isolophiliacgirl

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i have this person whom i would like to know more about and we have been in the same class for more than 2 years and have had barely had 9 conversations, that person(lets say L) is not the one to usually start a conversation nor a total introvert but definitely reserved for majority of people but the thing i don't get is how can that person talk and not just that but initiate conversations to a veryyyy extroverted another person(lets say E) i mean i have tried a lot to try and initiate conversations with various topics but L never even looks at me while i ask something, i mean isn't it straight out rude and annoying like hello you talk to E without a freaking problem but can't even look at me. I think L tries to fit in the social circle but really just can't as L is also completely ignored by everyone and is deemed "uncool" and L keeps trying hard so my question is do people only want or desire something just because they can't have it?why can't people just be CURIOUS and find the BEAUTY in other non obvious things which are ignored by people.

there is this thing in my life which always happens no matter what, if i have a real connection with anything or anyone and i say to myself wow this is nice, the next moment that thing is taken away from me or it goes away or fades away or something happens to me and the things which remain are not the one with a real connection but bland so is it wrong to just ask for someone to actually hold onto me no matter what.

p.s. this is not explicitly about a specific matter its a general one.

today was the first day back to school after vacation i honestly thought i would hate it and it would very tiring, it was actually, mentally tiring and knowing that this cycle won't stop now, i just have to keep going on even when i'm tired but tbh i did have my fair share of rest in the break so ig i have to work very hard, the next few months will literally determine my whole life course, well atleast about the career bit there's a whole other lot which idk when it will exactly be determined and i don't even think we can, i just have to make the present peaceful but not comfortable.