I Haven’t Done This In A Few Years But I Finally Have A Sort Of Price List Together, I’m Just Doing

Still so much to do before this project is even near being finished sadly, here's a preview though. :D

My 2 cents on… cheap commissions…! 

more bad things happening 8D oh what a joy it is, my bank card is missing, I never lose it, just checked to see mail from it, see a negative balance...someone has my card....ALL BECAUSE OF THESE EVENTS....I hate it....why....

I need to maybe say this, please read if possible.

I’ve seen plenty of posts saying “if you like to art you should be happy just sharing it rather than wanting notes, unless you want to get paid for it” or things around those lines.

Well honestly, I love doing art, I enjoy people seeing what I do, I enjoy doing it in general, but even since I thought “if I keep trying I could be an artist and make some sort of living out of it” I’ve always wanted to be paid for what I do, not only because it’s kind of a dream of mine but also because I actually NEED it now, well for a few years I’ve needed it, I can’t work physically, out in the open, etc. I promise you, I am unable to do anything in RL, it made me realize I am really not able to do anything, I have too many limitations, I’ve graduated HS even if I was there a few more years than planned, I’ve never had a job, not even babysitting, the reason why I didn’t graduate on time is because I couldn’t bring myself to go to school most of the time, as well as If the bell rang before I got to a class, I could never go to a class, that’s how bad my anxiety is, how all my problems are, I can’t even speak up to clerks, judges, anything, no matter how bad the situation. I’m always told “well once it gets bad enough you’re gonna have to bring yourself to do it” IT DOESN”T WORK THAT WAY, not for me, I wish it would, it makes me feel even more like a failure knowing I can’t do it. I won’t magically be able to do something just because the circumstances get worse, if anything that would make things harder for me. That’s another reason why I try to believe in what I do when it comes to art, it’s the only thing I’ve been “open” about, the only thing, ONLY thing I’ve ever been confident about, which makes it worse that I know I’m not well known, I’ve never been successful with it, especially not in a memorable way. I’ve had random one shot things that I’ve never been paid for, winning design on an anime store logo, getting into an art gallery, but not much else. I NEVER leave my house, I don’t have any friends, so it would also be good since all my time is dedicated to art, I’d be able to have a full time job doing this. I am always balancing on “my art sucks, not because my skills suck but because what I do isn’t memorable or I don’t pump things out fast enough.” and “I’m good, right? why am I not getting any attention?” I know most people don’t like when people have mindsets like this, well people who are open about it. So, since I, myself do want to get commission work and sell what I do, am I allowed to want attention? Should I actually try to get attention? I try my best not to because of how frail my mind is, anything breaks me, and hey it sucks, I try not to get attention due to being afraid of people me things like stop asking for attention, or people who want to hate on you just to do it, I already have enough at that as it is. I really need it though, I’m homeless now, no money, no place to go, no nothing, I’m scared. Even right now my mind is saying “I’m a failure” over and over again, though I try to think “everything will be okay, you just need to keep trying” but then it switches to “you’re not good enough, nobody likes you, stop trying already you aren’t good enough to be more than you are now.” I hope someone reads this..

It bothers me that other random people think you are a failure for choosing not to go to college. Especially when you yourself KNOW you don't need to go. Especially when tons of teachers have told you privately that "college is for those who need to learn or just to get the 'official' title to something, especially when it comes to being an artist" They told me it was a waste of MY time and money.

I feel so overwhelmed in many different ways right now ;-;  at that I was working on another sculpture but I think I made it way too big, it’s gonna use all my clay and I’m not sure it’s worth it, I mean, it will look good maybe but it’s just all my clay :( I even tried bulking it out as much as I can without it breaking but...idk

I just wanted to post this, I love Veela and Resident Evil so when I seen this my eyes sparkled (like in the way you are weirdly happy tears form.) https://youtu.be/mnm794XbBAs

Is there a site that's like a dating site but for friends? Like compatibility, interests, if they live in a certain distance, area code, etc. I really need some..it's not even a joke.

ether undyne or muffet (tbh i want you to do them all but i know that would take atleast a year without doing anything else ;n;)

Yeah, it takes quite a long time to sculpt but hopefully in time while I'm still inspired by the game I can do 'em. I have a lot of Steven Universe stuff I'm working on still with more I wanna do in general.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The funny thing is the characters that keep popping in my head to sculpt are Undyne, Muffet and Sans, sure there are a ton more but my mind keeps wandering to them more than the rest. 8D~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~if anything I might just invest the time to make these three. c:

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Yeah dont do the titan if your hearts noy in it. It might not turn out so well. But I started su and got to opals ep and thought that’d be a cool one for you to do! :3

I can never tell if he’s joking honestly but eh, if I get inspiration to do that, then I will but for now the only motivation is from that series 8D opal is great, realistically opal is the one mineral I want to buy eventually (or find) I used to have a piece as a kid and lost it, all I have is opalite which isn’t the same :( cause it is like a surface rainbow rather than inclusions. I have the body down, now I just “sketched” out everything else.