My life is filled with joy and abundance.
The only thing you know of. – Lukas W.
so, what now?
“I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.”
— Uma Thurman
“There was a time this wasn’t toxic. There was a time you were my safe habour in a storm, the lighthouse leading me home. There was a time your arms kept me warm when my body was empty and cold. There was a time that your smile could dig me out of the grave I had dug for myself. Somewhere along the line you became the storm, you were cold and cruel and suddenly you were in the dirt digging with me. I don’t know where this went wrong, maybe there is only so much of my crazy that you could take, maybe you liked the idea of loving a sad girl but the reality never lived up to the expectation. As good as it was when you loved me, the feeling of an empty bed when you left was so gut-wrenching that I wish I never knew what it was to be loved by you.”
— Once upon a time…
it doesn’t get easier. there is no off switch you can use to shut off your emotions, no kill switch to wipe out his existence, and no delete button to remove all the memories. you’ll still feel his arm going down your waist and you’ll still catch yourself thinking about the way his eyes shine when he laughs. you’ll remember the day he told you he loved you and you’ll remember the night he wished he didn’t. and you’ll hold onto every memory, good and bad, because no matter what, you will always love him.
you and me, we were meant to be.