Ignaciovanburen - Gay And Chilean

I have to get skinny because there's nothing I can do about the fact that:

I don't have a beautiful face

I'm not exceptionally talented at anything

I grew up poor and don't have cool vacations or life experiences to make me interesting

Trauma has made me a really boring person who's been stuck in survival mode their whole life and therefore doesn't have a cool personality

But if I was skinny. If I was skinny there would be at least ONE cool thing about me. At least one thing for people to wish they were me over. At least one thing for people to feel envious of me for. At least one thing about me that would be loveable.

went for a walk and this is where my phone died and i had to walk 40 minutes back home without being able to take pictures

Chantal Akerman by Micheline Pelletier, 1979

Doppelgängers in films/tv Possession (1981) Evil Dead II (1987) Twin Peaks (1990–1991) The Double Life of Véronique (1991) Perfect Blue (1997) The Haunting of Hill House (2018) Us (2019)

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today i must be a recovering passive-aggressive personality. how can people sit on a train and not notice each other? how can people resist the urge to connect somehow? not compulsively, totally without tact or genility but sometimes strangers do recognize each other. of course, i'm talking about young females. not to fuck or to fuck with but maybe just to satisfy curiosity ... or maybe my hormones are still working overtime, just like my beautiful filthy mind, and i seek some very light entertainment. can people feel my eyes on them as i do theirs on me? do we all know that we're here in this social prison system? why aren't we prepared to have more fun being human beings? will women ever outgrow the scars inflicted upon them by a world ruled by men? must my fantasies be stuck working overtime? living in the abstract is a cancer and a hell, my love, and the leveling of a heated daydream to the edicts of blessed reality is a sad and necessary execution to witness ... the beheading of a tortured blond haired boy-child. and all of the garbage that was stuffed in his skull is now carried to the pyre to burn and add to the stench of all the other little deaths caused by the impotence of his judgement throughout his life. his overgrown life raised by a spank-wielding kissing machine. my hair looks like shit and I'm feeling embarrassed and ugly all around.

reminder: romanticizing your mental illness doesn’t make it any less of an illness. there’s nothing cute about suffering. there’s nothing cute about rotting. there’s nothing cute about starving yourself. there’s nothing cute about self destruction. there’s nothing cute about self isolation. it’s not cute. it’s not pretty. it’s not your “girl interrupted” fantasy. voicing your own mental health struggles is a lot different from some of the encouragement and endorsement that i see here on tumblr. i say this as someone who struggles with depression, anxiety, and a former eating disorder. we should be uplifting each other, not promoting serious psychological disorders that have the means to cause serious harm. there’s toxicity in this community, which i want no part of, and it needs to be addressed.

- signed a psychology undergrad

15 reasons to build an herb spiral for your garden (By Jean Bardot, Natural News)

(By Jean Bardot, Natural News)

Whether you’re a city mouse or a country mouse — with a high-rise patio or 1000 acres — building an herb spiral near your kitchen allows you to partake in the sustainable permaculture revolution and have fresh organic culinary herbs at your fingertips. An herb spiral is a compact vertical garden built on specific principles allowing for individualized management of wind and water flow to create the ideal garden in a limited amount of space.

The spiral is a natural form that provides an efficient method for managing space, storing and sorting. Using the natural universal design of a spiral, the forces of gravity and water flow are utilized to their fullest allowing for proper drainage downhill. Herbs that thrive on drier soils live at the top, whereas those needing more moisture reside at the bottom where water collects. This form allows for planting of a widely diverse number of plants, and creates natural, sunny and shady areas — a perfect miniature microclimate landscape environment. The herb spiral as a permaculture form that allows you to create your own ecosystem and become self sufficient. The format can be adapted to large gardens if space is available.

Stone or block building materials allow for retention of heat and insulate plants in colder weather or at night, while acting as the backbone for the structure. Collect water at the bottom and have a small fish or frog pond or even a bog and grow edible water plants. An herb spiral can be built even on a concrete foundation and filled with the richest biodynamic, organic earth to support any plants included.

The spiral should always be built to move in the direction of water drainage in whatever hemisphere it’s located in — for example, in the Northern hemisphere, water runs off in a clockwise direction and the opposite is true for the Southern hemisphere. This allows for optimal positioning of the pond at the bottom and reduces evaporation. The spiral can be built as a round or oval shape to take advantage of the movement of summer sunlight.

15 REASONS TO BUILD AN HERB SPIRAL FOR YOUR PERMACULTURE GARDEN

1. Maximize growing space to grow more food. 2. Multiple microclimates available for optimal plant growth.

3. Healthier plants where growing needs are met and companion planting is easy to reduce insect problems and foster beneficial plant relationships for better growth. 4. Aesthetic garden focal point.

5. Maximizes space even in very small areas on top of concrete or in high-rise buildings. 6. Harvesting access is easy and all plants are effortlessly accessible. 7. No bending, everything is at waist height — hooray!

8. Save money by growing your own food. 9. Eat organic, using heirloom seeds and avoid pesticides and genetically engineered seeds. 10. Reduces maintenance, little weeding and easy to turn and mulch.

11. Manage water amounts and use natural forces to perpetuate the growing season. 12. Reduce building costs when you use local available materials. 13. Use drip irrigation or a small sprinkler for easy watering and irrigation.

14. Create a bio-diverse habitat for creatures who come to visit. 15. Build an herb spiral to grow medicinal herbs to avoid Big Pharm drugs.

Sources for this article: http://www.mitra.biz http://themicrogardener.com http://welcometovoluntarysimplicity.wordpress.com http://www.mysquarefootgarden.net/creating-an-herb-spiral/