So, as some of you may know, I’ve been on here for a very long time. After losing my account of nearly 6 years to a security change, I had to start this one (BloodyDamnit) and build it from the ground up. I worked.. my fucking ass off. And now, it’s gone. A few hours ago, when trying to delete my side blogs, my entire account got deleted instead. Now, I have to do this all over again.
So, please. If you enjoy what I do, if you like my work, I literally beg of you to please get the word out. Reblog this so people know where to find me and why my paintings will link to a page that doesnt exist.
I have created so many fucking friends on this platform and people that I genuinely care about.
Tumblr has also been my livelihood. I am an artist, this is how I make money and now, I am terrified of what losing my other account can mean.
Please, Please, Please help.
Thank you so much in advance. Thank you for giving me a space, a platform, a fucking family over these years. I would be forever grateful.
This fandom needs more love for Nicky, cuz we all know he’d have more for us
I want to put focus on how significant parents are in the Hunger Games franchise, most especially on the role a parent has in shaping their child’s psyche and I want to do this by using Katniss, Peeta and Snow as reference.
In the books and the movies, parents are more or less background characters. We truly only see glimpses of them. Both of Peeta’s parents are alive yet we rarely see them featured prominently in the books/movies. Both of Snow’s parents are dead and we only get to hear of them in passing and while Mrs. Everdeen is alive, she’s often relegated to the background because of how dismissive Katniss is towards her mother.
Yet these characters and the very essence of their beings are shaped by their parents.
Beginning with Katniss, we saw how deeply her father’s death wounded her. He was their provider, the sole person responsible for bringing food onto their table. We know how deeply he was loved by his children and his wife and how beloved he was by the other citizens of 12 by Katniss’ stories. Mr. Everdeen was a well known figure in the Hobb and Katniss firmly believed that it was because of him that people took pity on her and allowed her to bargain with them. It was his death that served as a catalyst to Katniss’ journey to becoming a Victor. Without his death, without Katniss being forced to hunt to serve her family, she wouldn’t have made it out of the arena. To Katniss, her father was the hero deserving of being placed on a pedestal and it was his values and actions that she tried desperately to emulate to protect her family.
On the other hand, Katniss scorned her mother. She hated Mrs. Everdeen’s inaction when she spiraled into a deep depression after her husband died. And though it wasn’t Mrs. Everdeen’s fault, I can’t blame Katniss for feeling this way about her mother. She and her sister were near the brink of death by starvation on the day she met Peeta. Even when Mr. Everdeen was alive, Katniss was partial to her father because he stoked the rebellion in Katniss’ heart while it was her mother who tried to stop it. Katniss perceived her mother’s depression as a weakness and even after she got better, Katniss was determined to keep her at arms length. The love she felt for her mother may have been unconditional but she constantly put her mother under the test. Waiting to see if she would disappoint her, fail her by abandoning her once again. And when Prim died and Mrs. Everdeen left for District 4, Katniss’s unconscious bias against her mother was once again reaffirmed.
It’s why Katniss struggles to form a good bond with motherly characters like Effie but maintains relatively good relationships with fatherly figures like Haymitch and Cinna. Katniss openly admits that of the two people who guided them throughout the Hunger Games, it was Haymitch she was most alike. They grew up at the Seam, and shared similar features and she was adamant that should she have been forced into becoming a mentor like Haymitch was, she was looking at what her future would have looked like. Drunk and continuously intoxicated like Haymitch was.
On the other hand, we have Peeta.
Peeta was routinely abused by his mother. While we don’t know the full extent of what it was he had to endure, we know that it wasn’t a pleasant experience. Peeta’s mother took pride in the knowledge that District 12 would finally have another Victor, and she wasn’t referring to Peeta. We saw him take a beating to feed Katniss and whatever relationship Peeta had with his father was practically nonexistent. It was his mother that served to be the looming presence in his life the same way Katniss’ father haunted her. It’s why I believe Peeta got along so well with Effie and why Effie likely preferred Peeta over Katniss. Aside from the fact that Peeta was so much more civil to Effie than Katniss was to Effie, Peeta always deferred to Effie. He and Effie are similar in the same way Katniss and Haymitch are similar.
Peeta was characterized to be of the merchant class, the “upper” class of District 12. As a given, Effie is from the Capitol, the upper crust of Panem. It was Effie who provided Katniss and Peeta with the script necessary to ensure their survival after the 74th Games and in return, Effie knew how effectively a person’s image and reputation could mean life and death in the arena and in this, Peeta is in agreement. While Katniss may have used a bow as a weapon, Peeta used his words. He always knew the right things to say and do to get people to side with him, so much so that he managed to convince the careers of the 74th Games, his biggest enemies in the arena, to ally with him. Had anyone else been in his situation, they would have been killed. Peeta craved Effie’s maternalism the same way Katniss craved Haymitch’s paternalism because these were the things they lacked growing up.
And then there’s Coriolanus, who lost both his parents and it is both of these parents who haunt him. His mother, described to be beautiful and kind, was represented by the powder compact he kept with him constantly. His father, harsh and cruel, represented by the handkerchief that Snow kept with him.
In TBOSAS, Snow has two mentors himself.
Dean Highbottom and Dr. Gaul.
It’s not lost on me that in them, the characterization of the two are reversed from Snow’s parents. Highbottom, like Snow’s father is stern and harsh. He is Snow’s biggest critic and while I doubt Mr. Snow would go so far as to hate his own child, he would not have been kind to Coriolanus had he lived past the war. Yet Highbottom and Mr. Snow’s similarities end there. Because of Highbottom’s remorse and the kindness that he showed Lucy Gray after she won the Games, he takes after Snow’s mother in that regard. He is compassionate and filled with horror at the abomination he created.
On the other hand, Gaul treats Snow with a gentleness that Highbottom never had for him. Though Snow finds Gaul creepy, it is Gaul that takes him under his wing. It is Gaul who stitches up his wounds after he is attacked in the arena and retrieves Sejanus and Gaul who praises him for his ingenuity at suggesting the sponsoring system. Gaul genuinely likes Snow and begins grooming him to become her replacement in the event that she dies. But while Gaul may have been a woman with the capacity for gentleness, she is a terrible human being who threw children into the arena to fight for their survival. She is the same woman who hung a child for running away from the games and paraded the corpses of children on the streets of the Capitol. She is pure evil. She is exactly like Snow’s father.
It isn’t loss on me that Snow, who has an abundance of maternal figures in his grandmother and Tigris, chooses to take after Gaul, who is externally like his mother but internally like his father, rather than Highbottom, who is the opposite.
At every instance Snow had to do good, to choose to do the right thing and be like his mother, he intentionally continued to do the evil thing for the sake of his selfishness and be like his father.
“You look just like your father, Coriolanus.” Were the words Tigris used to describe him at the end of the movie because that is precisely who he chose to become.
And as Snow poisons Highbottom and becomes a gamemaker under Gaul’s tutelage, he kills whatever remnant of his mother he had left in him, fully embodying his cruel father’s ideals.
nicky has super soft skin pass it on
If I ever get a chance in an AU fic to have Nicky work at Lush I’m gonna, you know that boy EXFOLIATES and MOISTURIZES!!!The upperclassmen and drunk Kevin have multiple times been like “ooooo soft” and patted Nicky’s face or arms in wonder. Nicky, who craves attention and physical contact, is Lovin It
"comes back wrong", what a hot trope. incredibly sexy.
kevin day needs a LISCENCE for those big beautiful green eyes. he turns those things on and NO ONE is safe. 🥺 jean will you teach me french 🥺 riko can we major in history 🥺 coach can we recruit this random player from arizona 🥺 andrew will you drive me to the court every night 🥺 neil will u give me your game 🥺 jeremy can my very controversial friend be on your team 🥺
like girl put those AWAY they are DEADLY
Nicholas Esteban Hemmick is dyslexic.
i like this so much ohhhhh my god oh my GOD oh my godgod considering who he is and where he’s from he probably didn’t get diagnosed or helped at all and just, imagine him going to palmetto and he doesn’t talk about it to Bee (therapy is difficult for him) but maybe Dan or Matt mentions something about it when Nicky complains about being bad at reading and Nicky’s like….o h. Oh I’m okay?I’m okay,
"I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere." for Pynch please?
Wrote this mostly on my lunch break and tried REAL hard to keep it a reasonable length. Hope you like it!!
(Want me to write a thing? Send me a prompt! I’m really enjoying this as writing practice.)
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Did you really think he’d stay with you?
The world was black.
No one can be trusted, Ronan.
A time lapse of lightning flickered on the horizon. Thunder shook his bones.
I thought I taught you better.
In the erratic lightshow, Niall appeared.
He’s not made for you.
Words fell from his broken skull like brain matter and bone.
You are temporary.
He grew, face crumbling as his body soared upward. Looming above Ronan.
He’ll find someone kinder once he leaves this place.
Niall’s skin began to peel away.
Someone stronger.
Feathers black as pitch, shining with blood.
Someone better.
Echoing wails and screams. A sheet of rain closing in. Ronan felt a tear roll down his cheek.
A hand on his shoulder. Nails made brittle by decay, tightening against his skin.
My darling. Aurora whispered. You always knew it would come to this. You knew you were never good enough for that magical boy.
Her body hung in strips. A smile with nothing more than a few teeth.
You always knew.
Always.
The storm hit.
“Lynch,” said a voice. Distant. Not of this world.
Ronan was drowning in mud. Aurora melted into the sludge. Niall flickered out of existence.
“Lynch,” it called again.
Trying to drag himself out. He was sinking. Drowning. Can’t see. Can’t breath. Can’t think.
“Ronan,” it demanded. “Wake up.”
He obeyed.
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no but seriously, has anyone ever got over the raven cycle?
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