gotta keep my distance from the kitchen
Feeling extremely guilty after eating 10 cream crackers biscuits as my first meal at 5 pm.
Feeling extremely guilty after eating 10 cream crackers biscuits as my first meal at 5 pm.
I’m scared I’m never going to make it. That I’ll never be skinny. That I’ll always hate my body.
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i’m gross // 3.2.2017
Science: the average person burns 1500 - 2000 naturally. if you ate 3000 calories today, you won’t gain even half a pound.
Me: *eats 900 calorie meal* *gains 8kg*
Me:
When I was a teenager I used to feel shy about eating in public, I didn't like to eat in front everyone at school so It was common to me skip meals. I remember that when I travelled with some friends I skipped meals a lot, sometimes I just didn't eat a whole day. Today I look to my pics from that time and a think my body was ok even if it was a little bit weight for my age. I miss that time, it was easier to skip meals, to not eat at all because I was to ashamed about eating. Now it seems everything I try it's not enough, I'm still fat and not losing weight. I'm aware that I'll be alone and unlovable because of it, I'm too fat and ugly for being loved even if it is by my friends or family. My mom clearly hates me because I'm not skinny like my sisters. Every day I get more depressed about my weight and everything it comes with it. I'm trying, I really am, but sometimes I don't know what to do anymore.
Pretending that my constantly headache isn't because I'm eating less than 800 calories a day. If I'm still fat it means it's still too much! I need to do more exercises but sometimes I'm too depressed to get off the bed.
trying to sleep through everything so you can avoid people, and the world in general, but then you wake up and can’t go back to sleep cz your brain can’t stop being depressing.
🌬 to look like this on a tiny dress... a dream 🌬
me doing the mental math of the calories i’m about to eat every single time
I just looked at my fucking thighs and this is what I look like,I’m not exaggerating it’s so fucking bad.
When I’m out with friends and see a glimpse of my body in some display window
I need to finish my paper for college asap, so I can do exercises because I'm a stupid bitch whose ate lunch today. Even tho it was salad I am pissed.
I binged so much right now, I'm so disappointed because it was so fast and didn't even taste the food. I wanna cry but I just can't. I've been trying to fast for three days now but at night I just ate a lot all these days. I'm so disgusting.
I'm here because I hate being fat, always the fat friend that anyone wants. The fat daughter, the fat sister. My mother clearly hates me because I'm a giant pig. I hate this so much I wish I was skinny because the way I look right now is so fucking humiliating and disgusting.