Here’s A Video So You Can Hear The Water And The Thrushes. I Took It For You Because You Couldn’t

08.04.2025

• I have so many half finished drafts and I’m just going to forget about them and move on.

• I’m doing a productivity challenge and I haven’t posted once and I’ve highkey been slacking but I’m here so things are looking up. I’ll start making the posts about that tomorrow.

• The past weeks have been good but also not. I feel like I never seem to thrive at multiple things at once. But I won’t stop trying.

• I did some viola practice and also vocab Flashcards. The performance might be in July and I can play one of the pieces fairly well and the other isn’t too hard so I’ll definitely be ready by then.

• Unfortunately I have two exams in July and the chances of the performance and an exam being on the same day is insanely high. All I have to do to avoid disaster is start studying early enough and take my time and also practice consistently till then. Give myself no reason to crash and burn. Very simple. Haha.

• I decided to set some non-negotiable tasks for the productivity challenge. I plan to keep at them afterwards though. Preferably for the entire quarter. I’m aiming at forming some new habits.

• It’s nice to feel determined again, I just hope I can hold on to it.

🌳: 37mins

📖: The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern. I actually haven’t touched it in a week but whatever💀.

☀️: Bumped into a friend and also called my mom.

I haven’t taken a bio class since high school, so I did a lot of review before our first practical :) Anyway, this is one of my favorite rooms to study in!

When you would just like to sit in the grass and watch the breezes carry the dandelion seeds away.

mutuals. c'mere. this is a checkpoint. i am checking in. i am wrapping you in a blanket and giving you a nice warm drink. also some pretty flowers. it will be ok.

“My main goal in life right now is to be happy.. thats all”

— Unknown

despite at this point ritual-like patterns of upheaval, it is definitely nice to be back. I've picked some spring research that I really am proud of and may transform into a PhD, plus now happens to be winter pride, so I am immersed in writing and queers. library in the top right is the Black Diamond :)

09.03.2025—a semi-productive weekend. trying to find a balance with taking time off and getting work done because there’s lots to do

I look at this one uh from time to time -

21/100 days of productivity!

Good day beautiful people! Hope u r having an amazing day filled with positive energy! Log: 24.4.25

Morning walk

Reading session

Proper lunch

4h Research session

afternoon cleaning

cook dinner - call home

Read before bed and yoga

Journal _MH check

I am safe in this moment, grounded and confident in my own skin. Good days are just around the corner, and even my darkest places are beginning to glow. Everything is unfolding as it should — I trust the journey, no matter what. With a heart full of gratitude, I welcome the miracles life is preparing for me.

~January 2025 Goals~

Finish project for network analytics and troubleshooting class

Read 3 books (2/3 complete)

Restart on applied algebra class