Lalectoracaimitena - La Lectora Caimiteña

Lost my job and I can't help feel a tiny bit of joy.

Like, yes, I'm worried about what the future will bring and the challenges that will come with that.

But... Guys... I suddenly have time to be a person. Of course, I'll be filling out applications and walking to stores to check and apply to job openings.

But that also means, that I have time to read, watch a movie or show, go to the beach or river, take long walks in the park with my dog, etc., ect., ect.

I've been working like a crazy person for 11 years. Barley taking vacations or being able to live experiences that I want. I dragged my ass to work while being so sick that I was barely breathing. So depressed that I had to seek help because I was unsafe for myself and others.

This moment, this situation that has me in tears, suddenly feels like the most liberating thing I've ever experienced.

I should be scared. I should be horribly terrified. But I just feel... Relief. I can breathe. I... I feel like I can start over.

Maybe these feelings will change quickly. They might turn into terror at the end of the month. But... I want to sit with this for a bit. I want to dream of a life in which I'm not struggling to exist...

Is this what I needed to redirect my life again... This time for the better?

Water goblin

it's actually okay to not read for a while. it's okay to only read one or two books a month. it's okay to not have a yearly reading goal. it's okay to read books that aren't all over the internet. it's okay to get books from the library or kindle and not buy a copy after.

books made of magic, fairytales, poems and love

𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔩𝔢 𝔟𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔪, 𝔞𝔩𝔴𝔞𝔶𝔰 𝔟𝔢𝔱𝔴𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔥𝔢𝔩𝔳𝔢𝔰

Me trying to seduce you: Hey wanna see my book collection? 📚

“If we wait until we are ready we will be waiting for the rest of our lives.”

— Lemony Snicket

This is exactly why I'm pushing myself to read as much as I can this year. It's giving me an outlet where I can be active and still rest. Keeping up an activity that brings me constant joy has been terribly difficult but reading has helped get out of that lazy/ mopey feeling. I truly hope that others can find a hobby that will bring them joy the way reading has done for me.

I been so depressed not even in the terribly sad and emotional sense but more in the lazy and mopey sense where nothing is fun or interesting and I am so tired I can't force myself to do anything :-|