Something Silly I Started But I Couldnt Finish It In Under 48 Hours So I lost Drive. I Hope You Enjoy

A lot of feelings coming from multiple sources right now.

I'm an afab agender person trying to build a life and career in the world of rock and roll. I also find behavior that's been normalized because of the egregious amount of rockstars behaving those ways pretty disgusting and I will continue to find them disgusting as I always have.

I understand my rise will be long and difficult. I am a passing afab. I am agender/queer. I don't associate with people who cheat, lie, exploit, or otherwise harm anyone because they wanted to/by choice without force. The music industry has been built by people who do precisely those things to gain more money, more following, and more attention. Drama is business. And I don't like it.

I'm not sure what my path is going to look like, holding down my morals and exercising my backbone while sacrificing "opportunities" but I know I will reach the place I want to and be proud of myself for it.

I'm going to be queer and I'm going to grow old. I'm going to be afab and excel in rock. I'm going to be a musician and not accommodate those who hurt people. Those are my promises to me and to everyone I hope to touch with my music.

Fish!! Fish boy! I love your MerMoon design!! I wanna hug him!..Or just pet his head..I hope he doesn’t bite-

And thank you!!!

Anywho I finally picked up guitar again after telling myself I would for years and now my fingers are all cut up YUH

hey babe whats that sound. yeah, that- that music. oh, its your villain theme? you didnt have a villain theme last time we met. it sounds really cool. aw, youre welcome. can you teach me how to get a villain theme? … unspeakable horrors? yeah, sounds like a date.

I think people need to be more comfortable with illegalism and I’m not kidding. Of course the more legal something is, the safer and easier it is to do, but the more people who disregard the law, the harder it is to enforce. There are plenty of laws on the books that people just ignore and are never or rarely policed.

Becoming more comfortable with little illegal activities makes you more comfortable with bigger more important illegal activities. Additionally, it is crucial to build a wall of silence. Nobody talks everybody walks.

People who give out food without a permit, hold a march without a permit, grow a garden without a permit, are more likely to be people you could turn to to work with on preventing an eviction, or keeping people out of cop hands, or helping your friend Jane get crucial healthcare when it’s not legal in your state.

Communities comfortable with these acts won’t call the cops, and then nobody knows that it’s happening.

People have got to shift from both the idea that lawful = good/ illegal = bad, and that the illegality of something means that’s the end of it, and the only fight left is to make it legal again.

The LGBTQ community has seen controversy regarding acceptance of different groups (bisexual and transgender individuals have sometimes been marginalized by the larger community), but the term LGBT has been a positive symbol of inclusion and reflects the embrace of different identities and that we’re stronger together and need each other. While there are differences, we all face many of the same challenges from broader society.

In the 1960′s, in wider society the meaning of the word gay transitioned from ‘happy’ or ‘carefree’ to predominantly mean ‘homosexual’ as they adopted the word as was used by homosexual men, except that society also used it as an umbrella term that meant anyone who wasn’t cisgender or heterosexual. The wider queer community embraced the word ‘gay’ as a mark of pride.

The modern fight for queer rights is considered to have begun with The Stonewall Riots in 1969 and was called the Gay Liberation Movement and the Gay Rights Movement.

The acronym GLB surfaced around this time to also include Lesbian and Bisexual people who felt “gay” wasn’t inclusive of their identities. 

Early in the gay rights movement, gay men were largely the ones running the show and there was a focus on men’s issues. Lesbians were unhappy that gay men dominated the leadership and ignored their needs and the feminist fight. As a result, lesbians tended to focus their attention on the Women’s Rights Movement which was happening at the same time. This dominance by gay men was seen as yet one more example of patriarchy and sexism. 

In the 1970′s, sexism and homophobia existed in more virulent forms and those biases against lesbians also made it hard for them to find their voices within women’s liberation movements. Betty Friedan, the founder of the National Organization for Women (NOW), commented that lesbians were a “lavender menace” that threatened the political efficacy of the organization and of feminism and many women felt including lesbians was a detriment.

In the 80s and 90s, a huge portion of gay men were suffering from AIDS while the lesbian community was largely unaffected. Lesbians helped gay men with medical care and were a massive part of the activism surrounding the gay community and AIDS. This willingness to support gay men in their time of need sparked a closer, more supportive relationship between both groups, and the gay community became more receptive to feminist ideals and goals. 

Approaching the 1990′s it was clear that GLB referred to sexual identity and wasn’t inclusive of gender identity and T should be added, especially since trans activist have long been at the forefront of the community’s fight for rights and acceptance, from Stonewall onward. Some argued that T should not be added, but many gay, lesbian and bisexual people pointed out that they also transgress established gender norms and therefore the GLB acronym should include gender identities and they pushed to include T in the acronym. 

GLBT became LGBT as a way to honor the tremendous work the lesbian community did during the AIDS crisis. 

Towards the end of the 1990s and into the 2000s, movements took place to add additional letters to the acronym to recognize Intersex, Asexual, Aromantic, Agender, and others. As the acronym grew to LGBTIQ, LGBTQIA, LGBTQIAA, many complained this was becoming unwieldy and started using a ‘+’ to show LGBT aren’t the only identities in the community and this became more common, whether as LGBT+ or LGBTQ+. 

In the 2010′s, the process of reclaiming the word “queer” that began in the 1980′s was largely accomplished. In the 2020′s the LGBTQ+ acronym is used less often as Queer is becoming the more common term to represent the community. 

In lieu of my tags: I'd probably ALSO also write faster if I didn't make it a rule to write at least 15 pages per chapter

We're up to 2600 words babey I will beat you

this is why we do it, boys

Sunshine <3

If anyone who follows me wears skirts and likes it, can you tell me what that's like? What does it feel like to want to wear skirts and dresses?

The people who love what you create are going to love it regardless. Your talent speaks for itself and I think it's great that you're finding that confidence and love for your own creations to be a driving force of revealing your full self. There are some shitty people here but they are everywhere. I think you're going to have an overwhelmingly positive response. But it's understandable that you're nervous, trusting and being vulnerable are a risk. But I also think you're more than able to recognize when someone is just being cruel for cruelty's sake and take the appropriate action, report, block, etc. It's your decision though and sometimes a little slice of anonymity can be nice. There's no right answer only what feels best for you and your spirit. You've got friends here who support and care about you and that won't stop because you share your face (figuratively and literally)

This is so incredibly helpful, and thoughtful in a way that must mean you're not a complete stranger to me. Thank you for the love put into this message. I think you're right. I want to be able to embrace myself fully and I think my own acceptance will be detectable among those who care about me.