I Would Really Like To Know What Exactly Is Wrong With Me, That Makes Me So Unlovable?

I am creating. I am pouring my soul into this collection. It’s driving me crazy. The stars say I need more time to feel the right words. So I’ve decided that I will release this collection on June 30, 2018. (For those viewing this post on my blog click the images to see the full pictures) Support me with this okay? I wish you all hope, love, and healing. ✿ 

Why is it so easy for literally everyone I know to ignore me? Why do I mean so little to everyone, that they don’t want to respond to me, they don’t want to talk to me? All I want is one friend, who wants to talk to me, who wants to spend time with me. One friend who cares about me

“i feel empty drained for any real emotion having this hopelessness inside that’s controlling my life and tears running wild happiness is like a dream waking up to see it’s never real”

— t.m.

one day I will meet a person who won’t find my mind a little too heavy. who won’t tell me to stop thinking and overthinking. someone who understands that loving people so much is who I am. someone that won’t call me a handful. someone who is ready to love with all they have too. someone who wants to take on this world with me by their side. that will be a happy day.

I can’t deal with my family anymore, they complain that I sit in my room and not talk to them enough and when I do, every single time without fail it ends in a argument leaving me feeling even more drained and done. Then they still wonder why I’m like this. 

Seriously. I‘m just sick of all those lies. Am I really that unimportant that I don’t even deserve the truth??

Not gonna post or answer anything for the next days, weeks, probably months, idk.

I’m sorry.

I hate how addicted I get to anything that makes me feel anything

Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you’re having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why .

Every 40 seconds someone commits suicide.

If you feel like you’re the next person, watch the clock until the end and remind yourself you’ll be okay in another 40 seconds.