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From wan 59

Fukuzawa is one of the few privileged people to get candy from Ranpo (mostly because he bought it)

hello.

I have been in the bsd fandom since last year. The first few months of being here were really fun I can say. However, lately, I've been seeing extremely toxic people who comes at content creators in the fandom and attacking them just for simply shipping skk. I've been following a lot of bsd au writers and these days, their ccs are composed of messages saying they are reducing this character to something, which the writers never said or claimed. There's also another issue regarding some people who were attacking asagiri-sensei just because of his socks. Then another reason for attacking him is because of skk. This is outright disrespectful to the author. Everything that's happening in this fandom is very disturbing honestly. If I remember it clearly, one of my fave au writers here left the fandom after being harassed by fans who were unhappy of the fic they wrote. And the remaining writers here might also leave once they're tired of this shithole including asagiri-sensei.

You know, I don't understand how people not know how to keep themselves away from contents they don't like and not attack persons just for having different views or simple headcanons. If you don't agree with what they say, you can simply block them, no need to harass people. We're talking about BSD. A fiction. An anime. A light novel. A manga. It's composed of morally grey characters and it's peak FICTION. You can ship whoever you want. You can make your own headcanons. You can make fanarts of characters you like. You can write fics of them with whatever plot you have in your drafts. It shouldn't be an issue at this point. And to others who feel uncomfortable of their contents, just block them. Easy. Do not go harassing them just because it doesn't fit your own narrative. It's not like what everything they make reflects their views in the real world come on.

I don't want to make this a long message so i hope that if you're reading this you get my point.

I hate seeing unhealthy disagreements about bsd and its fans. It's unappealing and really just plain annoying.

We're all here to have our share of fun so let others have theirs.

That's all. Please have some respect.

Thoughts about tsats, trauma, and the cocoa puffs

Nico’s personality in tsats feels most reminiscent of what he was like in The Titans Curse which (imo) is a sign that he is slowly healing and living with his trauma.

The Sun and the Star emphasizes that trauma and PTSD can make it feel like one’s past life events happened to a completely different person, and it mentions that Nico relates to this feeling. This distancing of oneself from past memories, experiences, and personality can result in feeling disconnected for a while, taking on new personality traits, feeling like a chameleon mimicking others, or just feeling empty.

For some people (maybe, depending on when trauma occurs), healing can be about reconnecting with our childhood selves. Depending on what someone was like before trauma, like maybe Nico for example, that can mean becoming more emotional, being more playful, indulging in your childhood interests (eg. mythomagic cards). And Nico’s progression practically mirrored mine exactly through the years, and the ways I changed in ED treatment.

It’s hard to let go of a disorder when in some cases it feels like the only thing that’s stayed stable in our lives. Suffering is touted as the pinnacle of art– we see its romanticization everywhere. It sounds weird to say that I miss being sick, or I miss my suffering, when I’m actively trying to make my life better, but those thoughts do come up. And when it comes to characters I project that misery on to? Well, if I’m suffering, then they have to suffer with me! (After all, they’re just characters, it’s not that deep, right?) Except I found that the more I made my characters suffer, and focused on the ‘beauty’ of suffering, the harder it was for me to heal from my own. Whenever my health was in decline, I characterized my favorite characters the same way. It was just as hard to allow those characters to heal as it was to allow myself to heal. (Other people might not feel the same, though.)

I think Nico choosing to accept the physical manifestations of his demons (while also setting them free, and allowing them to exist as they please) mirrors the suggestion I was given in treatment when I struggled with the idea of ‘giving up’ my eating disorder– because to me, it was always either defeat the disorder or be consumed by it, and defeating it sounded like killing a part of me or erasing a part of my past or my home. Approaching treatment from the standpoint of killing my eating disorder scared me too much. I knew my disorder had caused problems for me, but many of the habits and behaviors I’d developed had served as my coping mechanism and they helped me survive. 

So, my therapist told me: “You don’t have to shun your disorder, kill it, or say goodbye. Instead, you can acknowledge that it served a purpose during a point in your life in which you used it to survive, but you no longer need to hold on to it and that’s okay — you’re setting it free. Maybe even instead of saying goodbye, you can say ‘thank you, I’m alright now.’”

And that’s pretty much… exactly what Nico did with the demons. Bob, too, acknowledged that he was a titan, and that was part of his past, and that’s okay — but he’s allowed to change. And Nico is too.

I just found that really really wonderful because I related to it so heavily. He didn’t want to conquer his trauma in battle. He wanted it to just… be acknowledged, and set free. And it followed him, but he can have a better relationship with his past now. He’s not consumed by it. It’s just there, it’s a part of him, and he can continue to live his life. And I think reading this book (while trying to maintain and navigate post-treatment life) was exactly what I needed to remind myself why I’m doing this.

Here's my second entry for the erasermic bang, this time with the cute AU from Levi and Lizzie

Aizawa would be the funniest man ever if he gathered the class 1a kids post-world saving battle and went “You guys know you still have to take finals right?”

Manga Vol 22 Omake

I translated this one because Atsushi is a cutie pie :3

PLEASE DO NOT REPOST/REUPLOAD IT OUT OF TUMBLR.

Winning Hand Rating: Explicit Fandom: My Hero Academia Pairing: Eraserhead/Present Mic

Yamada Hizashi is the owner and DJ of his own nightclub... paid for with the money he's earned working for his adoptive father, All For One. It's his own private little kingdom to do with exactly as he wishes. What he wishes is for his favorite stripper to dance for him. He also wants to show off. Hizashi is the only one that gets to touch Aizawa, everyone else can only look. Aizawa Shouta is a dancer at Hizashi's club. He feels pretty confident calling Hizashi by his first name considering he's had the man's dick in his mouth, and other places, several times since being hired. The pair have settled into what could be called a romance. Everything is going great. After hours they have the private rooms all to themselves. They can slip away to a love hotel any time. Until the night All For One decides to visit Hizashi's club and remind him who really owns everything.

This fic is for the Sights and Sounds EraserMic Bang, written for @iami12's awesome art. Be sure to check it out, the details are amazing <3