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Espresso-fueled thoughts, morning musings, and a love letter to quiet ambition — between books, cafés, and city strolls.

Finally passed my web development exam! Onto statistics.

small things we should appreciate more

the chirping of birds in the early morning

the way the sun shines through the trees

nature after it just rained

constantly learning new things every day

libraries, bookshops, bakeries and coffeeshops

A Really Fucking Vulgar Guide to Not Losing Your Shit in College (Condensed Version)

Bitches love to put things into lists. Moreover, bitches love numbered shit. Here’s some numbered shit in list format to help you not suck in higher education. You’re welcome.

1. Go to class. Like 210% serious. I don’t give a shit if you’re a get by on nothing, A+ slacker. You’re fucking paying for this crap so you might as well get the services owed to you. Take your ass to class even if you zone out 99% of the time. You know 1% more than you did when you walked up in there. Congrats, asshole.

2. All that free time you have during your first week of classes? Make it your bitch. Don’t just print the goddamn syllabus and be like all done. No motherfucker. Take a good fucking look at that assignment list. What’s due next week? Yeah, do that shit now bc I know you don’t have anything else to do. Then when you’re coughing up a lung six weeks into the semester and don’t feel like getting your ass up to do that calculus homework, you’ll remember this week. You’ll remember that you’ve been a week ahead this whole damn semester. Pat yourself on the back, ass wipe.

3. Prepare yo self. No seriously. You got notes to print for class? Sure you could be like all those other bitches and just shove them into your backpack, or you could actually /prepare/ for class. I’m talking looking that shit over, identifying key concepts, getting a decent grasp of the material before your ass is even in class. You a STEM major? Yeah, make this kinda shit your life because now class is like one bomb ass group review session. Again, you’re welcome.

4. Snack like a motherfucker, but save that junk food shit for the weekends. From now on, you are a fucking health guru during the week or if you’re a slacker like me, at least on the days you have class. Fruits? Hell yeah. Pack some of those. Mind wandering in class? Snack on some apple slices. Can’t stay awake? Keep eating some almonds or some shit, but don’t be that bitch with the potato chips. Just don’t.

5. Read. Yeah, you heard me. Read and I’m not just talking assigned reading. I bet my left butt cheek that your campus library has /something/ of interest to you. Commuting and don’t want to drive out there? Library databases bro. We’re in the digital age, motherfucker. I’d bet my other butt cheek that the shit you want is in a nice little PDF somewhere. But na man, you thinking maybe you want to go into computer science? Check out computer science books and eat them up bro. You don’t like reading them? Probably not the field for you. You a biology major in your second year? Yeah dumbass. Time to break out the bio books and not the ones your professor is shoving in your face. Amaze your friends and teachers with your out of class knowledge. Be a fucking star.

2023.09.25 // 17:00 literature review time! i get to learn so many details about a rare little sparrow

pic: new york public library schwarzman building, manhattan, n.y.

the longer i work in corporate america, the more i feel l like an old guy who's been working at the company for 30 years and doesn't give a shit anymore. yes i'm about to retire and yes i'm going to reply to your email with an ok with a period and no exclamation marks. get fucked.

2025, week 7 (feb 10th - feb 16th) 👩‍💻

another week of ups and downs. hang in there, friends.

accomplishments this week:

I did two more presentations at work, now I am finally done with those for a little while lol

I finished going through the modules for the NVIDIA cert, now I just have to study and pass the exam

I finished going through the first chapter of my ham radio study book. it's been a hot second since I've taken a physics course, but luckily I'm mostly remembering it as I go

highlights this week:

I've continued to drink copious amounts of tea

I made a trip to a local electronics store to get some parts for a project

I read a bunch and added some new entries to my commonplace book

This academic validation is starting to turn into academic victimization

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I'm back

I’ve been so busy in these days that I hadn't even got time for myself.

I've tried Histology again and again, but nothing seems to work. Honestly I'm tired and frustrated, because I have studied A LOT. I guess its a matter of luck 🥲🍀

Here there are few photos from the past days, lessons and study sessions were intense (there’s my cat trying to give me some moral support).

Good study to everyone! 💕✨💕