in the first book) TW for a lot of things, it’s about kids from broken homes and the mafia so there is abuse, self harm, murder, police intervention, organized crime, drug use, assault, rehab, all kinds of weapons, manipulation, slurs, etc. The second book has mentions of r*pe (not extremely graphic but it is mentioned a handful of times and there is one semi graphic scene), and torture. It is a great series but it has heavy content and is not light reading if you go in unprepared.)

5. The House on the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune -

(fantasy, heartwarming romance, magical creatures)

6. Heartstopper by Alice Oseman-

(MLM, graphic novel, slow burn, coming out TW for anorexia and homophobia)

7. The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater-

(Fantasy, about a secret private school, slow burn)

8. They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera-

(Bisexual Latino characters, whole story takes place in 24 hours because at about midnight- aka the start of the book- they get a phone call saying they’re gonna die, TW for death, family in hospital, violence, police intervention, and foster care)

9. Six of Crows by Leigh Bardugo-

(queer characters (but no romance in the first book)

10. The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee (Historical Fiction Romance, Travel/Journey, Best Friends to lovers, MLM characters)

11. In Deeper Waters by FT Lukens-

(Royalty, kidnapping, MLM characters not being released until April but it looks great)

12. Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz-

(coming of age story, MLM, TW for violence/injury, surgery, transmisogyny, homophobic violence)

14. We Contain Multitudes by Sarah Henstra-

(coming of age, friendship and romance)

15. Love and Other Curses by Michael Thomas Ford-

(magical realism, a curse about falling in love)

16. More Happy than Not by Adam Silvera-

(MLM main character, YA, “it's about a boy who is considering a memory-alteration procedure to forget he's gay because leading a life as a straight teen would probably be way easier for him. It's about science versus nature, friendship, sexuality, and a quest for happiness.” About the happy ending and how even bad moments lead to good. Hopeful but despairing. TW for medical procedure to erase sexuality, internalized homophobia, homophobia from others, depression)

17. I Wish You All the Best by Mason Deaver-

(Nonbinary main character, nonbinary muslim side character, romance/love and building a family out of people you care about. About finding your voice. TW for coming out and misgendering, family rejection/struggle)

18. We Are Okay by Nina LaCour-

(WLW, moving out and coming of age, self-discovery and childhood romance, TW for loss, depression, loneliness)

19. The Rest of Us Just Live Here by Patrick Ness-

(Contemporary, about the normal people’s lives while living among Chosen Ones. Family/coming of age/acceptance story. TW for monsters, apocalypse, violence/explosions, anorexia, anxiety attacks, unrequited romance)

20. Lizard Radio by Pat Schmatz-

(Dystopian story about a teenager struggling with their gender identity, TW for abandonment, oppressive government, outlawed homosexuality)

21. Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas-

(trans main character, hispanic characters, paranormal YA mystery with MLM characters)

22. Captive Prince by C.S. Pacat-

(Bisexual main character, TW for kidnapping/stockholm syndrome, abuse, sex scenes)

23. Witch Eyes by Scott Tracey-

(fantasy, MLM, supernatural)

24. Simon vs the Homosapiens Agenda by Becki Albertalli-

(romance, MLM, coming of age, TW for a closeted boy being blackmailed)

25. Fun Home by Alison Bechdel-

(WLW, graphic novel, coming of age, TW for csa, pedophilia, teacher/student relationships, none explicit if my memory serves correct)

26. George by Alex Gino-

(Trans girl, slice of life, coming out story, TW for deadnaming, homophobia, transphobia)

27. Afterworlds by Scott Westerfield-

(WLW, supernatural, fantasy)

28. Witchmark by C.L. Polk-

(MLM, Sci-Fi/Fantasy, mystery, Alternate universe post WW1, TW for murder/war, depression/angst)

29. The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling-

(WLW, Sci-Fi Horror, dystopian future, fictional planet, TW for psychological/emotional horror, toxic relationship, death)

30. The Culling by Steven Dos Santos-

(MLM, Dystopian Fantasy under a totalitarian, extremely cruel government. People must undergo ‘the trials’ in order to work for a government task force- if you fail at any of the trials you are forced to participate in the Culling, where the member has to choose a family member of theirs to die. TW for death, extortion, brutal violence, murder, totalitarian government)

31. Deposing Nathan by Zack Smedley-

(MLM, about a court case regarding the main character and his best friend- deals with breaking points in friendships and how people and perception change. TW for biphobia, gay bashing, legal trial, abuse, knives, violence)

32. Ziggy, Stardust, and Me by James Brandon-

(MLM, Gay main character, historical fiction (Vietnam war), about a character dealing with his alcoholic father and family issues who creates a fictional world to cope where he can be out and openly himself. Coming of age. TW for bullying, alcoholism, institutionalized homophobia, familial homophobia, war mentions)

(this list is a WIP and anyone can add to it! If I need to add TWs or further explanations let me know!)

“There are just fewer girls in bands. Even in local scenes there are less girls (…) I want there to be more Lynns, more Jennas, more Tays and more Hayleys out there, because they’re all so cool”  - Chrissy Costanza (Rocksound Issue 217 | September 2016) 

Why do you write?

I was never into writing, I used to only read. Then, a day few years ago I came up with an idea about a story. That was the day I fell in love with it. When I write I am able to create a world of my own, a world that I’d love to live in. I feel like I can send a message through what I write and that it may help people who need it. I like how I can express myself through writing, my ideas, my beliefs. How I can actually get some negative feelings out of my system. I use writing to entertain humans and raise awareness of something important. There can be so much power into one word, one phrase, a sentence. I want to make people see that books aren’t a waste of time. You can actually have fun and learn at the same time. You can feel so many emotions during one scene or even a phrase! I write for all those reasons and way more. I write because that’s who I am, writing is in my blood. I write because I want to inspire people to do the same, to chase their dreams, to do things that they had never thought of doing. I want people to feel as many emotions as they can during this time we have on planet Earth. Why do you write?

“If you remain idle, you will lose that brilliant light. 

That aforementioned darkness is stalking your light.”

important PSA about when your car is smoking

like literally smoking from the engine

white and you smell pancakes? it’s the coolant. panic and pull over, but you’ll live

a slight blue tinge? it’s the oil. panic and pull over, but you’ll live

grey, looks like fire smoke? gasoline; the most combustable and dangerous. pull over and leave the vehicle, pray.

sharing because i didn’t know this when my car started smoking white yesterday and i was so afraid for my life.