my rants to My Lord that i dont have anyone else to talk to about. rhet. comp. and literary studies grad, TA for creative writing and history
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i like working at plant store. sometimes you ring up someone and there's a slug on their plant and so you're like "Oh haha you've got a friend there let me get that for you" and you put the slug on your hand for safekeeping but then its really busy and you dont have time to take the slug outside before the next customer in line so you just have a slug chilling on your hand for 15 minutes. really makes you feel at peace with nature. also it means sometimes i get to say my favorite line which is "would you like this free slug with your purchase"
Hearing other peoples' stories about when they were in school confirms my suspicions that some people only become teachers because there's a limited line of careers where it's socially acceptable for a whole grownup to be personal enemies with a 12-year-old, and they lack the creativity it would take to become a saturday morning cartoon villain.
I hate the sound of babies crying, but I can't hate a baby. They've been here for like five minutes and approach this situation with an unhesitant attitude of "my needs are unmet and I am going to make it everybody's problem", and I respect that.
this is perhaps evil but I can boost my mood in almost any situation by playing a game called "what was my mom doing at this age?" like rn for instance I'm sleepy because I had a 12 hour work day + stayed up late, and my stomach hurts a little from the enormous chimichanga I smashed for dinner, and my head hurts a little bit from the fat margaritas I had with the chimichanga. and it's like hmm, okay, not optimal, but when my mom was this age she had a 2.5 year old to deal with. can you fucking imagine. can't stay in bed decadently bemoaning your overindulgences because there's a goblin in the next room that's utterly dependent on you for food and hygiene and social needs and if you drop the ball you've fucked up a perfectly good person. and I'm pretty normal so shout out to her for keeping it together but god that couldn't be me, I like fucking around way too much.
Once I'm old and retired from everything, I think I'd like to settle into some specific pub and become known as the guy who'll offer unlisenced relationship advice/therapy/philosophical discussion in exchange for a pint, a coffee, or one of those shitty pub sandwiches or whatever they have. Whatever's in your price range. If I'm awake and done with my daily tasks at home, I'm keeping office hours at the regular. Ideally at one specific table that's never been officially reserved for me but where people expect to find me, and notice if I'm not there.
If you find yourself at a loss of what to do, not knowing what path to take, seek the council of the pub wizard. He doesn't have the formal training or qualifications for anything, and isn't legally responsible if it turns out that his advice was shit and got you in trouble, but the man is literally working for peanuts.
the thing about being nonbinary is that you really do start to forget that other people have such strict walls around what is and isn’t allowed for genders. i thought we all agreed that we made that up. could you climb out of the cave real quick and feel the sunshine for a minute.
We never really talked about it but The Ugly Ducking that grew up to be a beautiful swan was still probably pretty fugly from a duck’s perspective
straight people are so fascinating even when they aren't actively trying to be homophobic. I had a class a few years ago where one assignment was to summarize some eighth century arabic poetry about going out for drinks with the lads before indulging in some gay sex and like half the class came in and said "I'm sorry idk what was happening in this one, they mention having sex with a servant but they also say the servant's a man? where'd the woman come from? I'm so confused." and a few days ago in a shakespeare class I made a comment about how cleopatra and octavius caesar are kind of parallel characters in possessively bartering for mark antony's attention and one of my classmates responded as though I'd been talking about octavia and not caesar, despite the fact that I said "caesar" and "him" multiple times while describing the actions he specifically took. fully incapable of comprehending of anything that's even a little bit gay.
please donate to sami’s family if you can. the cruelty of israel allowing palestinians to have false hope with the “ceasefire” only to tear the rug out from under them can’t be understated—and that’s in addition to the murder, rape, torture, and more committed by israel day in and day out. sami’s family has already been through far too much. consider using “little treat” money on a suffering family.
At their core, these people are bullies. The cruelty is the point.
Today I am writing on behalf of Mohammad Ayesh's ( @gazanphoenix ) friend, Hania. Hania suffers from diabetes and is struggling to access the necessary treatments. I am going to share with you what Hania herself writes on her gofundme campaign to give you a better picture of the urgency of her situation.
Hello, my name is Hania, and I am from Gaza. I suffer from diabetes, but unfortunately, I have not been able to get the necessary medications due to the difficult conditions in Gaza. Since the beginning of the war, I have worked hard to help others, especially families living in tents and facing severe cold, where I have provided food and drinks for them. Despite this, I could not ignore my own health condition, as diabetes has been threatening my life day after day. Over time, the lack of proper treatment has worsened my health, and I developed acidosis due to being unable to obtain the necessary treatment during crises, which sometimes leads to diabetic coma. This significantly increases the danger of my condition. All I want is to receive the medications I need to stay alive, but the conditions here make it impossible to obtain them. I urgently need treatment, and my only hope now is to leave Gaza to receive life saving medical care. I appeal to you to stand by me in this hardship and help me raise the funds needed to travel and get treatment.
Please help Hania raise the necessary amount that will help her travel and seek the necessary treatment. Her end goal as of now is just $2.4k USD
As mentioned above, Hania is vetted by association via Mohammad Ayesh. This is her Instagram account, should you want to have a look at the relief projects, Hania is associated with.
Internet vernacular has completely altered what some words and expressions mean to me. Forevermore, I will hear the words "hear me out" will only and exclusively as "before you cast your judgements prematurely, please pause and allow me to explain how and why I should be allowed to fuck this thing".
The best compliments and insults are both just describing the person. Just describe whatever you can clearly observe about them. The distinction of whether that's an insult or a compliment is whether you're saying it with a pleasant tone, or if you're saying that like it's a bad thing.
Children, who make their observations in an utterly deadpan voice as neutral remarks, are capable of obliviously roasting people because they haven't noticed this.
yoou guys wont be laughing when i suddenly collapse unconscious and have to be taken to the hospital. then youll all see <- normal thought process to have while doing anything i dont want to
getting really into journaling is so fucked because you will fr end up with pages like "dear diary, it's fucken wimdy today!!!!! also I might be a talentless hack with no real creative drive or discipline to speak of. xoxo ✨"
Anas is seriously ill. He is vomiting blog and unable to walk.
Despite Anas being vetted here by gaza-evacuation-funds and constantly documenting his struggle in Gaza through photographs and videos in multiple languages, including his interview with AJ+, he has messaged me telling me that tumblr has restricted activity on his previous blog @anas-kamal and he has been forced to create a new one at @dr-anas96.
This is already heinous under any circumstance but especially now with his condition. His campaign is severely stagnating and he is depending on it now more than ever.
Anas has been a ray of light for the children of Gaza, coming up with games and activities for them, but now he is unable to move around due to his illness. The doctors are trying to figure out why he is vomiting blood but as you well know, resources are very limited.
This is a video of Anas's parents baking bread with the scarce amount of flour they are able to obtain.
Anas is unable to focus on sharing his campaign as his internet connection is fleeting and he doesn't currently have the energy. I'm begging you to join me in spreading his campaign on his behalf.
Switching between these every day
"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there
So based on what I've read so far for primers on chaos magic, I recommend starting with Condensed Chaos: An Introduction To Chaos Magic by Phil Hine, THEN getting the updated and revised and expanded editions of Liber Null and Psychonaut and also Liber Kaos by Peter J Carroll.
Caveats for Condensed Chaos:
misuse of "shaman" and similar terms (none of what is brought up relates to Tungusic peoples)
written by a neurotypical white English bisexual cisgender man, and boy howdy is the neurotypical part obvious in several areas
inconsistent capitalization for concepts, and also inconsistent comma usage
definitely a product of its time and not decolonized, which is a larger problem in chaos magic as a whole
Recommended Audience for Condensed Chaos:
pop culture mages/pagans
those interested in servitors, sigils, or chaos magic more broadly
technology mages
those who want to explore Jungian psychology in magic
As for Peter J Carroll's works... Basically the same as the above, yet also way more difficult to read if you're not used to old grimoire-esque language and writing styles.
I'd still genuinely recommend all three of these, just with the reminder to raise an eyebrow at some of the claims made.
The books I still have to read on chaos magic that I currently own are Hands-On Chaos Magic: Reality Manipulation Through The Ovayki Current by Andrieh Vitimus; Creating Magickal Entities: A Complete Guide to Entity Creation by David Michael Cunningham, Taylor Ellwood, and T Amanda R Wagener; and Magickal Servitors: Create Your Own Spirits To Attract Pleasure, Power and Prosperity by Damon Brand.
Plenty of reading left for me to do on this subject.
can i talk about something as a kiribaku shipper without bkdk shippers saying unhinged shit ab it bc like
im not hating on any bkdk shippers that aren't delusional acting like its canon when its not, and im not saying every bkdk supporter is like this BUT
u gotta understand first i dont even watch anime like that. im brazilian-rromani and japanese, it was a cultural thing for me not in the way you think tho. early 2000s was the time people were still throwing out the "beautiful, exotic, Oriental" 'compliments' while kind of transitioning into confused acceptance of the concept of minorities in general, so hearing that shit starting at five plus seeing how women and girls were portrayed in anime a majority of the time was too much for me, it felt disrespectful to the women in my family who didnt need unproportionately sized body parts that were unnerving almost in an Uncanny Valley manner to achieve incredible things, i didn't want anyone associating ME with that image. it felt like being reduced to this one little box and i didnt want anything to do with it
now im older, im dipping my toesies into this side of the internet, i finally find ONE anime i genuinely like, with a WHOLE cast of characters that have real plotpoints and character arcs and AMAZING fan media, all the good shit-
and listen ive been in a lot of fandoms and yea some are toxic some arent but i don't know that i've ever seen the same competition between ships that i do in mha/bnha. i cant go one krbk media without there being ONE comment talm ab "gross i dont like krbk" "this wouldve been better if it were bkdk sorry :/" "bakugou would never do that he only cares ab izuku >:(" LIKE
PLEASE let me enjoy this. its hard enough to find krbk art and media as it is, seeing that bkdk is the predominant ship. u already have soooooooo much shit to comment on, you dont NEED to leave comments on krbk or wtvr other ships deku is involved in that arent with bakugou. we fucking GET IT already.
and just as someone who goes to school to manically psychoanalyze people characters & plots and write way too much about them, i dont fucking like bkdk. THERE I SAID IT FLAY ME ALIVE YOU VULTURES.
deku's morals, values, beliefs? yes spectacular ur doing amazing sweetie
the love for his friends and family and for the whole goddamned world that ends up being the driving force to save said goddamned world? WONDERFUL FABULOUS GIVE ME MORE
his inherent codependency and survival skills centered around that one kid from his childhood who had a really cool quirk who subsequently told him to kill himself?
i get it, they were kids, they moved past it, he apologized, there was character development for both of them, it was a beautiful moment. to me, no matter what it screams stockholm syndrome for both of them bc realistically and psychologically speaking, trauma bonds are never how you want to start a relationship bc its almost never going to end well.
there are exceptions sure. is there chemistry between them? absolutely u'd have to be blind not to see how well they work together when they pull their heads out of their asses. IS THE SHIP VALID? YES. but people saw "childhood connection", took it for "soulmate pipeline" and said it was law as if there's absolutely no possibility of another kind of relationship between them. they fight like brothers, they compete like best friends, they find each other like soulmates - love comes in SO many different forms and you all have the most media showing the romantic type so can you PLEASE leave me and my ethereal stupid little krbk art alone thank you and goodbye
are some people's middle fingers just generally shorter than their other fingers? not bc of like brachydactyly or anything but like how eye colors work yk
Okay so.. here I am again after like a month (??) I don't know, not that anyone cares lol but still, I needed some time off.
Here's Hermes as an apology.
