By Jhamilbader

𝕙𝕖𝕪! 𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕖𝕪𝕖𝕤, 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕦𝕡. 𝔼𝕟𝕛𝕠𝕪 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕘𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖…

Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love

"The moon is beautiful tonight, isn't it?"

Harrison Wood Hsiang

I'm still learning about addiction and all the different ways it can cripple someone, but from what I've gathered so far, addiction is basically coping tools gone wrong. Someone is dealing with something that feels like too much, so they reach for whatever they can in order to feel less trapped, less afraid, less angry, less overwhelmed, or feel anything at all (among many other things) and they end up trapped in a cycle that they thought they had control over. A lot of the time it can come with intense guilt and shame, especially if the people around them disapprove, because they know it's not good for them and they just can't stop. It's their body, it costs money, they're a person with their own autonomy, they should be able to just walk away from it right? Unfortunately, there's usually way more going on that most people can't see from the outside

the problem with addiction is not that it's pleasurable. it's not "having too much fun" disease. it's not even a requirement for addiction that you have fun at any point in the process at all and to be honest it is incredibly common that no pleasure is gained from substance use. imagining that addiction is about pleasure does two things: 1) demonises feeling good (there is nothing wrong with wanting to be happy/comfortable/etc), and 2) frames addicts as people who Like Having Fun Too Much. it's simply not useful to frame things this way as well as just fundamentally not being true

Saying "get out of my head" when another alter cofronts will continue being the funniest shit ever to happen to DID.