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Angela&Elliot + dividing lines

There will always be this divide, my wall she can’t look over. 

im amab and i want to be a girl. i know that for sure, but i'm worried that it's for the wrong reasons? like that i'm not actually trans. the reason i'm worried is because i find women much more aesthetically pleasing than men (not sexually though, i'm ace). basically i'm scared that i want to become a woman because i feel like i can't be attractive as a man. i haven't really heard about other people having feelings like this so i'm pretty confused. and i can't come out until i'm sure i'm valid.

Harper says:Hey there!I’ll start off by saying I can’t make up your mind for you, whether or not you’re trans will always be your decision you’ll make in your own time.That being said I’d look at your first sentence again. “I want to be a girl.” That seems first and foremost pretty clear cut to me! It took me a while to realise that wanting to be a girl was a pretty major part of actually being a girl and being trans, no matter what other qualifications or doubts come after that. Wanting to be a girl is a pretty good reason to be one! That feeling could come under the lens of social dysphoria. It’s certainly something I felt - and still feel. A large part of my frustration with being a “”“man”““ was that I had to wear awful boring clothes, and I still feel every day that I’m just way more attractive as a woman! I have way more fun and freedom in my presentation this way and it just feels good to be a girl to be honest!There’s a million reasons for wanting to be a girl, and a lot of what you’ve said has or still does resonate with me.

I'm an AMAB Trans girl and I'm wondering how to avoid voice dysphoria when I begin practicing? My voice (when I was in choir) was low in the base section if it helps.

Harper says:Hey there!First, I’ll signpost you to our dysphoria tips page, for general dealing with dysphoria tips, and our transfem voice page, and (a bit of a long shot here) a search I did about voice dysphoria on our blog.At first, it’ll be strange and you’ll probably sound a bit funny at the top of your range, so it’ll take you some time to get your footing, (I’m a casual learner and I’m still not really there). I think that’s probably the main thing you should keep in mind - either in terms of dealing with voice dysphoria, or in terms of just trying to embrace that shakiness and sometimes silliness as a bit of fun with it.With this in mind, if you haven’t started practicing raising the tone of your voice and you’re worried that it might induce dysphoria - give it a go first, it might not be as bad as you think!Also don’t forget about the other part of vocal training: intonation - learning the traditionally “feminine” inflections etc., of speech. This can be the best way of actually sounding “feminine” no matter how high or low your voice is. There are plenty of trans women and cis women with lovely deep voices (the model Dara hasn’t made any effort to heighten her voice and its lovely and deep and feminine) that sound womanly / feminine / all that jazz. (There’s a very popular post I think about a lot that comes to mind, deep voices in girls can be very well loved by some people!)Try to keep in mind that there’s no “correct” level, or “correct” voice to strive for. The voice you have right now is a woman’s voice! And also try to keep in mind that the more you practice, the easier things will become, it’s all about growing.Finally, I’d recommend representation. Listening to trans women talk is one of my great comforts in life. I don’t have a wide variety of sources but I’ll link here a brief list of the people I listen to/know about. If any other followers or mods have any other ideas that’d be grand!Shon Faye - Shon this Way (YouTube link)Paris Lees - Interview with James O’Brien (YT link)Merritt Kopas - Woodland Secrets (Podcast)Morgan M. Page - One from the Vaults (trans history podcast)Laura Jane Grace - from the band Against Me! (YT interview and song)

We’ll always be a part of Elliot Alderson. And we’ll be the best part, because we’re the part that always showed up. We’re the part that stayed. We’re the part that changed him. 

And who wouldn’t be proud of that?

Are you my monster?

I’m doing this for me.

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Transfeminine resources:

Presentation:

Tucking

Chest area

Voice

Broad shoulders tips

Body hair removal

Feminine walk

Curves

Waist training

Hair

Clothing

Makeup

Passing

Medical transitioning:

Not medically transitioning

Estrogen & anti-androgens/testosterone blockers FAQ

The types of surgery available

Surgery: A guide for transfeminine people

Facial Feminization Options

Breast Augmentation

Genital surgery

Other:

Representation

Transfeminine period dysphoria

Yes, Transfeminine People Can Get Period Symptoms

Slipping into masculinity

Women’s restroom etiquette

Transfeminine people can breastfeed

Having sex or masturbating

Transmasculine resources:

Presentation:

Binding FAQ

Clothing

Fake beard & masculine makeup

Getting short hair / Masculine long hair

If you can’t start T

Lowering your voice

Packing and standing to pee

Passing as male

Shaving

Swimming

Medical transitioning:

Not medically transitioning

Puberty blockers

Testosterone FAQ

Top surgery

Hysterectomy and oophorectomy

Lower/bottom surgery (meta and phallo)

Other:

Periods and related things

Help! I need to see a gyno

Pumping

Masturbation and sex

Using the men’s bathroom

Hudson’s FTM Guide

More resources:

What am I? (gender questioning)

Info on choosing a name

Coming out page

Dysphoria info and tips page

Mental health coping page

School page

Non-binary resources

Resources to send allies/friends

A page to send to parents/guardians

Convincing someone to respect name/pronouns 

Here is how to get hormones in the US

Here is how to get hormones in the UK

Here’s a US resource with info on changing legally changing your name and gender marker 

Here is a UK resource with info on changing legally changing your name and gender marker

How to buy a trans-related item online without parents knowing

Choosing a swimsuit info here

Info on sleeping and dysphoria

Traveling by plane

Does transitioning help mental health?

Trans identity isn’t a mental disorder

Being religious and LGBT