Summary: You’re desperately in love with a man who already belongs to another.
Ikigai (n.) (Japanese): "A reason for being," the thing that gets you up in the morning.
Part 1, Part 3, Part 4
The same arms that cradled you last night now carry her. She’s unconscious (apparently because Sylus choked the life out of her and you will be pressing him on that later), and she’s beautiful. So beautiful that you tug on your sleeves a bit to cover more of your skin as you stare. The strange woman is a literal sleeping beauty, so you can’t help but keep your eyes on her.
But those details about her aren’t what make you truly stare. No. Something else entirely makes you stop dead in your tracks as you approach the twins and Sylus at the doors.
Her threads. As in multiple ones. Multiple soulmates and multiple bonds. They flicker in a way you’ve never seen before, and behave like winding paths. They’re each a gateway to a different love, to a different story. And she could choose which one to take.
You don’t know how you know this. But that isn’t new to you. Your power’s always been a mystery to you, seeing the bonds of soulmates even before they themselves have connected and formed. You know someone’s love story before they do. And you know what they’ve lost whenever you see a severed thread like James’. All this you learned through trial and error, since no one else sees what you see.
It got even worse once Evols started showing up and the Deepspace Tunneled opened. Like a puzzle you must assemble without instructions. Or a full picture. While blindfolded.
So, sometimes your ability just tells you things. Like now. It told that this strange girl, Miss Hunter as the twins call her, had multiple possible soulmates. It also told you of her multiple pasts. One of which you know quite intimately.
Sylus. You can’t bare to look at the man in question. From his heart protrudes his string, and on the other end of it is her. Her and not you.
You always knew you’d meet Sylus’ soulmate one day. And when that day came, you knew you’d be happy to see them love one another. But when you imagined that, you imagined he’d be their only love. Not one of many. Not some choice among different slices of pie.
You force yourself to keep walking. Pain creaks through you, like a car slamming on its breaks every few feet. Jagged and raw. Cutting.
”You aren’t her only one,” you want to say. ”You aren’t her only one, and you deserve better than that.”
Why? Why did this girl with so much love have to take from you the one thing you wanted? You want to pluck that stupid string of hers that belongs to Sylus and tie it to your pinky finger. You want to scream at the universe at how unfair this all is.
You don’t do anything of that. Instead, you fall into line with the twins as Sylus takes her to a spare bedroom. Part of you is relieved beyond words he didn’t put her in his own room. You think your heart would’ve given out there and then otherwise.
Once she’s carefully laid down on the bed, Sylus finally speaks.
“Kieran. Luke.”
“Yes boss,” they say in that weird unison thing they’ve always done; you find it strangely endearing.
“Watch her.”
He’s all business, acting as if this was an everyday occurrence. Like he always brought strange girls back to his home.
“Of course, boss,” Kieran replies. He gives you look when he does so. Even with his mask, you could tell what he was trying to say: ”you know what’s going on, right?”
You shake your head at him. His older brother is oblivious to the whole mess, sitting on a chair in the room and kicking his legs back and forth. You envy his silly disposition right now. You couldn’t afford to be nearly as calm.
Sylus and you quickly leave the room, and you guide him to his office rather than his room. Questions burn on the tip of your tongue. They well up inside of you, begging to be released. You can’t bare to let any of them out. So you tame them with persuasion like you’ve done to your clients and opponents in the past.
“He’ll tell you everything,” you think as you walk beside him. ”Just be patient.”
Patience goes out the window the second you two are alone.
“What in the ever-loving fuck do you think you’re doing, Sylus?”
“Name dropping me again, Gamayun. What have I done to bring forth your wrath this time?”
He casually leans against his desk, smirk on his lips and tension in his shoulders. You try to stand a ways away from his, but he uses his Evol to pull you closer. Your feet momentarily leave the floor when he does. The energy of his power is gentle against your skin, and caresses you in an almost apologetic matter.
You glare at him as he does this. He just leans in close to your face, one hand hovering on your waist and the other near your cheek. You stupidly lean into the touch.
Fuck me and my touch-starved self.
“Being sweet with me won’t change the matter at hand.”
“You think I’m sweet on you?” He leans in even closer. “And if it’s worked in the past why can’t it now? Perhaps I need to be more than just sweet…”
He trails off and brushes his fingers on your ear. Suddenly you feel too much. His breath. His skin. The gaze of his eyes. His coat. Everything.
You place a hand on his chest and lightly push. He immediately backs away, and his expression seems to stiffen a bit. You ignore it.
“No amount of sweetness will change the gravity of your lies. You brought a strange woman into the heart of our operation, and I won’t let it go.”
“Jealous?”
Yes.
“Do not dodge my question, foolish boss of mine.”
“So feisty today.”
Sylus leans back on the desk and beckons you closer. You stand firm with your hands on your hips and eyes on his soulmate thread. Anything to keep your focus on the task at hand.
He sighs and says your name. You’re inwardly grateful; no Gamayun means no sweetness which means your weak heart won’t make you back out of this conversation.
“She’s a Hunter. One with a unique Evol that I’ll be needing for my plans. That’s all. It’s just business.”
Sylus walks towards you this time.
“Business you couldn’t be fucked to include me in?”
You both wince at your harsh words. You because you’re normally never this openly hostile. With anyone. It’s bad for your line of work. And the only other people you’re normally around are the man you love and his chaotic children henchmen. You’ve no need to be so.. crass.
Sylus winces because… well, you don’t exactly know. His thread gives off some weird feelings you’d rather not dissect. You worry you’ll glimpse into his first meeting with his soulmate, and you’d rather hear about it that experience that yourself.
“There was no need.” Sylus is firm with his words, but his reluctance to make eye contact with you tells a different story. His guilt almost makes you think that he knows how you feel about him, and that he’s sorry for what he’s doing to you.
Fat chance of that.
“Since when is there ever no need for my involvement? You literally drag me anywhere you possibly.”
“Because I fear you becoming a hermit otherwise.”
Your cheeks warm at his words. Stupid Sylus and his need to remind you of your early days working for him.
“Says the man who’s only other companion is his mechanical crow.”
“You don’t say? You know, Gamayun, I’ve seen the way you rant to Mephisto sometimes after certain deals. You’re not too far off to becoming like me.”
You roll your eyes at him.
“Even if I, perchance, do, it’s only because of you. And those “deals” you mention are the ones where you don’t give me much to work on. Like now.”
You two are back to square one. The light-hearted atmosphere is sucked dry in that moment. It’s been replaced by a weight, a fog, of uncertainty and worry. It takes you back to before you meant Sylus, all the way to high school, when something similar happened between you and the first person you fell for.
Those memories eat away at you. Strands upon strands of memories that twine with your nerves to create discomfort in every cell in your body. You only speak in hopes it would rid you of such pain.
“Why can’t you just explain yourself to me like a normal person?”
“Because you have no need to get involved.”
“Morana,” you try using his own tactics against him. “Please just tell me.”
You walk to him this time and cup his cheek with one hand. Sylus leans into the touch, basically nuzzling your hand. You love doing this to him. You love doing this with him. And you’re probably only doing this with him in this moment because you both know somewhere in your hearts you won’t be able to in the future. You doubt his soulmate will appreciate having another woman that loves him touching him like this.
So you’ll savor it.
“What’s the benefit of hiding such a thing from me, your partner?”
“You don’t need to concern yourself with useless things.”
“So useless you’ll bring the twins?”
“They were just there for some fun.”
“Fun which you excluded me from? How rude.”
Sylus winces at your dry tone, knowing there was more to the story. Ever since he met you, he knew you had problems feeling left behind or excluded. You always felt like an outsider anywhere you went due to your powers. It got even worse once you realized you had no soulmate.
My relationship to them isn’t your problem.
So many times has those words been uttered to you. So many times have people spat them at you before they walked out your life for good, too in love to notice your broken heart. You wonder if this conversation with Sylus is the beginning of history repeating itself. If right now, the thread of your relationship is unraveling while his new one weaves together.
“Rude? Maybe. But necessary.”
“Why ever would you think that? You need to give me a valid reason.”
“You were sleeping in my arms so peacefully I couldn’t bear to wake you.”
“I said a valid reason, Morana. Not your usual nonsensical reasons.”
“It is a valid reason. I figured letting you sleep would be my way of making it up to you for stressing you yesterday.”
“It doesn’t. Telling me the truth might.”
“You drive such a hard bargain. You do remember I’m your boss, not the other way around? You work for me, sweetheart.”
“I do. But I’m more akin to a partner rather than a subordinate, even if I call you boss. So I’m entitled to the truth about your plans for this new person in our lives. I need to be involved, Morana. Why can’t I?”
“Because maybe I don’t want to get you involved.”
Your thoughts stumble at that. You shrink back from Sylus, dropping your hand and bringing it close to your chest. His eyes widen. You see the panic in them. It’s satisfying, in a sick way.
“Gamayun, that’s not what I—“
You don’t want to hear his excuses.
“You need something from her.”
Something you know you can’t get from me and you know I would stop you from taking.
Moments like these make you wonder if he knows. If he knows how you love him. If he knows you can see the threads of fate. If he knows that you know he’s not your soulmate but hers. If he knows you’re doomed to be alone.
But then you tell that part of yourself to be quiet. Because thinking about the what ifs would only drive you crazy.
“I do. And I will get it from her.”
You hold back a cringe at that. Stupid Sylus. That was no foundation for a relationship of any kind, let alone a soulmate bond.
“Not after such a hostile introduction.”
“Hostile? Me? Whenever have you known meet to be hostile, Gamayun.”
“The day we met,” you make a list of tallies on your hand as you speak. “Last week with that one arms dealer. Last month with the numerous explosions. James.”
His face twists when you mention the man. You roll your eyes.
“You and I both know that I have the best chances of resolving this peacefully.”
“Resolving. Gamayun, I haven’t done anything that needs resolving,” he smirks. “Not yet anyway. I’ll call upon your skills when they’re deemed necessary.”
It hurts a little to hear him say that, but you press on.
“Listen to me. The poor girl’s going through something; why else would an upstanding citizen of Linkon come here by choice? She’s in an unfamiliar environment. She’s been kidnapped twice. Once by you, and another by someone who, according Kieran, was going to kill her for what she had. And then you go and choke her until she fell unconscious. “
You caress his hair as you say this, leaning even closer despite your better judgement. His breath hitches and he gets closer as well.
“She’s not going to trust a word you say. And you and I both know the twins; negotiations and civil conversation isn’t their strong suit.”
The two of you laugh at this, and you vaguely wonder if this is how it feels to be a parent of insane teens. Because that’s what you think your life is sometimes.
“You’ve all made a bad impression on her. I haven’t. She’s in a sensitive spot, and I think the advice of someone with far more tact would do her good.”
“You got all that from just a glimpse? You’re better than even I thought, my sweet Gamayun.”
“Like I said before, being sweet won’t get you anywhere.”
You giggle when Sylus uses his Evol to mess with your hair. His hands hover around your waist.
“Just let me be the contact with her, alright? My relationship to her is far better than yours despite never truly meeting her. Whatever there is between you and her will be dwarfed by her grief.”
Guilt twists in your gut at that lie. Their relationship will never equal any relationship you have to either of them. But that bond doesn’t exist yet. So you’ll cling to those false words and hope they get you through this storm.
You think you have him. You think you’re about to get your answers. Instead, Sylus breaks your heart again. Except this time, it’s in a way you thought he never could.
“My relationship to her isn’t your problem.”
And just like that, you’re 16 years old again with your best friends. And then 12 with your friend’s father’s “new friend”. And then 10 with your former friends turned bullies. And then 7 with your first ever close relationship. All the times when someone spouted those same words just before they abandoned you. Just before they broke your heart, threw it the trash, and went home happily to their soulmate.
You can barely hold it together. You briefly register pushing him away, hands shaking and adrenaline practically going to war on your system. It’s different from the last time you pushed him away. So, so different. Your body betrays you in this moment. It’s on guard. It sees Sylus as a threat.
“Oh,” is all you muster.
You don’t need to see Sylus’ expression to know that your mask has slipped. All that practice acting and pretending means nothing now.
“I’ll just… I’ll just go. Yeah. I’ll just go.”
You think you hear Sylus protest. Or maybe you imagine it because you want him to chase after you unlike so many in the past didn’t. It doesn’t matter either way. You leave all the same. You leave and try to pick up the pieces of your heart while Miss Hunter slumbers away, oblivious to the plague of emotions her entire existence has brought you.
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— Borrowed time, part 4
‼️Caleb x reader x Sylus. Reader not MC. University AU. Modern AU. Angst angst angst!
Everyone knows Caleb is in love with MC. Everyone. Including you. But that does not stop him from flirting with you, teasing you, keeping you close. And it definitely does not stop you from falling for him—even when you know you’re just a stand-in, a place holder.
“Use me.”
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i appreciate all likes, comments, reblogs, and asks. i may not reply to all of them, but i want you to know that i reread them over and over <3
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Peace has never felt more profound. Wrapped in the quiet hush of evening, the cool hum of the air conditioner, and the soft duvet cocooning your body, the weight of the world loosens its grip. The storm of thoughts, the heaviness pressing against your ribs—it all quiets, dissolving into the stillness.
Only when left alone, surrendered to the depths of sleep, do you finally feel light. Free. At ease.
But of course, peace was never meant to last. Not when you agreed to this trip.
Three knocks at the door. A soft beep of the lock.
“Yn? Are you still sleeping?”
MC’s voice pulls you from the haze of slumber, gentle but insistent. The mattress dips slightly as she steps closer.
You groan, turning away from the sound, but she only huffs.
“It’s already seven. You haven’t eaten anything all day.” Concern laces her words as she reaches out, pressing the back of her hand against your forehead. A soft smile tugs at her lips. “You’re not burning up anymore.”
Blinking against the lingering blur of sleep, you rub your eyes, squinting up at her.
“Mhmm,” you mumble, barely coherent.
The tension in her shoulders eases at your response, the worry fading as a familiar brightness returns to her face.
“Here—eat.” She sets a bowl in your hands, warmth seeping through the ceramic. Steam rises, carrying the scent of something unmistakably familiar.
Dark green seaweed sways in golden broth, delicate strands floating between pieces of soft tofu.
Your brows furrow. “Where did you get this?”
“Caleb made it.” She grins. “He was adamant about you finishing every last drop, so you better eat up.”
The words settle heavily in your chest.
You know this dish.
It’s the same soup you once made for him when he was too sick to get out of bed, voice hoarse, fever clouding his mind. The same one he had groggily murmured was the best thing he had ever tasted.
The warmth of the memory seeps in before you can stop it.
Back then, his voice had been hoarse, barely above a whisper, thick with exhaustion.
“Caleb, you should eat.”
“Mmnh… not hungry…” He mumbled, shifting away from the dish in your hands, cheek pressed against the pillow.
You huffed, exasperated but unwilling to let him get away with it. “I promise it’ll make you feel better. Seaweed soups are the best for colds. Trust me.”
It took a few more tries to convince him. A few more weak protests before you had enough.
“Bzz, the airplane’s coming!” You guided the spoon toward his lips, making an exaggerated motion.
A smile flickered across his face, slow and lazy, before it stretched into something wider. “Pfft—Stop acting like I’m five!”
His laughter was bright, warm. It tugged at your heart in ways you didn’t want to admit.
“You’re acting like one, so I must treat you as one,” you countered, puffing your cheeks. “Now open up!”
His shoulders shook from suppressed giggles, but he relented, raising a mock defensive hand. “Okay, okay! Pfft—”
His laughter was cut off by a fit of coughs, his body curling in on itself slightly. Your expression immediately shifted, a deeper frown settling between your brows.
“Stop playing around. This is my secret recipe. It’ll stop you from starting another pandemic,” you scolded, pushing the spoon toward him again.
He groaned, but finally obeyed, letting the warmth of the soup settle in his mouth.
His eyes widened, lips parting in surprise.
“You weren’t joking,” he muttered, almost in awe. “This is really good.”
Fatigue seemed to lift slightly from his face, a softness settling in its place.
“See?” You huffed, victorious.
But then—his gaze softened in a way that made your heart skip a beat.
“Thank you, shortcake,” he murmured, reaching up with sluggish movements to ruffle your hair. His touch was light, absentminded. Familiar.
Your heart had tugged—just slightly.
Now, staring at the same soup, the warmth of the past curling in your chest like a ghost of something you no longer recognize, you swallow down whatever unspoken feeling rises in your throat.
“Well?” MC grins, nudging you. “Eat up before it gets cold.”
You hesitate, just for a moment, then lift the spoon to your lips.
It tastes the same.
And yet, somehow, it doesn’t.
You take another spoonful, swallowing the warmth down along with the lump in your throat.
MC, oblivious to the thoughts stirring in your head, plops down beside you, stretching her limbs dramatically.
“God, today was exhausting,” she groans, tilting her head back. “I swear, if I have to redo that crying scene one more time, I might actually start sobbing for real.”
You hum absentmindedly, stirring the soup with your spoon.
“And Caleb—ugh, don’t get me started on him. He seemed really out of it today.” she continues, rolling onto her side to face you. “Like, he kept missing his queues, kept dazing in the middle of the shoot. Kept asking me if you ate, made me go shop for the soup’s ingredients with him, double-check the soup, even told me it was your favorite like I didn’t already know that.”
Your hand stills over the bowl.
MC doesn’t notice.
She sighs dramatically, propping her head up with one hand. “He even snapped at me earlier. Like, Caleb snapped at me. Can you believe that?”
You glance at her, arching a brow. “What did he say?”
She huffs. “I was teasing him, you know? Asking if he’s finally realizing he’s in love with you or whatever. And he just looked at me—like, seriously looked at me—and said, ‘She’s sick, Michaela.’ Like, what?”
Something sharp presses against your chest, but you don’t acknowledge it.
MC groans again, stretching her arms before flopping back onto the bed. “I get it, though,” she sighs, rolling onto her side to face you. Then, without warning, she grabs your hand, squeezing it tightly.
“I was worried sick about you too, Yn.” Her voice softens, the teasing gone. “Don’t go fainting like that again, okay? You gotta tell me if you’re too tired. I need you to be okay.”
You stare at her, her fingers warm against yours, grounding you in a way nothing else has. The weight in your chest—the anger, the ache that’s been gnawing at you since this trip began—fades, just a little.
Because this is MC.
Bright, infuriating, golden MC, who always means it when she says she cares.
And you love her for it.
You love her.
You always have.
So despite everything—despite the storm in your chest, despite the way the world has been tilting under your feet—you smile.
“Yeah,” you murmur, squeezing her hand back. “I know.”
Her lips curl into a grin, her eyes gleaming like the sun itself. And just like that, just for a second, the world feels a little lighter.
“Anyways, enough about that. You need to catch up on all the drama you missed today. And—”
She launches into a rant, animated as ever, filling the room with stories of the ‘earth-shattering’ events you somehow survived without.
Somewhere between her exaggerated retellings and her scandalized gasps, you find yourself laughing.
And just like that, the fatigue melts away.
You only realize you’ve finished the soup when MC casually plucks the empty bowl from your hands, setting it on the table without missing a beat.
She keeps talking, her words tumbling out in a steady, animated stream—until they don’t.
You notice it immediately.
The slight stutter. The way her voice falters mid-sentence. The way her fingers suddenly fidget with the loose threads of the blanket. The way a soft, barely-there pink dusts her cheeks.
Your brows furrow slightly. “MC?”
She clears her throat, forcing a casual laugh. “Sorry, I just—uh—” she waves a hand, trying to dismiss whatever just flustered her, but you catch it. You always catch it.
The way her lips press together. The way her eyes flicker away, focusing anywhere but you.
Suspicion creeps in. “What?”
“Nothing.”
“MC.”
She groans dramatically, covering her face with her hands before peeking through her fingers, her voice dropping ever so slightly.
“It’s just—I was practicing lines with Sylus today, and—”
She hesitates, the words caught somewhere between reluctance and amusement.
Your brows lift.
Sylus?
Of course, you know he’s popular. You’ve seen the way girls linger around him, how they find excuses to talk to him. But MC?
Your lips part slightly, but before you can say anything, something else creeps in—unbidden.
The warmth of his body on the tip of your fingers.
The sharp scent of rain clinging to his skin.
The steady grip of his hand, pulling you away from the storm.
The way he leaned against the wall, damp silver strands falling over his eyes, a towel draped over his shoulders, sharp and unbothered.
The quiet turn of a page, his presence steady, grounding, when everything else felt like it was slipping through your fingers.
You swallow.
The memories pass in a flash, leaving behind something you don’t quite understand.
MC doesn’t notice your silence. She groans again, shaking her head.
“Ugh, never mind. It’s not a big deal,” she mutters, but there’s a warmth on her face she can’t quite hide.
Your lips twitch.
“Oh my god,” you gasp dramatically, eyes widening as you lean in closer. “Are you blushing?”
MC swats at you with a pillow, groaning into her hands. “I said never mind!”
That only makes your grin widen.
“No, no, this is important information,” you tease, nudging her shoulder. “MC, do you have a crush on Sylus?”
She groans even louder, flopping onto the bed in defeat.
“Shut up, Yn. My character has a crush on his character. I’m just way too immersed in the acting!”
You laugh, the sound light, genuine.
•
The next few days go by like a blur.
You wake up to MC’s blaring alarm.
You get ready.
You practice your part.
You film.
You watch MC film.
You watch her cheeks flush a little more in scenes she shares with Sylus.
You watch their characters develop.
You eat.
You listen to her rants.
You enjoy the sunset, alone.
You sleep.
Like clockwork, everything plays out like it did yesterday.
And just like everything else, he is on replay, too.
His voice weaves itself into your routine, persistent and unrelenting. A teasing remark over breakfast. A lazy greeting when he passes by. A nudge here, a comment there. Always casual. Always acting as if nothing happened.
“Still mad, shortcake?”
“Damn, I didn’t know you had this much endurance. Impressive.”
“Let me make it up to you.”
You don’t respond.
“Was today tiring?”
You don’t acknowledge him.
“Are you hungry?”
You don’t even look at him.
“Someone’s making a full-time career out of dodging me.”
It’s almost comical, how hard he’s trying to act like things are fine. Like you didn’t stand there, glaring at him with every ounce of anger you could muster just a few nights ago. Like you weren’t left in the rain, stranded in a memory of him choosing her, again.
But that’s Caleb. Always brushing things off, playing it cool, making it seem like nothing ever really matters.
And maybe if you weren’t still seething, it would’ve worked.
And to an extent, maybe it has.
Because the desperation in his eyes seems to seep out a little more with every interaction.
And when he leans a little too close one afternoon, when his fingers brush against your wrist as he tries to catch your attention, your heart still skips. But the scene of that night haunts you. The line cutting, her laughter, his tender eyes looking at her. So you snatch your hand away, sharp and final.
The laughter in his eyes dims, if only for a second.
“Damn. Harsh.” His playful tone faltering a little.
You don’t answer.
And after each of these interactions, your eyes always somehow find its way to the man lingering on the side. And more often than not, you meet his gaze. His ruby eyes pierces through you with a smug smirk plastered on his face.
Oh how much you hate that smug face of his.
It’s a look that says he’s watching. That he’s amused.
Like you’re the most interesting thing in the room. Like he already knows how this game ends.
You tear your gaze away, but it’s too late. That smirk is already burned into your mind, curling at the edges of your thoughts, creeping under your skin.
Sylus never says much. He lingers—always just far enough to be uninvolved, yet close enough to witness everything.
Though every single time, he holds your gaze just long enough to let you know that he sees you.
And maybe that should feel comforting.
Maybe it should make you feel like you’re finally being seen.
But with him—with the way his eyes glint like he’s one step ahead, like he’s entertained by something you don’t even understand yet—
it doesn’t feel like comfort.
It feels like a warning.
•
“Hey! Can someone grab more drinks?”
“On it!” you shout.
Being done with all of your scenes, you try to help out around the set where you can. You walk away from the beach and to the parking lot where the tents and coolers are set under the trees’ shades. The bickers and chatters fade into the heat as you approach the swaying canopy. The air is heavier here—thicker, still carrying the scent of salt and sunscreen but now mixed with the plasticky cool of stored ice.
You crouch by one of the coolers, popping the lid open, letting a gust of chilled air wash over your arms.
The silence here is different.
Less alive, less buzzing.
You should be relieved.
But instead, all you can hear is the echo of their voices.
“She’s pretty good at acting,” someone says.
“She does her job well,” another agrees.
“We should’ve given her another role. She could’ve pulled off a character with more significance.”
“Nah, I don’t think so. She acts well, but she doesn’t shine. Not like her.”
You exhale, pressing your lips together.
Something inside you tenses.
The other laughs in response. “Of course, I wasn’t comparing her to Machela. Their auras are very different. One’s the main character, the other’s a decent supporting. You can’t compare them.”
Your brows knit together.
You keep your hands still, your breath steady. You don’t react, don’t turn, don’t acknowledge the way the words settle against your skin like grains of sand—light and fleeting, but impossible to shake off
It’s fine. It doesn’t matter.
They’re just opinions, just talk.
You don’t care. You’ve never cared.
You know your role. You know your place.
And yet—your gaze betrays you.
Before you can stop yourself, your eyes flicker to the beach, to her.
MC stands effortlessly at the center of it all, bathed in the golden afternoon light, surrounded by the main characters, the ones who make the scene come alive.
Even among them, she stands out.
She doesn’t try to shine, she doesn’t try to call for attention—she just does.
And then there’s you, just there.
Blending so well into the background that no one even notices you listening.
You swallow, pushing away the uncomfortable weight creeping up your throat.
A breeze stirs the trees, making the tents flutter. You reach into the ice, grabbing a handful of cans, the cold biting against your fingertips.
You exhale, force your shoulders to relax, and do what you always do.
You shake it off. You move.
You quickly grab as many drinks as you can hold and hurry back to the set.
“Who wants water?” Your voice bright, easy.
You step back onto the sand, the heat pressing down on your skin, the voices of the crew and cast swelling around you once more. The coolness of the shade lingers faintly on your fingertips, already fading as you carry the drinks back.
But the words silently follow your trails.
“Oh my god, you’re a life saver!”
MC’s voice snaps you out of it as she practically lunges for one of the cans in your hands, tearing it open like she’s been stranded on this beach for days. She presses it to her cheek, sighing dramatically.
“I’m dying,” she groans, tipping her head back for a long gulp. “Why did I agree to film on a beach? Who thought this was a good idea?”
Before you can answer, another shadow falls over you.
A shift in the air. A presence that arrives so smoothly, so effortlessly, that you don’t even notice until he’s already there.
Sylus.
He reaches out and plucks a drink from your hand, slow and deliberate, fingers brushing the condensation-slick surface.
Then—he opens it.
The sound is sharp against the hazy heat, a crisp hiss that barely lingers before he tips the can back.
And you watch.
The way his throat moves as he drinks, slow and deep, his Adam’s apple bobbing with each swallow. The way a bead of sweat drips from his temple, trailing down the sharp line of his jaw, catching in the dip of his collarbone before disappearing beneath his shirt.
For a second, the world feels too slow.
When he lowers the can, he’s already looking at you.
“What?” he says, voice smooth, amused, a smirk tugging lazily at his lips. “Not for me?”
Your face immediately scrunches up.
Not a word leaves your mouth, but the reaction is enough.
Sylus chuckles, taking another sip like he’s entertained by something only he understands.
Then, just as effortlessly as he arrived, he turns and walks off, the warm breeze ruffling through his hair, leaving behind nothing but the faintest trace of cool metal and salt air.
Silence settles between you and MC.
It takes you a second to notice it—the fact that she hasn’t moved, hasn’t said a word.
You glance at her. The red dusting her face. The way she presses her lips together, eyes darting everywhere but where Sylus just stood.
Something tugs at your chest.
A feeling—small, unclear, curling at the edges of your ribs like an itch you can’t quite scratch.
You don’t exactly understand it, nor do you want to.
So you push it down, bury it deep, shove it away before it can take shape.
“Oh,” you hum, forcing a smirk on your lips.
MC immediately stiffens. “No.”
“Ohhh.”
“No, no, no!” She flails her hands in front of her face like she can physically push the accusation away.
“You’re blushing.”
“I am not!”
“You totally are.”
She lets out a strangled noise, shaking her head so fast her hair whips around her shoulders. “I—I’m not crushing!” she wails, throwing her hands up. “I’m just—ugh, it’s the next scene, okay?!”
You pause.
The next scene.
The kiss scene.
With Sylus.
You blink, then grin. “That’s what you’re nervous about?”
MC groans, dragging a hand down her face. “He’s so annoying,” she grumbles. “How am I supposed to do this with someone who just—oozes arrogance?” She gulps down the drink in her hands, turning away.
“Try not to melt, yeah? Would be real awkward if the crew had to scrape you off the floor after this.” A playful voice interrupts your conversation.
Caleb.
He strides toward the two of you, effortless as always, plucking a can from your hands and popping it open with a crisp hiss. His smirk is there—light, teasing, the same one he always wears when he’s messing around.
But it doesn’t quite reach his eyes.
His gaze flicks to the spot where Sylus had just been.
Something in his jaw tightens.
Others might have missed it, but you know him too well. You’re well too accustomed to watching him, seeing all his micro movements when he interacts with MC.
His fingers curl just a little too tightly around the can, knuckles faintly stiff.
Still, he plays it off.
“So,” he drawls, turning back to MC, forcing that smirk back into place. “How long are you gonna make us suffer through this? You practicing, or are we just skipping to the part where you swoon?”
MC snaps to attention, the red still fresh on her face. “I don’t—shut up.”
Caleb clicks his tongue, mockingly thoughtful. “Huh. So defensive. Makes you wonder.”
“You wonder too much,” she fires back, narrowing her eyes.
“Nah,” he grins, taking a slow sip of his drink. “I just have an eye for lost causes.”
And then, before she can dodge, he presses the cold can against her cheek.
MC yelps, jerking away. “Caleb—what the hell!”
“Thought you were overheating,” he muses, completely unbothered. “Wouldn’t want you fainting before the big scene.”
MC glares, rubbing at her cheek like he’s personally offended her. “You’re the worst.”
“And yet,” he sighs, shaking his head. “Still a better option than him.”
MC groans. “Are you seriously insulting Sylus right now?”
“I’m just saying,” Caleb shrugs, casual. “The guy looks like he bites.”
“You’re so dramatic.”
“And you’re gonna let him lick your face in front of all of us.”
“It’s a kiss, you idiot—”
“Same difference.”
Before MC can strangle him, the director’s voice cuts through the chatter.
“Alright, places, everyone! Let’s run the scene.”
MC freezes.
The teasing dies.
Caleb hums. “Uh-oh. That’s your cue.”
She exhales sharply, smoothing down her clothes like that’ll somehow fix her nerves.
“Don’t overthink it,” he says lightly, taking another sip. “It’s just a scene, right?”
MC glares at him, muttering something under her breath before stomping toward the set.
His eyes follow her form, watching her go.
Caleb’s smirk lingers, but it’s hollow now—more muscle memory than anything else.
Then, without a word, he crushes the empty can in his fist.
You don’t say anything.
You just stand there, staring at the crumpled metal in his hand, feeling the weight of everything he isn’t saying.
The sharp crunch of aluminum still lingers in the air when you finally take a step back, about to turn away—
But before you can, his hand grabs your wrist.
Firm. Unrelenting.
Your breath catches.
“Come here,” he mutters, low, rough, before pulling you with him.
You barely have time to react before you’re being led away from the crowd, past the chatter, past the cameras and the blinding sun.
He doesn’t stop until you’re tucked into the shadows of a secluded corner, hidden behind a wall where no one can see.
Only then does he let go.
Only then does he turn to you, dark eyes burning with something too raw, too intense.
“How long are you going to keep this up?” he asks.
The words hit the air, heavier than they should be.
You blink. “What—”
“I’m sorry, okay?” His voice is frustrated, breath uneven. “I know I messed up. I should’ve paid more attention. I should’ve—”
He stops himself, exhaling sharply, dragging a hand through his hair like he’s barely holding something together.
Then, before you can move—
His hands press against the wall, caging you in.
Not touching you. But close.
Too close.
His scent fills your senses—something warm, sharp, unmistakably him.
“You can’t convince yourself to hate me with every fiber of your being, wouldn’t you agree?” he murmurs, voice quieter now, but no less desperate. “I’ll eventually find a way to make things right. As long as…” he pauses. His breaths are shuddering.
Your heart stutters.
“You’re by my side,” he whispers.
His eyes flicker over your face, searching, waiting—
And then, softer, rougher—
“Please.”
A breath.
“I need you now more than ever.”
The words sink into your skin, settle into your chest, and God—
It hurts.
Because you know.
You know this isn’t about you.
Not really.
Not in the way you want it to be.
He’s frustrated. He’s angry. Not at you—but at something else, at someone else, at the way things are slipping through his fingers.
And here you are.
Pulled into the scene like always.
Here to fill in the gaps.
Here to be the character he needs in this moment.
Your throat tightens.
Your fingers curl into fists.
You don’t shove him away.
You don’t give in, either.
You just look at him.
At the tension in his jaw. At the way his chest rises and falls just a little too fast.
“Action!”
The director’s voice rings out.
Like a snapped thread, Caleb pulls away.
Your attention shifts
And you see it.
The perfect scene unfolding before you.
The setting sun drenches the world in gold, soft and warm, casting a glow over the sand, the ocean, the two figures at the center of it all.
MC and Sylus.
MC in the center, like always.
Sylus’s hands rest on her waist, firm but careful. His fingers trace along the curve of her back, pulling her closer, into him, into his world. His head tilts, his smirk faint, unreadable—like he’s in control of every beat of this moment.
MC leans in.
Slow, hesitant, shy.
Like a girl falling into the gravity of a man she can’t escape.
The light catches the soft parting of her lips, the uncertainty, the delicate trust in her expression.
Sylus’s fingers tighten, and he closes the distance.
Their lips brush—light at first—before she melts into him, hands lifting to his chest.
It’s effortless.
Beautiful.
The kind of moment people will remember.
The picture-perfect romance.
A story falling into place.
Your stomach twists.
It’s not the kiss itself that gets to you. It’s the way the scene feels like fate, the way it’s framed, the way the world seems to bend itself around her like she was always meant to be at the center.
Like everything happens for her.
And, as if to prove your point—you gaze shifts.
And you see Caleb.
He’s watching the scene.
Watching her.
His breaths are coming even more uneven than before.
Not obvious, not noticeable to most.
But, caged between his arms, you see it.
The way his chest rises just a little too fast, the way his fingers flex and release at his sides, the way his jaw locks so tightly you swear he might break something.
And your chest burns more than ever.
You hate it. You hate everything about this.
You hate how, no matter what happens—this world, this story, this entire thing, bends itself around her.
That all of you—you, Caleb, and even Sylus— are just pieces in the grand design of her narrative.
That no matter where you stand, no matter what you do—
MC is the one the light falls on.
She is the one everything happens for.
She is the one whose all her wishes come true.
You hate it. You hate how you’re just here.
Always here.
Always playing a role in someone else’s story.
And you hate it most that your eyes are turning green looking at her.
That the jealousy creeping up your throat, curling tight in your chest, isn’t just about the scene or the way Sylus or Caleb seem to orbit around her.
It’s about the way the world chooses her, time and time again.
And the fact that you’re bitter about it—
That you feel this way at all—
God, you hate it.
“You don’t need me, Caleb.” your voice much weaker than you want it to be.
You push him out, and quickly turn away, walking off, leaving the beach, the golden sunset, the picture-perfect scene.
And if Caleb calls after you—you don’t hear it.
You don’t want to.
•
The night air presses against your skin, cool but not enough. Not enough to wash away the tension in your chest, not enough to erase the way your own voice had echoed back at you—
The long walk you took should’ve made you feel lighter.
You should feel relieved.
But you don’t.
Instead, the weight follows you, pressing against your ribs with every step, every breath, every slow drag of the tide pulling at the shore. The muffled sounds of the set fade behind you, swallowed by the darkness of the beach.
Only when you get closer to the resort do you start hearing the music.
It starts as a distant thrum, pulsing faintly through the heavy night air. A low bassline reverberating from somewhere ahead, blending with the sound of crashing waves. It takes a second to register, for your feet to slow, for the familiar heat of it to sink in.
The afterparty.
It’s inside the main house, a sprawling beachfront villa that serves as the cast and crew’s retreat after long filming days. The windows glow golden and inviting, the silhouette of moving bodies visible through the sheer curtains.
You hover near the doorway.
Inside, the world is warmer, hazier, looser.
The weight of the evening still sits heavy on your shoulders, but no one else seems to notice. No one else cares.
People are sprawled across couches, tucked into booths, pressed against walls, drinks in hand, faces flushed from alcohol and laughter. The lighting is low, a mixture of dim lamps and fairy lights strung along the ceiling, flickering against the glass like trapped fireflies. The scent of spilled liquor, cheap cologne, and the lingering trace of bonfire smoke fills the air.
MC is somewhere in the center of it all.
You see her immediately.
Perched on the arm of a couch, grinning, draped in warmth and attention, her head tilting back in laughter as someone hands her another drink. She looks effortless, as if the day never happened, as if the weight of the scene she filmed with Sylus didn’t still cling to her like it does to you.
She glows.
Like she always does.
And for the first time, you don’t want to be anywhere near her.
Not tonight.
You turn away, slipping past the clusters of people, past the thrumming energy, and find a quiet corner.
A small table sits against the wall, lined with bottles, a stack of plastic cups haphazardly placed beside them.
You grab one.
Then a bottle.
The first drink goes down too fast. The second burns, but you barely react. The third is easier, a slow warmth spreading through your limbs, seeping into your fingers, dulling the sharp edges of your thoughts.
You lean back against the wall, fingers wrapped loosely around the cup, and watch as the night moves on without you.
MC is spinning, giggling, spilling half her drink as she sways to the music. Someone reaches for her waist, catching her just before she loses her balance. Caleb.
He’s there, as always.
Steadying her, teasing her, watching her.
You tip your cup back, draining the rest of your drink.
The music swells, the bass thrumming against your skin. The alcohol curls deeper into your system, warm and heady, numbing the part of you that still feels too present, too aware.
You don’t want to be aware.
You just want to sit here in this corner, where no one is watching, where no one is expecting anything from you.
And for a while, you do.
Drink after drink, until the night feels softer at the edges, until the sound of laughter no longer feels like it belongs to a world you can’t touch.
But then, a loud clap pierces through the room and the music lowers.
The music lowers.
“Alright, listen up! It’s time to bring some romance to life!”
The energy shifts.
People perk up, some groaning, some cheering, all of them gravitating toward the center of the room.
You barely react, swirling the last bit of alcohol in your cup.
But then, you hear it.
“Seven minutes in heaven, baby! Who’s in?”
Your fingers tighten around your drink.
MC perks up immediately, eyes gleaming with the kind of reckless excitement that only comes with being several drinks in.
Caleb groans, rolling his eyes, but he’s grinning.
Meanwhile, you simply sigh as your gaze falls back to the cup in your hand.
Because of course it’s this.
Of course this night, like everything else, will find a way to make her the center of it.
“We’re going to spice things up a little bit,” someone announces over the music, their voice dripping with amusement. A cup filled with rolled-up pieces of paper rattles in their hands as they shake it for emphasis.
“Instead of randomly drawing two names, only one name will be called.”
A pause. Anticipation thickens the air, curious murmurs rippling through the crowd.
The person smirks. “Once that name is called, you’ll be given ten seconds to either volunteer yourself or—” they tilt the cup teasingly, “your friend to be their partner.”
A wave of excitement rolls through the room. Some people cheer, some groan, some exchange knowing glances. A few shove their friends forward, already laughing at the thought of throwing them into the game.
The first name is drawn.
Someone calls it out, and there’s a brief, charged pause before someone steps forward, dramatically throwing their hands up. The crowd erupts as they disappear behind the door, laughter and wolf whistles chasing after them.
Then another name.
And another.
Each round follows the same pattern—a pause, then cheering, then the shuffle of two people slipping into the closet.
Some stumble back out minutes later, flushed and breathless, met with hollers and teasing. Others laugh it off, shaking their heads, grinning like they’ve just escaped something ridiculous.
The alcohol, the music, the flickering lights—everything feels looser, bolder, dipping further into recklessness with each passing round.
People egg each other on, nudging shoulders, calling out names before they’re even drawn, spurring the night forward like a challenge.
And then—
Another name is pulled.
The voice rings loud over the noise.
And your heart stops.
“Yn!”
Heads turn. Conversations pause. A slow wave of curiosity and anticipation ripples through the crowd as people glance around, searching for you.
“There she is!”
A pair of hands grab your wrist before you can even think about running.
Laughter spills around you as you’re dragged through the throng of people, the heat of bodies pressing in from all sides. Your pulse spikes, the alcohol in your system making everything feel sluggish yet sharp all at once—like you’re wading through a dream you can’t control.
They stop right in front of the closet.
Someone swings an arm over your shoulders, grinning.
“Sooo,” they drawl, their voice dripping with mischief, “who’d like to partner up with her?”
A beat of silence follows.
A moment—thick, expectant.
And then—
The crowd parts.
The shift is subtle at first, a presence cutting through the sea of bodies, slow, unhurried, inevitable.
Then you see him.
He steps forward with the kind of effortless confidence that demands attention—shoulders relaxed, hands tucked into the pockets of his fitted black slacks, the faintest smirk curling at his lips.
The room reacts before you do.
A low hum of interest, a few knowing whistles, someone muttering “Oh, shit.”
And God, does he know what he’s doing.
His stride is measured, each step slow and deliberate, the kind that makes you feel like he’s taking his time just to make a statement. The dim lighting casts sharp shadows along his jawline, highlighting the sculpted edges of his face—the messily tousled silver hair, the piercing crimson eyes that lock onto yours like a brand.
He doesn’t blink.
Doesn’t waver.
Just watches you as he approaches, like he’s already decided—like this was never even up for discussion.
Then, finally—
He stops right in front of you.
Too close.
The warmth of him seeps into the space between you, a contrast to the cool scent of his cologne—something crisp, dark, dangerous in a way that makes your stomach twist.
He tilts his head, the movement slow, teasing.
“What?” his voice is smooth, low enough that only you can hear. “Not for me?”
The words slam into you like a punch to the gut—because he knows exactly what he’s doing, and he’s enjoying every second of it.
The room erupts around you, people whooping, clapping, some downright losing their minds over the fact that Sylus fucking Qin just stepped forward for this game.
You swallow.
Your fingers twitch at your sides. Your pulse spikes, heat curling at the edges of your skin—not just from the alcohol, not just from the intensity of his gaze, but from the sheer presence of him.
Your eyes flicker around the room, anxious of all the cheering going on. Though, it lands on her. On MC.
Your breath catches.
She is staring. Not laughing. Not cheering like the others.
And for the first time tonight, she looks shocked.
Like this wasn’t supposed to happen.
Like this wasn’t part of the story she had in her head.
Your stomach twists, heat creeping up your spine.
However, you were quickly pulled out of your daze when someone claps you on the back, pushing you forward.
The crowd cheers louder and the closet door swings open.
Darkness yawns before you.
Sylus steps forward first, his hand brushing against your lower back as he guides you inside. Casual. Effortless. Like he’s done this before. Like he’s leading you somewhere only he understands.
The door clicks shut.
And the world is swallowed whole.
The music, the voices, the party—it all fades, muffled by the thick wooden walls, leaving only this.
Only him.
Your breath comes uneven, your pulse a heavy drumbeat in your ears, because suddenly, the space around you feels too small. The darkness presses in from all sides, thick and stifling, and the only thing clouding your senses—
Is him.
Sylus leans back against the door, his presence unshakable, his scent thick in the air.
Woody. Dark. A hint of spice laced with something richer, smokier.
Cigar musk and worn leather. Something dangerously smooth, something that lingers.
You can’t see him, but you feel him.
Feel the warmth of his body just inches away. Feel the gravity of him, the way he takes up space without even trying.
The realization of your positions slams into you, sharp and sudden, sending heat curling through your stomach.
You take a step back, but there’s nowhere to go—the closet is too small, too tight, too suffocatingly intimate.
A chuckle. Low, amused, sinful.
“Already nervous?” His voice is pure velvet, thick with the kind of arrogance that makes your stomach tighten.
You swallow, your fingers twitching at your sides.
“I’m not nervous.”
“Mm.” He hums, unconvinced.
The air between you is loaded, heavy, charged with something you don’t know how to name.
And then—
A shift.
A quiet creak of leather. A faint rustle of fabric.
He moves.
Closer.
You don’t even hear him step forward, don’t see him in the thick darkness—but you feel it. The way the space tightens. The way his heat licks at your skin, close enough to touch.
Close enough that if you just reached out—
A warm breath skims along your jaw.
You freeze.
Not touching. Not yet. But so close it doesn’t even matter.
Your own breath hitches, and that’s when you feel it—
His smirk.
You can’t see it. But you can feel it.
The way the air shifts between you, the way the silence stretches, the way his head tilts just slightly, like he’s waiting.
Like he’s playing with his food.
The muscles in your stomach tighten.
“You’re quiet,” he murmurs, voice dipping even lower, more intimate, like a secret meant only for you. “Not used to being this close to me?”
Your fingers curl into fists, nails biting into your palms.
And God, you hate him for this.
For the way he gets under your skin without even trying.
For the way he makes you feel like you’re standing on the edge of something dangerous, something uncontrollable, something that might swallow you whole if you let it.
The air between you is charged, electric, the kind of tension that makes your skin feel too hot, too tight.
A low chuckle erupts from his chest, its vibrations reaching yours. He leans down towards your ear, his breath tickling your skin.
“Use me.”
The words hit the air like a match against gasoline.
Your breath catches.
A smirk curves against the dark. He knows.
Of course he knows.
“Use me to make him jealous.”
Your stomach tightens, heat spreading through your limbs like liquid fire.
You swallow. “That’s—”
“That’s what you want, isn’t it?” His voice dips lower, a soft, taunting hum, stepping closer, just enough that you catch the faintest trace of clean linen and something sharp beneath it.
You hate that your pulse spikes.
You hate that he’s right.
You hate how easily he gets under your skin, how effortlessly he peels you open without even touching you.
You part your lips to deny it, but—
“Or,” he muses, tilting his head slightly, voice edged with something wicked, something dangerous, something that makes your knees feel weak—
“If you’d rather make it more interesting…”
A pause. A shift. A fraction of movement, barely there—
But you feel it.
The brush of his breath against your skin, the slow, unbearable closeness.
“…Use me to make her jealous.”
Your breath stutters.
He sees it.
He feels it.
And the slow, lazy smirk that tugs at his lips—it’s lethal.
Like he’s already won.
Like he knows exactly what buttons he’s pushing.
Like he’s daring you to say yes.
Your fingers curl into fists. Heat rolls beneath your skin, something dangerous, something reckless.
You should tell him to fuck off.
You should shove him away.
You should—
But you don’t.
Because in this moment, in this dark, stifling space—
You don’t know what you want more.
To prove him wrong.
Or to let him be right.
Perhaps it’s the pain you’ve been swallowing for months, the way it’s settled deep in your ribs, pressing against your lungs like a bruise that refuses to fade.
Perhaps it’s the alcohol, heavy in your bloodstream, loosening your grip on restraint, making you weak to the things you never let yourself touch.
Or maybe—maybe—it’s the way your stomach twists at the memory of her face.
MC’s wide, stunned eyes. The sharp sting of betrayal flashing across her features.
And as much as you hate it, as much as that look should send you crumbling—
Some twisted part of you puffs.
Some part of you, buried beneath layers of resentment, self-doubt, and the endless role of being cast in the background, thrives on it.
Because for once—for once—she is not the one standing in the center of the world.
For once, you have something she doesn’t.
And maybe it’s wrong. Maybe you’ll hate yourself for this later.
But right now—right now—
The weight of Sylus’s heat against you, the scent of smoke and clean linen and something sharp curling into your senses, pressing into the empty spaces inside you—
It’s stopping you from thinking straight.
And when his lips part, when his breath brushes over your skin, when the last thread of tension pulls taut between you—
You stop thinking altogether.
Because before you can second-guess yourself—
You grab him.
Fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, yanking him down, crashing into him like you’ve lost control of gravity itself.
Heat.
Pressure.
It is all you can feel.
His lips crash against yours, and everything ignites.
Your lips slowly move, and his follow suit. You can feel the smirk on his lips.
That damned smirk.
But your mind is wiped clean as soon as he tilts his head, the kiss turning hungrier. The tension builds, unraveling into something desperate, something heavy, something neither of you have the willpower to stop anymore.
Sylus lets out a low, dark chuckle against your mouth, but you swallow it whole.
He recovers quickly—of course he does—because the moment you give in, he’s already taking.
His hands slam against the wall behind you, pinning you between him and nothing else, his body pressing in, heat bleeding through his clothes and onto your skin.
The kiss is rough, deliberate, his lips moving against yours with slow precision, dragging, teasing, tasting.
Like he’s memorizing you.
Like he’s proving a point.
Your breath shudders when he bites, just enough to sting, just enough to make your knees buckle.
You hate that he knows exactly what he’s doing.
Hate that he’s making you melt so easily.
Your nails dig into his shoulders, gripping him tight, using it as leverage when you press your body flush against his.
A sharp inhale from him.
A brief pause.
His fingers dive into your hair, twisting, tugging, tilting your head back as his mouth slants over yours, harder this time.
Deeper.
His other hand slides down, skimming over your ribs, tracing heat into your skin through your clothes before settling at your waist.
Firm. Possessive.
You don’t even realize you’ve been backing up until your back hits the closet wall and he presses in, caging you there, forcing you to feel every inch of him.
Your head spins.
The alcohol, the heat, the weight of him—it’s too much. But not enough.
A low groan rumbles deep in his chest when you tug at his hair, nails raking lightly against his scalp.
And then, his lips break away from yours—just barely, just enough to breathe against your mouth, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his swollen lips.
“Didn’t know you had it in you,” he murmurs, voice thick, husky, laced with something dangerous.
You exhale, your own lips tingling, your chest rising and falling too fast.
“Shut up.”
His teeth flash in the dimness, his breath hot against your lips.
Your grip tightens on his shirt, but it does nothing to steady you.
Sylus moves slowly—deliberate, like he’s savoring this moment, like he has all the time in the world to watch you unravel.
His hands dip beneath your shirt, fingers curling against your waist, his touch cool against the heat of your skin.
You shudder, a sharp inhale betraying you as his fingers start to move—slow, teasing strokes, tracing along the sensitive dip of your spine, mapping you out like he’s memorizing you by touch alone.
His mouth hovers just over yours, his breath fanning against your lips, his smirk felt more than seen in the heavy darkness.
“You’re shaking,” he murmurs, voice a low hum of amusement, his fingers pressing just slightly harder into your waist.
You bite your lip, hating the way your body responds to him, the way his touch burns through the fabric of your self-control.
“I’m not shaking.”
Sylus laughs, a deep, satisfied sound, his grip flexing slightly—his thumbs skimming just beneath the curve of your ribs, fingertips lingering dangerously close to places they shouldn’t be.
“Sure,” he muses, tilting his head. “Keep telling yourself that.”
Then—he shifts.
A slow, taunting drag of his mouth, skimming along the curve of your jaw, down to the edge of your throat.
You swallow hard, your pulse thundering beneath his lips.
“You still thinking about them?” he murmurs, voice dropping into something dark, coaxing, his fingers spreading wider, pressing into the dip of your lower back, pulling you flush against him.
The sharp heat of his body bleeds through your clothes, overwhelming, intoxicating, making it impossible to focus on anything other than him.
His mouth brushes against your neck—just barely, just enough—and a low, approving hum vibrates from his chest when he feels your breath catch.
“Good,” he whispers, voice dark with satisfaction.
His hands trail higher, warmer, slipping beneath the fabric of your shirt, his touch searing against your bare skin.
His fingers splay over the curve of your spine, pressing in just enough to make you arch, just enough to remind you that he has full control of this moment.
“You know,” he murmurs, lips grazing against your throat, voice thick with amusement, “when I said to use me…”
His hands continue their slow ascent, fingertips tracing along the delicate line of your ribs, slipping under the thin strap of your bra, his knuckles brushing dangerously close to places that would mean no turning back.
“I was talking about simply making it seem like we did something.”
He pauses.
A teasing smirk curls against your skin.
“Didn’t think you’d take it so literally.”
Your breath stutters.
A sharp mix of heat and indignation surges through you, twisting deep in your stomach, because he’s playing with you.
Like he knows exactly what he’s doing to you—and he loves every second of it.
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt, gripping tighter, a silent warning, a desperate attempt to keep yourself together.
He just chuckles—low, dark, sinful.
“Getting shy now?” His voice is all arrogance, his hands still skimming, still testing, still pushing you to the edge of losing control completely.
You hate him.
God, you hate him.
But you hate yourself more for the way your body leans into him, for the way your breath hitches when his teeth graze your pulse, for the way his heat drowns you whole.
And the worst part?
He knows.
He always knows.
His lips ghost over your skin, the smirk never leaving.
“Tell me, sweetheart,” he whispers, voice velvet-smooth, “if I slipped my hands a little lower, would you stop me?”
Your stomach flips.
Your grip tightens.
But you don’t answer.
And that silence is exactly what he needs.
Sylus hums, a low, knowing sound, his fingers tightening against your spine, dragging heat along your skin as they trail downward again—slow, teasing, excruciating.
And then, his lips move, lower—tracing just barely along the column of your throat, hovering, not quite touching, not quite giving in.
“No protest?” His voice is mocking, rich with amusement and something darker, something heavier.
His fingers skim along the waistband of your jeans, just a whisper of pressure, enough to send a jolt through your system, enough to make your nails bite into his shirt, into his skin beneath it.
Your pulse hammers, every muscle in your body coiled so tightly you swear you might snap.
His breath brushes against your ear, soft, deliberate, taunting.
“Still not stopping me?”
You should.
You should.
But your body betrays you, tilting into his touch, into his heat, into the danger of him.
Sylus hums, a deep, satisfied sound, his fingers hooking onto the waistband of your jeans—
A knock shatters the daze you were in.
Loud. Sharp.
The closet door rattles slightly.
“Time’s up, lovebirds!” someone calls, muffled through the wood.
Everything freezes.
Your breath catches.
Sylus doesn’t move, not immediately.
For a long, tense second, his fingers linger—just barely pressing into your skin, his body still flush against yours, his lips hovering just over your jaw.
Though slowly, deliberately, devastatingly—he pulls back.
Just enough for you to breathe again.
Just enough to make you ache from the loss.
Sylus stretches, rolling his shoulders lazily before throwing you a look that’s pure, wicked satisfaction. He runs his thumb across his lower lip, like he’s still tasting you there.
The door finally swings open, and light floods in.
His voice is low, smooth as silk, but dripping with mocking amusement, he whispers before he steps out of the closet—
“Shame. I was just getting started.”
my absolute roman empire will always be the way that law's jolly roger he dedicated to cora-san shaped like sun smiling so widely
Happy Super Bat Encounter Day! This is an if setting where the awkward Bat who can only express his care by saying "take care" meets the straight-forward Super Bat.
lulaw / lawlu in the flavor of luffy having an obvious yet undefined crush on law while law just accepts it as something he's sure will fade and doesn't pay it any mind --- because why would he waste any energy taking a 19 y/o's crush seriously??
then 5 years later, law has to deal with luffy, king of the pirates, full blown adult feelings like: aaaAAHHH???!!!YOU WERE SERIOUS??!!!
Days were pretty much uniform at the Onychinus base. There might be some special missions, some variation on what needs to get done, but otherwise one day was like any other.
Which is why it came as a shock when you found out that today Sylus had cleared out the entire schedule.
“Why?” you asked him when he announced the news at breakfast (at least, you called it breakfast despite the hour you ate). “I’m pretty sure I remember you saying you had some important meetings coming up.”
“Well, some things take precedence over that, my dear,” Sylus responded in that cool tone when things should be obvious. “I rescheduled what I need to do to free up the day.”
“Why?” you asked again. “Is something wrong?”
“Not at all.” The playful smirk on Sylus’ face made you wonder if there was need for concern. “In fact, you’ll find out why in just a few moments.”
It was then you noticed the twins’ absence at the table. It wasn’t abnormal for them to be late, but Sylus’ cryptic message made it seem suspicious. “Did the twins finally pull you into one of their pranks? Because if I have to spend all day cleaning up their mess-”
Sylus chuckled, cutting you off. “No actually, it’s quite the opposite.”
You only had a moment for the thought Huh? to cross your mind before the doors burst open and the twins came barreling in with… party hats and noisemakers tucked strangely in their masks?
“Happy birthday!!” they yelled in unison.
What??? You turn to Sylus, who’s pinching the bridge of his nose and muttering something about idiots. “It’s not my birthday.”
“Don’t worry, we’re well aware,” Luke chirped happily.
“But it’s another yearly celebration we hold near and dear to our hearts,” Kieran added in a bit of a dramatic tone.
“It’s the day you appeared at our home, darling,” Sylus explained.
Wait… really? Admittedly you weren’t in a good mindset when you first arrived - you had been killed by a truck only to wind up in a world you thought was a video game. You were going through grief, denial, and an existential crisis.
Yet… they remembered. They considered it an important enough event to spend the day celebrating it, even if you didn’t feel the same. It left you speechless, trying to come up with something to say and coming up blank.
The twins giggled at your stunned expression. “Looks like we got her good boss,” Luke said cheekily.
The feel of Sylus’ hand on yours snapped you out of your trance and brought your focus on him. “I know we threw you on this without warning,” he spoke in that velvety voice that made you melt, “but would you do us the honor of celebrating the day the most important person in the world came into my life?”
Your face warmed at his words and the twins audibly awed. Turning your hand so you could interlock your fingers with his, you gave him a soft smile. “Well, when you say it so sweetly, how can I refuse?”
And that’s how you found yourself taking what you thought was a completely normal day and having a nice day out.
After breakfast, the four of you headed out for Linkon City to hang out at the Game Center. Luke and Kieran, ever the supposed men of mystery, wore sunglasses and black face masks, giving you pandemic flashbacks.
You and Sylus got duo cards and were your respective Gaming Buddies, the twins being their own Gaming Squad. You had a lot of fun playing with each other, especially at the shooting game. It was very similar to laser tag and the top dogs at Onychinus took out the enemies with ruthless efficiency. You just tried to follow along and shoot who you could.
Once you had all worn each other out, you left and went to get snacks at Meow’s Cafe. You’d hoped you could visit here someday. The Evol kitties were even cuter in person and you cooed at them more than you focused on the food.
Sylus pretended to be pouty at the lack of attention, which you responded by putting a kitty on his head. To his dismay and your delight, the kitty was perfectly fine staying there. You made sure to take plenty of pictures as the twins cracked up.
The time slipped by quicker than you expected, and the next thing you knew, you were strolling through Azure Center as the sunset painted the sky a beautiful mural of colors.
“We’ll be taking the bike,” Sylus spoke, breaking the silence. “Luke, Kieran, you take the car.”
“Wait, what?” Sure enough, when you looked, Sylus’ motorcycle was parked in front of the car you came in. You turned to him. “How did you get the bike here?”
His only response was a smirk as he tossed your helmet towards you. “Ready?”
You sighed, reluctant to go on what you termed the death machine, but put on your helmet. “I swear, these surprises are going to be the end of me.”
You couldn’t make out a lot of your trip. The scenery blew by and the wind roared in your ears. You just hugged Sylus’ torso and squeezed your eyes shut, waiting for the ride to be over.
Finally, the bike rolled to a stop. You swung off the bike, took off your helmet, and took a look at your surroundings. There was a peaceful forest area. The light hit the trees from the left side. A place near Linkon that was naturistic and towards the north… were you at the outskirts?
That was all you got before a piece of cloth covered your eyes. “What- Sylus!” you exclaimed, hands raising to move the cloth away.
The cloth tightened a bit, as if a warning. “Ah ah ah,” Sylus’ voice was tinted with amusement, “you wouldn’t want to spoil the surprise, would you?”
Somewhat reluctantly, you dropped your hands. “I hope it’s not too far,” you responded, “because I won’t be getting far like this.”
“You won’t have to worry about that.”
“What do you-” You were cut off by your own yelp as you felt strong arms sweep you off your feet, throwing your center of balance askew before you rested in his arms princess style.
“Sylus! Warn me next time!” you scolded.
You felt the rumble of his chest as he chuckled, and soon after that steady footsteps. “I’ll be sure to, daring. For now, enjoy the ride.”
“Dork,” you said with no zing, settling in his arms and letting the atmosphere creep in. The cool breeze was being kept from chilling you from the body heat Sylus provided. The wildlife settled with the growing night, the light chattering making soothing background noise. You felt that eventually, you could’ve fallen asleep there.
It was a bit of a surprise when you felt Sylus come to a stop. This time you were prepared for the shift in balance as he set you down. “I’m guessing we’re here?” you guessed.
You felt a slight pressure on your blindfold. “Ready?” Sylus prefaced before the darkness was removed from you. The sight made your breath catch in your throat.
You were brought to a cliffside overlooking Linkon City. The lights of the nightlife made the buildings sparkle. Laid out on the grass was a blanket, allowing comfort for watching.
You turned to Sylus, whose eyes were fixed on you with a tender softness. “When did you do this…?”
He gave you a knowing smile. “I took the long way here and had the twins set this up ahead of time.” He gestured towards the blanket. “After you, my lady.”
Unable to hide your smile, you sat down on the blanket and stared out at the city. You felt Sylus sit next to you and you leaned on his side. Together you gazed at the landscape of Linkon.
“It’s beautiful,” you murmured softly.
“I thought you might like it,” Sylus responded with equal quietness.
Your eyes drifted up to the sky. “It’d be nice to see the stars. All this light pollution doesn’t help much.”
“I’ll be sure to remember that next time.” You laughed softly.
“Picture it,” Sylus continued, waving his hand across the sky. “We’re laying on the blanket, looking up and seeing endless stars. The entire universe displayed for us to see.”
You let out a content sigh. “This has been the best day, Sylus.”
He turned to look at you. “I didn’t realize it at the time, but my best day was one year ago.” He brushed the side of your face. “Because you appeared.” A light blush adorned your face and you glanced away bashfully.
An idea started growing in your head. “Hey, Sylus?” He looked at you quizzically.
You turned to face him. “I have a surprise for you.”
His eyebrows shot up a bit and he gave an amused smirk. “Really? I doubt you had the time to procure something for me.”
“Well, I’ll show you,” you answered, “but now it’s time for you to close your eyes.”
His amusement grew but he complied, closing his eyes.
You took a breath to steady yourself. C’mon, don’t be a coward.
You slowly pushed yourself up and positioned yourself so you were straddling Sylus.
His breath hitched like a gasp. He murmured your name like a prayer. His eyelids flickered, threatening to open.
You knew that if you looked into his eyes, you would lose confidence and shy away. So you quickly covered his eyes with your eyes. “I said don’t look…”
His lip quirked a bit as if he was holding back a laugh, but he settled back, letting you have your way.
You suddenly remembered Sylus’ Night of Secrecy card, where he had covered MC’s eyes in a similar fashion. A smile of your own threatened to spread. You forced the moment of humor down. This wasn’t the time for that.
You moved closer to Sylus, eyes locked on his lips. It was a bit awkward trying to get a good angle with your hand covering his eyes.
You sat there for a long moment, your breaths mingling together. Don’t be a coward. You gently pressed your lips on his.
Sylus had always been careful about kisses. He’d kiss your face, your head, your hands, and sometimes up your arms if he was feeling playful. But he didn’t kiss anywhere he didn’t think you were comfortable with, especially not the lips.
You didn’t have a lot of experience in this and you were certain it showed in your uncertainty. Sylus, however, was shown again to be your perfect match. He shared your gentleness, guiding you on how you should act.
Eventually, you drew away and you looked in each other’s eyes, breathing deep and shaky.
Sylus looked at you like you had hung the stars in the sky. “My treasure…”
You swallowed, trying to push down your nerves. “Sylus… I think… I’m ready to start a real relationship with you.”
His eyes widened in shock and scanned you as if looking for assurance. And despite your nerves, you were.
All this time he had been giving you his affection and you had accepted it. But tonight confirmed to you that you wanted more from this. You wanted to return his love. There had been some bumps on the way, but you were ready and wanting to give your love to him.
Sylus breaks into a grin. Not a typical smirk or his rare soft smile, but a full-out grin of complete and utter joy.
Without hesitation, he gently grabbed your face and pulled you in for another kiss. It seemed as if he poured all his love, his longing, every fiber of his being into this kiss.
It felt overwhelming. You couldn’t keep up with him. You returned the kiss, but did so gently without trying to match his fervor. Thankfully it had the effect you wanted. Sylus lessened the intensity so it turned from passionate to tender.
When you broke, he gazed at you with the most lovestruck expression you had ever seen. “You just made me,” he said, sounding a bit breathless, “the happiest man in existence.”
You laughed a bit. “I’m glad you enjoyed my ‘thank you’ so much.”
He pulled you into an embrace. “If I could live forever in this moment, I would.”
You closed your eyes and took a moment to feel him. His warmth, his comfort, his strength.
“I love you Sylus,” you whispered into the wind.
“And I love you, my treasure,” Sylus whispered back.
With that, this is the last part of the Yan!Sylus series! I might still take requests, but I’m not planning on writing anymore. I’m not entirely happy about how this turned out (can you tell I have zero experience in the subject?) but hopefully you guys like it. I hope you’ve enjoyed this series!
Fishbones PART 2 🦈
Sylus becoming aware he is a character in a game and now he’s aware of you as well. A modern day Romeo & Juliet story here …. A tragic love story A/N: Don’t fight me [Requested by: Anon]
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Self-Aware!Sylus who realizes he’s in a game when he can sense your energy on the other side of a phantom wall. He can hear you squealing when he calls you honey and you're radiating happiness when you send him random emojis.
Self-Aware!Sylus who finally sees you when he happens to be looking around during a photoshoot and sees your shocked face when he makes eye contact. He smirks and turns back to the in-game version of you. “Why are you out there?” You dropped your phone and stared at it in shock. Did Sylus just ….. talk to you? You muttered a low ‘Hello?’ but got no response. You brushed it off as you just being tired and on the game too long.
Self-Aware!Sylus who manages to create a keyboard in your chat so he can actually text you. You were so confused when you opened it and it allowed you to type without just pressing a prompt. You gave it a spin with a quick ‘Hey Sylus’ something simple. Of course the message was read immediately and he replied with a ‘Hello [your name]’ you stared at the screen in shock not knowing if this was a new update or if you were just going crazy.
Self-Aware!Sylus who chuckles when he sees you pouting because you didn’t get his card so when you close the app and lay down he gifts you the card himself. You opened the app and the first thing Sylus says to you is “I don’t like seeing you sad, check your memories I left a gift for you”. When you open your memories you see that you not only got his most recent card but all of his five star memories. “What's happening here?” “You’re smile is so captivating I just had to see it again”
Self-Aware!Sylus who opens the app randomly throughout the day so he can see you “I haven’t seen you all day what are you doing?” causing you to snatch your phone off the table because he always seems to catch you when you’re at work or around a group of people. “Sylus I'm at work I'll call you when I get off” he crosses his arms and seems to be pouting? “I don’t like how much you have to work I don’t see you as often” “Well not all of us are billionaires some of us work for said billionaires to make a living” “I wish I could take care of you….” “You and me both”
Self-Aware!Sylus who teases you when he wins a game of kitty cards or who uses his evol to get every stuffed animal for you when you get frustrated. “You sure do wear your heart on your sleeves sweetie”
Self-Aware!Sylus who stares directly at you when you’re doing a photoshoot with your in-game MC “Sylus focus on her so I can get the picture” “I want to focus on you though” “She is me” “…..she’s not”
Self-Aware!Sylus who tells you not to fall in love because he’s not real, but he falls head over heels in love with you anyway. From the late night conversations of you explaining your world to him and just talking about everything and nothing at the same time. He can’t help it one night when you’re up late on the phone as always he just has to ask “Do you love me?” you’re shocked by his question, but swiftly answer with a shy “Yea I do”
Sylus: I thought we agreed not to fall in love Y/N: I was already in love you just noticed late Sylus: I believe I fell harder You giggled as something somber settled in your chest. Y/N: We’ll never truly be together you know? Sylus: I know and yet I continue to long for you …. I wish I could kiss you Y/N: I wish you could too…..
Self-Aware!Zayne Self-Aware!Xavier Self-Aware!Rafayel Self-Aware!Caleb
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wow.... i cant believe they were abandoned and Luffy collected them like treasures.....
the rest of the strawhats/friends that were gonna be in this post but i decided against it
Not all of them were abandoned by individual people like family members and their community, but the government. Specifically Franky and Law.
Vivi was gonna be in there too but i couldnt,,,, really,,,,, fit her in there.
on that hot summer day (1999)