Saturday | May 24

2025, week 1 (dec 30th - jan 5th) ✨

for this year, I felt inspired to take a page out of @lostlibrariangirl's book and try weekly posts! I like the idea of collecting little moments throughout the week & reflecting on them at the end.

this week was very strange and kind of difficult, tbh. I blame new year's day falling in the middle of the week - my routine-loving brain did not have a good time haha. I was also struggling to get some work projects done. I find that some projects flow really well, and others seem to drag on forever and make me question my purpose, but I suppose it all balances out in the end. I'm hoping that things will feel more normal next week, now that all the holidays are over. swinging between feeling super exhausted and super motivated is not fun :(

one of the things that I did this week was fill out a goals page in my 2025 planner! I wrote down a lot, but I think they're all achievable, and it's okay if I don't get everything! it'll still be nice to look back at the end of the year and see what I've done. there are some cybersecurity courses that I want to work through, and I want to properly get back into language learning this year, but I wrote down some fun goals, too! here is a small selection of what I want to try and do in 2025:

complete the TCM Practical Malware Analysis and Triage course

read a book in Spanish

reach 50 birds on my life list (this is a totally arbitrary number, but that's like 1-2 new birds per month which I think I can do if I really try) (a subgoal of this is trying to spot an american woodcock bc their range technically overlaps with where I live and they are so goofy looking. I want to see one of them doing that funky lil dance in person so bad)

mend at least 1 item of clothing

get a technician amateur radio license (everyone on my dad's side of the family is licensed, and I think it would be a fun hobby to get into as a combo of learning the science behind radio & also learning to help with communications from a disaster preparedness perspective)

I think 2025 is going to be a year where I have to keep reminding myself that I can do anything, but not everything. I also want to make it a year of reaching out and forging connections with people in my community & online friends. the world feels like a very heavy place more days than not, but we can get through it together.

some highlights from this week:

drinking lots of tea

settling into my 2025 planner

getting back into language learning with clozemaster & busuu

outlining & starting the first draft of a fic that's taken over my brain the past few weeks lol

finishing two projects at work so I can start fresh next week

all i want is qty 1! a dimly lit cafe/bookstore with good coffee and comfortable seating. that's it.

sincerely,

a full time worker and college student who is tired of starbucks and libraries with fluorescent lighting

17.02.2025

physician professional behavior roleplay at class today. we collaborated with students from indonesian arts institute, who play as difficult patients. and man it was difficult. kudos to the arts students, they are so fucking good at this.

physical activity: biking to and from medschool, pilates 10 mins, resistence training 200 leg lifts, 200 arm lifts (WOAH! UNEXPECTEDLY FELT GOOD! definitely not as hard as when i started out)

tadarrus (at taubah 50 - 67)

📖 - the bloody chambers, angela carter

Thursday, the 15th of May 2025

After I came home from rowing, I couldn't move a muscle. We hadn't the time for a break out on the water and had foolishly chosen a more difficult to handle boat while also not having someone to steer it. It was exhausting to do both. I kept turning around since it was busy out on the canals and I had to steer us with the sculls myself. Nevertheless, I adore being out with the boat. The sky and sun are bright, the wind refreshing and on the shores sit happy people: reading, playing with their dogs, having a barbecue or a drink. I too treated myself but to a pizza and quiet night with a book. Despite that, I carried the exhaustion into the new day and find it difficult to focus on my Czech essays. Somehow I have the ludicrous expectation to make it perfect, all-encompassing, when a good reflection is simply dependent on a specific question and a well-conceived argument.

15.03.25 || wishing everyone a good day unless you are caesar

Started my day working on a writing project I love but has no publisher. Fingers crossed that it will get a contract. Someone came to see my apartment today and hopefully take it over. It's a bittersweet moment, because I feel like I just arrived in my uni town and get to fully experience it after my exams took over my life for a good two years. And now I have to leave again 🥲

All the best

AJ

Daily Productivity Challenge: 3/10

04.05.2025~ Went through some GLSL videos to understand the syntax for my computer graphics project and finished up inference performance on my Bayesian network

tldr: autism is fucking exhausting and i'm so ready to graduate to have a modicum of free time for my special interests and bedrotting.

healthier, smarter, better is all i want

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