For Real

I didn't think it was possible,

Until I realized he was scared of losing what he didn't even have

For real

Even though it frustrates me, I understand why healthy people try to say that they’re sore too when I mention my chronic pain. They’re trying to empathize. But they can’t. They have no way of knowing what it feels like to be in such pain every day.

You can’t compare a paper cut to a battle wound.

Hey, unpopular opinion, apparently. But people don’t just “have pain for no reason” doctors say this all the time (especially to women and chronically ill people) and the truth is, Thats literally not possible. Even if your pains are psychosomatic (a word I hesitate to even use because of the way its used so often) there is a reason you are having those pains whether its mental illness, abuse, etc. If your doctor consistently tells you that “well some people just have pain for no reason” get a new doctor. That’s a doctor who is not going to give a shit what your actual symptoms or experiences are.

I don't think anyone understands😪

Verses about suffering for Christ. Source.

Birthdays are Golden.

I want one everyday,

But this will reduce its value.

So let everyone around me, contribute a golden day to me

364 friends.

😥😭

Worst feeling ever😦😭😭

Just so you know

If you’re callin’ ‘bout my heart, it’s still yours. -Blake Shelton

Look at me, hold on to me.

We started out as friends

We remained friends for a while

And then something else

Something extra, something happy.

The whispers started then

Knowing looks thrown out way

Disapproving frowns shot from behind books

The strain set in.

You didn't care

You decided that the whole world could wag their tongues

You weren't going to leave your dear friend because of their ideas

You said, "it's not true so what's the use"

I did care

Because, you see, what they said was true

I stopped seeing you as just a friend a while ago.

I'm forced to realize that I felt that magic alone

I told you how I felt

And how I hated feeling that way

And how I wanted to disappear from your life

You assured me that all will be well

And now, when we've grown apart

And I can no longer meet your eyes across the hall

I wish you would hold me, draw me to your side, stop me from slowly and surely disappearing

I wish you would say the words I long to hear

And during the long lonely nights

I have a lot of regrets

I shouldn't have expressed my feelings, I shouldn't have had feelings

I shouldn't have destroyed what relationship was there between us.