Stuck In This Loop Of Wanting To Get Better And Wanting To Get As Bad As Possible

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James has "I ❤️ regulus black" merch

regulus has "I HATE James potter" merch

they're married

james, on facetime w the boys: and this is the shrine i've made-dedicated to my husband. my husband that's been missing for months now. god, i miss him so much.

remus, w sirius in the frame looking concerned: is this why you called us...?

james: and this is where i sit and hope for his quick return to me. i still catch the smell of his cologne, like a ghost that haunts my now lonely home.

peter: ... james, do you need us to call someone??

james: and here is where i sit and weep, mourning every passing day without him. when will he return! i miss him too much!

regulus, coming back home from walking the dog: what the hell are you doing.

🎨: siryusart on x

bro your whimsy. you forgot your fucking whimsy. your solemn and somber attitude is scaring the hoes

people who don't experience hyperfixation don't know what it feels like to hyperfixate so much on something that it becomes not only your subject of obsession but also your source of happiness and literally the main reason why you still keep going; literal source of strength and life.

shoutout to my favorite fictional characters, favorite people, favorite ships, favorite movies, favorite tv shows, fanfics and archive of our own

Remus: Caffeine no longer gives me the rush I need to finish work, so instead, I have Sirius periodically message me "we need to talk" to give me the right amount of fear and adrenaline to keep me going.

Sirius: I think Mum mixed up our lunches.

Sirius: *holds up note saying “I love you so much”*

Regulus: Oh. That explains this, then.

Regulus: *holds up note saying “Be good. Please, for the love of God, be good”*

Romeo, Benvolio, and Mercutio low key remind me of Regulus, Evan, and Barty

I'm literally dying inside

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regulus, who doesn’t like to admit it, but loves pomegranate. it’s his favourite fruit, and he would die for it.

james, who has been following regulus’ name on the map for a few nights now, tracing the footsteps with his finger as he watches the younger boy.

regulus, who makes his way to the astronomy tower, same time tonight as always.

james, who decides to follow.

regulus, who doesn't notice james under his cloak, and instead pulls a pomegranate and a small bowl out from underneath his cloak.

james, who watches regulus carefully and painstakingly spend quarter of an hour pulling out all the seeds and putting them in a bowl, before eating them.

regulus and james, who (unbeknownst to regulus) follow the same routine for the next few nights.

regulus, who goes as usual to the tower, only to be met by a bowl of fresh pomegranate seeds, and looks around, but can’t see anyone.

james, who stays hidden under the cloak, hands stained red, as he watches regulus smile gently and sit down next to the bowl.

regulus, who begins to eat, and can’t help but notice the faint smell of james’ shampoo.