Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

The truth is that you are not with me anymore. I do believe that you are my soul mate. You were sent to do a job and accomplished it in the end to bring self confidence and happiness in my life. Thanks to you I now know what both of those emotions feel like together. You are so special to me, and I know that I will love you forever. But lately I haven’t been able to sleep because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore because I know that what we had was real. And one day in the future, when both of us are spiritually ready, my eyes will meet yours again. I refuse to believe that the one person who was every hope i’ve ever had in human form, is gone for good.

- I talk to God about you

I really miss having you around. Waking up was bliss and falling asleep was heaven. Either way, you were there.

What do I do?

2am thoughts

The first person you think in the Morning, or last person you think of at night,

Is either the cause of your happiness or your pain

Sometimes both

I think it really sucks when you realise how alone you are because you only really talk to 1 maybe 2 people and when neither of them are available you kind of just lay there in bed hoping your phone will buzz with a text from them or something so you continuously check it and you try to distract yourself and then you get sad about how alone you really are

I needed a hug. I needed to cry on someone else’s lap. I needed someone to shrug off all this hate and pain consuming me. But I only had myself. And I was never enough.

“You know someone is important to your soul when you’re willing to break a thousand times over just to have them in your life,”

19:00 - The pain is sometimes addictive (moondustanddreams)

“It’s a fitting punishment for a monster. To want something so much—to hold it in your arms—and know beyond a doubt you will never deserve it.”

— Renee Ahdieh, The Wrath and the Dawn

She's the type of person who doesn't speak about her problems, secretly cries and pretends like her life isn't falling apart. She is me.

fun facts about me:

i’m an idiot

i have a terrible memory

i’ll forget 1 and continue to do stupid things