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Thursday, the 15th of May 2025

After I came home from rowing, I couldn't move a muscle. We hadn't the time for a break out on the water and had foolishly chosen a more difficult to handle boat while also not having someone to steer it. It was exhausting to do both. I kept turning around since it was busy out on the canals and I had to steer us with the sculls myself. Nevertheless, I adore being out with the boat. The sky and sun are bright, the wind refreshing and on the shores sit happy people: reading, playing with their dogs, having a barbecue or a drink. I too treated myself but to a pizza and quiet night with a book. Despite that, I carried the exhaustion into the new day and find it difficult to focus on my Czech essays. Somehow I have the ludicrous expectation to make it perfect, all-encompassing, when a good reflection is simply dependent on a specific question and a well-conceived argument.

you ask a student in april how they're doing and they'll say "oh i'm fine" but in reality they are treating themselves in such a way that violates the geneva convention on treatment of prisoners

Academic advice that you must remember while you follow the "aesthetic"

romanticising school and studies by using aesthetics (i.e. Dark academia, art academia, chaotic academia, etc) is really helpful for motivation, but there are many things you must keep inmind

★ Stop romanticism of insomnia. I mostly blame dark academia fanatics for this (not all, but most). in order to remember what you have studied properly as the brain absorbs the information you studied while your sleeping and it maintains a good mental health. Put an end to the "sleep is for the weak" mindset. Cause no sleep actually makes you weak.

★ stop worrying about not having aesthetic notes with colourful pens, heading and doodles like you see in the "study with me videos". It doesn't matter how it looks, as long as you understand, that's the whole point of having notes in the first place. To study, it's not an assignment or project for you to spent hours switching between pens and markers.

Partly people are so deep focused on making everything look "aesthetic" and forget to study, which was supposed to be the main priority.

★ if you get a bad grade once in a while, don't get demotivated. Sometimes no matter how hard you study you won't get the result you want, it might sound cliché but all you can do is try again. No matter how good someone's grades are, these is always a moment where they get a low grade for wherever reason, instead of taking that as a cue to give up, take it as an opportunity to bounce back

(remember, some study hacks may work for some people but it won't work for everyone, so try to find a method that's best suitable for you)

★ Put you phone away when your studying, it's a huge distraction (wow mom was right) now, if your study materials are in your phone or you study through YouTube, then i suggest you turn off you notifications of social media apps (i.e YouTube, Instagram and even Tumblr)

Also not a study advice, but avoid using your phone when your eating, pls it's for you own good, and stop creating fake scenarios when you sleep, it's the reason you can't sleep dummy

77/100 days of productivity!

Saturday reset mode: activated. You’re building something bigger than just a productive day—you’re building resilience, discipline, and balance. Keep going!

Log: 23 Feb

☀ Morning ▸ Breakfast + journal ▸ Research Work (RO) ▸ Light stretching

🌿 Afternoon ▸ Deep-clean workspace + tidy up ▸ Lunch+ write up ▸ Catch up on research (editing)

🌙 Evening ▸ Call home ▸ Yoga ▸ Go shopping ▸ Wind down with a movie or podcast

Celebrating international day of women and girls in STEM because in 2025 there are still men who will say to other men behind your back that you only got certain opportunities because you're a girl and/or because of your looks and/or because other men are attracted to you

~January 2025 Goals~

Finish project for network analytics and troubleshooting class

Read 3 books (2/3 complete)

Restart on applied algebra class

@ august please be a little gentle with me I’m so tired

Google cloud madness. Basically had to redo all the configuration for nginx, keepalived and ssl, but it's done! And working I think?

Also, my sister brought me a pretzel 🥨🥲 that's love man

Live the life you love 💚

25.03.2025

Hey guys! I hope everyone’s had a great start to their week.

I’m only working 3 days this week before going on a little weekend away with my boyfriend, so I’m trying to deal with the fact I probably won’t get a lot of work done. Still, I’m prioritising the corrections I was asked to make to my upgrade report as I need to have that over and done with before I go, and I’m very happy to report I’m almost finished! I should be able to wrap it up today.

In terms of experiments, I’m getting back in the lab this week after taking a little break and starting slow with some protein digestions. Nothing too difficult, but I was too stressed and low to do it last week unfortunately.

Otherwise, I plan to continue with some coding and statistics, just to make sure my last day is relatively chill, and when I come back from vacation I can attack the longer tasks again.

I hope everyone is feeling good and refreshed after the weekend. Remember: you can achieve whatever goal you set your mind to, just take it slow!!

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