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78 Followers! SEVENTY-EIGHT!! (° A °)/ Wow, I never thought I'd really get to that number..! x//DD (let's see if we can make that 87? xDD) No, really, you and your notes and nice little notices/tags are what keeps me drawing! Thank you so much, all of you! <3

That's the place where I live. Looks cute from up there, doesn't it? When I look out of my room's window, I can see up to the exact place I stood when I was taking this photo.

It's nice to see things from a different angle from time to time.

"If I had a heart, this would be where I'd die of laughter." 19 Days left.

Because this is one of my favourite cutscenes. It features: - Naminé. - Naminé blurring. - Saix. - Riku. - Riku's theme. - Saix' superawesome dodging backflip. - Saix being pinned to a wall. - Saix grinning. - Kairi defying Saix basically the same way she defyed Axel and I like every parallel between those two. - Kairi being actually cool. - the image of Saix rolling over the floor laughing his ass off. It's just so wrong.

"This would be the last night we ever spent beneath the same stars." 20 Days left.

I decided to do my personal countdown for the european release of KH 2.5 Remix! (because we have to wait three days longer than North America.)

It will be the 20 things I am looking forward the most, in no specific order. At first I had no idea what I should do for twenty days, but when I was staring to write a list about my favourite moments, i got to 50. x'DDSome days I will probably just write about it, but when I've got the time I will try to draw something. :)

Today's motif is actually pretty easy to explain: I'm really looking forward to BBS. It's the only one of my favourite games that will be playable in the Remixes. (the other two are DDD and Re:coded) BBS was what actually got me into the series. I did play and I did like KH before, but it was nothing really special to me – until BBS happened. I mean, a game that starts with such a quote is predestined to become one of my favourites, haha. Also, I was looking for a way to play it with my siblings, well, this one is perfect!

quick baby akusai kisses before bed for herzblutrose 

“Seems like you’re suddenly part of this, Blue Prince.”

Because the name "Blue Prince" made me laugh too hard. (And because "a long day" sounds very exhausting.)

To you, keybladess It's your fault after all. xDD

AU where Lea and Isa live together and adopt Roxas, Xion and Naminé. They both love all three of them of course, but somehow Naminé turns out to be Isa's little darling.

(About the drums in the background, I vote they belong to Xion. It would be just too badass.)

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 24: Snapshot

... forever ...

Friendly reminder to the weather maker: It's still October and it would have been nice to have a bit more of ... you know, autumn.

(it was fun though to run and dance and skid on the snowy slippery road when I was coming home – sometimes I just forget that I am actually supposed to be an adult)

If you were wondering what I was doing this last week: I sold my soul to Satan once again in order to get those two cosplays done. And on the weekend I went to a con with my (twelve year old. Yes, TWELVE. Look at her, she's HUGE.) sister :D (the second youngest ... I've got four younger siblings @A@)

One day, I will finally manage to start earlier ... >___< (I mean ... my Astrid Cos was done in two days ... well, maybe three if I'd be very strict.) Then I wouldn't be stressed for days. Then I would have time for breaks and a healthy portion of sleep, and I wouldn't forget half of the costume at home <_<"

This was actually a gift for my sister. The cosplays and visiting the con, I mean. She had to win a "bet" first, namely: She had to do without sweets or sweet drinks or very fat food for the whole summer vacation (that lasts for two months here.) And well, she won. :) I don't care for any "beauty standards", but she was really getting into a weight-, and therefore a healthproblem and she definitely needed a push into a different direction. Wheter it helped or not ... well, we'll see.

Either way I am really proud of her, because she proved a whole lot of willpower in those two months, and that is definitely important just as well :)

This was this late summer's/early autumn's "I've got nothing to do for at least five minutes D:" picture. Yeah, I always have my drawing stuff with me for cases like that. xD

I actually made an interesting experience with this picture:

When I was drawing at a convention, a few guys who thought they were oh so funny watched me draw and one of them asked if they were kissing. (I just answered absolutely matter of fact, that if they were kissing their lips would actually touch. Of course that was not what he meant, but he didn't dare to open his mouth again after that, so yeah. xD)

On another occasion an elderly lady saw me draw and she was seemingly disturbed by the motif. I overheard her retelling what she saw to her husband and she on the other hand discribed it as "two men fighting".

At first I dismissed the "kissing" as well as the "fighting" understanding as wrong (compared to my own of course), because neither of those were what I wanted to show. After a while though I realised that this wasn't quite true. Those interpretations are still not "right", but they are not completely wrong as well. They are just ... incomplete. Seen together though they can actually get pretty close to my own understanding. Each of those people saw one of the tensions I had planned, but failed to see the other.

And in my opinion that's extremely interesting! I just love to hear other people's interpretations on my pictures! Especially on those that are actually not supposed to show a specific scene but more ... a state of mind or a certain mood or the nature of ... whatever. On pictures that are symbolic. Like this one here.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 23: Flower

Radiant Garden. Our lives. Our past. Our dreams.

Everything is gone.

Anyone who thinks I'm exaggerating – think again.

The irony that it took two life ruiners in order to get my life straight again.

(or: when crying over a fictional friendship helps you to somehow save an almost lost real friendship.)

I just can't believe what an idiot I was.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 22: Hair 2/2

Don't worry. I'll be there.

Hair. Hair. Hair, I ALWAYS loved drawing hair *3* Especially if it's flowing and silky and awwwwwww. (I can spend hours and hours on colouring hair ... and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours and hours) A KaKAO card again. :) Done with coloured pencils.

I was told that those cards seem bigger on screen then they are, so the second picture is meant as a scale. Note that this is already a maxi card, which means two cards in one. An actual KaKAO card is half the size. I plan maxi cards always in a way that they could be separated, but I seriously don't want to cut those two apart. Ever. =_="

I drew that while I was waiting for the admission test for university to start. It's on the back of a bus ticket, I didn't have anything else with me at the moment. (because ... you're not allowed to have anything with you, except food, something to drink, pens in black and blue and your wallet. Oh and single tissues of course. Very important.) I wanted to draw Saïx with a ponytail for quiet some time and that was somehow the perfect opportunity x'DD (it somehow felt right? xDD)

Well, the reason why I am uploading that now is ... I GOT A PLACE AT UNIVERSITY! Which means, once I inscribed on Monday, I will officially be a student of psychology! Yay! :DDD (I actually wanted to do that ever since I was ... twelve? thirteen? fourteen? x'DDD)

I will actually go to university ... haha, I am really happy :'D

"Come on, Isa, don't make a face like that. ... We're going to be alright, I promise."

Small thank you picture for all of you wonderful people who liked my last post @//u//@ I really didn't expect to get notes on that one. Don't know, somehow every single one of them feels like "Hey, it's good to have you back!" and no matter if that's what you meant or not, it still feels great and I love you all for that feeling x'D

Seriously, THANK YOU.

I'm not dead

And to proof that I have a WIP of my actual AkuSaiMonth (that is long gone, but who cares? xDD) day 22 fill for you!

(it's actually almost done, just needs a bit more ... finetuning. I love coloring with crayons (or colored pencils? I'm still not sure how to call them ö_ö), but it always takes me quiet some time.)

Nah, seriously, sorry for being so inactive, I'm quiet surprised that I still have that many followers (even more that I had before actually x'D)

I'm a bit busy lately, summer's over so now I've got time for conventions, which means, I've got to finish my cosplays x'D (I still need to do the Deadly Nadder costume I promised to my sister and the fitting Astrid Hofferson for me until mid october @_@")

My main problem though is that my Photoshop broke down. I got a bluescreen and now it's acting like I never activated it in the first place and when I'm trying to open it, it's just telling me that it's going to install the test version, Yeah great, thank you. (I am now officially desperate enough to use PS Elements on the PC in the hotel I'm working to edit my pictures; i just can't upload any unedited pictures =_=" My pride won't allow it)

Once I solved that problem there will be more pictures again, promise.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 22: Hair 1/2

(No, you're looking adorable.)

This is a pretty old picture (must be 2012). I actually wanted to redraw this for this prompt, but someone else already did something very similar, so I decided to do something else. Still I do like this pic, so I thought I'd upload it anyway. :D The second fill for this day will probably take a while anyway.

This was actually a scene I really wished for in an Organization 13 RP I had with friends a (long) while ago. I just wanted Axel and Saix to take a shower together OR ACTUALLY SOMETHING, but nothing like that ever happend. xDD Our Axel was waaaay to indecisive for it. I mean, when we stopped this RP it had over 76 000 posts – and Axel and Saix were no pairing yet. xDD And they were the reason we (or at least I) started this thing in the first place. Seriously, whatever. xDD

Art source

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 21: Music & Lyrics

Die Welt steht still // The world stands still zwischen uns // between us Mach die Augen wieder auf // Open the eyes again Atme langsam wieder aus // Breath out again Die Welt steht still // The world stands still

[Die Welt steht still - Revolverheld]

"Die Welt steht still" is about two people who slowly drifted away from each other. They have changed over time and each of them has made a lot of mistakes which are now mounting up in between them and creating some sort of an invisible wall. He sings that he doesn't know whether it's too late to forgive all of that, to see each other anew, but he is willing to try it. It's all up to the other.

What really impressed my about this song is the video. It adds a complete new layer of meaning to it. You can see a woman who is pulled out of a river and people running her way trying to save / reanimate her. It was actually this life saving aspect that really caught my attention.

With the woman coming back around during the end of the video it is very clear how the story in the song is supposed to end, I rather wanted to show the uncertain state before the decision instead. I'm not sure myself though, whether this will be a "life saving" or a "going down together" story or something else completely.

Guess who was at gamescom '14

and played Kingdom Hearts 2.5? :D

(under the cut, because this will be a long post with pictures)

Yep, I went there. Only on thursday though, I had to work on friday evening. So basically kittendough and I drove 6 hours to Köln (starting at thursday, 4 am), went to gamescom and drove 6 hours back home (with a break overnight; we slept in the car, it was like a roadtrip or something, really cool x'D).

If you ever wondered what sort of a person I am, I am the one who thinks 'Ah, I can't go there, it doesn't pay off for one day', then realizes two weeks before the event, when all the tickets are already sold out, that their favourite game will be featured there, who then gets tickets out of nowhere and goes anyway. If I want something bad enough, I won't stop before I found a way to do it. And I usually find one. xD

So well, kittendough and me somehow arrived at gamescom (as Isa and Isabelle (lol), already in our costumes)

And I was a really happy bunny when I found the Square Enix Shop

And even more so when I finally, FINALLY realized that we just have never been to one hall (everything was just so big, I've never been to any event of that size, so well, shit happens?) and that I didn't misunderstand KH13.com and that there really was KH 2.5 set out to play and ... uhm, i think I spent hours there, without realizing it. x'D

(sorry you random people on my photos)

and OMG it was just sooo cool *A* BBS is just really really great, and it was so cool to play it with a real controller and on a bigger screen and omg omg. I'm soooo looking forward to this game being released!! (still, I have no idea why they colored all the unversed new?) I realised once again though that I really don't like KH2 (and KH1) as much as the other KH games ö_ö The controls are just really annoying. But whatever :D There's a lot of Axel and Saix in this game so I'm looking forward to it anyway.

AND I met those really cool Axel and Roxas cosplayers there!!

The wig of the Axel was just so incredibly cool!!! (even more from the side than from the front) Well, as always when I meet good cosplayer of my favourite characters I was completely awkward and shy xDD That's really annyoing. >.<" Dammit. I completely forgot to compliment the Roxas for the wigs, because she styled both of them. Hopefully the Axel told her… :<

Of course I asked Axel to take a photo together with me, I was waaaay to shy though to ask for a hug or something like that, which would have been totally cool because AKUSAI!!!11!1! but whatever. xD I'm happy with this one as well.

haha, I'm small x'D Well, okay, I'm probably not thaaaat small compared to her, but her wig (and my way of awkwardly standing around) really makes it look like that. xDD

Oh, and look at what I bought! <3

An overexpensive phone strap of wonda-nyan (it was really expensive, but seeing this little dreameater always just makes me happy, so well, now I am always happy when I look at my phone x'D It was really worth it.) and the KH Piano Collection Field & Battle CD <3 You should hear the Lazy Afternoon OST, this version of it is really great!!

So, yeah, it was a really really great day, I'm so glad I did that :) Hopefully I have more time next year (or at least the year when KH3 will be shown there :DD), I'm looking forward to go to gamescom again.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 20: Teamwork

[Wir sind unzertrennlich // We are inseparable wir sind unvergänglich // we are everlasting Wir sind unzertrennlich // we are inseparably in unserer Welt verloren // lost in our world] [Unzertrennlich – Revolverheld] "Lea, are you even listening?“ "Uhm – sometimes?“ Actually I was just lost in my thoughts somehow. Happens from time to time. "Sometimes? You are aware that school starts in three days?“ "Yeah, I know, I was just thinking …“ "Thinking.“ You sounded as though you doubted I could do that even if I tried. "I thought 'I hope we can always be together like that'“, I said straight enough. And of course you’re caught of guard. And of course I can see your face brighten up, almost shine for one moment, before you turn back to your usual sarcastic pokerface. "Stuck up in homework? No, thank you.“ Still, I can see the little smile you can’t hold back and I know that you are wishing for it just as much as I do. Then again, I already knew that before, didn’t I?

I love it when Axel explains summer vacations in 358/2 Days. I can't help but imagine him and Isa doing exactly that, postponing homework to the very last moment and just somehow managing to get it done in time together. I don't know, this thought makes me just so happy xD

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 19: Quotes

I'll always be there to bring my friends back.

(I can’t escape from a dark reality that has built up to this point. The walls are closing in, and I’m stuck inside.

Hold on. I’m coming for you, no matter what it takes.)

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 18: Misunderstanding

Keep your mouth shut.

I don't think there are misunderstandings in between those two. They are both hearing as well as understanding what the other one says. In my opinion, the biggest misunderstanding is within Saix, because he very apparently is not aware of what he's really doing. Or what harm he causes by doing it. All Axel does is defying to hear what Saix doesn't say.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 31: Free Day

»You know, Isa. I think I really love you. Like really really.« »You're an idiot.« »Haha. No really, I mean it. I love you, Isa.« »I love you too, Lea. … really really.«

I wanted to upload this for AkuSaiDay, but the odds where against me. It seems it just shouldn't be. xD

No really. *sigh*

I was thinking a lot about what I would do for that day. You know yesterday/today is a special day for me as well, because it's my third anniversary as a fan of AkuSai :) (it was the night from the 7th to the 8th of August, yep I remember it exactly. And yes, the date is a coincidence. xD) I was thinking of making a special for that day, showing you my embarrassing first sketches and a few other drawings and while I was searching my old drawings I stumbled across a sketch that showed them both lying in bed somehow like that. I found it nice and well, that's the story how I came to this motif.

I hope you all had a great AkuSaiDay! :)

Lea & Isa

When I was playing 358/2 Days for the first time a few years ago I suddenly wondered what Axel's real name would be, so I started turning around the letters of his name. I got to the conclusion, that it's probably Lea very quickly - simply and plainly because Lea is a girl's name. I was laughing my ass off, when I realized that I was right. When I started to get an interest in Saix I did the same thing for his name. I thought matching to Lea he should have a girl's name too, so I decided for Isa as my guess. The joke wasn't nearly as funny the second time.

Really, who gave them those names? And was he aware that they are girl's names? ö _ ö" (even though they are pronounced in a different way) Well I knew a Lea once, I knew a Isa once, so ever since BBS I wanted to draw a genderbend version of Lea and Isa influenced with features of the Lea and Isa I knew. Yup, here they are :D

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 17: Prison

Strange, I just felt like - Nah, probably just my imagination.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 16: Jealousy

I don't even have the time to waste it like that. So go on playing with your little puppies if you so wish.

No new Akusaimonth fill, no. Instead something else that kept bothering me for days. Philipp Brammer, the german voice actor of Axel has died a few days ago. And you know, I didn’t know him, I didn’t know anything about him except for his voice, but still it makes me sad every time I think about it. It’s probably weird, but I can’t change it. I don’t even like the german dubbed versions of Kingdom Hearts (I was actually preparing a few posts about it before hearing that news), but Axel’s voice was among those few that I liked. Very much so as well. I mean I kept quoting „Kannst du dir das merken?“ at every fitting and unfitting occasion for years. Sometimes I do still do that today. And to know that this voice is just gone … really makes me sad. Thank you, Philipp, you did a great job. I know that I’ve got it memorized.