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it’s over, isn’t it?

i always knew how it would end

from the beginning i feared this moment

yet, i didn’t think it’d come so soon. 

now my eyes are black, full of hate

but that hate is for me, not you.

i still love you

i may always love you

there is no world

where what i put you through

is ok

i would never lie to you 

ever but the truth is painful sometimes

even when the last thing we want

is to hurt the people we love the most.

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Excerpts of a book I’ll never write

athena. your mind and your tongue  are the greatest weapons you’ll ever need

artemis.  you were born with silver in your veins so take aim and don’t hold back

persephone. living in hell doesn’t make you any less of an angel 

hera. marriage is meant to be  a lifelong relationship  and the most important marriage  will be with yourself 

demeter. take lessons from the harvest;  even the smallest of seeds can flourish  into beautiful trees 

aphrodite. your body is your armor  your shield  and your greatest weapon use it well

rhea. like the tides out to sea  you may crash  before you can  flow with ease

hesita. sometimes  you have to look beyond your four walls to find your way home

messages from the greek goddesses | part i (cc, 2018)

“There are really no words, no eloquent way of saying: you’ve made me feel things I thought I’d never feel. I’m starting to think this is true love.”

—E. R.

Meet The Moon Signs Part 2

{Part 1}

Libra Moon

Derives cynicism based on lack of optimism

Most likely born into a family with strong opinions and judgment

Is a true poetic and romantic

Sometimes they fear emotional expression

There’s never an opportunity missed where their opinion wasn’t viewed

Has a great sense of defensiveness (based on past lives)

Other’s are naturally drawn to those people with Moon in Libra just by how in-touch they are with fairness and the artistry of the heart

Has a hard time finding themselves when in a rut

Will find the beauty in everyone

Will daydream a lot

Scorpio Moon

Might have grown up with a bad relationship with their parents

Is the most secretive person you’ll ever meet

Deep need for a soulmate

Experiences deep emotions (based on past life experiences)

Has a tendency to suppress their anger (also past life experiences)

May have experienced isolation as a child

Is meticulous

People are naturally drawn by the mystery of their presence

Sagittarius Moon

Sometimes lacks control

Naturally empathetic

Has a fear of commitment

Always a need to expand

Makes the best out of every situation

Has a spirtual connection to nature

May speak for others based on their bluntness

Fears the cage of expectations

Capricorn Moon

Can be super moody

Got along with their father growing up

They may have grown up in a home with lack of fun or grew up parenting themselves

They compete with themselves

They’re good at controlling their emotions

They hold many emotions to themselves which can lead to illnesses (based on past lives)

Can hide their emotions through sarcasm

Must have control in any situation (based on past lives)

Are very knowledgeable

Aquarius Moon

Most likely to be popular

Will always question you

Will think they know almost everything about you

Will build up emotions

Always feeling like they need approval from others

Emotional stability is dependent (based on past lives)

Has stubborn opinions

Gets abstracted from their own emotions

May have a large family

Oversees emotional needs from self and others

Good with a circle of people

Has a talent for diversity and leadership

Always sees the bigger picture

Most likely the only extrovert to recharge themselves alone

Pisces Moon

You’ll never get anything personal out of them

The best healers

Can be very religious

Can be pretentious

Most likely has had a hard time with food or nutrition (based on past lives)

Has a hard time understanding their own emotions

Every little thing effects their mood

They intuitively feel other people’s pain

Good at reading emotions

Has a great charm

Is most likely psychic

Good at reading people’s energies

Great at perception

Has a great imagination but harsh perfection of idealism

“I’ll never cry in front of you. I’ll never tell you how I feel. I’ll never wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m not an open book. My walls will always be up and guarded. I won’t tell you how I fight with myself about you, about how I shouldn’t want you, about how you’ll break my heart if I give mine to you. I won’t tell you how my heart constricts at the thought of you leaving me. I’ll never show you how scared I am of this… Of you… Of us. You’re real. You’re everything I want, and nothing is certain. Everything is blurred and we walk on this thin line between reality and fantasy. You’re a dream and a nightmare. I find peace in you when everything else is chaos. I don’t know what this is and that uncertainty scares me but maybe just maybe if I stay around, you will too.”

— 2:31 AM thoughts

2am thoughts

The first person you think in the Morning, or last person you think of at night,

Is either the cause of your happiness or your pain

Sometimes both

“I only want two things in this world. I want you and I want us.”

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