"I Feel Like A Clown While Persisting"

the hardest pill to swallow . . if you don’t assume, it won’t work

this isn’t tough love. this isn’t a scolding. this is just the mechanics of reality. this isn’t about blame. it’s not your fault, but it is your responsibility (i saw this quote somewhere and i really liked it, anyway). reality is malleable, but only if you stop acting like you’re at its mercy. stop waiting for permission. stop refreshing the page, stop tapping the glass. it’s done. act accordingly.

consider your brain an old, glitchy computer, whirring in the corner of your psyche, choking on its own outdated code. your subconscious doesn’t know what’s real versus imagined, it only knows the instructions you give it. and if those instructions are “this isn’t happening, i don’t see it, i don’t believe it,” well, congratulations, the system registers that as the blueprint. and it prints that out. over and over. like a bureaucratic nightmare, a kafka novel of your own making.

this is not to say that doubt is failure, doubt is human, doubt is a thrum in the background of any great creation. but if doubt is the occasional rainstorm, belief is the structural integrity of the house. belief holds. belief carries. belief is the scaffolding between you and the impossible, and without it, you are just standing in an empty field, waiting for architecture to spontaneously occur.

there’s a reason schrodinger’s cat remains the most infuriating hypothetical in quantum mechanics, because the cat is both alive and dead until you open the box. the observer collapses the wave function. and in this case, you are the observer. if you don’t believe it, you keep the box shut. if you do believe it, the universe is already rearranging itself around your conviction.

this is not new-age drivel. this is not a vision board with a quote about perseverance peeling off in the humidity. this is physics. have you ever thought about someone, and then they text you five minutes later? that’s the speed at which reality moves when you don’t get in your own way. you didn’t sit there clutching your skull, willing them into existence, you just assumed, with ease, with god-tier nonchalance. and because you weren’t scrutinising the timeline like a detective with a corkboard and red string and bloodied eyes, the message came through. the only thing standing between you and everything you want is the way you react to its absence. the hand-wringing, the despair, the creeping doubt, it’s a full-time job, and it pays in absolutely nothing.

which brings me to my next point: trying. trying is the problem. trying implies effort, and effort implies resistance, and resistance is another way of saying “i don’t actually believe i have this.” and you know what people do when they have things? they stop worrying about whether they have them. a person in possession of an apple does not pace the room, clutching their chest, whimpering, “but do i really have it?” they just eat the apple.

and before you say, “but look at my reality, it’s contradicting me,” i will say this once, and you must etch it into your mind like scripture: reality is old news. what you are seeing is just a delayed projection of past assumptions. do not react to it. do not engage with it. it is a rerun of a show you no longer care about. the moment you stop feeding into the contradictions, they wither. the moment you accept that what you want is already done, reality will course-correct. until then, it is an echo chamber of your previous doubts. ignore it like it’s a tabloid headline about a scandal that never actually happened.

flip the switch. decide, assume, move forward. no more “manifesting,” no more “waiting.” you don’t wait for what’s already yours. you don’t question a chair’s ability to hold you up before sitting down. you don’t send a letter and then agonise over whether the mail system still exists. you assume. you know. and so it is.

and before the panic sets in, no, this does not mean you must be a perfect disciple of unwavering belief. doubt will creep in, as it always does. you will have moments of existential dread, of scrutinising, of muttering “but what if” into your hands at 2 a.m. this is fine. this is human. just don’t let it become the dominant narrative. there will be moments where you feel like you're nowhere, like your manifestations have abandoned you and you're left with nothing but the weight of your own effort. do not, under any circumstances, entertain this lie. i will personally resurrect the fear of god just to drill this into you: do not. what you do instead is cry a little, wipe your face, and then lock the fuck in, because i swear on everything, sometimes, all it takes is a stretch of nothing to summon an abundance of everything. let the doubt pass through like an intrusive thought you refuse to entertain, like a pigeon that landed in your cafe but is not, in fact, your problem.

maybe this reminds you of when the soviets tried to scientifically disprove intuition, only to realise they had unintentionally proved it instead. maybe this reminds you of every ghost story you’ve ever heard, how the only ones who see them are the ones who expect to.

anyways. it’s all already happening. your only job is to get out of the way.

I Manifested My Dream Apartment FOR FREE In 3 Days!!! (Law of Assumption Success Story)

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⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆ Backstory ⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆

Hi babes!!!

A few months ago, I was literally homeless, no sugarcoating it. I was crashing at different people's places just to have somewhere to sleep. No stability. No peace. Constantly anxious. Constantly in survival mode. I was sick of it - of feeling like I had no control over my own life.

So one day, I made the decision. I'm done living like this. I deserve to feel safe, to have a home. And I'm not going to wait on the 3D to catch up. I decided I have my dream apartment already. I didn't know how. I didn't care how. I just knew it was done.

⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆ Method ⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆

The first thing I did was make a Pinterest board filled with dreamy apartment aesthetics. Think: floor-to ceiling windows, soft lightning, cozy corners, neutral tones, minimalist but luxurious vibes. I soaked in those images like it was already mine.

Then I tackled my self concept. Because let's be real: the world mirrors YOU.

I started robotically affirming the same core truths over and over:

༺♰༻I am a master at manifesting.

༺♰༻I'm GOD of my reality.

༺♰༻The world revolves around me.

༺♰༻I always get what I want exactly when I want it.

I also started listening to the "program your mind to think like GOD" affirmation tape by High Frequency Guru (literally obsessed with her. She is that girl) I played it every morning and night - when my subconscious was wide open.

I also let it loop in the background while I was cleaning, walking, scrolling, watching TV, passive, non-stop affirming like it was my job

Here's the twist tho:

I still felt delusional. I still felt like a fraud. My 3D said "you barely have a place to sleep"

But I didn't care.

I ignored the 3D. I reminded myself that my assumptions create my reality - not the other way around. I kept affirming. I refused to spiral. I refused to doubt. I made it law in my mind.

⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆ Results ⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆

3. Days. Later.

Within 72 hours, I was literally handed my dream apartment.

I'm not exaggerating. The EXACT apartment from my Pinterest board - same vibe, layout, same color scheme, fully furnished, even down to the little aesthetic decor touches I had on my vision board.

But wait! It gets better!!!!

I didn't have to pay anything.

Not for the move-in, not for the furniture, not for rent.

The rent is already paid for the ENTIRE year!!!

And it wasn't mommy or daddy's money. It wasn't even some long-lost rich relative. It came from a source I never even imagined.

Someone I didn't even know. Someone who just wanted to help.

The "how" didn't matter - it unfolded perfectly. And all I did was shift my mind.

⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆ Final words ⋆༺𓆩⚔️𓆪༻⋆

If you're reading this - know that you can do this too.

You don't need to take physical action.

You don't need to stress over the how.

You don't need to be perfect or feel high vibe all the time.

You just need to do the one thing that actually matters:

༺♰༻Decide it's yours

༺♰༻Assume it's done

༺♰༻Persist in the new story, no matter what your 3D says

Your reality is your mirror: your thoughts are the script. Your mind is the only power. There's no one outside of you calling the shots.

You are God of your reality. The main character. The writer. The director. The producer.

And don't ever let this world make you forget that.

Love, Ivy 💚🖤

People of Ashlesha Nakshatra often display a profound sense of attachment to things they love, forming strong emotional bonds that influence their interactions and relationships. This intrinsic need for connection can lead to behaviors that may seem overprotective or controlling. Ashlesha natives seek to safeguard their emotional ties, which may be rooted in past experiences of loss or abandonment.

Consequently, Ashlesha natives may respond defensively in situations that threaten these connections, resulting in feelings of insecurity and anxiety. While stemming from genuine concern, their protective instincts can sometimes lead to misunderstandings or conflicts with those around them.

The emotional intensity typical of Ashlesha Nakshatra individuals can occasionally drive them to exhibit aggressive or unkind behavior when they feel their attachments are at risk. This tendency often arises not from a desire to harm others, but from a fear of loss that urges them to defend their relationships or material attachments at all costs. Such reactions can alienate others, making it difficult for the Ashlesha individual and their loved ones to navigate the complexities of their emotional dynamics.

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Nakshatra Notes Masterpost (Link collection of all 27 Nakshatras)

i never hear anyone talk about how overwhelming it can be to wake up with your desires one day after so long, i’ll speak about my void state success story, when i first entered it. i wont tell you what i manifested since i explained it to an ask. yeah waking up after doing the void state and getting all you want is a pleasant thing but can we talk about how overwhelming it is to literally have you reality just shifts like that? because when i woke up the next morning after inducing the void state my heart genuinely stopped for about 10 seconds and i’m not even exaggerating, because everything was just different? i wasn’t in the same room i was before. LIKE LITERALLY WHEN I WOKE UP I FORGOT I HAD MUSIC PLAYING THE OTHER NIGHT AND RIBS JUST STARTED PLAYING out of nowhere. i like to think of ribs (the song guys) as a new beginnings song, even though the song symbolizes bittersweet memories and friendship. the new beginnings feeling is just my personal feeling. so as ribs was playing i started crying hard on the spot. congratulating myself for reaching this huge milestone, i took in my new environment and cried harder, i sound dramatic but thats just how it was for me. i was shaking and not from fear just from extreme excitement. when i went look in the mirror i cried so much more, everything about me just screamed different, i’m sorry i keep repeating “different” so much because thats literally what it was. everything was just different. i kept repeating to myself “please don’t let this be a dream” over and over, doing everything i can so i’d be sure it wasn’t a dream, when i accepted it wasn’t a dream i went scream into my pillow and started jumping around my brand new room like a hyperactive puppy. thoughts were running everywhere “oh the new memories i’ll make” “i’m finally happy” “its over now” “i can’t wait to see what this new life has in store for me”. i didn’t touch my phone the entire day after waking up with a brand new reality. i barely touch my phone now but i still try to help people on tumblr so they can finally accept their power. i’m not saying i woke up with a terrible/bad overwhelming feeling it was more of a “oh my god theres no way” type of overwhelming feeling. i wanted to share my void state success story with the world but from seeing some liars that were caught (no im not a liar) i was scared people would deem me as a liar because they would “demand” proof. or assume “im lying for attention”. but no this is me coming to you with full honesty that i’ve manifested my dream life, i can still be on social media but that doesn’t automatically make me a liar. if you truly believed in LOA then you wouldn’t have to dwell on solely getting proof for your own satisfaction to really know the law is real. THE LAW IS REAL, THE VOID STATE IS REAL, YOU ARE ALWAYS PURE CONSCIOUSNESS, IMAGINATION IS EVERYTHING, SHIFTING IS REAL, MANIFESTING IS REAL, YES YOU CAN MANIFEST WHATEVER YOU WANT, YOU ARE LIMITLESS.

live in imagination, stop looking for more information, stop starting over, stop giving up, stop doubting, stop looking for the 3D for proof, look within for proof. time isn’t real but yes your clock is ticking, break the pattern or the loop WILL repeat tomorrow. you’re destined for success.

The social attitude regarding age is consistently getting weirder. You’re not ‘pushing 30’ you’re just in your late 20s. 30 is not old and neither is 40 while I’m at it. Growing older is an enormous privilege and displaying that age is a gorgeous component of life. Spending your days trying to reverse that grace breeds an eternally wasted life.

Astrology Observations VII.

Krittika nakshatra is the most skeptical about spirituality and religion. Being the first sun ruled nakshatra Krittika is sharp and cutting with truth and anything of a lunar or devotional nature doesn’t innately attract them. They tend to accept their reality more than most.

On the other hand, Uttara Ashada is naturally very conscious about religion and spirituality and may have more inclination to practice the more physical acts of devotion or enlightenment such as yoga or meditation.

Dhanishta is truly their own brand of original, they have a funny and open way of expressing themselves that is truly captivating to others. They’re very honest about who they are and that’s what magnetizes others to them.

Dhanishta women have a very “succulent” and “rich” aura to them. It’s as if you want to take a bite out of their presence because it’s so warm and nourishing. Their internal softness and warmth bleeds through their external power and creates an intoxicating presence that can only be felt.

Mercury ruled women are rather mysterious and elusive. They’re extremely multi-faceted and internally rich they can be hard to pin down and get to know truly, they can put on many hats and are also very protective of their energy.

Shravana men are sensitive and artistically inclined particularly to music and singing.

one time my university invited a motivational speaker and he started by talking about historical figures he found inspirational (like in business/economics) and then asked "what do they have in common?" and a girl in the crowd shouted "they're all men!"

Not sure who she was but I'll never forget her

Just heard that India attacked Pakistan and Kashmir? And that they attacked a civilian area, including a mosque which so far has resulted in the death of 3 civilians including a CHILD!?

As if the world hasn't already seen so much civilian death and destruction!?

One thing about being a journalist is seeing how differently men behave off and on camera.

They will admit believing in the most sexist, cruel, disgusting, inhumane things, laugh about them, even be proud of them when it’s just me listening (I enable them to feel safe), yet go absolutely mute if I want to record it.

WELL SAY IT, say what you said to me—say how women are lazy thus choose prostitution, say that allowing them to vote ruined our society, say that women should be forced to make babies to save the economy—make that joke again how one drunk man is smarter than three women with PhD’s—that was so awfully funny. Let me inform the citizens; let me show what men around them think.

But they know all too well in what circumstances they can spit their hate without consequences. They know when not to attach their names.

They are always aware.

here is a reminder that loss and fears aren’t real. you can’t lose anything because everything is you. you can’t lose your person because they’re you. fears aren’t real because you’re the one who chooses how everything goes. you’re the one who is deciding everything so what is there to fear ? you’re fearless and always the winner. this is who you’re being from this moment forward. no more belittling yourself. no more underestimating the law. how can you be the god of your reality and still have fears ? what are you fearing ? yourself ? do you not trust yourself enough ? think about it. you trusted to be with someone despite your fears yet you can’t do that for yourself ? when really the only person you’ll ever have is you. you have to trust yourself and know that fears are nothing. whenever you’re fearing something, think of someone who doesn’t have that fear and see how their life is going. fear of abandonment ? observe a friend who doesn’t have that fear and see how their life is like. that should be “proof” enough for you that it’s ridiculous and it all has to do with you. why do people who fear absolutely nothing and 100% believe in themselves and who they are always receive everything they want ? why is everyone obsessed with them ? why do they not get abandoned, betrayed, etc. ? why can’t that person be you ? be fearless because you have nothing to lose but self. if you lose self, you lose everything. choose self, choose a fearless identity, don’t get shaken up by some stupid thoughts in your head, and fully KNOW that you’re safe and secure. give that to yourself within.