HOZIER OVER THAT SCENE WAS FOUL

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i might need your couch. don’t think i didn’t catch that

if the 118 is going into season 9 without a captain anyway i think they should let every character be captain for one episode. it could be so great. the return of nightmare captain han. ravi spending the entire episode terrified because he feels in no way qualified only to end up having a clipboard buck-esque ego trip at the very end. buck tries his best but every time he doesn't get to run headfirst into a fire he stands there looking like a dog left out in the rain like :( i cant believe all my friends are in mortal danger rn and I DONT GET TO JOIN :(((( eddie's actually kind of good at it but buck keeps getting so flustered by eddie ordering him around for Reasons He Cant Explain that he kind of forgets to do his job and then he gets so upset about not supporting eddie or whatever they have to call it quits. at the end hen is like well. i know i turned it down initially but i dont think theres anyone the department could possibly bring in with enough experience both as a firefighter and cultivator of our beautiful perfect codependent family dynamic so i will do the noble thing and step up (the entire thing was a scheme to make her realise this). btw bobby's alive for all of this he actually escaped the government lab in episode 1 but he's too busy sipping shirley temples on the beach with athena to get involved in any of it

"friendships he forged" and the camera pans to EDDIE who was NOT there who we havent SEEN in like a MONTH bc he's in fuckass TEXAS

“I love you kid” put me in a coffin and nail it shut.

checking in

ok i think what it comes down to is that. buck and tommy is not a particularly good or interesting relationship. it's pretty on par with bucks previous relationships. it's below buck and abby, who buck was in love with and who broke his heart. it's below buck and taylor, who were actually close and who exchanged I love yous and were looking pretty endgame for a while. buck and tommy dated for a few months, had an ok relationship, broke up, then had a drunken hookup that ended in buck saying some pretty out of pocket stuff. there's no big compelling love story there. and I understand taking a ship that's one thing on paper and enjoying the version of it that you and a fanbase have created in your minds (WHO among us has not partaken in that pasttime). but where we get this big fanatic fanbase insisting that this is a lovestory for the ages comes from is the fact that it is two men in a canonic relationship on tv. which like.... listen it is not 2012 anymore where we were scrounging in the bottom of the bin for scraps from like german soap operas for canon gay rep (i know, i was there). you can actually hold gay relationships on shows to a higher standard. you don't have to imagine this epic lovestory is hiding behind this milquetoast failed relationship. and of course the argument to this is well you're imagining an epic lovestory behind buddie that's not there. but man, there's 7 years of love and dedication and partnership there. like there is MEAT on them bones. and if it ever went canon, it would be a slowburn will-they-wont-they on a big procedural show with a queer relationship, which as far as I know has never been done. there's something to be invested in there. the arguments im seeing that people have to like buck tommy because it's a canon gay ship and therefore must be a good love story or else youre homophobic is so... absurd. sometimes gay relationships are just mediocre. sometimes they're bad. not every gay relationship on your tv screen should be treated like a precious rare commodity that we need to shut up and be grateful for.

feeling completely normal about this btw (lying)

i'm trying not to be Mean but also i don't care i don't CAAAAARE anymore like. why is eddie returning to LA solely for buck. why is this the narrative people are going with. WHY EXACTLY is eddiebobby being downplayed as like, nothing more than a professional relationship. as if to eddie losing bobby would be like losing an acquaintance and he's more there for buck than anything else. why is this a thing. that i am seeing. like, eddiebobby has been one of THEEEE 118 relationships. they understand each other. bobby's always been there as a steady hand for eddie. eddie LOVES AND RESPECTS HIM a great deal. he has his OWN feelings about bobby that aren't related to buck’s relationship with bobby. like, why is it EDDIE being there for buck. when it should be them being there for EACH OTHER. all of the 118 btw. because they each have their own relationship with bobby. like, yes buck and bobby have a father-son relationship that is super important. and this is going to KILL buck. and yeah, i do think eddie is very conscious of that. and he WILL be there. but can we stop framing this as if his sole purpose is to be there for buck. he's allowed his own grief too. they all are. THEY'RE A FAMILY!!!!!!

may god forgive my wretched sins (spent money)