The Boy Friend (1971)

Pick a card: messages for your soul from spirit ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖

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★Pile 1★ Energy check: Ok, so many different messages came through. First, if you are someone who is too much invested into beauty, almost obsessed kind of. Buying products, constant comparison or feeling as if you are not beautiful enough. Someone here could online shop a lot. However, it seems like you are awakening almost, coming out of this energy. Some people here are either engaged or married or celebrating good things, positive things happening for them. You have moved on from a mental hell hole, a toxic person, a toxic situation, and chosen yourself. You have changed. Many of you could be starting your own streams of income. You may also be in a contemplative mode after all this darkness, you've seen things, especially with some masculine energy, or consequences of your own masculine energy which seemed impulsive. You are being asked to let go of any man, any energy like this, there is so much good for you, so much that you cannot even imagine. You need to transmute that light you got from the darkness you've gone through pile 1. There is someone coming in who would love you like its their only job. Either it is your family, a sibling or even a lover. You are going to form a community, a fraternity of a kind almost, especially online if you choose to talk about your struggles.

Messages from spirit: Time to show yourself some love. Time to take it easy. Its almost like taking it from that cold, learning hard lessons, Saturnian energy, to that self caring, relaxing, unwinding, venusian energy. Cozy up, watch a show, do some art. Unhappy about some parts of yours? totally fine, change it. Do that clay mask, do what feels right. Stop imposing toxic restrictions on yourself, that toxic positivity almost, if you do not like/want someone or something, change it, leave it, you are never obliged. Remove that obligation. You want to build something? Take it easy, take it kind to the heart way and do not hustle or grind like that. You've already seen stuff, you need to stop being in that feeling and shift your energy for a fast, almost steady growth. Enjoy what you do, Pile 1. You can take it easy and that would just increase your work flow, your desire to grow, and you can still see fast progress. You would still win. Let go of those walls that trauma caused you to build. You are not supposed to feel hard and heavy in your mind to prove yourself that you are being serious, or working hard. There is a lot of unlearning to do, especially from trauma. Use that feminine energy now. As seen in the energy check, some of you could be in a distorted masculine energy and one of the things we do when we are like that is refuse help, do everything on our own to the point of burn out, become impulsive and more reliant on only what we see. Your intuition could have told you something but maybe you did not listen, but this time you have to use your intuition more. I am hearing "Sit back and relax, watch things unfold". Some of you could possibly be avoiding the truth your intuition was telling because you were afraid of some kind of heartbreak that comes with the truth, but truth sets you free, Pile 1. You may hear from someone, especially in regards to either a past romantic situation, or from a potential financial gain. Eitherways, let your intuition guide you for the right answers. But remember, this is the time for renewal. Anything that comes back from the past is just teaching you to use your intuition again. There are life changing opportunities coming for you, but the question is, are you willing to choose an unfamiliar heaven over a familiar hell?

★Pile 2★ Energy check: Someone here could very well be the sweet person, kind. But a lot of you may struggle with boundaries or may delude yourself into thinking its not that serious, when it is that serious actually. Aries/Libra axis/placements coming through. There is a problem asserting boundaries and dealing with people. Many of you here could be insecure, especially with being photogenic? skin issues? Some of you may be here from pile 1. You probably were too reliant on other people, external validation and that may have led you down the hell in some way. Some of you here could also be too dependent on external advices, I am also hearing toxic spirituality maybe those shady tarot readings that are ego strokes or some toxic manifestation hole. You may also have been led on by someone who you thought was wonderful, but turned out to be a love bomber, an immature person. I am hearing "unpleasant melody", maybe you are learning how to sync yourself more to the tune of life, how to actually accept life and understand that sometimes things do not get our way. You may have been rejected recently from a place or person which you thought was impossible almost. Some of you could be listening to sad songs a lot. You need to move forward, you think it was injustice, what happened with you, but it will just take you forward and build your characters in ways you cannot imagine, the person who has everything on your Pinterest boards. You are so fertile. You have so much potential but you are using all your energy at wrong places, and it is the time to withdraw these energies. Stop relying too much on information outside, seek self enquiry. Try reading "Ramana Maharashi" and his philosophy and teachings, that should help. There is something about activating that South Node/Ketu in your chart. That independent, wisdom and wise energy. You are ignoring your lessons it seems, but it will just take a glance, just some awareness to the past that you must do and something would click.

Messages from spirit: Its time to decenter everything outside of you, just for a moment. You need to stop taking advices, and start "giving" them because you do not see how far you've come. You do not seem to learn from the mistakes, the techniques you have used to make it out of situations. Stop giving people who were unkind to you some excuse to be that way. It is time to withdraw and do a lot of inner work. There is a wise, extremely compassionate person who lives inside of you, but you would need to do a lot of decentering, a lot of inner work, an inner shift to be able to embody them. You need to define your values, you need to tell yourself what you expect and what you don't and what are your non negotiables. You need to choose your battles wisely, let go of people and things and jobs that do not serve you and you know it in your soul but you accommodate with them just because they are practical. I am over and over seeing need for a lot of self reflection here pile 2. Seems you are too in the flow, in the moment that you have almost disconnected from your own higher self and spirit. I would suggest meditating to ocean music and let the downloads come through. What occupies your mind when you are silent? What are you purposefully ignoring or not addressing? Hmm, makes sense why I was hearing Aries for you, you need to embody that Aries energy. You need to be self enforcing. The month of April should be important for you. You need to set yourself free.

★Pile 3★ Energy check: Very very clearly, someone here has an anxious-avoidant attachment style. Some could also be mourning a loss, especially of something the tied down their feelings to. You were attached to this situation or this outcome. Its giving this feeling of "I knew it won't happen, I know it won't happen" but its almost a mechanism to avoid the truth of your feelings. A mechanism to feel less sad when something happens that was not what you wanted. Some of you here could also be going down the path of thinking "my negative feelings manifested this". There could also be avoidant attachment styles manifesting in breakup dreams about your partner, or even what you wanted in a career or some result. You could be doing too many tarot readings, feeling anxious about the outcome. Some of you here could also be spending a lot of money and time and energy on self grooming and self care. You are a very passionate person, and very very attractive to people (idk why did that come through). You need to learn that you would be fine if that person left because you would get someone new because you are so wonderful, you need to learn that you would find your fire and passion for something new if you got rejected from that job or result. There is a need to relax, unwind and have that "I am fine either way" mindset. I am giving you a confirmation that if you faced a rejection in the recent days, its not a reflection of your caliber, it was divinely led for you, it was supposed to be like that. The lessons you acquired along the way would move you on the right path, for your highest good. Your angels, and spirits are holding your hands, you are holding your own hand whether you realize it or not and you are being led to somewhere much better than your imagination, it was divinely transpired.

Messages from spirit: No doubt that the first card that came out was strength. Spirit wants you to know that you have infinite potential, you are a powerhouse and you can do anything you want. Do not back down, do not feel disappointed. There is so much more for you to come. Feel all your emotions, do not suppress them, do not feel bad for feeling like a loser, but most importantly, after all of this you NEED to pick yourself up, you need to move forward because otherwise, it would be a waste of energy and potential. Do what you can with what you have available, give it all the thought but act on it, do not sit idle or give up entirely. I am not sure how this resonates with you, but you are meant to be in charge. You are meant to be a boss, an entrepreneur, a figure of authority. You are meant to lead your energy, and other people around you. If it was a connection, then know that a connection with someone is just meant to empower you and not hold you back. If you feel your paths are closed, its almost like you have never seen the possibility beyond the options you were stuck on some one thing, almost a tunnel vision. It is time to move beyond that. The world is big and there is so much beyond your imagination that you have never seen or cannot even think of because you just limited yourself. Those limits are gone for good now. Now, when you set out to explore other possibilities because you refuse to give up, you would be surprised with all that was possible for you all along and what you kept on tying yourself to. Its almost like your knowledge was limited to silver as the most precious stone, but now you see platinum and diamonds and golds, all you had never seen before. There is so much hope for you Pile 3. You would be led down that path for good, it will happen. Especially self discovery along all these wonderful things. You will succeed its inevitable, you would get things better than you anticipated. Only condition? Do not stop and fall a victim.

ASTRO OBSERVATIONS 45

DISCLAIMER: These are my personal observations and not facts. The whole chart has to be taken into consideration.

𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔶𝔱𝔴𝔬 𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔶𝔱𝔥𝔯𝔢𝔢 𝔭𝔞𝔯𝔱 𝔣𝔬𝔯𝔱𝔶𝔣𝔬𝔲𝔯

ASTEROID ADLER(11519) was named after Austrian psychiatrist Alfred Adler who introduced the concept of the "inferiority complex" into psychology. Alfred Adler was also the first to use the term superiority complex. This placement tend to show where you might experience inferiority or superiority complex or both. Or a place where you have a superiority complex to make up for feeling inferior.

MARS/NEPTUNE in synastry can make two people feel like they just HAVE TO sleep with eachother. Especially the Mars person will feel this way. Neptune looks like the ultimate fantasy to them to the point its almost dehumanizing. This aspect can lead to a lot of crazy boundary crossing and obsession. Fantasizing about eachother all day to the point it becomes annoying.

MOON 10TH HOUSE SYNASTRY tend to be one of the ”Im going to marry him/her one day” synastry overlays.

CANCER RISING men tend to be very well liked and often the ”pack leader”. Tend to be a prominent and well known person where they live. Taurus 11th house gives them a stable and loyal friendgroup and a stable place in the group and Aries MC gives them a slightly feared image. Other men cant help but look up to them.

Everyones so surprised by Skai Jacksons choice in boyfriends bc of the men she have access to but im not bc I always knew she had that LILITH 7TH HOUSE. This placement can unfortunately make someone pick the worst partners. Doesnt help that she also have Venus Square Neptune.

In most of the true crime cases ive checked the killer had SCORPIO MC in their FAMA(408) PERSONA CHART.

Im starting to notice more and more how much someones VENUS SIGN really affect their appearance & behaviour. People with VENUS IN CAPRICORN or VENUS/SATURN are always so serious and composed almost like they are at work or something. Very afraid of embarressment so they choose their words carefully. Can sometimes act like a cop, watching everyone and making sure everyone is acting right. Tend to care a lot about hair and skin looking good.

Check your ACTOR(12238) PERSONA CHART to see what kind of roles would fit you. Megan Fox or example have Libra Rising & Pluto 1st house in hers and that describes perfectly the roles she plays.

Men with VENUS SQUARE SATURN who date women tend to be attracted to mean girls/total bitches. And Ive noticed women with this aspect can be kinda bitchy towards other women especially when younger lol.

MARS/NEPTUNE might to like to film themselves doing it bc neptune is where we like to create art. Neptune is not only where we fantasize but also where we want to create a fantasy for others.

VENUS CONJUNCT LILITH tend to give someone extraordinary artistic talent. Thats because Lilith in our chart is where we have an almost animalistic instinct.

A good example of VENUS CONJUNCT LILITH is Frida Kahlo who used art to make change. ”Known for her many portraits, self-portraits, and works inspired by the nature and artifacts of Mexico. Inspired by the country's popular culture, she employed a naïve folk art style to explore questions of identity, postcolonialism, gender, class, and race in Mexican society.”

ASCENDANT CONJUNCT ASCENDANT in synastry feels like being siblings or sometimes even soulmates. I see so many married couples with the same rising sign. This also makes sense since they say that soulmates often physically resemble eachother. The people Ive met with the same Ascendant as me sometimes lived the exact same life as me.

NEPTUNE ASPECTING ASCENDANT tends to make someone really not see how they look and come across to others. The worst cases ive seen were two people where one had Neptune opposite Ascendant and the other had Neptune Square Ascendant. The way they described themselves were sooo different from how others view them. Also know someone with this placement who sees a bump on her nose that isnt even there.

VIRGO PLACEMENTS and SATURNIANS have a ”only im allowed to do it” attitude. They want to play the strict teacher but cant live up to the standards they hold others too. I often see people with these placements play police. Also tend to pick and choose who they confront etc. Especially saturnians tend to not act like this towards people they look up to but will gladly berate someone they view as less than them.

I know someone with FORTUNA(19) CONJUNCT MARS and i swear no matter what situation she gets herself into there is a man ready to help her. Fortuna tends to show a place in our chart filled with blessings.

One issue Ive noticed with CHIRON 1ST HOUSE is being extremely competetive. ”He said I was prettier than her” ”he picked me over her” okey but who is he? Is he really worth fighting over? Being so focused on winning and not even noticing what they are fighting over.

An issue with NEPTUNE is that Neptunians often have a complete lack of ego. And because of the lack of ego the person might lack ambition. Not feeling a need to achieve bc they dont care about status etc. This might sound positive but can lead to living inside their head too much instead of living in the real world.

LILITH 3RD HOUSE tend to constantly have issues with their car. Might also have a fear of cars or been in an accident.

MERCURY CONJUNCT NEPTUNE tend to be overidealized by people in their neighbourhood.

Ive noticed that PLUTO tends to sometimes completely kill a planet it touches which makes sense since Pluto rules death. For example when its aspecting Mars it can make someone not able to show anger ans completely avoid it. So instead of being the stereotypical overambitious and angry MARS/PLUTO stereotype the person is completely incapable of showing anger and pushes their anger inside instead.

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Yohji Yamamoto, A/W 1999.

Paris, Texas (1984)

Jim Carroll

They're always gonna come to your door They're gonna say, "It's just a routine inspection" But what you get when you open your door What you get is just another injection And there's always gonna be one more With just a little bit less until the next one They wait in shadows and steal the light from your eyes To them vision's just some costly infection But listen, you should come with me I'm the fire, I'm the fire's reflection I'm just a constant warning to take the other direction Mister, I am your connection

'Cause when the city drops into the night Before the darkness there's one moment of light When everything seems clear The other side, it seems so near What seemed wrong? I think it's gonna be just about right

MYSTERIOUS SKIN (2004) dir. Gregg Araki

Laura Palmer + Neil McCormick, Brian Lackey

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