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sometimes being queer is mourning. you transition and you mourn the girl you thought you were but never could have been. you mourn the parents that loved her and are silent towards you, you echo “i love you” back and forth but you know it only goes one way because you can’t love someone you refuse to see. you use slang with your brother so he calls you “bro” and it feels like a participation trophy for a game you wish you weren’t playing. your extended family tells you you’re shaping up to be a lovely young lady. you sit in a men’s medium buttondown and nod at them, say thank you, and pray they don’t make you go to another girl’s only brunch. “you make sacrifices for the people you love” they claim, but what have they sacrificed for you? money? you do not feel safe when with people anymore. you do not feel anything when you are alone. you are numb with grief for a life that could have been if you were not the one living it

“Author of 25+ best-selling Pride & Prejudice variations”

Yeah, no.

Y'all I know that when so-called AI generates ridiculous results it's hilarious and I find it as funny as the next guy but I NEED y'all to remember that every single time an AI answer is generated it uses 5x as much energy as a conventional websearch and burns through 10 ml of water. FOR EVERY ANSWER. Each big llm is equal to 300,000 kiligrams of carbon dioxide emissions.

LLMs are killing the environment, and when we generate answers for the lolz we're still contributing to it.

Stop using it. Stop using it for a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g. We need to kill it.

Sources:

The Conversation

AI’s excessive water consumption threatens to drown out its environmental contributions

Artificial intelligence promises revolutionary solutions to global challenges, but the water costs to produce and power AI hardware and infr

Nature

The carbon impact of artificial intelligence - Nature Machine Intelligence

The part that artificial intelligence plays in climate change has come under scrutiny, including from tech workers themselves who joined the

nature.com

Generative AI’s environmental costs are soaring — and mostly secret

First-of-its-kind US bill would address the environmental costs of the technology, but there’s a long way to go.

i dont “have ptsd” that’s all just the wizard’s curse

I think the reason a lot of leftists struggle with disability justice is that they haven't moved past the concept that discrimination isn't bad because it's objectively "wrong." yes, sexists are objectively wrong when they try to claim women are dumber than men. yes, antisemites are objectively wrong that jewish people are inherently greedy and run the state. yes, racists are wrong when they try to claim that white people are the superior race. and so on.

but then with disabled people, there are a lot of objective truths to the discrimination we face. people with IDs/LDs do fall behind and struggle with certain concepts. physically disabled people are often weaker and less capable of performing demanding tasks than able bodied people. many of us with mental illnesses are more reckless and less responsible. a lot of us are dependent on others and do not contribute much "worth".

and guess what? disabled people still deserve a place in the world. disabled people still deserve the supports they need. because they are people, and that should be enough to support them and believe they deserve a place at the table.

if your only rebuttal against discrimination is its objective inaccuracies, you are meeting bigots where they are at. you are validating the very concept that if and when people are truly incapable of being equal to the majority, that means they are worth less. this causes some leftists to then try to deny the objective realities of disabled people and/or become ableist themselves.

your rallying behind marginalized groups should start and end with the fact that people are completely worthy of life and equity, because they are fellow human beings and that should, frankly, be enough.

my brain is convinced that it can replace sleeping with obsessing over house md. my brother in christ a body cannot function off of old man yaoi alone, the ancient texts have taught us this

white boy goes to Jupiter and shocks waiters by ordering in perfect Stupider

Crying with my mama—

I ask what the limit to her love is.

She says that there’s nothing,

still some clarity is wanted.

She doesn’t understand

becoming something different,

but I can hold her hand

and she can ask forgiveness.

There’s a

blue sky ahead—

it grows

by keeping promises.

If god

made wheat

for bread,

then god made me to be an honest man.

Daily in communion with my deepest wishes—

shaving in the mirror,

reading science fiction.

Tomorrow and tomorrow, I will learn the meaning,

of the lengths that I will go to be alive, and love, and listen.

There’s a

blue sky ahead—

it grows

by keeping promises.

If god

made wheat

for bread,

then god made me to be an honest man.

I will not repeat the tenets of my born religion,

or lend weight to an argument that I am not sufficient.

I am not determined by the love that I am given.

I am here because I’m here because I’m here,

and it is written.

There’s a

blue sky ahead—

it grows

by keeping promises.

If god

made wheat

for bread,

then god made me to be an honest man.

I will choose myself over the institution.

I will not believe the propaganda that I’m used in.

I can break my heart to own my revolution.

Oh, and I am more courageous for the wanting.

I am more courageous for the wanting.

And I can choose to be

an honest man.

Mama, I won’t plead,

I’m simply what I am—

and you can still believe

whatever that you can.

me trying to convince myself that the whole spectrum of human emotions is a good and necessary thing to feel even if its not comfortable while im actively experiencing emotions that make me feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid

i really love trans people. i love binding and tucking and packing and styling your hair the way you want and wearing gender affirming clothes and creating yourself from scratch. i love listening to trans voices, hanging out with trans people, singing trans songs until i'm out of breath, creating trans characters. transition is beautiful, seeing gender norms and saying no is beautiful, being unapologetically yourself is beautiful. i think being trans is genuinely amazing.

edit: this post is not for terfs. trans women are women.

you ever just think about how across the whole of human history, the window of time where women have been able to choose not to spend their lives cooking and cleaning and being pregnant for men they never wanted to marry is so vanishingly small, and even then that’s not an option for women in lots of areas of the world, and there are girls being taken out of school and forced to marry at 12 years old, and if nothing changes for them then all they’ll ever know is a life of forced servitude and abuse and rape, and how some men just see this as fucking normal

you ever just think about how the gulf between women’s rights in different countries is so massive and there are men working their fingers to the bone to strip back reproductive rights because they look at their society where women can live their lives free from being shackled to men through financial dependence and constant pregnancy and childbirth and think ‘this won’t do at all’

you ever just think about the surge of ‘tradwife’ propaganda and how people are romanticising the vulnerability and dependence that some women would kill to break out of. how women are romanticising their own oppression

What to do if you suddenly find yourself homeless

FOOD

Find your nearest food bank or mission, for food

grocery stores with free samples, bakeries + stores with day-old bread

different fast food outlets have cheaper food and will generally let you hang out for a while.

some dollar stores carry food like cans of beans or fruit

SHELTER

Sleeping at beaches during the day is a good way to avoid suspicion and harassment

sleep with your bag strapped to you, so someone can’t steal it

Some churches offer short term residence

Find your nearest homeless shelter

Look for places that are open to the public

A large dumpster near a wall can often be moved so that flipping up the lids creates an angled shelter to stay dry

HYGIENE

A membership to the YMCA is usually only 10$, which has a shower, and sometimes laundry machines and lockers.

Public libraries have bathrooms you can use

Dollar stores carry low-end soaps and deodorant etc.

Wet wipes are all purpose and a life saver

Local beaches, go for a quick swim

Some truck stops have showers you can pay for

Staying clean is the best way to prevent disease, and potentially get a job to get back on your feet

Pack 7 pairs of socks/undies, 2 outfits, and one hooded rain jacket

OTHER

first aid kit

 sunscreen

 a travel alarm clock or watch

 mylar emergency blanket

 a backpack is a must

 downgrade your cellphone to a pay as you go with top-up cards

 sleeping bag

 travel kit of toothbrush, hair brush/comb, mirror

 swiss army knife

 can opener

it is hard to explain but there is something so unwell about the cultural fear of ugliness. the strange quiet irradiation of any imperfect sight. the pores and the stomachs and the legs displaced into a digital trashbin. somehow this effect spilling over - the removal of a grinning strangers in the back of a picture. of placing more-photogenic clouds into a frame. of cleaning up and arranging breakfast plates so the final image is of a table overflowing with surplus - while nobody eats, and instead mimes food moving towards their mouth like tantalus.

ever-thinner ever-more-muscled ever-prettier. your landlord's sticky white paint sprayed over every surface. girlchildren with get-ready-with-me accounts and skincare routines. beige walls and beige floors and beige toys in toddler hands. AI-generated "imagined prettier" birds and bugs and bees.

pretty! fuckable! impossible! straighten teeth. use facetune and lightroom and four other products. remove the cars along the street from the video remove the spraypaint from the garden wall remove the native plants from their home, welcome grass. welcome pretty. let the lot that walmart-still-owns lay fallow and rotting. don't touch that, it's ugly! close your eyes.

erect anti-homelessness spikes. erect anti-bird spikes. now it looks defensive, which is better than protective. put the ramp at the back of the building, you don't want to ruin the aesthetic of anything.

you are a single person in this world, and in this photo! don't let the lives of other people ruin what would otherwise be a shared moment! erase each person from in front of the tourist trap. erase your comfortable shoes and AI generate platforms. you weren't smiling perfectly, smile again. no matter if you had been genuinely enjoying a moment. you are not in a meadow with friends, you're in a catalogue of your own life! smile again! you know what, forget it.

we will just edit the right face in.

Happy TDOV!! Made a small comic, cutting my hair short was pretty much when I went. oh yeah baybe. its all comin together😏😏

how to look like an old fashioned romantic tall young italian boy as a 5 foot transgender afro latino long curly haired teenager with the body proportions of that one genderweird shapeshifter from the movie on Netflix and the hips of a mother with 5 kids spacebar enter search

Interesting trend among transmascs & how terfs apply rhetoric to them that I've noticed:

If you are conventionally attractive and discuss taking hormones or getting surgery, terfs will lament that they can't keep losing beautiful women to the brainwashing of gender ideology and that you shouldn't transition because you're so beautiful and so good.

But if you're conventionally ugly and discuss taking hornones or getting surgery... terfs usually cut right to the "well you're just mentally ill and can't make decisions for yourself" or more immediately to the "well you just want to get ahead because being a woman is hard and difficult and being a man would be easier, gender traitor"

Why are pretty people afforded the "gentle*" rhetoric? Because terfs find them inherently more worth "saving" than the ugly people? Perhaps because terfs think that pretty people are inherently more "moral" and willing to listen to "reason?"

I just find it interesting that conventionally attractive people are treated differently than conventionally unattractive people. has anyone else noticed this? am i just crazy?

*this rhetoric is not gentle and is an act of violence against transmasculine people regardless of its intent. trying to detransition any transmasculine person for any reason that isn't that person's own desire to detransition is an act of violence.

Congratulations to Thailand 🏳️‍🌈

Countries Where same-sex marriage is legal: ⏬

2001: Netherlands 🇳🇱

2003: Belgium 🇧🇪

2005: Canada 🇨🇦, Spain 🇪🇸

2006: South Africa 🇿🇦

2009: Norway 🇳🇴, Sweden 🇸🇪

2010: Argentina 🇦🇷, Iceland 🇮🇸, Portugal 🇵🇹

2012: Denmark 🇩🇰

2013: Brazil 🇧🇷, England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿, Wales 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿, France 🇫🇷, New Zealand 🇳🇿, Uruguay 🇺🇾

2014: Luxembourg 🇱🇺, Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

2015: Finland 🇫🇮, Ireland 🇮🇪, USA 🇺🇸

2016: Colombia 🇨🇴, Greenland 🇬🇱

2017: Australia 🇦🇺, Malta 🇲🇹, Germany 🇩🇪

2019: Austria 🇦🇹, Ecuador 🇪🇨, Taiwan 🇹🇼, Northern Ireland

2020: Costa Rica 🇨🇷

2021: Chile 🇨🇱

2022: Switzerland 🇨🇭, Slovenia 🇸🇮, Cuba 🇨🇺

2023: Andorra 🇦🇩

2024: Estonia 🇪🇪, Greece 🇬🇷, Thailand 🇹🇭

Happy Pride Everyone 💐🏳️‍🌈

Posting all of the pills that make you green comics here now, enjoy? I guess?

regret rates

proof

talking points

you problem

owned

modern invention

unethical experiments

typology

think of the children

side effects

facts

making sense

rushing

drawings

research

this rocks

valid

"'I have led a toothless life,' he thought. 'A toothless life. I have never bitten into anything. I was waiting. I was reserving myself for later on--and I have just noticed that my teeth have gone. What's to be done?'"

-Jean-Paul Sartre, The Age of Reason (1945)

You know what I like so much about the aromantic community?

We have so many concepts that the average alloromantic person has never heard of. Concepts that make it so much easier to explain our experiences, desires and struggles to other people. They make it so much easier to exist as an aromantic person in this world. Of course, every aromantic person can decide whether they find these concepts helpful and applicable to their experiences. But I find it amazing how many cool concepts the aromantic community either came up with or took pre-existing concepts and made them our aromantic 101. I don't think the allos really get how being aromantic can fundamentally change your worldview. And to be honest, I think they're missing out because I think everyone would benefit from at least being familiar with those concepts.

Being aromantic is basically like this:

Aromantic shrimp colours are real.

Anyways, aromantic community, y'all mean a lot to me and I'm so happy I found y'all and now share your "secret" knowledge!

Dad, how do I? 🥰

really wish gender was more of a hobby and less of a societal contract and mandate

To Wong Foo Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar (1995)

Dir. Beeban Kidron