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17th feb 2025

— loved my journaling session today! & also that iced matcha latte was soooooo good guys aaaa 🍵

05-24-2025 // 2:30pm

Woke up at 7am as usual and went to the library at around 9am, stayed until 1:30 pm and then came back home to have lunch. I actually did some good progress on the coding assignment so I’m very happy but I’m still at 1/3 of the total so i gotta keep grinding! Going bouldering this afternoon so I hope it’s gonna be fun.

last final of undergrad ever tomorrow! time to go make some late night ramen…

On today's todo list:

Draft and schedule emails

Review existing literature on my PI's current research direction

Review previous NSF GRFP applications

Look into other national fellowships (listed)

Brainstorm about personal statements + project proposals

I've unfortunately fallen off my daily journaling/work routines the last few months, and I'm working on getting myself back into good habits. Today, my main goal is to schedule all my emails to other PhD programs their declining offers of admission. I just finalized everything with my chosen program this week, and the April 15th decision deadline is looming. I feel terrible for dragging my feet on communications, but I want to make sure I send personalized emails to each professor I interviewed with. I know this is part of the process, but I still hate disappointing people.

On the upside, I've already set up my graduate school accounts, put together a preliminary schedule of my classes in the fall, and set up my new email. I'm eager to get back to work

focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

May 8

Finals are over, so my first year of grad school is too! I'm still really anxious to hear back about my grades, but it'll be pretty easy to distract myself with all of the things I neglected to do when I was drowning in final assignments, studying, and anxiety (looking at you, giant pile of laundry).

21/100 days of productivity!

Good day beautiful people! Hope u r having an amazing day filled with positive energy! Log: 24.4.25

Morning walk

Reading session

Proper lunch

4h Research session

afternoon cleaning

cook dinner - call home

Read before bed and yoga

Journal _MH check

I am safe in this moment, grounded and confident in my own skin. Good days are just around the corner, and even my darkest places are beginning to glow. Everything is unfolding as it should — I trust the journey, no matter what. With a heart full of gratitude, I welcome the miracles life is preparing for me.

cozy at home study vibes

the past few days have been so stupid at work :/ i'm so ready for the weekend. Hunkering down for the rest of the night to finish my section on HTML then moving onto CSS if I can stay awake :) first picture is a small snippet I wrote while doing my course yesterday

[3.1.25]

Setting up my monthly mood tracker and commonplacing thoughts on my art practice.

Crying alone? No no no, light a candle and cry in the company of gods.