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After the day I've had...

i wish ao3 allowed people to give kudos per each chapter. These 100k word NOVELS need more love than 200 tiny digital hearts ☹️

if it's good enough for you, then it deserves to be made. don't let anyone else decide if your story is worth it or not.

*writes two paragraphs after months of literally nothing and it took three hours*

A new Lost Boys fanfic I've started on AO3 featuring my one and only Ivan Kristaski! Go check it out! If it's not by La_Vida_es_Dolor, it's not mine!

Meme I made to send to a friend that I am now unleashing upon tumblr dot com

to those of you who are moving here from tiktok, from someone whos used both tiktok and tumbr for years...

1. DO NOT censor your posts

dont censor sex, abuse, suicide, dont censor it. we dont have censors like tiktok does, you wont be banned for talking about these things and tagging them properly helps people avoid them (also, we dont have shadowbanning here)

2. we dont really have an algorithm

you follow who you follow, and you see posts from who you follow or what you search. the 'for you page' is basically useless here. this also brings me to my next two points

3. dont crosstag

we get it, on tiktok you have to crosstag for reach, but thats not really a thing here. just tag your posts properly (also posters often leave more info about the post in the tags!! and when you reblog stuff you can leave your own notes in the tags, kind of like the old "repost comments" on tiktok)

4. dont expect to go viral/be famous

"viral" isnt really a thing on here (at least not for the average blogger). your posts will probably get 2-10 likes and you wont get nearly as many followers than on tiktok. thats just how tumblr is

5. blocking is your best friend

tiktok is VERY discussion based, and while tumblr is much more discussion based than other social medias, its still not a good place for ragebait/discourse. dont interact, itll make your experience worse in the end, just block and move on

6. you cant go into someone elses house and start rearranging their furniture

this is tumblr, not tiktok. dont diss old tumblr users for how they use the site or try to change them, thats like going into someone elses house and trying to rearrange their furniture. we've been here longer and we're familiar with the site and its culture, either find your niche, adapt, or find a different app

Marko’s Patches

Patches Marko Needs to Add to his Jacket Pt.1

Flip Side might be coming to an end but Kuno's world will be coming right back with Don't Fear the Reaper where we jump into Reaper's point of view. A hunt gone awry leaves the half vampire with an injured... something and he just can't bring himself to hurt them.

Flip Side

Just posted Chapter 20 and maybe I'm drawing this out a little. I don't want to let this go, fearlings. 😭 But I promise I'm still writing each day. Just taking it slow and savoring it before I have to post the finality that is the epilogue.

For those enjoying Flip Side, would you all be interested in more from the lost boys x Kuno world? I'm not sure I'm ready to let this world go so soon and was thinking of doing one shots or maybe something of a continuance with Kuno's band. What do you think?

Yes

Flip Side

I'm desperately trying to complete chapter 19 but I've written, erased, and rewritten multiple times now. I'm going to try to get it up tonight but I can't promise anything. My focus is just trash today.

It’s crazy and fucked up that being yourself is actually the solution.

Flip Side

Alright. I made you all suffer enough. Chapter 17 is up to relieve that terrible cliffhangers. We're getting down to the wire now, babes. Thinking one last story chapter then a few wrap ups before the epilogue. I really steamed through this story this time.

250 likes!

Flip Side

Chapter 16 is up and you are not gonna like it! 😈😈 I'm withholding Chapter 17 until you've all had time to cry about it. Mwahahaha

25 posts!

A little sneak peak to what's going on in chapter 15 of Flip Side. Kuno secretly loves the little nickname Marko has given him, not that he's likely to admit that aloud!

Flip Side

Chapter 14 is gonna be a beast. It's already over 2k words and I'm not done writing it yet. It should be up soon though, so be on the look out for it! In the mean time. Here's a song hint for it to whet your whistle!

Flip Side

Chapter 12 is up and I'm working on chapter 13 now! Chapter 12 is perfectly NSFW while Chapter 13 is gonna be some fun! Remember kudos and comments give me life and fuel my muse! So please please please, tell me whatcha think!

Flip Side

I'm hoping to get chapter 12 up tonight but I may have drank too much wine with dinner so my focus is not the best right now. If not I promise you'll get two chapters tomorrow at least.

Here's once of the songs for the chapter to keep you interested!

Those following my fanfic Flip Side, I designed the band t-shirt Kuno is wearing in chapter 10. I wanted to make something I thought his bandmate, Marrick, would put so much effort into for their 10th album. Still haven't figured out how to put images into a AO3 fic. Guess I'll always be technologically inept.

Designed on canva(.)com

sometimes i need to remind myself that i'm writing fanfiction for free and i'm allowed to have a shitty sentence or two

Matching Marks

The Badminton story-arc finally catches up with Stede in 109 and he is forced to sign the Act of Grace. Ed is caught up also, and chooses to sign the Act partly to save Stede’s life. We know it’s a pseudo marriage contract, making their individual marks of commitment for ten-years, a lifetime then. Ed does so willingly; but later, Stede feels the guilt of Ed’s perceived sacrifice.

As a mirror to 109, the Ned Low story-arc finally catches up with Ed in 206. This time, Stede is caught up in Ed’s mess. We see matching marks again, this time by way of torture-branding. It’s a subversion of the face-slashing during matelotage. A more painful and dangerous mirroring of 109. This time Ed feels the guilt; but we know Stede would remain by Ed’s side here even given a choice, just as Ed remained committed to Stede in Act of Grace.

Both blame themselves for the other’s sacrifice and the subsequent fallout. They have marked or blemished their loved one with their faults.

The ‘ruined’ one interestingly is the catalyst for moving the relationship forward each time. It’s as if the development in their character allows them to be braver, truer to who they are and what they want.

The ‘ruinee’ is the one to run subsequently; partly because of the belief they’ve destroyed their loved one, but also because the change causes them to run smack into their own unresolved trauma. They appropriate the other’s personal journey as a commentary on their own perceived flaws:

I am soft, and have therefore made him soft

I am violent, and he is violent now because of me

None of this is true. Ed was attracted to softness before he met Stede. Stede was drawn to aspects of violence before he met Ed. And neither of them is wholly soft or particularly violent, nor are they responsible for the other’s moving towards one aspect or the other.

They realise finally the influences they have on each other is, for the most part, positive. They’re good for each other. They don’t need to be whole or fully-healed to be together. Healing takes a lifetime, and they can do so alongside their developing relationship. They need also to recognise the other has agency over their own character growth, and to learn to not talk past each other. It won’t always be an easy straight road, but they love each other enough to succeed.

They’re both soft, gentle men who will commit violence to protect those they love. And it’s meeting the other which has allowed them to go on a journey of self-discovery; not through imposed changes, but by giving each the room to grow. The only lasting mark, the only mark that is true, is the mark of love they’ve left on the other. A mark that gives them space to breathe and grow, mess up and try again. That’s the real mark. That’s the permanent ink.